Chapter Thirty-Four: No Tears Left To Cry

I gave my mother another hug as I utter my good byes. Jack is still giving me crap but wished me good luck.

I told them I'll bring Tatum soon to meet them, I've been preoccupied with what I'm supposed to do tonight.

I reserved us a table in a restaurant for tonight. I'll be taking her to the fair and as much as I hate heights I'll ask her to ride the ferris wheel and once where settled on top, I'll kiss her and I will ask her to marry me.

I prepared for this shit. Reciting my lines in my head over and over again. Jack was no help. He was just stressing me out.

I didn't know I was thinking so much when I passed by the familiar building.

Goddammit I passed our apartment complex!

I took the U-Turn and then parked the car in the basement parking.

My heart is racing.

I'm going to apologize first then ask her our to dinner and then I will take her to the fair and then I'll ask her to marry me.

What if she says no?

No! Stop over thinking, shit!

Don't screw it up, Luke!

You've caused her more damage than a bulldozer could squash a car.

I was hesitant to push the elevator button but I did anyway.

When I got up to our floor I felt nervousness and nausea but I didn't care.

I noticed that the front door was open.

It was weird though. I know we're the only ones who lives in this floor at the moment but that doesn't mean Tatum will leave the door open whenever she feels like to.

There's something not right.

I hurried to get inside. The place looked spotless and clean, nothing's missing, its quiet as well.

"Tatum?" I called out.

No one answered.

I opened the bathroom door she wasn't there.

"Babe?" I exclaimed climbing up the stairs.

The bed wasn't made and the bedroom's bathroom is closed.

I knock.

"Baby? You in here?" There was no answer.

I turned the knob open for it was unlock. No one is here.

I'm confused. I dialed Tatum's number.

I help my phone on my ear, I closed the door and stood by the broken vanity mirror.

Remind me to buy her a new one, I'm fucking stupid for breaking it. I looked at my hand and glared at the almost healing flesh from the impulsive act I've regretted that I ever did.

She looked so scared at me. I hate it. I shook my head trying to clear the picture out of my head.

"The number you have dialed doesn't exist. Please try-" I ended the call.

Doesn't exist? What does that supposed to mean?

My heart is trying to jump out of my chest and I couldn't help but worry.

I suddenly noticed something on the floor.

It was Tatum's phone and it was cracked into pieces like it was harshly thrown on the floor and been stepped on over and over.

My throat went dry.

Something's not right.

I ran my way back to the elevator and into the ground floor, where the girl who asked me to sign the lease papers the first time we arrived here was standing behind the front desk.

I made way towards her.

"Woah, is there something I could help you with, Sir? You look really tense-"

"Can you please tell me if you saw my girlfriend? She was this tall and has dark blondish brownish hair I don't know what color it's called. She's beautiful and-"

"Oh yeah, they came down here and a day ago and left. It was really weird tho she was crying and-"

"They?"

She nodded, "Uh yeah, I guess it was her mother or aunt? I don't know they were with two other body guards and I don't know where they went. She looked really scared and they were kind of in a heated argument."

I felt my world stop in just a split of 0.001 second. No. This can't be happening.

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Tatum

"W-who?" I asked in disbelief.

"Mr. Hemmings. He said he came to-"

"Did he tell you why?"

She shook her head, "Only that he wanted to talk to you."

I closed my eyes, "Please tell him that I don't want to see him."

I know I'm lying to myself but..I think this is for the best.

"Miss, give him a chance. The man deserves it."

"No, Nana. You don't know what happened and-"

"Please, Miss. I know about the both of you."

My eyes widened in disbelief, "W-what are y-you saying?"

"I know you were together. I've seen the both of you many times. So please, Miss. Just try."

I feel completely frozen on the bathroom floor right now. Trying my best to sink everything in me.

How long did she know? What did she mean when said that she saw us a couple of times together?

I bombarded myself with questions only she could answer but I find it hard to ask her, my throat felt like I just swallowed a giant pill and my lips are trembling.

"C'mon, Miss. I'll help you up." She exclaimed almost carrying me back to stand up.

My knees turned to jelly and I suddenly felt really weak like I couldn't move. My arms and legs limp like noodles.

Nana managed to help me cleaned up.

I stared at the mirror not being able to recognize the girl in front of me.

She has blood shot eyes, her cheek bones hollow, skin paler than ever, her hair is dull and her lips chapped. Cheeks tear stained. To tell her that she looks like shit is an understatement.

I tried to carry myself out of the bathroom and in my bedroom and out the hallway down the stairs.

I was frozen in the middle of the stairs. Shattered pieces of what's left of my heart turned into dust.

He looks like he's not my Luke. He as well looked like me if I could say the least.

I couldn't move, or even take another step.

"Don't worry about your mother, she left a few minutes before he arrived." Nana whispered and I nodded.

I held unto the railings as I try to keep myself steady as I descend.

