I finally feel like breathing after 10 days of living in complete torture I am finally able to look into my wife's beautiful eyes.
I feel so pathetic as I watch her giggling at her friends jokes. Even though she looks happy, I can tell her smile does not reach her eyes.
She is faking it and I can see it, and that hurts really bad.
I wipe my tears away before opening the tap and washing my face to not look like I just now shedded tears like a girl.
My mind is so full of rage that I am sure I won't think twice on emptying bullets in that person's body who tried hurting my baby.
"You scared me sis, I was about to cry" Zach makes the cutest upset face as he looks down "I am sorry" Ziah mumbles feeling guilty but he stops her quickly "Oh it's absolutely fine, I forgive you but you know I am telling you don't ever leave your Husband, he is an alive example of true love" not knowing that I am right behind his back he speaks about me.
"Really? What did he do?" Ziah giggles as she takes a peek at me but curiously questions.
"Well, first he looked like a walking Zombie since past 10 days and then he tries contacting every single person to find that bitch of a bastard who tried touching my best friend and then I even noticed him skipping his food" a pout forms on his lips as he speaks in a low voice.
"I feel guilty that I supported you when you badmouthed about our boss, he is the best" glaring at his friend he rocks in the chair and I squint my eyes at Ziah, whose eyes widens and she quickly shakes her head but everyone laughs at how paled out she looks.
"Why are you all laughing?! Its true! Zoe tell them how she used to always curse him on being married to a women who should piss him off daily and he should get lots of children's and they should torture him day and night by keeping him awake just like he keeps us awakeâI have good memory power, I never forget things easily" Zach proudly tells as he taps his forehead with his finger.
"I can see that" Ziah groans lowly but hesitantly takes a peek at me and I am giving her a playful glare which I am sure she is not understanding.
"I swear he is lying Ziyan, why would I even say that?" She whines shaking her head but I see Zach's head snapping towards mine "I-you- boss? Holy christ! I didn't utter rubbish in front him did I" he holds his head and shakes his head just begging someone to say something positive.
"Well you did Mr Zach, now you may leave" he quickly stands up with a pleading face "Boss! Don't kick me out, I swear it's not me who said those cruel sentences its your one and only wife" he explains and I nod taking a step forward towards Ziah, who is blowing her hair back which is on her forehead.
Gently reaching for it, I tuck her hair behind her ear.
"It wasâ-It was out of frustration okay, you cant have grudges on me" Ziah mutters quietly and I so want to laugh out loud at how scared they look.
Breathing out I turn to look at the others.
"Fuzail, you should take aunty and others and drop them off, it's already late" I call for fuzail but only find him whispering something to Alia who giggles nodding in response. But they looks so secretive that I squint my eyes curiously at them.
"Fuzail?" I again call for him but none turns "goodness I think they forgot this is a hospital" Zach mutters.
"Fuzail bro! I know you're single, You can search for alliance later, for now our boss is saying something please give him attention, I don't like when someone is disrespecting my boss" rolling my eyes at how dramatic Zach is, I give him a glare before looking at the both who looks flustered.
"We were just talking about things" he utters something and Zach nods "Ofcourse, I can tell from your seriousness you were planning on building a baseball team of yours behind our back" why does this guy has mouth with no filter.
"Shutup Zach" Fuzail gives him a good glare but his red cheeks tells another story.
"You should drop everyone, it's getting late" I repeat and he nods "You don't have to worry, I will drop Alia" Zach whose interruption was not at all necessary speaks.
Rolling his eyes Fuzail waves at Ziah who giggles but her smile drops and a forced one makes its way on her face when I see her eyeing her hands. I bites my lips when guilt and pain hits me, I am sure she wanted to wave back.
With a nod she gulps and mumbles a bye, her eyes meets mine for split second but she quickly breaks the eyes contact.
"Okay we will leave now, take care" with that the girls Hafsa, Nisma, Alia and Zoe give her a tight to which she chuckles in return.
And after picking their belongings they leave, and this would be that last time they are seeing Ziah, until she recovers.
It's not about trusting anyone, but I know more she is with many people the more she will realise what she is not capable of doing, and I don't want that.
