GINGER POV
I'm tired of sneaking moments with Alessa whenever dad is busy preparing for their wedding. It's been two weeks already since Alessa promised me to tell him about our relationship.
I already stopped hoping because I don't see any effort that she's doing, I also stopped talking to her and avoided her whenever she tries to come near me.
I'm always out partying , I also stopped talking to Janine because I don't want her to think that I'm using her to forget Alessa, that's just too much for her.
I parked my car outside of our gate because I don't want to cause attention to anyone. I glanced at my clock, it's already four in the morning. I scooted directly to the stairs but stopped in the middle when I heard dad mutter my name.
"Yes?" I said while gazing at him. I don't feel like talking to him, since he came home from London.
I know that he wakes up early but I never thought that he's this early.
"You've been always out partying, we should bond you know" he said while his focus is still on the newspaper.
"Maybe next time" I replied simply.
He puts down the newspaper and gazed at me frowning.
"That's what you said last time. Are you avoiding me? or perhaps Alessa?" he asked suspiciously.
Does he know something? I asked myself mentally.
"No!" I replied defensively. I shrugged my shoulder afterwards in surrender.
"Fine, what do you want us to do?" His face brightened upon hearing what I said.
"Very good! I want us to look for a church for my wedding since Alessa told me the motif already" he said excitedly.
"What's her motif?" I asked mindlessly.
"Violet and black" I frowned upon hearing his reply. I can't believe that she's going to use my motif for her wedding.
"I'm quite surprised that she likes violet and black" he said smiling.
"She don't like it, she just wants to hurt me" I mumbled angrily.
"What?"
"I said when are we going to look for a church?" I replied hastily.
"Today, go sleep now and we'll leave in the afternoon" he replied excitedly. I just shrugged my shoulders in response before heading to my room.
"Why didn't I see it before? that she's just using me?" I said as soon I slammed my door shut.
"Stupid!" I yelled in anger as I opened the can of beer. I need to be drunk so that I'll be able to sleep.
I woke up an hour earlier than my alarm.
"Fudge" I muttered in pain. Hangover is killing me but I have to wake up to accompany dad. I jumped off my bed to take aspirin.
I picked up my phone afterwards and dialed dad's number, I headed to the terrace to breathe some fresh air while waiting for him to answer my call.
"Great" I muttered and cancelled the call to my dad when I saw Alessa standing alone in the terrace.
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Everything is so messed up, dad still wants to marry Alessaafter all what happened in the terrace.
Because he loves her! I smiled bitterly. I guess we're the same, still loving the same person that hurts us.
My tears are starting to form but I closed my eyes to stop it from falling , I don't want her to see me crying because she doesn't deserve even a single tear from me.
I can't be mad with dad because I deserved to be slapped on the face, I lied to him and touched his fiancée, even if she seduced me I should've resisted.
I sighed heavily while touching my left cheek, I'm surprised that it hurts because I thought I'm already numb with the pain.
Damn you Alessa for making my life miserable! Dad don't deserve you. I cursed mentally before leaving the house. It's too small for the three of us and it's best if I leave and find a place of my own.
I'm driving while in deep thought when Janine suddenly came in my mind, it's been almost three weeks since we last talked and I missed her. Specially in times like this.
I immediately made a U turn and drove fast to her apartment, maybe it's best if I live with her. I tried to call her four times but she's not answering.
I knocked thrice when I arrived at her front door but she didn't come to open it.
"Janine it's me, please open the door" I said patiently.
Another minute have passed and still no Janine, I decided to try opening the door and groaned when I realized that it's not locked.
"That means she's here"Â I said as I entered. I frowned when I saw that the television is on but the lights are off.
"Janine?" Suddenly I became nervous.
Is she robbed'? I ran to the kitchen but she's not there as well.
"Janine!" I called her out loud but still no response so I ran to her room immediately hoping that she's there sleeping.
"Oh my God!" I blurted out in shock when I saw her lying on the floor. Her left arm is full of blood and there's a knife beside her. I rushed to her and tied my handkerchief on her pulse.
"Janine what have you done?! Please don't leave me! Not now!" I cried out loud. Her face and lips are flushed, she's running out of blood.
My adrenaline rush enabled me to carry her to my car.
"Please God don't let her die, I will do anything just let her live"Â I prayed while driving so fast.
