Chapter 152: nothingness

Chaos In My MindWords: 474

I lay in my room,

alone and cold.

Nothing to look forward to,

nothing to hold.

My smile was lost,

So long ago.

My laughter, gone,

Away my glow.

I look outside,

and all looks grey.

I lost all strength to move,

All I can do ist stay.

I know I should do more,

but all I can do is less,

I'm stuck in my own body

Stuck in this nothingness.

I know there are things I have to do,

things I enjoy doing as well.

But I can't move,  I can't break free,

Of my own head, of my own hell.