The other reason is also that I don't want to do the same mistake again, of letting everyone know about Ziah's life, I will try to keep her from everyone's eyes as far as I can.
After closing the door I walk towards my sweetheart who is lying on the pale bed with a frown.
"What are you thinking?" I gently question her as I unbutton the upper buttons of my shirt. She scoots to the other side knowing that I would join her in the bed, even though its a single bed far smaller than the one we are used to but still its okay.
"Nothing" she mumbles "Zach was saying, you were cursing on me before, you were my cousin and you just badmouthed about me behind my back?" I give her playful glare to change her from the topic that is running in her mind.
She giggles cutely shaking her head "I justâhe is lying!" She lies on my face, laughing when I chuckle snuggling my nose in her cheek when she stutters out of nervousness.
"Well, you also asked Allah that I should be blessed with 10 children, hmm hmm" A mischief look forms on my face as I give her 'The' look and she gasp understanding the meaning behind it.
"I always wanted to do one thing in life that is to full-fill my wife's wish, and after hearing your wish of Allah blessing me with 10 children, I guess we need to start proceeding without wasting any time, what do you think, hmm?" I trace my nose down her red cheek and the way shudders only excites me more, but I know we won't be doing anything beyond kissing but teasing her is just another level fun.
"IâI was just joking" she mutters under her breathe as she bites her lips when I pamper her neck with gentle kisses.
"You sure you were joking? I would be more than happy if I am blessed with 10 kids" I tease her more and she quickly shakes her head with wide eyes.
"Babies does not drop from the sky, do you want to see me suffering when they cut my stomach with big knife!" She glares at me cutely.
"Ofcourse I know babies does not drop from the sky, that's why I asked you if we should start working on it, and about them opening your tummy, their are other ways to my love" I don't know why I am uttering shit, goodness this is actually making me blush when my whole plan is to make her flustered.
A gasp leaves her lips and she lets out many Astaghfirullah's and that cute action of her's makes me burst in to fists of laughter which I was not able to hold back.
"Your so blunt and dirty" she grumbles on my chest as I hug tightly "Only for you baby, and anyways you didn't see my dirty speech yet" I whisper right near her ear only to earn another gasp from her innocent lips.
Laughing at how cute she is I snuggle closer hoping that she forgot the sadness she was feeling seconds ago.
Two week Later
"These sandwiches tastes so good" I moan when my tongue sends only dua's after dua's at how tasty it is. Licking my lips I look at the chuckling Ziyan who looks amused. I am eating something delicious after a week of only apples and medicines so this reaction is not dramatic but valid.
It's been a week since I left that damned closed room, with those ceiling which I still have hatred towards. And now I am sitting in Ziyan's comfortable bed feeling all happy at the way he is pampering me like I am child and not at all making me feel like I am burdening him which sometimes my heart tells me but I ignore the feeling of being a burden cause I am sure if Ziyan reads my mind and if he understands what I am thinking I would have to face his real wrath.
My hands are still not in a state of moving but I am capable of feeling things which the doctor tells is a very great improvement even though I don't feeling the same, Ziyan gives me a nice massage to my hands and legs every night which I am so in love with.
I open my mouth to take another bite of this delicious chicken sandwich that Ziyan has prepared for me.
When Loud noises was be heard from the outside and I take a peek at Ziyan who is having no expression on his face, gulping down my sandwich I keep my eyes on my lap when I see him giving me a glare.
"Ziyan you better open the door before I break it! What the hell are you trying to do?!" I flinch back when I hear sufiyan's loud voice followed by some whines of girls.
"Come on its the last bite" Ziyan casually tells ignoring the loud yells.
A smile forms on his lips when I innocently eat everything without questioning him. He grabs a water bottle and pulls of the pack of straws which makes me giggle "which one?" He playfully questions me and I immediately giggle out the pink "pink"
Nodding he takes the one I asked for before putting it inside the bottle of water so I can drink.
"I guess I need to buy more pink straws" he squints his eyes and I only laughs at this finding it so funny when their is nothing funny.
"Mamma I'll break the door, I am losing my patience" We hear Sufiyan's groan behind the door.
"She is my freaking sister! And I am hear restricted on seeing her! What the hell do you expect me to do? Stay calm!" His voice now louder than I thought.
