ALESSA POV
It's a really long night, I am here lying on my bed while my ex-girlfriend and her assuming girlfriend is in the other room having sex.
I groaned in frustration afterwards, of course I know that they will do that but I didn't expect it to be here at home.
Gosh I am here! I yelled mentally.
I know that I don't have the rights to interfere with them but it's killing me to know that they're doing it in Ginger's room.
She's lucky because Janine is just away for a week but how about me? Emman is away for a month and that's a complete drought.
I'm trying my very best to control myself from not seducing Ginger because I don't want to betray Emman again. I can't sleep so I stood up and headed to the kitchen to get something to drink.
I headed to the living room and sat on the couch afterwards. I can't stop thinking about her, living with her under one roof is very tough yet it makes me happy. I want to take care of her just like when we're together but Janine is always in the picture.
My thoughts are interrupted when the phone rang. I frowned because it's already midnight, I'm sure Emman won't call at this hour but I answered it anyway.
"Hello?" I inquired frowning.
"Is Janine there?" I frowned again. A man looking for her in the middle of the night, it's very odd and suspicious.
"Who is this please?" I asked curiously, it took a while for him to answer.
"Please tell her I'm his father, It's an emergency" he said flatly.
"O...okay" I replied before heading to Ginger's room. I know it's rude to interrupt their ongoing sex thing but I don't have a choice because it's emergency.
I opened the door without bothering to knock and my eyes widen in disbelief when I saw Janine sitting on top of her.
She covered her naked body with blanket upon seeing me but Janine didn't bother covering hers, she's so full of herself.
"Don't you knock?!" She said harshly. I made a face before handing her the phone.
"That's your dad, he said he needs you" I said flatly.
I don't know if I'm not hallucinating when I saw fear on her eyes. She grabbed the phone and headed to the bathroom immediately.
Okay the awkward moment I said mentally before averting my gaze to Ginger again, she's cute when embarrassed.
"I already saw you naked before, I can even tell where your moles are" I said before walking out of her room.
I headed straight to mine immediately, seeing her naked turns me on already. I sighed before lying on my bed and drifted myself to sleep.
I'm awakened when I felt the side of the bed shifted. I frowned because I know that it's Ginger, I turned around immediately and saw her already lying beside me.
She positioned on top of me afterwards, she's drunk I can tell because I can smell her breath. The last time she entered my room and drunk is way back four months ago, she's now calmer though.
She's going to kiss me so I did the right thing, I covered my mouth to prevent her.
"I love you Lessa, I still do" she said seductively.
She's your fiance's daughter! My mind reminded me.
"Wh...what are you saying?" I asked confused. We're already okay but I don't think that she's telling the truth, maybe it's just the effect of alcohol.
"I said I love you" she repeated while looking at me intently. Her eyes are telling me that she really meant what she just said.
She pinned my arms on top of my head and started kissing my neck. I moaned, her kisses still makes my body tremble in pleasure.
"This is wrong Ginger, please" I pleaded between gasping. I don't know if my voice is convincing enough or what.
"Make love with me... please" she said with pleading eyes, her eyes full of passion and love.
I don't want her begging just to make love with me. I know to myself that I really want it, that only she can make me so much happy and contented, I know that I will hurt Emman again if I allow her but my feelings for her is overflowing right now.
I can't hide it anymore, I want her right now right here on my bed. I don't care what happens tomorrow, what's important is the person on top of me right now.
So with that I nodded in response, she smiled at me before leaning closer and started kissing me passionately again.
We're kissing like there's no tomorrow for us, she removed the lace of my negligee slowly, my hands are already free but I didn't bother to make a move. I'm just letting her do what she wants until she's satisfied.
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I woke up at exactly nine in the morning, it's my body clock, no matter how late I slept the other night I always wake up at nine. I stretched my hands and yawned but I almost choke when I remember what happened last night.
"Oh my..." I glanced to my side immediately and saw Ginger naked as well.
I groaned to myself.
"What have I done again" I said before tapping my forehead. Last night was wonderful but again, it's a total mistake.
"I'm so sorry Emman" I mumbled before standing up slowly to avoid waking her up.
I put on my clothes silently and headed to the kitchen to cook breakfast for us. I smiled when I remember she said that she still loves me. I giggled, I am acting like a high-school girl right now and I can't myself not to.
I still love her though I can't tell if it's as strong as her love for me, And I love her father too. I sighed heavily before shaking my head to erase the thought. Emman is not here yet, so Ginger and I still have three more weeks to enjoy each others company and for me to think.
I decided to cook pancake because it's been a while since I'm craving for it. I don't know how much time I already spent from preparing the ingredients, I was about to put the pancake that I already cooked on the plate when I saw her sitting on the chair while her face resting on her both hands.
"Hey morning" I greeted her smiling.
She didn't respond, she's just looking at me intently. I suddenly felt embarrassed so I turned around to hide it, her gaze is making me uncomfortable because I don't know what she's thinking right now.
I returned my focus on cooking the remaining pancakes afterwards.
"Fudge!" I exclaimed in shock when I felt her hands on my waist. My body tensed up when she started kissing my earlobe. I pretended not to care and continued cooking but my hands are shaking because of the tingling sensation that she's giving me.
"Do...do you want pancakes?" I said stuttering.
"Hmmm" She responded while kissing my neck. I'm biting my lower lip to stop myself from moaning.
I frowned when she turned the stove off and stopped what she's currently doing, she moved away from me afterwards. I'm a bit upset but I'm not gonna tell her that.