I caught his eye and he didn't hesitate to meet me halfway and pulling me into a hug, a tight one.

He peppered me with kisses. Not afraid of who could see it. He didn't let go of me, we just stood there. His arms around me whilst mine are still limp on my sides.

"Baby, I missed you oh my god. Are you okay?" He asks pulling away after leaving a kiss on my forehead.

I didn't answer. I feel so mad at him, angry even. I just..couldnt stand breathing the same air with him in the same room.

"Baby, are you alright? Please..please talk to me-" He leaned down to my level so we could see each other fave to face. "Baby, I'm sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen. I just have to sort things out and now that I did I-"

"You shouldn't have-" I blurted, looking away and pulling away from his grip.

"W-what are you saying?"

"You didn't have to come back for me, Luke." I exclaimed sternly.

"Of course I have to. I love you. I can't just stand and do nothing. That's why I'm here I'm going to-"

"Don't bother."

"Baby, listen to me. Were going to start over and tell your-"

"Don't call me that. It's too late to change everything. I'm going to have to marry Calum, Luke. My mother wouldn't have it any other way."

"But you're pregnant. I'm going to be a dad and were going to be parents, Tate! You can't just marry someone and tell me everything's going to be alright. We don't have to hide this anymore. Let's talk to your mother."

I shook my head, "Do you think she's going to accept this? If she knew that you and I had some sexual relationship before you even broke it off with your ex wife she'll definitely go ballistic! She will put you to jail and worst your reputation in your business as well. If she also knew that I was with you when I disappeared, she will accuse you of kidnapping. Luke, I don't want that to happen-"

"Baby, I don't care if I live in a stenchy old apartment with you and our kids. I'll work 5 jobs if I have to. I'll do anything..anything, just please!" His voice was in panic and he started kneeling on the floor. "You don't know how much I want you and our child. Just please-"

I can't help but drown myself again in tears, "I don't want to let the both of you go but I have to-"

"What d-do you mean let us both go?" He looked up, "Are you going to get an abortion?" Tears were flowing down his angelic face.

I couldn't help but cry. I'm in pain. I nodded.

"No no no..please-" He hugged my thighs tighter, his head resting on my lower belly as he continue to sob. "Baby please..we could get through this please. No, I don't want to loose you. I can't..I can't. No!" He was almost shouting.

My heart is pounding and I couldn't breathe it feels like daggers are ripping me apart as I hear his painful sobs. This is the first time I heard him beg and cry like this. He looks so vulnerable and I couldn't take it.

I want to give in, tell him I love him so much and he is the best thing that happened to me and that my baby is lucky to have him as a father and we could runaway again but I can't. I have to let him go or my mother will do everything to rip us apart within her power.

"Please, don't kill our baby." He sobbed, kissing my lower belly.

"Luke, you're making this hard for the both of us."

"But we could be a family again. I know I was an idiot for leaving you but I had a good reason why. If you could just please give me a chance. Baby, I swear everything's going to be alright-"

"Luke, I tried to think past all of this. Its not going to work. If we continue this we wouldn't have any idea what my mother is in store for the both of us or our child." I was sobbing, "Please stand up," I grabbed his forearm pulling him.

He stood up and hugged me, nestling his head on the crook of my neck as he sob, I can feel his tears on my skin.

I held on to him for the last time.

We stood there like that for what seems like forever and an hour but in reality it was just in minutes.

"Can I kiss you?" He asked.

I nodded.

He tilted my chin with his thumb and index finger and leaned in. Our lips crashed for the last time I felt the sparks that I've never felt with anyone else. His tongue slid down my bottom lip, begging for entrance so I let him by parting my lips enough to squeeze his tongue in. Our tongues moved in sync and I closed my eyes savoring the last moment of his touch. His hand trailed to the back of my neck and pressed me harder as we kiss.

We were passionate and in love but sometimes the best things that you have needs to be let go and set free especially if its not really meant to be.

I sobbed against his lips and I felt his lips tremble because of crying, our foreheads pressing against each other.

I looked him one last time, my hands cupping the both of his face.

"I love you." He whispered.

"I will always love you." I sobbed just staring at his pale icy blue eyes.

"Always." He breathed out before pulling away.

I stood in front of him, hugging my stomach and tried my best to quiet down my crying.

He took a step back. Giving me one last glance before leaving.

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T H E E N D

LOL JK IM TOTALLY FUCKIBG WITH YOU GUYS HAHA I needed to lighten up the mood BC fuck u guys look horrible, i cried writing this like my heart is being ripped out and its like falling down my stomach and its being pinched by needles ughhh so I don't know if u guys did feel it too or cry but if u ddnt then bruh u need a heart and imagination lol

My heart hurts rn BC 1, shit is going down the next chapters and 2, this book is about to end like maybe 3-5 chapters or 8?

If this chapter is heartbreaking then u must prepare for the next ones BC shit istg