Chapter 80: Caught in between

Chaos In My MindWords: 965

I'm breathing slowly

between waking and dreaming

but if it's not a dream right now

What is its meaning?

His hand brushed softly through my hair,

a gentle touch,

I feared the silence would break if he knew

That what I felt, was this much

How easy it could be to cross that line,

To let this friendship change its name,

Yet something holds me back, a whisper, a sign,

That tells me love always ends the same

A fragile line between what is and could be,

A friendship steady, yet so close to more,

But what if love fades and leaves us broken,

What if I lose what I most adore?

His heart is pure like gold

and his hair smells like summer rain

His soul is why I can't take the chance

Can't risk to cause him any pain.

Not for mine, but for his sake,

Afraid that if I fail, he'd break

So here I stay, between waking and dreaming,

Silencing my heart's loud screaming,

And though it whispers, “what if,” I must say,

For both of our sakes, I’ll keep those thoughts away