NUNU
"So are you down to start this whole co-parenting thing?" I asked Pop as I pulled away from him.
"Can I be honest?" He asked me making me raise my eyebrows already kinda having an idea of what he's probably going to say.
"Of course" I shrugged.
"I really want a relationship and you know that. I want to be with you let's just get together and runaway somewhere and get married" He said making me shake my head.
"Pop..thats a lot and I'm still scared I mean yes I do love you but I don't know this relationship has been very traumatizing for me and I just don't want to go through that again" I admitted.
"But who said it was gonna be an "again" I'm gonna change and we going to counseling so your trauma can be handled right" He said.
"Pop even if wanted to I can't I'm with John and we both need to accept that" I said.
"What he doesn't know won't hurt him we've been sneaky before I don't see why it's a problem now" He said laying back on my bed.
"That was different we were over the phone now that were face to face it's different and now I understand what I was doing was not fair to John and plus you told me that you was done with me so what's left there for me to do?" I asked.
"Ok fine i'll give you that but most of the stuff I said was out of anger I ain't really meant that shit fully" He expressed.
"Bashar you are confusing as hell you be mean and you curse me and make me cry then you want to give me a love story on how you're gonna die if I don't be with you" I said rolling my eyes.
"Whatever half of the time I'm just talking the way I usually talk then you get buthurt and wanna cry all the time you need to stop being so sensitive" He said grabbing a backwood.
"For someone that is so sensitive I hold ALOT of emotions in but I guess I'm a little crybaby when break and let all my emotions out huh?" I said with my hand on my hip.
"Exactly" He said grabbing a little baggie of weed out his pocket.
"Hey stop, you not about to smoke here do that stuff outside this is my parent's house and me and yo daughter sleeps here you know I hate the smell of that stuff" I said.
"You're annoying yo, still love you though" he said.
"Yeah yeah" I said sitting beside him "so I know you might get pissed off by me saying this but how was jail like did you make friends?" I said and as I suspected he mugged me.
"You think jail is some type of playground yo?" He asked crossing his arms.
"No of course not I just wanted to see if you would want to talk about your experience" I asked.
"I've seen people get stabbed, beat and killed so yes my experience was wonderful" He said in a sarcastic tone.
"I'm sorry I didn't meant to strike a-"
"Shut up and tell me how my kid been doing aight don't bring that shit up again you heard?" He said giving me a stern look before nudging my shoulder for me to talk after I got quiet.
"Um..well M she..hasnt been on her best..behavior" I said.
"What you mean she acting out or sum" Pop said with an eyebrow raised.
"Yeah first she got suspended from daycare for chasing kids around with scissors and she called her teacher a name" I said.
"Why she acting out already and she hasn't been in that daycare for a month I'm not gonna pay for no damn daycare every week for somebody who wants to act out all day" Pop said getting frustrated.
His temper is off the walls.
"She's been writing on the walls throwing fits climbing the furniture she's been cursing too...she called me a bitch today" I continued with my head down already knowing the heat I'm about to get from him.
"The fuck...let me ask you something? in the mist of her doing all this stuff what have you been doing to discipline her? are you even disciplining her don't lie to me D" He said.
"Well at first I haven't been disciplining her I just kinda.. I don't know let her throw her fits then with me doing it got worse that I started putting her in timeout" I said.
"Timeout? Yo is you deadass! She ain't gone learn with no damn timeout you need to whoop her ass and all this acting out she's been doing and you still gave her this big ass birthday party if I would've known that shit none of this would've happen none of it!" Pop snapped.
"Bashar she is one!"
"This shit starts at an early age though trust me yo you don't discipline her now this shit is gonna get worse and worse and one point you ain't even gone be able to discipline her because she so used to you letting her do shit so you better fix it now cause you know if you not gone do something I'm damn well gonna do it" He said.
"Bashar you know I don't like putting my hands on kids whether it's for discipline or not I just can't bring myself to it" I said.
"Well you better do something because all you have to do is call me and I'm on my way to put her in check" He said.
"Ok fine i'll do something we need to go downstairs and cut the cake and open presents before it's too late" I said getting up and going downstairs.
We made it outside and Ari and Dasani instantly ran up to me mugging Pop as he shortly after gave them the middle finger.
"Please don't tell me you was being a dummy and had sex with him" Ari begged.
"What hell no we just had a long awaited talk" I said.
"You sure y'all just talked" Dasani said.
"Yes the only intimate thing we did was give each other a hug that's it nothing more nothing less" I said holding my hands up.
"Ok fine well take your word but I'm keeping an eye out for both of y'all" Dasani said.
"Whatever come on and let's just cut the cake" I said calling over all the kids to come on.
"MY birthday" Malaysia said pushing Aviana out the way.
"Malaysia..you better chill out" Pop said giving her a serious look letting her know that he wasn't playing with her before I could even get a word out.
And of course she listened.
"You guys ready to sing happy birthday!?" I yelled making all the kids scream and holler.
