Translator â Xiao He Lian
Chapter 82.1
Regardless of whether Shi Yeâs words were sincere, Wen Chi didnât want to listen to a single word.
His ears were full of buzzing noises, a chaotic mess, making him irritable.
Wen Chi didnât know how long it took for the buzzing sounds to disappear and be replaced by silence â¦â¦
Deathly silence.
Wen Chi heard his own numb voice: âWhy?â
Shi Ye lowered his eyelids and looked at him quietly. Those beautiful phoenix eyes were calm and unable to capture any emotions. He just looked at Wen Chi for a long time before letting go of the hand that was blocking Wen Chi: âThere is still a long road ahead, I am afraid there will be more danger, so Bengong cannot have a child yet.â
ââ¦â Wen Chi hand holding the concoction trembled a little, his eyes filled with unconcealable surprise when he looked at Shi Ye, âWhat do you mean by that?â
Shi Ye said: âAs you can see, there are many people who want to take Bengongâs life.â
Wen Chi couldnât accept this reason for a while, even the words he said trembled violently: âBut no one can hurt you, can they?â
Shi Ye shook his head lightly.
Wen Chiâs eyes were wide open, his chest was heaving, even though he tried so hard to calm himself down, he tried many times but he still failed â he couldnât force himself to calm down at all.
Nor could he pretend to be calm.
Even if he is a salted fish and an idiot, it is impossible for him to completely ignore this matter.
He stared at Shi Yeâs face for a long moment, then suddenly pulled the corners of his mouth into a self-deprecating smile: âItâs just a bowl of medicine, so whatever Your Highness says is what it is.â
After saying this, Wen Chi prepared to drink the concoction.
However, Shi Ye raised his hand again to stop him.
Wen Chi held his breath, raised his eyes to look at Shi Ye with red eyes.
Shi Ye was stunned by his gaze, hesitated for a moment and then said, âBengong took measures last night, and didnât stay inside. Itâs just that the concoction will hurt your body.â
Although he said so, it was his first time doing this kind of thing after all, he was not familiar with all the procedures and he had to figure out everything by himself. In order to avoid mistakes, he personally brought this bowl of contraception.
But at this moment, he met Wen Chiâs gazeâ¦
Undeniably, he regretted it a bit.
Maybe he should have followed heavenâs will.
In the past, he never thought of having a child, until not long ago when Wen Chi lied to him that he was pregnant, he called Hua Zi Zang to expose Wen Chiâs lie. Even though he knew that Wen Chi had lied, he could not deny that a glimmer of hope had arisen in his heart.
He hoped that Wen Chi hadnât lied.
He wanted Hua Zi Zang to say that Wen Chi was indeed pregnant.
However, he hid these small thoughts very well and did not give them a chance to take root.
Because he understoodâ he was not someone who should have been born to this world, he should not have grown up, he should not have returned to the palace, let alone have offspring of his own and perhaps his children were destined to follow in his footsteps â¦â¦
If it werenât for Wen Chiâs appearance, he would have lived all these years alone and died at the hands of that person.
It was also because of Wen Chiâs existence that he got the desire to live and he got the urge to ââ fight that person.
If heaven wants him to have a child, even if the child is born with defects, he will gladly accept it.
Shi Yeâs thoughts were spinning a thousand times and there were two forces competing with each other.
In the end, emotion prevailed over reason.
Shi Ye took a deep breath and was about to say something but Wen Chi slapped away his hand, then tilted his head and poured the entire bowl of contraceptives into his mouth.
Wen Chi turned the small bowl down and said: âItâs empty.â
Shi Ye didnât speak, his blank eyes stayed on the brown liquid on the corner of Wen Chiâs mouth, he couldnât help raising his hand, thinking of wiping away the stain.
Unexpectedly, Wen Chi sensed his intention and quickly backed away. Wen Chi roughly wiped the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand and put the small white porcelain bowl on the table with a bang.
âI want to rest.â Wen Chi turned his head away, avoiding Shi Yeâs sight, the meaning of rejection was obvious, âYou should go now.â
Shi Ye said: âIâ¦â
Wen Chi interrupted him: âLeave.â
Shi Ye picked up the small bowl that had been drunk cleanly. He looked at the small bowl in a daze and it took him a long time to find his voice: âIâm sorry.â
After saying that, he turned around and left.
Wen Chi just stood there, watching numbly as Shi Ye walked out of the room and closed the door behind him.
There was a light click.
Like a rope pulling Wen Chiâs thoughts back, the tears that had been swirling in his eyes could no longer contain them, rolling out one after another.
He thought that Shi Ye wanted a child, thought that Shi Ye liked children, thought that Shi Yeâs eagerness to call for Hua Zi Zang and the âHeaven rewards hard workâ written by Shi Ye all represented his expectation for the arrival of a child.
But looking back now, he realizesâmaybe Shi Ye is not looking forward to the childâs arrival but fearing the childâs arrival.
The so-called âHeaven rewards hard workâ is just a joke.
Wen Chi slowly sat down on the chair, as if he couldnât even feel the pain in his buttocks. He glanced at the place where he had put the small bowl, where a few drops of soup had splashed on it, turning it into dark water marks.
He looked at the water marks.
He watched it for a long time.
Then he raised his hand to wipe the tears off his face.
âForget it.â Wen Chi said to himself, âThereâs no need.â
With his current situation, maybe the child will suffer with him even if he was born.
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