TW: heavy language, toxicity
YONGBOK'S POV:
Around 6:30 am, the alarm that sat next to the nightstand suddenly went off, reminding me to prepare breakfast for Yujun before school. As i sat up i looked over to see that Hyunjin wasnt next to me. I sat there confused trying to comprehend where he could possibly be at 6 in the fucking morning. I sighed remembering the previous night, how i decided to be a whore instead of standing my ground.
Now i have to deal with these idiots who are going to tease me knowing exactly what happened.
I want a taser so bad, it gets to a point.
Ignoring the thoughts coming to my mind about Hyunjin being gone again, i got up, put on a sweater and my pants back on, like the whore i am, and began to take the bed spread off the mattress to wash them. Another lesson i should add to my book.
Lesson 101: Face Hyunjin's charms.
Once i was done with laundry, i made my way to the kitchen to prepare Yujuns breakfast. To my surprise Jisung had already done that for me, thank God, i did wake up pretty late anyway. He's such a life saver.
"Goodmorning Junnie, and thank you so much for this Sungie, he would've been late if it weren't for you."
"Eomma! Morning!"Â he smiled brightly. I ruffled his hair and picked up his spoon, feeding him some of his breakfast. I actually had no idea that Jisung knew how to cook but Yujun seemed to like it and that's all that matters.
"Dont worry about that, i saw you stumbling to the laundry room earlier and figured you'd need some help." Says Jisung, shooting an innocent smile in my direction and giving me a hug.
"Oh sungie what could i do without you, you've been more help than Hyunjin has been this whole weekend."
Jisung frowned at my words, and placed Yujuns dishes aside to take him to school. I gave him goodbye-kisses and thanked Jisung again for his help before going upstairs and straightening his and our room.
Not to long after, Hyunjin, Changbin and Minho finally arrived back to the house with a guest, that guest being Bangchan. Of fucking course. I sighed, this is really getting annoying. I want to be a supportive boyfriend but how can i be if i can't even be his boyfriend for 10 minutes.
"Minho, Changbin, what's up?" I say ignoring Hyunjin's presence since he was more into whatever was on Bangchans phone than my own existence.
Minho looked over at the two and shook his head, he knows, i'm sure of it.
Actually, i'm sure everyone has already noticed Hyunjin's sudden behavior, but no one, absolutely no one, knows the effect it has on me right now. I may seem like i'm pushing it aside, but i'm not. It's been hurting me in so many ways, i've been overthinking and i can physically feel my head throbbing from those thoughts.
What if he's losing interest in me.
What if he replaces me with Bangchan.
What if i'm not good enough for him anymore.
What if...
What if...
What if...
Fuck, what if i lose interest....
That's almost impossible for me anyway.
Finally Hyunjin came over to me with a soft smile, as much as i missed that i still didn't want to look at his face, three days since i was able to have a full on conversation with him. I may seem selfish and clingy but can you blame me? If you're in love with someone, shouldn't you want to be their main focus.
My thoughts were interrupted by Hyunjin pulling me into a warm hug and giving me a soft peck on my lips. "My blonde, my baby, i've missed you this morning."
"Right, not waking up to your boyfriend the passed few mornings when you have a choice, you truly missed me Hyunjin."
He chuckled, pulling me tighter into his embrace. He began to lean in and try to kiss me but i quickly pushed him away and made my way upstairs. I can't believe he's acting this way, not understanding that someone he claims to be his lover is clearly feeling unwanted.
HYUNJIN'S POV:
Changbin hit me in the back of my head before going after Felix, what's their deal? Changbin was just fine a few minutes ago. How bipolar.
"Eh? What's his problem?" I say looking over to Minho, who looked quite annoyed.
"Do you clearly not see what you're fucking doing to him, Hyunjin? Like are you deadass not thinking at this moment? I expected better from you of all people."
Fuck, i should definently tell him. I sighed, before looking over to Bangchan who did so as well, i'm guessing that's the signal to give up the gist. After all, he shouldve be the first to know.
"Minho, i think i should tell you now, what's been going on between Bangchan and I. You're my best friend so i think it's time you know the truth, i'll tell Changbin on my own later as well. But...you have to prom- no swear you won't tell Jisung...?"
MINHOS POV:
I've never been so fucking confused in my LIFE and i'm terrible at math, what's going on right now?
YONGBOKS POV:
Why is he acting this way so suddenly. I felt my eyes starting to stinging, well aware that tears were approaching. This feeling is too familiar, i hate it so much. Why me?
I instantaneously looked up once i heard the doorknob being twisted. Changbins head slowly peeking through, his expression turned soft once he saw me looking toward him already.
"Changbin-hyung? What's up?"
"Ah, you haven't called me hyung since the first week we've met, you must be losing it right now?" He joked as if he wouldn't get kicked in the dick in approximately three seconds. My face must've said it all considering the fact that he sheepishly laughed and slowly backed away.
"I was just coming to see if everything was okay, Lix, i've noticed the way Hyunjin's been acting too, i've never seen him act this way before. Neither would i have expected it."
"I wouldn't expect it either. It's whatever i guess, time will tell me what's happening soon." I responded, finishing off my sentence with a stressed sigh.
"Would you like me to talk to him for you, maybe it's just a misunderstanding or that son of a bitch downstairs is becoming a bad influence, worse case senario he casted a spell on him." Changbin joked, i slightly laughed at his joke.
"You don't have to speak with him, but thank for you help. Hey, you're not so weird and annoying after all." I smiled, placing a hand on his shoulder. His laughter paused, looking at me with a shocked expression, one of his eyebrows arched.
"You think i'm weird and annoying?!"
"Of course not, hyung."
"Oh....."
MINHO'S POV:
i sat there, lost for words with the information i just received from these idiots i'm sitting across from.
"I don't know wether i should slap the shit out of you or slap the shit out of you, Hyunjin."
"What, why?!" he stood up in defense, discombobulating with my words.
"For one, why would you keep something like this from Changbin and I, for two, do you know how badly you're hurting Felix with this?!"
His expression turned from confused to guilty, bangchan followed along. These idiots didn't have a clue.
"What should i do, hyung...?" said Hyunjin, his voice trembled. This kid.
"Well it's too late to turn back now, i suppose. Fine, you're lucky i don't hate you... Therefore, i'll help you out. Not like i have a choice anyway."