"Ok 1..2..3 Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to Asia! Happy Birthday to you!" We all clapped and cheered as Pop and the woo's all woo'd together making me roll my eyes.
Can't never have a civil celebration.
"Wooo" Malysia repeated making Pop and his friends hype her up.
"Ok y'all cut it out, cut the first piece for my baby Shar" I said handing him the knife.
"Maybe me and you should both do it together" Pop suggested making me grow confused.
"No you do it Pop you're back from jail and Malaysia has been missing you" I said.
"Well if you say so I just wanted to practice for our wedding day you feel me" He said cutting the cake making everybody laugh as I just stood there and looked at John.
Is this nigga serious did our conversation that we had just flew out the window?
"I'm standing right here bro that's disrespectful as hell" John said.
"Ion see what's so disrespectful about it I'm telling the truth" Pop shrugged handing out the last pieces of cake.
"I've treated your daughter as if she was my own the least you can do is show me a little bit of respect" John snapped.
Shar put the knife down firmly on the table everybody had dispersed into their own business so it wasn't a scene or anything.
"Look nigga I'm not gonna sit in yo face with a smile knowing that I don't fuck with you imma grown ass man so imma let that be known yo, I ain't ask you to do SHIT for my daughter so you cut all that shit out now ion owe you a dime" He said grabbing Malaysia cake and picking her up with one arm and walked away to where the other kids were.
"John I'm so sorry don't listen to him just know that I appreciate every single thing that you did for me and M I've told him about a thousand times what we are he just hasn't gotten the chance to accept that I'm sorry" I said.
"Youn got to apologize you ain't do nothing wrong forget his punk ass" He said waving him off.
After the cake Malaysia came up to me looking a hot ass mess.
"Mommy look cake monster!" She said trying to touch me with her messy fingers.
"Malaysia No please I don't want you to make more of a mess. How many pieces did you have and who gave them to you?" I asked.
"Dada" She said licking her hand.
I looked up at pop from a distance to see him scratching the back of his neck I told him not to give her too many pieces after the second one cause she's gonna be all over the place.
But that's fine by me because he's taking her with him tonight.
"Aww this is so pretty" I said holding up a dress and showing Malaysia who could honestly care less because she was too busy trying to open her other toys.
"Say thank you to Ari M" I said to her.
"NO" she said making me smack my teeth.
"Thank you Ari i'll make sure you get pictures of her wearing this" I said
"Aight I think I got a good gift" John said pushing a big box wrapped up in wrapping paper.
"I didn't see this one John" I said.
"This is a surprise for her and I know yo eager ass would try to be nosey and open it so I hid it in my car for while" He said making everybody laugh.
And of course Pop rolled his eyes.
Ever since we started opening presents John and Pop been having this dumb competition on who can give M the best present and if Pop wins he can have me back and if John wins He can keep me.
Which of course I didn't agree with that so I stopped that real fast.
But knowing Pop if he loses he gonna be a sore loser and go on a rant.
"Cmon M open it you want mama to help too" I asked as she nodded.
Everybody was recording and you know Mama smoke had that fat ass tablet.
"Omg M look!"
She had her mouth wide open and jumping up and down with Joy.
"Like mommy car!" She said clapping.
"Right just like mommy car" I said.
"Thank you Jojo!" She said giving him a hug.
"You welcome baby girl" He said giving her a hug back.
"You did good babe," I said kissing John on the lips.
As I did that pop looked like he was about to have a stroke but I ignored it.
This is my baby day I could care less how anyone feels.
"Mommy I want to drive it" She said.
"Ok lets see if you have anymore gifts left" I said.
"Actually there is one more" Pop spoke up.
"More Shar? 80% of these gifts in here are the ones you gave her I don't think there is anymore room in this living room for more" I said.
"Shut-I mean hush I have one more just go outside" He said nodding towards the door as we all got up.
We all got outside and was met with what Pop gave her.
"Omg Shar no you didn't" I said.
"Ahhhhh" Malaysia said screaming towards her gift.
"Anything for my baby girl" He said smiling.
"And where are we gonna put this?" I asked.
"You thinking too hard just let my baby enjoy herself quit nagging all the damn time" he said making me roll my eyes.
"Look you don't have to talk to my girl like that" John said defending me.
"YO GIRL? I clearly had the best gift bring her over my guy" Pop said grabbing my arm his direction.
"Y'all chill out foreal its not about gifts and it's not a competition I'm not going nowhere so y'all both can stop that shit now it's getting annoying" I said.
"What play house you know ever had a porch? Or a slide or a full set of stairs my nigga??" Pop said getting defensive and yet again starting a rant.
"Calm down please this isn't high school Shar" I said walking away.
"No just be real with me you ain't never seen that shit before" He said.
"You right haven't you happy now?" I said.
He just started at me.
"Don't give me that look why would I get back together with you over a playhouse try something more reasonable next time" I said.
"Ok Bet" He said rubbing his hand together.
"I'm not about to play with you go upstairs and pack M a night bag how about you do that" I said.
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