Bom finally separated herself after the end of the movie.
Then, she started nibbling on the chocolate. With her arms wrapped around her knees, she ate one block of chocolate at a time.
Her vacant eyes were out of focus and she looked slightly mental at a glance. Her heart was still beating fast and her hands that were carrying the chocolate to her mouth were also trembling. She was so out of it that she didnât even notice a piece of melted chocolate dropping onto her gown.
He decided to not worry about it. A romantic feeling was a normal everyday emotion and was only a fragment of the countless emotions that budded while spending time with the hatchlings. It was nothing special or incredible, and was just slightly more stimulating than others.
Despite his emotions that were running amok, he did not forget his position nor his decision on how he should treat Bom. He had no plans of desiring anything more than this.
However, seeing her trembling hands that constantly dropped half-melted chocolate, he decided to clean them at least. It was by habit, like how he would wipe the biscuit crumbs off of Gyeoulâs face.
With that in mind, he touched her gown and that was when her vacant eyes regained its light. She slowly turned towards him with her eyes widened into circles.
It made him wonder what was so surprising about his actions. He reached his hand out a little further and she closed her eyes in response. She then turned tense and her shoulders rose up in nervousness as if there was a gun placed against her head.
Whatâs wrong with her? Upon some thought, he realised that she might have misunderstood his intention and retrieved his hand. She slowly opened her eyes with a squint and looked at him before heaving out a quivering sigh.
ââ¦I know everything and yet Iâm still like this.â
What?
ââ¦â
Bom placed one of the pillows in between her legs and closed them. Silence befell the room for a little. He wanted to ventilate his emotions in the meantime but that was when Bom carefully opened her mouth.
âOppa. I know but Iâm still worried so please let me say itâ¦â
âOkay.â
ââ¦â¦You canât.â
âI canât what.â
â?â
He pretended like he didnât know what she was talking about as doubt appeared on her face.
âAnyway, you canât.â
âI canât do what?â
âIf you do, my life will be overâ¦â
âLike I said, what are you talking about.â
ââ¦â
She looked very discontent. Suddenly, she threw her hand into the dimensional storage placed around her waist and took something out.
It was a pair of scissors. With that in hand, she glared at him.
ââ¦â
What.
âI know you fully understand what Iâm talking about.â
âI have no idea what you are on about.â
âWhat do you mean. Of course there is no way you donât have those, and, that kind of thoughts at all in your mind, right?â
âAre you talking about chocolate?â
He replied while tasting the remaining sweetness on his tongue. He wasnât expecting her to suddenly start such an open conversation with that as the topic but it was slightly dumbfounding that she had even prepared some scissors for it. On the other hand, he again felt another sense of deja vu because that just happened to be scissors.
( Ìâ¢Ïâ¢)â
Why was it scissors out of all things?
âCome on.â
Bom continued with a whine.
âWhy are you pretending like you donât know what Iâm talking about?â
âI know chocolate.â
âAre you really going to continue doing that? Iâm talking about something really serious here.â
âSerious? Do dragons get diabetes as well?â
âAhh.â
Bom rolled her tiny hand into a fist and hit her chest a few times out of frustration. The slight moment of amusement helped him refresh his mood more.
âYou know, that thing.
âThatâ¦
âThe thing thatâ¦â
With one beat in between, she continued saying âthatâ but he was still silent so she heaved a sigh and dropped the scissors. She blankly murmured, âWhat am I even talking aboutâ¦â and she seemed to be feeling slightly tired.
But she suddenly remembered something as tension disappeared from her face. She abruptly came closer towards him.
âBack then,â
âYeah.â
âWhen we first kissed.â
She was talking about the thing that happened at the lounge on the way back from the ruined ceremony.
Bom whispered with a suggestive voice, âWhy did you take my clothes off?â
Words disappeared from his mouth. He still had an indifferent look on his face but her eyes curved as if she had finally caught onto an opportunity.
In fact, Yu Jitae back then had no intention of doing anything. Him taking her clothes off was a process to confirm whether the emotions he had been feeling back then was that of a romantic one or not.
Of course, she probably wouldnât believe him even if he were to say that.
