Chapter 31: LCL 30.

ELLO, i'm not mad at you guys anymore 🕺🏽🕺🏽

TW: Heavy language, extreme fluff

uhm...if you're rereading/new reader just know i accidentally deleted chap 29... it was just abt Hyunjin getting them matching outfits and Hyunjin asking Felix if he really loved him 😭.

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HYUNJIN'S POV:

' I love you too, Hyunjin, with everything in me. Sometimes it fucking hurts.'

Fuck what does that mean...?

We were finally at the beach and haves been here for 2 hours now, just walking, talking, eating and trying new foreign foods. Thanks to day lights savings, it was dark quite early, the time approximately only 6-7 pm. He held onto as if he never wanted to let go which made me feel warm inside.

Earlier it was just the two us of alone, i can't say i've never laughed and smiled this much in my life. That was until Changbin, Jisung and Minho showed up, constantly teasing me for being clingy and Jisung stealing Felix away from me. They are the literal definition of cock-blocking.

"Wah, Hyunjin in light colors, i might be gay." Said minho. Isn't he already...like....kind of....Homosexual?

"Whatever you say, Minho. Whatever you say."

"Oh i do have something to say! To Felix! How dare you wax your legs so they look better than mine, do you want a fight, huh?" Minho included, he's so sassy it's kind of embarrassing.

(who is this DIVA? 💜)

"Hey, it's not lixies fault he's prettier than you." Jisung combatted against Minho, who put his hand of his heart and his face held a dramatic expression.

"Pfft, as if."

"Okay, well tell the world if your hair is supposed to be a middle part or side part today, Minho. Don't let us be confused here." said Felix. I chuckled, he's cute when he's sassy. Or maybe i'm just biased. I'd say both.

"Ya! It's a.....something new, yea, it doesn't hurt to be different every once in a while, Felix. Take Hyunjin for example, he doesn't usually wear light colors because he's mean and has a dark soul! " he pouted at his words, dramatically crossing his arms.

I'm not mean. He's a liar.

I looked over to Felix's changed expression. Damn he looks offended as if Minho said that about him.

"What did you just say about my Hyunjin?"

"Oh shit....Felix...It was a joke i swear!" said Minho hiding behind Jisung who had the 'i can't save you' look. Next you know Felix was chasing Minho throughout the beach and shit was he fast as hell. I know to keep my mouth shut around him.

"So you're not going to stop him from burying Minho in the sand right now?"

"No Changbin, i'm not." I smiled. It's good to know that Felix is protective of me. Although the sight of Minho screaming for help while getting sand shoved into his mouth is disturbing. He's still so fucking cute.

Usually Minho is the scary one, it's nice to see him being humbled once in a while. (Minho can run me over if he wants, by the way, for saying this. I'll still love him forever.)

"Eat it Minwhore, it's good for you!" Felix shouted while smiling mischievously. I chuckled, walking over to the two before Felix catches a case. Gently i pulled him off of Minho and held him in my arms.

"Thank you, baby, but i don't need to be bailing you out of jail tonight, yeah?"

"but he was being mean to you, jagi. I don't think you have a dark soul."

"Then that's all that matters to me, pretty. Your words are enough." I ended off by giving him a peck on the lips and interlocking our hands together.

"So cute~! Minho, jagiya, are you okay? Get up, i don't know why you're messing with Felix, knowing he's going to fuck you up, you pabo. Oh look at you, my poor baby."

"Ya, don't bully me while comforting me at the same time."

"Okay enough of your gayness, the firework show is about to start, everyone, prepare your eyes." said Changbin lighting up some fireworks that lit the sky completely, grabbing everyone at the beachs' attention.

I couldn't help but look at Felix, he reminds me of a firework himself. You have to light him up to get him going, kind of scary but still beautiful when he explodes, burns if you touch him incorrectly or if he gets onto you. I chuckled at the random thought, but that died down when i remembered.

'I love you too, Hyunjin. With everything in me. Sometimes it fucking hurts.'

That fucking burned.

If he loves me, why does it hurt him so much? Does he feel as if it's not okay to love me? Am i doing something wrong again?

Is this what love feels like, constantly worrying and hoping for your partner to love you without a doubt...?

More importantly, has he ever doubted his love for me..?

"Hyunjin-ah, what's wrong, jagi?" said beautiful, inturpting my train of thought. I smiled just at the sound of his voice, it matched perfectly with the vibe and scenery, when doesn't it.

"Ah, nothing, pretty, just thinking about us."

"Oh...but why do you look so sad, shouldn't you smile when you think of us?"

"You're right, that's sort of what i was thinking about, i love us so much, and now i understand what you mean when you say it hurts. I just want us to be happy. I want us to last, Felix. I want us to be a family."

I could feel my eyes swelling before me, i seriously need to pull myself together. I've never thought i'd be this way with someone. Ever.

