Rachel
"When dating it's important that the couple is not unequally yolked meaning you guys are on the same path/ have the same mindset spiritually, " Tara our leader for the evening said.
Out of all the days...out of all the things we could have talked about tonight...put of all the days. I sighed and got a quick glance at Matt. Out of all the days...
"Men love their wives as Christ loves the church. Women submit to their husbands. Now don't get me wrong please lovingly correct your husband if he is doing something that is not right. The same goes for men but I'm focusing on the women tonight because this is important. The husband in the relationship is supposed to lead his house closer to Christ. Why do you God would kill evil men wives and children as well? Because He is cruel? Absolutely not. Because men were the primary example of their household. Whatever they did their family would do also. Maybe not in the same manner but evil would still run throughout the family. Why? Because they looked up to their father/husband. Take Hayman for an example. Do you really think his children and wife would change just like that and turn to God? Think about it as we begin to wrap up, "
She had a point. A major point. My heart always hurt for in the infants that lost their lives because of their families wrongdoing. I always used to ask God why. Now it makes sense. Some of those infants could rest with Him in heaven a far better plan than growing older and walking the path to hell.
Tara wrapped up the night with prayer and we helped ourselves to pizza and punch.
Matt kept his distance and I'm not gonna lie I was kind of nervous. We haven't been seeing each other lately but it was like it was on purpose and when we did see each other everything was fine. Tonight something was off.
Kate and I hung out with some friends from our classes. We were talking about midterm a when Matt slipping through the door caught my eye. Weird.
Later that night Kate and I walked to our dorms and we watched War Room.
I heard sniffles coming from beside me. "Kate, you okay?"
"He's giving her a pedicure, " she said wiping a tear. "I would never do that for my man, " she finished and I busted out laughing.
We finished the movie and the time said 10 pm. "I'm gonna start getting ready for bed, " I said getting off the floor. A knock came from the door and I looked at Kate.
"Well you're already up so go get it, " she said.
I walked over to the door and opened it to find Matt in a hoodie and some sweatpants. "Hey, there partner," I said.
"Can we talk?" he asked.
"You know you've been getting real comfortable around here lately, " Kate yelled but he didn't pay her any attention.
"Can we talk?" he asked again.
"Sure, " I said pulling my jacket closer together as I stepped out into the hallway closing the door behind me.
Kate opened it and said "Hey Squidward if she's not back in 10 I will recreate the movie Mowgli except there will be no village coming to your rescue, "
"She'll be back in five, "
"She better, " she said closing the door.
We walked along the corridor before Matt stopped and turned to face me.
"At first I was getting to know Christ because of you. I really liked you and I wanted you to give us a chance. So my plan was to know enough about Him so we could become a thing. All that has changed. I can't help but want to get to know Him not for you but for myself. He's so awesome. He fed over 5,000 people Rachel and He healed the bound and sick. Heck, He raised Lazarus from the dead...and He saved my life by dying on that cross for me, " he said giving me a weak smile.
I smiled back tears forming in my eyes as he continues talking. I was so happy for him.
" I want to get to know Him, Rachel. I want to know him on a personal level knowing about Him is just not enough, " he paused before continuing again.
" I wanna love you as Christ loves the church but I can't if I don't know what love is. He is love. I wanna love God so much so I can love you. I want to learn from the best, "
Tears were beginning to fall now and I was not a pretty crier. He wiped them away.
"I guess I'm saying that my focus is on God not you and it's okay to do whatever you want from here on out. I'll be happy for you either way. And when I'm done with what I want to accomplish...if it's in His will I will find you and pursue you and love you and lead you even closer to him for the rest of my life. Not my will but His will be done, " he finished.
-------------------------------------------------------Who is cutting onions? ðð¾ââï¸ I didn't want to leave y'all hanging. I just realized I'm on chapter seventeen and I wanted to finish this book at chapter 25 that's not gonna happen so I'm aiming for 30. I'll see y'all today, tomorrow, or next week. Not next month though lol so you can breathe a bit.