Chapter 26: next current

bloodredroses | poetryWords: 1045

who am I

without that constant

drowning in melancholy,

it's not that

I wouldn't know it better,

I guess I just don't want to.

who am I

without the searching -

to pull myself right under

the next current;

but it's almost beautiful - dreamy...

lost at sea.

and as for at least every other day,

I'd be lying if I said I didn't like it this way.

ship wrecked -

I'm destruction at its best,

the finest type of broken.

I'm torture to myself,

but I can't seem to be anyone else -

and somehow it's gotten fun to run,

to never be done...

Way too used to this

can't recall a different day,

"never enough" always paved the way.

I'm my next current

and I consist of endless waves.

to be me is like being stuck forever,

to the throne I built, doomed -

to my never ending maze.

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this piece sits very close to my heart - I really hope you liked it ♡ and if you did, please leave me a comment <333 (also credits to my new sunset lamp for that gorgeous, aesthetic lighting - I'm so in love😍)

thank you so much for reading! - until soon <3

xo, S🌹❤️