âWhat were you trying to do?â
So he didnât know what to say in return when Bom drew closer in and whispered after resting her chin on his shoulder.
âWhat were you going to do after stripping meâ¦?â
The whispering made it even harder to reply. It was clear that she was teasing him but that was fine. She would probably separate with a smile if he were to change the topic a little.
âI donât know what youâre talking about, but you should get some sleep. Iâm sure youâre tired.â
But in response, Bom gave an indifferent pout. The words that soon left her mouth included a word which had been completely out of his expectation.
âAre you castrated?â
He frowned. His expression was literally that of a question mark and Bom giggled after finally catching him off guard.
âYou understood what I was saying rightâ¦?â
ââ¦â
âWhy do you pretend like you donât knowâ¦â
The cover was blown.
Yu Jitae realised that acting clueless would no longer serve any purpose but at the same time, the doubt he had about Bom regarding that topic also strongly rose back up. He found the need to research into the somewhat strange action system of Bom.
Bom had romantic feelings for him.
Bom had no qualms with distance to the point that she would unhesitatingly be the one to initiate a kiss.
However, Bom felt very burdened about a sexual relationship.
Until now, he thought she was just afraid of the inexperienced field. But from what she was now saying, it seemed that going further would result in a big problem.
âSo, what is this serious thing that you were talking about.â
âSorry?â
âYou said the thing is not allowed. Why is that.â
That was when Bom once again regained a nervous look on her face. However, she asked him something else instead of answering his question.
âWhy are you trying to avoid it?â
âWell, thatâs because youâre feeling troubled by it.â
He expressed his thoughts but it was then. With a more profound gaze, Bom looked deeply into his eyes. The atmosphere around her eyes changed as her breath turned quiet.
ââ¦â¦Itâs more like you canât, right?â
âWhat?â
Thinking it was a continuation of that âcastratedâ stuff, he was wondering how to reply.
âI know there is something you are hiding from us oppa.â
But that was when Bom suddenly talked about something he hadnât even expected.
He gave a frown.
It was difficult to guess what she meant by âhidingâ.
âIâm not hiding anything.â
âYou can deceive everyone else but not me.â
âWhat do you mean.â
âYou see, I can look at one thing and understand a lot more than you might expect.â
âBom. You know how much time weâve spent together, and weâre always next to each other. What is there for me to deceive you guys on.â
The provocative atmosphere was long gone and the feeling given off by the surrounding air was that of a relatively sharp blade. With a sunken look on her face, Bom gazed at his hands before grasping it.
âIâve been finding it strange for a long time now.â
âFinding what strange.â
âActually, you werenât like that at the start. Oppa, you would always look at us as if we were things but that was completely normal. You were a dangerous person and for other people, you didnât even see them as things.â
It was an uncomfortable topic to talk about. He tried to pull his hand out but Bom resisted by clenching tightly with both of her hands.
âWhy are you like that?â
âI donât know what you mean. Stop saying something weird and let go.â
âYou have no idea, do you? The face you sometimes make after you started treating us like people and not things?â Bom bursted out with questions.
âWhat is this aboutâ¦â Saying that, he nonchalantly pulled his hand out. However, that wasnât the end â Bom suddenly stood up and fell on him. She opened her legs wide, sat on top of his stomach and pressured him from above. The weight, however, was meagre and it was similar to a cat staying on top of him but pushing her down would make it seem even weirder so he calmly stayed there gazing up at her.
As if she couldnât understand it, Bom looked at him with a slight frown and asked.
âWhy do you look so sorry when you are looking at usâ¦?â
Carried by an anchor, his emotions dropped. Those words struck at his eardrums and pierced through his brain.
âWhy do you look so sorry?â
He couldnât even think of a response.
Her words according to the [Eyes of Equilibrium] were true.
âThatâs nothing but an excuse right. Me feeling burdened, and that being the reason you donât crave for me. To be frank, thatâs just an excuse, isnât it?â
The words he had been telling himself in order to deceive even himself started being crushed by Bom. It had been completely outside his line of thought.
He had only been observing othersâ expressions and had never taken his own expression into consideration.
Since when?
Since when did he start facing the kids with such an expression?