Sufiyan is always patient and funny but I never thought he would be so angry ever in my life time.
Well, what Ziyan is doing is also wrong, he is not letting anyone see me. It's been 2 weeks since I've seen my friends and my cousins, Ziyan is not letting anyone see me or get near me cause he does not trust anyone to even look at me.
He is being so overprotective that I myself is surprised. Sufiyan, Nisma and Hafsa is so angry on him that they even curse my poor husband when they call me for not letting them see me.
The first day I stood up for them even when my legs are paralysed, I was shut up with a very dangerous glare which clearly tells me to go back to sleep and do not even interfere.
I do not blame Ziyan about it, I know I scared the hell out of him and he does not want to take anymore chances now, even if it's breaking ties with him brother or sister he is willing to do for me which Is something I don't like.
Ziyan runs his thumb on my lower lip and on the corner of my lip and I quickly give him a smile to not look like I was in deep thoughts.
"Do you want to sleep?" I shake my head since I am not at all feeling sleepy, humming he gets in the duvet with me.
"Then what do you want to do?" He questions me as he wraps his hand around my body and pulls me closer.
"Sufiyan, Nisma and hafsa are my cousins, I am sure I have no danger with them, can you please let them in?" I hesitantly start but hear him sighing.
"How are you sure that they are not the one who hurted you?" He asks gently and when I was about to reply a gasp leaves my lips and I hold his shirt tightly when someone kicks the door so loudly that it makes my heart jump out of my chest.
Aunty yells at Sufiyan before the yells get far away which tells me they left the place.
I am still in a state of shock, why would he kick the door like that and scare me, another harsh kick and I am sure the door would have broken.
Ziyan's rough yet cold hand cups my cheek and ever so gently he tilts my face "you okay?" He looks at me worried, when he sees my soul has left my face.
I nod at something which I myself is not sure about, but I hear him sighing as he leans forward and presses a gently kiss on my pouty lips.
"Ziah, Before when I knew about all this stupid shit the only thing I did was I asked everyone's help thinking if many know they can help me out of this, Sufiyan, Eric, Mateo, Max, Zach, your friends everyone knew about it and they gave suggestions but none worked so they wasted their time by being so careless about your life, and I am the most stupid here who trusted them thinking its nothing and now see what has happened, I took it light and left you alone and now I feel like killing myself when I see you sighing because your not able to tuck your hair behind your ear" he gently tells whatever is in his heart as he leans forward and tucks the strand of my hair behind my ear.
"I love you my love, I am trying to protect you, I don't care if it comes out harsh, rude or whatever you can phrase it as, what I know is, not letting anyone come near you is the only way I can protect you" gently placing a kiss on my cheek he caresses my lower lip.
"But what will they think? They will hold grudges against you, I don't want you guys to fight because of me" I speak in a quiet voice "do I look like I care about what they will think and what they wont?"
I roll my eyes at his bluntness "You don't, That's why I am telling you" he chuckles snuggling closer and he pampers my neck with gentle soft kisses.
"Forget about them, let's watch some nice movie hmm?" He again suggests politely and I again deny not feeling in the mood to watch anything.
"Do you want to do something else?" I again shake my head, I don't know why because of my disability I all of a sudden feel so frustrated that I just want to beat someone.
I shut my eyes close when I feel like screaming at nothing and when my hair irritates me more by itching my face, a tear slips down my face since I am not able to move them back.
"I hate myself" I mumble hiding my face in Ziyan's chest and he groans before pulling me closer "Ziah, what happened now?" He tilts my chin up and pecks my lips and I shake my head with a pout.
Wiping my tears with a smile he lays me down as he hovers over me, gently cupping my cheeks he places a soft kiss on my nose and my closed eye lids. And the way my heart is literally trying to touch his chest by beating so loudly tells how nervous I am.
A second ago I was sad and now I am flustered, this is why I love this guy.
"We will be going to Maldives in few days" my eyes automatically turns widens into the size of global earth when I hear her "sorry?" I look at him with eyes and he chuckles nodding.
"I am taking you their for atleast more that a week to a have peaceful stay without and disturbance, I even asked the doctor about it and she said it is a good Idea to take you out" he calmly tells as he caresses my cheek.