He smiled, getting onto his tippy-toes to where we were the same height, and placed a kiss onto my cheeks.

"Yes, there has been flaws, but....ive never been this fucking happy in my entire life, Hyunjin. I feel at ease with you. I feel that we are connected to be one. We are family Hyunjin-ah."

"We are aren't we.?" I smiled, holding onto his waist, bringing him into my embrace as both of our eyes focused on the show. This feels like a dream, scary to say, but i never want to wake up.

"Oh look, our beach neighbors are popping fireworks as well." Felix smiled.

"We should definitely compete with them, huh?"

"Definitely."

As time passed, i forgives the neighbors understood that we were trying to outdo their fireworks. Theirs became insanely massive which left us all in shock till the point where we had to take a break for ours to get a good look at how big theirs were. I was truly amazed.

"Time for the good one." Said changbin, lighting another before backing away. Minho and Changbin smirked at one another and Jisung jumped up and down excitedly prepared for the big one. Felix seemed pretty excited to, expected ours to make the world glow. Little do he know, huh?

"Wah! Hyunjin-ah! Look our neighbors must be getting married! That's so-....." I chuckled, slowly pulling out of Felix's grip. Although i was nervous as hell, it's best to just go for it.

"Hyunjin..?"

Later, those who had just arrived before the showed slowly came from the other side of the beach, standing behind me. Those being, Felix's mother, who held Yujun, his two sisters, My mother and father, Seungmin, Yeji and her best friend Ryujin, Bangchan, and Jeongin....yes. I said Jeongin, i promise to explain later on. Jisung and Yujun were the only two that stood along side Felix, the rest were behind me.

I could see Felix's watering at the sight. He's never gotten to meet my family, i'm sure he was confused.

Finally, my mother and father walked in front of me, both taking Felix's hand, Bowing towards it, gesturing that he has their blessing. Actually it took my father forever to agree but he came around eventually after i wouldn't stop showing up to his work.

Felix's mother gently took my own, doing the same, the proud tears in her eyes, brought tears to my own. Did i ever say that this feels like a dream.

"Hyunjin-ah..." Felix sobbed as i gently took his hands, bring him closer towards me and getting on one knee. He choked onto his tears at the sight, looking away from me and at the sky, hiding his face. The wind did him no favor, blowing his angelic hair into the wind revealing his soaked face once again.

"Breathe baby, look at me." I couldn't help but stand, hand the ring to Minho and hold onto him. I hated seeing him cry, no matter the circumstances. I won't be inappropriate now, but you know what i'm thinking.

He buried his face into my chest and held his arms around me. "Yongbokie, look at me." I asked in a soft voice only loud enough for him and Jisung to hear. He slowly looked up, i wiped some of the tears away, it was almost impossible when there was more rolling down the surface of his face. A singular rolling down my own.

"Appa! Why are you make Eomma cry! Don't be mean to Eomma!" said Yujun causing everyone to laugh including Felix.

"Oh, my grand baby is so sweet huh?" Said my mother walking over to Yujun and carrying him in her arms. Yujun is never going to grow up with the whole world picking him up.

"I'm sorry. This is so embarrassing." Said Felix in a trembling voice. I chuckled, kissing his cheek.

"Don't be, baby. You don't know how nervous i am right now, you make me so happy it's hard to comprehend. I fell in love with you for a million reasons, and I want to spend a lifetime discovering more. I can't imagine my life without you in it....With you....; I found the love I had always dreamt of. With every laugh, every dream, hell, every single moment, I fall more in love with you, and yes, never in a million years have i thought i'd be asking to marry someone in such a short period of time, but Felix....I feel as if we are already connected, i feel that we are already a whole, i feel that we were- are meant to be..... I choose you. And I'll keep choosing you, over and over....... I want to be the reason behind your smile because you are the reason behind mine. I promise to love, respect, protect, and trust you and give you the best of myself. Our love story is my favorite, and.... I want it to continue forever. Lee Yongbok, Will you marry me?

That's when he broke, falling to his knees. I slowly dropped with him, he's a complete mess right now, yet he still looks so beautiful. He's lucky he's a pretty-crier or this moment would've been awkward.

Jisung, who were also crying and sobbing, literally making it no better, slowly dropped down towards felix placing a hand onto his shoulder.

"Appa~! Eomma is really sad! What's going on? It okay, Eomma! I protect you." Said Yujun climbing down from my mothers arms, ruining over, hugging and kissing Felix's cheek. Felix chuckled, wrapping his arms around Yujun, holding him tightly.

"Eomma's okay, baby boy."

"So Yongbok...what do you say...?"

Tears streamed out of eyes more, as he tried to wipe them away, it was no use at this point. I should've listened to Jisung when he said that he was an emotional wreck. I didn't think he meant this, his mother looks as if it was completely normal. On the other hand my parenrs were crying to each other, i'm sure they've never seen anything like this.

"Hyunjin....I...I can't."