âI donât know what you mean.â
The only excuse he could give was a short one. His crude words were resolute but Bom did not buy it.
âAre you sure you donât?â
âYes.â
âWill you continue denying it like that?â
âLike I said, I donât know what youâre talking about.â
ââ¦Then, do you want me to prove it?â
âProve what. Iâve never done such a⦠Oi.â
Yu Jitae hurriedly tried to stop her.
Bom placed her hands on the collars of her gown with her two cheeks flushed deeply in red. Despite also feeling troubled by the embarrassment, she moved her hands in order to find out the truth.
âYu Bom. Stop.â
She refused to stop. Her gown dropped behind her and revealed her body, which was not wearing any underwear. From mid-way she used her arms to support the gown to stop it from falling further down, but the top half of her body and the contours of her body connecting down from her collarbone was already on display. In that state, Bom pushed her body forward a little.
âHere, oppa. This is all yoursâ¦â
He turned stiff.
Because sheâs young. Because sheâs inexperienced. Because she is scared of sexual relationships and because she feels burdened by it. Since that had been the thought in his mind, he wasnât expecting her to do this at all.
In fact, she did seem troubled by it. Despite acting all brave, Bom could not even look straight into his eyes after actually dropping her clothes. But nonetheless, she did not seem to be planning on stopping with her âprovingâ process.
As if telling him to touch her, she used one of her hands to lift his hand by the wrist but he just could not cross the line any further.
Bom was right.
He had been trying to deny his emotions under the pretext that âBom was feeling burdened by itâ.
Yu Jitae knew it better than anyone himself.
He was only in this state because the thing called emotion was outside oneâs control, and he simply did not have the qualification to hold romantic feelings for her.
Because of that, he stopped his hands and retaliated no matter how much Bom tried to pull his hand up. âSee,â Bom opened her mouth with a slightly gloomy look on her face.
ââ¦You canât.â
He could not continue this conversation any further. He did not know how to reply when being interrogated in this kind of relationship so he resorted to blocking her mouth. That was still within the boundary that he had drawn.
âSo what is it? Why do you look so sorry when youâreââ
Yu Jitae pulled her by her wrists.
âUhb⦠Nnnââ¦â
Bom could not add any more words. Her mouth was blocked.
After the deep kiss, he calmly raised the sides of her clothes and dressed her back up. Bom was covering her face with both of her hands with a heated breath.
She was lost. This was not something that should be glossed over. It wasnât. Even though she knew it wasnât, Bom just could not make herself ask any more questions.
There was no longer any leftover chocolate.
*
It was morning.
The two of them did not say anything to each other even as they checked out of the hotel. Bom did not say anything so Yu Jitae likewise stayed silent.
This was a sort of escape but there were some things in this world that had to be avoided, at least in his opinion.
Only after grabbing his hand to [Teleport (S)] back home did Bom open her mouth.
Anything would be fine.
He had already thought of multiple possible excuses but Bom once again spoke of something that was outside his expectation.
âActually, I didnât talk about it with the other kids.â
With a refreshing look on her face, she gave a bright smile.
He felt something dark crawling up inside his heart. It soon became a drop of poison that seeped into his veins.
âYouâve always given us good things, so we can trust you.â
If he said something here, would anything have been different?
âSo after we go back, stop feeling so sorry to us. Okay?â
However, he did not say anything. He could only habitually hug Bom, who had naturally walked into his arms.
The Regressor had to protect the daily lives.
ââ¦We will always believe you.â
Even if it was full of deceit.
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[2431⦠Hehe, the diary is not over yet]n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om
[Yu Bom hasnât become whale food yet haha;]
[â¦hehehehehehe;;]
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[2432. That was the sweetest vacation of my lifeâ¦â¥]
She drew another heart at the front page before closing it.
[Ahjussi Observation Diary â¥â¥â¥â¥]
But after pondering about the thing she saw from the side of her vision, she noticed that there was something written on the next page.
Tilting her head, Bom turned to the next page. The moment she saw the words written in a messy handwriting, her face turned red like a radish.
[Thanks for the interesting read lol]
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After a few seconds, a loud roar going âYu Yeoooruuuummmâ!!â echoed all across Unit 301.