"Oh my goodness! Are you serious?!" I am giggling and jumping in his arms like a kid while he is sitting with a stiff body. But my happiness only ignores his silent behaviour.
My heard stops when she jumps on me and I quickly hold her by waist so she doesn't fall but my eyes drops on her legs which are now kneeing the bed.
Her legs? I give her bare legs a gently caress, since she is wearing my shirt only I am having a clear access of her bare legs.
"Ziah? Before where you able to sit on you knees my love?" I hesitantly ask and she shakes her head the smile still not dying but her eyes moves down when she sees me caressing her bare thighs and her eyes widens in shock before a gasp leaves her lips and she falls on the bed.
"Ziyan!!" Her hands are trembling as her jaw clenches which tells me she is trying to touch her legs so I help her do so, She screams loudly and I chuckle at how happy she looks, tears builds up in both of our eyes but I do not shed and she is already flowing rivers feeling so emotional.
"Let's trying walking hmm?" She nods and with a thumping heart I get down, pulling her on the corner of the bed and standing in front of her I gently take her hands in mine.
"In the count of three you will stand hmm?" Nodding she wipes her tears on her shoulder, I tightly hold her hands in mine "one, two, three" and with that she puts all her wait on my hand and tries standing up but bitterly fails so I quickly hold her by her waist.
"I-I I'll try again" she gulps down the lump forming on her throat and I nod giving her smile, my own eyes glistening with tears of hope.
Wrapping her hands around my neck I hold her waist tightly so she does not fall.
"Let's try again my love" I gently slide my hand from her waist to her stomach and up to her neck before cupping her cheeks gently I wipe her tears away.
"I love you so much my love, I love you" I remind her about how much I love before gently pressing my lips on her trembling ones to calm her down. I tilt my head to deepen the kiss as I claim her mouth with only love and multiple emotions. I gently part away to breath and not make oxygen a joke even when kissing her is so addicting.
"Your doing great" I whisper on her lips as I attach our forehead, gently sliding my fingers from her arm I hold her small hand which is fisted tightly around my neck.
"Come on" I peck her lips as I whisper over it but I see her shudder at my action. Her fists relaxes and I slowly take a hold of it to remove them from my neck.
"No! I will fall" Ziah cries shaking her head "No baby you wont, trust me" I place a gentle kiss on her cheek.
Nodding she gulps and I wipe her wet cheeks still holding her hands in mine.
"I am leaving your hands now" slowly I drop her lifeless hands on each side of her body and she quickly stumbles back out of fear but I hold her calming her down.
"Your doing great" I grin when I see her standing by herself "Let's try taking a step now" I move to hold her hands now.
"Lift your right leg up" her jaw clenches as she tries lifting her leg up, I am mentally praying to Allah to not make us suffer more and as if he heard my prayer, a tear slips down my eyes when she lifts her leg up and drops it on the ground and again lifts another leg up and drops it on the ground.
Her own eyes widening as she sobs louder and I feel so vulnerable that I am not able to hide my tears of joy.
Now she will be able to walk by her own.
"Ziyan! I want to hug you!" She cries standing in her place and I chuckle moving forward to quickly wrap my legs around her body and my heart literally jumps out of my chest when she jumps wrapping her arms around my body before wrapping her legs around.
"I missed hugging you!" She cries louder screaming her joy and I do not stop her this time.
"I am so happy" I twirl her around and she laughs looking as if she has won in life, and for me she actually won in her life just by dealing with this sudden disability, without going into any trauma because the first thing the doctor said was, 'I am afraid she might not talk and turn depressed which has happened in many cases before' that actually made me feel dead but when she was acting normal that's when Allah gave me back my soul.
Ziah's giggles fills the room followed by my laughter filled with nothing but happiness.
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A/n: That was a very late update! I was super duper busy that I was not even able to write after 1k words and today when I saw it's been five days I last updated I sat and completed this chapter and I hope I am not writing rubbish and making your mood dull. Do suggest me Ideas you want to see through Ziyan and Ziah. And thankyou so much for being so patient with my late updates. I am sure your cursing in your mind but please don't because I was genuinely busy.