I thought she returned to her seat already so I turned around to put the cooked pancake on the table but to my surprise, she remained still standing. She's just waiting for me to finally face her.
I can see the lust on her beautiful eyes. I'm about to say something when she suddenly closed the distance between us and started kissing me. It caused me to drop the pancake on the floor accidentally.
"The pancakes" I said between kissing her back.
"Cook again later" she said huskily before carrying me to sit on the countertop.
I moaned when she started sucking my nipples, I didn't realize that she already removed the lace of my negligee. I'm all soaked, this's the first time I tried making love in the kitchen and it feels really good.
She removed my underwear and parted my legs so she can have full access on my center. I pulled her closer and locked her body with my legs. My center is brushing with her belly and it's making me hornier. Her lips returned to my mouth afterwards, kissing me roughly and sucking my tongue.
She spread my legs wider before thrusting her two fingers inside me, I moved my body to match her fingers fast movement.
"Ginger!" I moaned out loud when I reached my climax. She then sucked the fingers that she used.
I hugged her tight afterwards, my heart beating so fast and I'm catching my breath.
She pushed me away gently after a while and gave me a peck on the lips.
"I love you" she said smiling at me.
I just smiled back at her because I'm still so tired. She started kissing my neck again as her thumb started playing with my clit and her forefinger moving back and forth inside my center.
"Stop please, I'm tired" I said between moaning but she's not listening.
My body is trembling so hard, the pleasure that she's giving me is making me insane.
"Ugh, Ginger" I'm hugging her so tight and I'm already scratching her back. Good thing that her shirt is quite thick.
My tears started to fall upon my climax. I feel like I don't have the strength to move anymore. My body feels so tired and my center is trembling. She wiped my tears away and made my head rest on her shoulders.
I feel dizzy, she's so active. Six years ago, I'm the one who always initiate everything when it comes to making love with her. She patted my head before pushing me away gently.
She picked up my underwear and helped me wear it before carrying me down from the countertop. The she opened the stove afterwards.
"Cook more pancakes" she said before returning to her seat. I just nodded in response before continuing what I'm doing earlier.
Stupid I cursed myself mentally.
I don't know how to face her because I feel so embarrassed and guilty. She loves me but I can't bring myself to tell her that I still love her too. I can't say it yet because I'm still not sure of myself, maybe it's just because of my sexual needs that I'm allowing her to touch me.
"Thanks" she said grinning as soon as I served her the pancakes.
Again, I just smiled at her in response. I don't know what to say, my body and mind is still in a roller coaster ride.
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I don't know what's happening to me, these past three days since the night that she told me she still loves me, she always find a way to have me and I am not doing anything to stop her.
I just let her do what she wants, it became a routine that we will make love before and after we go to school. Every time Emman calls, he always ask if I always visit Ginger, I haven't told him yet that I am now living with her. I honestly feel guilty that it makes me cry.
"Do you trust me?" I'm sitting on the couch while waiting for the rice to be cooked. He was about to hang up when I suddenly asked him.
"I trust you and I love you but I need to go now. I'll call you again tomorrow" he said sweetly before hanging up.
I cried as soon as I put my phone down, it's really not a good idea to live with Ginger but I promised her that I won't leave until her father comes back.
"I have to end this" I mumbled.
I groaned again in so much frustration, it's the fourth day and we made love again before going to school.
I only have few subjects unlike her because I'm only taking my M.A so I always go home early to cook for the both of us.
I closed my eyes to make myself at peace that I didn't realize that she already arrived. I opened my eyes immediately when I felt her hand wiping my tears.
"Why are you crying?" she asked frowning. I straightened my sit and half smiled.
"Uh, I rubbed my eyes because it's itchy" I lied before rubbing it again, pretending that it's still itchy. She grabbed my hand to stop me before leaning closer.
"Don't rub it, it will only cause more infection" she said before blowing air on my right eye.
I blinked my eyes twice before pushing her away gently, but she leaned closer again to kiss me. Her kisses are hypnotizing, I kissed her back and closed my eyes to savor it.
I trust you and I love you....
I flinched and pushed her away when I remember what Emman said. I just talked to him a while ago and here I am again committing a mistake.
"What's the problem?" she asked surprised.
"I'm cooking, uh I need to turn the stove off" I said before standing up.
I ran to the kitchen immediately to avoid her, I turned the stove off and started preparing the plates on the table. I flinched again when she suddenly hugged me from my back and started kissing my neck. I stopped what I'm doing and sighed heavily.
"Ginger please, we have to eat"
"We'll eat later" she said while still kissing my neck. Her hands started groping my breasts, I should be feeling good right now but my conscience is killing me.
"We will eat now, get off me" I repeated but she ignored me again and just continued what she was doing.
"I said get off!" I said angrily before pulling her hands out of my shirt.
"What is your problem? Last three days ago you're not stopping me, what's the problem now?!" she yelled in annoyance.
"You! You are my problem! Stop kissing me and don't touch me!" I yelled back at her.
"This is not right! I feel guilty every time we have sex! Emman trusts me so please let's not do this again" I blurted out as my tears started to fall.
I sat on the chair and wiped my tears afterwards, I'm getting tired of this drama, I want to make love with her but I always end up feeling guilty after.
"I'm sorry" she said while sighing heavily.
"I won't touch you again, let's eat" she said before sitting on the opposite chair of mine.
She looked sad and disappointed but it's the right thing to do. She won't stop unless I told her so.
I'm sorry Ginger.
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