The nurse tended her immediately as soon as I brought her to the ER.
"What a great day" I muttered crying.
I lost the two people that I love today and I don't want to lose Janine too, she's the only hope that I have right now.
The doctor didn't allow me to the Operating room so I waited outside while sitting on the bench. My body is so tired and my clothes are soaked with blood but I don't care, all I care about right now is Janine.
"Please don't leave me" I kept on mumbling till I fell asleep.
I was awakened by a tap on my shoulder, I opened my eyes to see a nurse smiling at me.
"What is your relationship with Janine Valle?"
"Uh... she's my girlfriend, how is she?" I asked anxiously. She looked at the paper that she's holding then to me.
"We need to talk to the immediate family ma'am"
"She doesn't have a family, I mean her parents died and I'm the only one that's left" I lied. The nurse seemed convinced because she nodded afterwards.
"Fortunately, the doctors are able to save her. She's now in room 102 you may go there after you give the information needed and the down payment" she said before leaving.
"Thank God!" I blurted out in relief.
I quickly processed everything then headed to her room afterwards. She's already awake and just staring blankly into space.
"Janine" I said to get her attention but she ignored me.
What happened? I asked her mentally.
"You should've let me die" she said coldly, still not looking at me.
I sighed before leaning closer to caress her shoulder.
"What are you saying? Why did you do that?" She looked so helpless. I'm not used to seeing her like that.
"There's no reason for me to live, you should've let me die!" she yelled before shoving my hand away from her shoulder.
"That's not true! Me and your dad needs you" I said hastily to calm her but she cried out loud instead.
"My father died five days ago! I'm not surprised that you don't know. Your girlfriend didn't tell you and you're too much in love to notice what I'm going through" she said sarcastically.
My eyes widen in disbelief, her father died and I didn't even had the chance to visit his wake, I'm so pathetic.
"How come Alessa knows? why didn't you tell me?"
"I told her to tell you that my father died but she obviously didn't"
Damn you Alessa! I cursed mentally. I broke my promise to her that I will be there for her whenever she needs me.
"I'm sorry Janine, I'm so so-"
"Your sorry won't bring him back! Get the hell out of here and don't ever come back! I don't need you! Just let me die!" she yelled hysterically before pulling the dextrose off her arm which caused her pulse to bleed again.
"Janine stop it!" I hugged her tight to stop her from moving.
She won't be like this if only I didn't leave her side. It's my fault because I neglected her, I'm no different from Alessa, I'm the worst.
"I'm sorry please don't leave me, don't hurt yourself. I will swear to your father's grave that I will never hurt you again, I won't leave you this time so please calm down" I said crying as well while hugging her tight.
I swear to God that I will forget everything about Alessa and move on together with her. I will do my best to love her the way she loves me and it will start today.
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Two more weeks have passed and everything went good. I didn't leave Janine's side until her wound is completely healed. I decided to live with her so that I can take care of her properly.
I didn't come home ever since the incident in the terrace happened and dad never reached out to talk to me. I guess it's better this way since it's also my fault.
I'm busy answering the quiz when my phone vibrated. I frowned when I saw dad's name on the screen.
LET'S PLAY FENCING 2 O'CLOCK
I smiled upon reading his text, it's been a long time since the last time that we played fencing together.
After my class, I told Janine everything before heading to our gym where we play fencing. I know that Alessa isn't home yet because I saw her at school together with Maya.
When I arrived, dad is already there and about to wear his fencing uniform.
"Hey" I greeted him awkwardly. He just smiled before motioning me to get dressed as well.
After a few minutes of warm up, we already started and I'm the first one to hit him on his chest.
"1-0" I said before I started attacking him again, he's quite good in defense.
"You love Alessa right?" he said after a while which caused me to lose focus. Then next thing I knew, I am already hit on my stomach.
"1-1" he chuckled.
Cheater! I yelled mentally.
I don't like where our conversation is going but I didn't voice it out. Maybe it's the best time to talk about her, after all they'll be married soon.
"Yes" I replied then tried to hit him on his head but he dodged it swiftly.
He became aggressive after that, his movements are fast and it's making me hard to dodge.
"2-1, is it true that she seduced you?" he asked while pointing his sword to my face.
"We both seduced each other and we both tried to resist each other, for you" I said before I pushed him and hit his chest. He straightened his body and swayed my sword using his.
