Chapter 107: Chapter 55.1

What’s wrong with him?

Cassian wasn’t thinking clearly.

He was supposed to go slow because it was evident that Yernia would get scared if he blindly took her clothes off and attacked her.

To him, he was kissing someone he was comfortable with.

Stupid Yernia thought this was nothing but ‘guidance’.

Strangely enough, he was satisfied with that.

But what’s wrong now?

“I feel uncomfortable sharing a room with you, Cassian.”

She lowered her head and he tried so hard to make eye contact with her as she held him.

“Is it because I asked about your future plans?”

“No. I’ve been thinking about that ever since.”

“Why?”

“Why? I know that we are married. But we don’t have to sleep in the same room.”

“You just kissed me. And, now you’re going to pretend you hate me?”

Yernia faltered.

Cassian hugged her waist tightly, and she struggled to escape from it.

“Let’s just hold hands the next time I will guide you. I don’t know why I did it, but this isn’t it.”

“Why not?”

“…….”

“I have a reason.” Yernia refused to answer, but Cassian didn’t let go.

“You’re acting strange, Yernia. I can’t get used to it.”

Yernia’s face paled. “Don’t you think it’s stranger to do something like this all the time?”

Cassian shook his head a little, pretending to dislike it. “I can control myself well, but it’s getting harder to suppress my desire for you, Yernia.”

“I don’t think it’s extreme enough to rush it. I hope you can lower that intensity a bit.”

Yernia said it didn’t matter to her, but Cassian refused to agree.

Cassian must have done something to shake her heart, just like she did him.

That must be why she was conscious of herself around him.

He must take this chance to seduce his wife even more.

“Guiding me with your hand will not suppress my powers, you know?”

“But, you’ve done so well with an inhibitor in the past.”

It would be a lie if he said it was enough.

Cassian was a powerful Esper who needed a solid guide to controlling him.

Holding hands would work to some extent, but he needed more than that to calm down.

Cassian had held Yernia’s hands in the past, but she had no idea that he met with inhibitors to hold his powers back.

This time, she was suspicious of how he couldn’t accept holding hands as a method of guiding.

He couldn’t admit that he felt much better when her guidance leveled up to kissing.

“I can’t live with just holding hands, Yernia. You must have been annoyed that I’m acting like a beggar. Being an Esper had turned me into this.”

“Why do you think being an Esper equates to being a beggar?”

“Why not? I suffer every day because of my condition. I can’t even sleep properly.”

Yernia flinched and took a good look at him.

He looked pitiful at the moment.

“I had no idea. When did your insomnia start?”

“Even before we got married. It still happens to this day.”

Cassian had a hard time sleeping sometimes.

There were times when Yernia had accidentally touched his chest, waking him up.

Then, he would end up watching Yernia all night, and she wouldn’t even notice.

“Let’s just hug and kiss each other once a week. How about that?”

Instead of merely holding his hand, she offered to embrace him.

Still, he wasn’t satisfied.

Cassian wanted to say ‘no’, but Yernia might find it hard to stand by her decision due to her generosity.

He enjoyed getting Yernia into trouble, but he decided to suppress his dissatisfaction for now so that she wouldn’t run away from him.

“Once a week.”

“…….”

“Alright. I will not compromise any less than that.”

Yernia sighed as she reluctantly accepted.

Before she knew it, she was staring at his handsome face with great affection.

Then, both of them holding hands as they headed for the room.

***

It was the first time she knew of Cassian’s insomnia.

She couldn’t believe she hadn’t slept well since their marriage.

Yernia had given up planting her flowers and tucked her husband in bed.

As Cassian looked up at Yernia, she covered his eyelids with the palm of her hand.

“Sleep with your eyes closed.”

“I have so much work to do, but I had no time left.”

“Sleep, or you might collapse.”

He was fortunate that he hadn’t collapsed yet.

Why did Vasil leave Cassian alone even if he tried to stop him?

If Yernia had been his father, the Grand Duke, he wouldn’t have made Cassian work like a horse by telling him not to dream.

She wouldn’t even dream about the Duke becoming her father if all he knew in his life was to work.

Cassian had lost his mother and also got married because of his uncontrollable powers.

Indeed his abilities had caused him a lot of suffering.

“Hurry up and sleep. I’ll hug you from the side..”

“…….”

“You’ll feel better if you force yourself to sleep even if you feel like you can’t. That’s how you’ll regain your strength.”

He tried to get up, but she pulled her back down.

Anyway, he adored Yernia as his guide.

It calmed him down, and he feared that she didn’t share the same sentiment.

Yernia lay down next to him and hugged him.

His heart was pounding so hard and fast he could hear it himself.

Yernia must have heard it too.

“Why is your heart beating so fast?”

“It’s always like must be because I’m an Esper.”

Something felt wrong, but Yernia didn’t dare argue.

She had no idea what was happening to him because she wasn’t an Esper.

Instead, her hand swept Cassian’s back.

She must have picked that gesture from her parents because that was what they would do to make her sleep better.

Yet, the more she did it, his back stiffened even more.