GINGER POV
I woke up with the sound of my phone buzzing, it's a text from Janine.
-Sorry for leaving you last night, personal problems but I'm okay now I'll see you at school later... XoXo
I frowned upon reading it, she is the type of person who doesn't talk much about her family and her personal problems. As much as I want to help her I can't because she limits the things that she open up to me, she knows my story but I don't know hers.
I sighed before standing up.
"Fuck" I cursed when I realized that I'm naked. I closed my eyes afterwards, trying to remember what happened last night.
"Fuck" I cussed again upon remembering.
I love you Lessa, I still do..
I put on my clothes immediately and ran to the living room to talk to her, I need to apologize.
"Alessa" I called her name when I arrived in the living room but she didn't respond so I headed to the kitchen afterwards.
I smiled when I saw her cooking, I decided to just sit down and watch her for a bit. She's still wearing her negligee, the curve of her body is obvious, gulped when my eyes landed on her butt. She's turning me on again.
She's taken aback when she saw me sitting on the chair. She just greeted me before turning her attention back to the pancake that she's cooking.
Apologize now! My mind said interrupting my thoughts.
I stood up but I didn't say anything, when I woke up I felt guilty because I touched her, but now all I feel is lust, my body is longing for her.
"I will apologize later" I mumbled before hugging her back. I want her right now.
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It's been three days and we're doing it every day, I can't control myself not to touch her before and after school. She's like a drug to me and I'm addicted to her, I'm just glad that she's not stopping me.
I sighed heavily before sitting on the bench. I'm too early for our first subject and Janine hasn't arrived yet. We haven't got the chance to bond after school because I'm too excited to go home because I know that Alessa is already waiting for me.
"Hey" I looked up to see Janine standing in front me smiling, she's so beautiful. I'm sure a lot of boys are dying to ask her out.
"Hey you're early!" I said cheerfully.
She smiled before bowing down to give me a peck on my lips.
"I have to, we haven't had the chance to talk and bond lately" she said before sitting beside me.
I suddenly felt guilty, I've been ignoring her for a few days already because all of my focus is on Alessa.
"I'm sorry... I w---"
"It's okay you don't have to explain to me. Plus I'm not surprised why" she interrupted me smiling.
"It's not what you think it is" I said defensively.
She just chuckled while fixing her gaze to the students that are busy dancing.
"It doesn't matter whatever I think, you're an adult now, you have the freedom to do what you want and I hope that she loves you the way you do" she's smiling but I can sense the sadness on her voice while saying that.
"I hope so too" I replied flatly. I can't keep secrets to her, she can read me easily and that's what I admire about her.
"By the way where is your new boyfriend?" I asked changing the topic. I suddenly remember that she said she's entertaining someone.
"I lied, I don't have any" she said smiling.
"Why do you have to lie to me?" I asked frowning.
"I don't know" she said flatly before facing me.
"Don't hurt your dad Ginger, or at least don't hurt him more" I didn't respond.
"Try answering this; does she love you too or she just misses having sex with you?" she said seriously before standing up. She's about to walk away but I grabbed her hand to stop her.
"Hey, that hurts" I said frowning. She sighed heavily before staring down at me.
"You may touch her whenever or whatever you want but at the end of the day she's still your father's fiance"
"Can we change the topic please?" I said after rolling my eyes at her, I'm already feeling guilty and I'm starting to get annoyed because of it.
"This topic will not end until you end your hallucination that she still loves you" my ears ticked upon hearing what she just said.
"Why do you have to spoil everything? Why don't you just pretend that you understand my situation and tolerate me, why can't you just stop telling me the truth!" I blurted out in frustration. She grabbed her hand away from my grasp and crossed her arms.
"The truth hurts for a while Ginger but a lie hurts forever. That's for you, same goes to your dad" she said while pointing at me.
"But what if she tells me that she loves me too?" I argued, but she just shook her head in response before walking away from me.
Janine didn't attend all of our subject, I called her multiple times but I can't reach her so I gave up. She probably wants to be alone because she's tired of me being so stupidly in love with Alessa.
When I arrived home, I saw Alessa sitting on the couch while her eyes closed, I walked closer to her and about to greet her when I saw tears on her cheeks.
I knelt down in front of her and wiped it immediately.
"Why are you crying?"
"I rubbed my eyes because it's itchy" she said between sniffing. I grabbed her hand to stop her from what she's doing.
"Don't rub it, it will only cause more infection" I said before leaning closer to blow some air on it. I kissed her immediately after making sure that her right eye is already okay. She kissed me back for a moment but pushed me away afterwards.
"What's the problem?"
"I'm cooking, Uh I need to turn the stove off" she said running to the kitchen.
This topic will not end until you end your hallucination that she still loves you...
My mind keeps on repeating what Janine said earlier at school. I stood up as well and followed her to the kitchen. I need to know if she loves me too, so I hugged her back and kissed her neck.
"Ginger please, we have to eat" she pleaded but I ignored her.
This topic will not end until you end your hallucination that she still loves you...
"We'll eat later" I said while still kissing her neck, my two hands are groping her breasts. She's ignoring my kisses but I don't care.
"We will eat now, get off me" she repeated but I ignored her again.
This topic will not end until you end your hallucination that she still loves you...
"I said get off me!" she said angrily before pulling my hands out of her shirt.
"What is your problem? Last three days ago you're not stopping me what's the problem now?!" I yelled in annoyance.
"You! You are my problem! Stop kissing me and don't touch me!" she yelled back at me.
"This is not right! I feel guilty every time we have sex! Emman trusts me so please let's not do this again"
This topic will not end until you end your hallucination that she still loves you...
She just misses having sex with you...
It keeps on repeating on my mind and it's making me crazy. She's right, Janine is right, what we're doing is wrong.
I massaged my temple and sighed heavily. The truth is she just misses having sex with me and not because she loves me. I just hope that this truth will only hurt for a while, just like Janine said.
"I'm sorry"
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