"2-2" I added before I made a defense position.
"But you both didn't and chose to hurt me" he said sternly before attacking me continuously.
I know that he's releasing his anger and hurt by playing with me and I'm more than willing to play with him, I understand his situation more than anyone else.
"Dad--" I said when he stopped for a moment to catch his breath.
"First one to get five points. The winner takes Alessa" he said before returning to his attack position.
The hell is he thinking? He can't beat me on this game. I said mentally.
"We don't have to fight for--" he interrupted me again.
"Fight me! I know this is pathetic but I still want to do this. I want you to completely accept that I love Alessa and I will still marry her no matter what" he said before he started attacking me again.
I sighed as I started dodging his attack, I already memorized his movements so when I saw an opening on his chest, I immediately hit it.
"3-2" I said coldly. My stupidity is taking over me again, my heart wants what dad suggested and to think that I'm better in this sport.
"How about you dad? How much do you love her?"
"I'm willing to forget everything that happened, I already know she's your ex-girlfriend when I was in London" he said before he tried to hit my head again but I managed to sway it by my sword.
I'm taken aback upon hearing what he said. So that explains why he called me in the middle of the night when he was in London just to ask me if I already moved on from my ex. He already knew and yet he acted as if nothing's wrong and that he still doesn't know.
He loves me and Alessa so much that he held on to what I said and believed my lies. I suddenly want to cry, I'm so selfish, I'm a fool. I chose to betray and hurt my father for a useless person. Alessa doesn't deserve my father nor me, but if he loves her so much who am I to interfere.
Right now my mind is telling me what exactly I should do, so I faked that I am out of focus and gave him a better chance to hit me twice.
"4-3 in favor of you" I said looking at him intently.
He didn't say anything, I straightened my stand and pointed my sword at him.
"I will be serious this time dad. If I win I will have Alessa, if you win you will marry her and I promise to be happy for you" I said seriously.
He straightened his stand then pointed his sword at me as well.
"Deal" he replied before he started attacking me again.
We were exchanging attacks for minutes until I intentionally gave him an open area where he can hit me without being obvious that I did it on purpose.
I was hit on my heart, we stayed like that for a minute until he's the first one to retreat, he then started removing his uniform in silence.
"I love you dad, I'm sorry for hurting you. I did stupid things without thinking and I want you to know that I regret it. Congratulations on your wedding" I said as my tears started to fall.
He smiled and pulled me closer for a tight hug.
"I forgive you" he said while tapping my back. It felt like something heavy was lifted on me and I'm happy that we're okay now.
Dad and I decided to eat together to talk about the wedding, I pretended to be happy and excited about it because that's what I promised to him.
While talking to him an idea came to my mind but I didn't say it. I know what I'm thinking won't make him happy on his wedding day but I think it's the best for all of us. When we're done, I bid goodbye immediately and headed to the mall to buy a plane ticket.
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My heart is at ease that my dad and I are okay now. I was immediately welcomed by Janine as soon as I opened the front door, she then gave me a passionate kiss after.
"How's your fencing with your dad?" she inquired as soon as we retreated from each other.
She then went straight to the kitchen because she's currently cooking.
"It's fine, everything is okay now" I replied as I followed her.
I waited until she's done cooking before I gave her the envelope.
"What's this?" She asked confused.
"Open it" She hesitated for a moment but obliged afterwards. I chuckled when she frowned upon seeing the plane ticket.
"What's this for?" her facial expression is really cute.
"Well Ms. Janine Valle, would you like to live with me in Paris?" I stood up afterwards and took her both hands.
She didn't respond, instead she pulled me closer for a hug and cried on my shoulder.
"Well I guess Paris is not your cup of tea" I joked with French accent. She slapped my shoulder and wiped her tears afterwards.
"Silly of course I will come with you"
"That's what I expected to hear. Let's eat baguette and croissant until we get old" I joked, which caused her to laugh.
I want to go to Paris with Alessa before and I didn't expect that I will ask Janine instead.
"Thank you" she said as she pulled me again for a hug.
"No, I should be the one saying that. Thank you Janine for everything"
We both need to heal from the past and I wish that it won't take long so that I can finally say that I am in love with her. I hope when we live in Paris I can teach myself to fall for her.
Not all happy people got what they wanted, but they're still happy because they're contented. I know that in the future I will be contented and I can also say that I am truly happy.
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