Ji Qingxue brought water and slowly wiped Su Zhiming's body to cool her down.
Bai hang kept outside the door all the time, but he kept thinking about Su's apology.
If it's really because of what I said
Guilt appeared in Bai Xing's eyes. He grew up in the family and rarely contacted outsiders. Naturally, he didn't know how to get along with outsiders.
Like is like, don't like is don't like. He is used to such direct and straightforward expression.
Sue knew that looking at his eyes hid too much emotion in it. His instinctive rejection, she put the thoughts of others on herself.
Although Bai Xing didn't know what had happened to her, he also hoped that she would not be confined to the past, so he said those words to her and broke her mind.
But he didn't expect that he would not only break Su's mind, but also almost kill her.
Ji Qingxue gave her a needle. After a long time, Su knew that she slowly woke up, but the whole person was still dizzy and confused.
"Know?"
Ji Qingxue called her, but Su knew that she just opened her eyes without any response or anger.
It was as if she had no desire to survive.
Somehow, Ji Qingxue's heart suddenly remembered a sentence: sorrow is no greater than heart death.
"Know what happened to you? How did you become like this?"
No matter what Ji Qingxue said to Su, she didn't respond, which made her anxious.
When the servants said that sue knew she was ill but didn't let them go to the doctor, she should have guessed.
Su knows that this is more like torturing himself with illness.
How can she save a person who has no desire for survival?
At this time, the servant had fried the medicine. Bai Xing took the medicine bowl and said, "I'll just send it."
Bai Xing turned and knocked at the door: "Lord Wu Xian, the medicine has been fried."
"You send it in."
As soon as Bai Xing came in, he saw Ji Qingxue's sad face. His heart couldn't help clicking: "Lord Wu Xian, what's the matter? She, is she seriously ill?"
Ji Qingxue nodded calmly: "well, it's very serious."
I don't want to live anymore. Do you think it's serious?
Bai Xing's hand carrying medicine can't help exerting force. Even Lord Wu Xian feels difficult. Won't she really be hopeless?
Ji Qingxue gives Su know the medicine, but Su knows she won't drink it at all. Ji Qingxue roars angrily: "Su knows you're not going to die, do you?"
Sue ignored her and completely ignored her anger.
"Sorry, sorry, sorry..."
She kept apologizing. Her whole brain was about to explode.
Bai Xing grabbed the medicine bowl in Ji Qingxue's hand, sat by the bed and fed her, said stiffly: "Su knows, you give me medicine!"
After hearing Bai Xing's voice, Su knew that she seemed to be a little refreshed.
"Brother Bai Xing?"
The dry and cracked lips gently called out this title. Bai Xing's eyebrows jumped. He "um" responded to her words: "drink medicine well, so that he can get better, you know?"
"Are you really brother Bai Xing?" Su knew that he slowly opened his eyes and was at a loss, "but isn't brother Bai Xing dead?"
Yes, brother Bai Xing died to protect himself.
Like others in the orphanage said, she was a lonely star. Even the only person who cared about and cared for herself was killed.
Since brother Bai Xing is dead, why are you still alive?
Hearing that Bai Xing was dead, Bai Xing and Ji Qingxue looked at each other. Their eyes were very complex.
Bai Xing finally understood why Su always looked at him with such sad eyes.
He felt even more guilty. He was even a little angry. Why did he think he had to say those words at that time?
Didn't you put up with it several times before? Why say something that hurt her like that.
"Brother Bai Xing is dead, he is dead!"
The man on the bed suddenly collapsed and cried. Bai Xing immediately put down the medicine bowl and took her into his arms. He almost subconsciously said, "no, I'm not dead. I'm here. You see, I'm here."
Ji Qingxue sighed and withdrew from the door. It seemed that Bai Xing was the best medicine to cure her.
Bai Xing patted her on the back and coaxed her: "how about drinking medicine?"
Sue shook her head and said stubbornly, "I know brother Bai Xing will look at me only when I am ill, so I don't want to get better."
Bai Xing said seriously, "nonsense!"
Su Zhiming's eyebrows softened: "brother Bai Xing, are you angry? Angry that I didn't go with you, so I didn't want to see me in my dream all the time, did you?"
Bai Xing frowned and listened to her self-talk: "the fire should have taken me away. If it wasn't for saving me, you wouldn't... you should be the one who should live! They're right. I'm the lone star of Tiansha. I've killed my parents and even you. Why didn't I die? Why didn't I die!"
Bai Xing had guessed the whole story, and he began to feel a little distressed.
How many things did she bear alone?
This is the first time Bai Xing looked at Su know from the perspective of Bai Xing. He gently said, "no, I never blame you."
Su was immediately stunned. Her wronged expression was like a child who did something wrong: "then why don't you come to see me in your dream?"
"Because I'm angry."
Su was puzzled: "angry?"
"Yes, angry!" Bai Xing held her shoulders and said in an unprecedented seriousness, "I saved you in the hope that you can live well. But you don't cherish yourself at all. How can I not be angry?"
"Brother Bai Xing." Su knew and looked at him askew. "You've been angry and hiding from me because I don't cherish myself?"
Bai Xing nodded and then said solemnly, "I'm willing to save you. Don't blame all your mistakes on yourself. You should live well. You know, your life is my own life. If you have another good or bad, how can you afford me?"
Looking at Su, who was confused but very frightened, Bai Xing silently apologized in his heart. I'm sorry to pretend to be your brother Bai Xing. But I really hope you can live well from now on.
In fact, sometimes people who leave may not be painful, but those who survive have to bear everything.
"Sue knows that from now on, you don't live for yourself, do you know?"
Instead of me, you should see the mountains and rivers you have never seen, taste the delicious food you have never tasted, and live a carefree life.
Bai Xing picked up the medicine bowl and fed the medicine to her mouth: "come on, drink the medicine."
Things change. Someone has to leave first. Looking back, the missed will go far.
And those left can only continue to carry the weight.