Chapter 41: shattered art

bloodredroses | poetryWords: 1422

there's so much I wanna say...

but I don't know where to start.

time keeps passing on me so fast

and there's so much to do that

I don't wanna eat and

I can't quite find the time to sleep -

I confess I haven't been feeling much like me,

as of recently -

and there's so many things I have to heal...

but I don't know where to start.

write another page when I've got at least

another thirteen

left on my heart -

there's not so much time

and sometimes it feels like falling apart,

so I just skip another meal -

either way there's not much of an appeal

and I refuse to believe

it's really all just 'cause of me...

and this may sound

like it's just for the dramaturgy,

and it might well be -

but I always found tragic much more genuine;

yet I try my best to process,

I just don't know where to start -

but I guess at least that makes for pathetically written poetry,

another piece of shattered art.

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07/05/24

about the worse, darker times in life (don't you worry about me though!) <3

annotation:

„and I refuse to believe it's really all just 'cause of me" ~ can be read as either one or two sentences and I just love how it twists the whole meaning so much, yet how both ways are equally accurate :))

references:

1 the line "there's so much I wanna say, but I don't know where to start" is from the 2014 movie 'I believe in unicorns' - such a good movie and so inspiring!! (don't be fooled by the title)

xo, S🌹❤️