twenty two

hi i missed youuuu

✪pirate is online!

blossom: hey, sorry we haven't spoken in a while

pirate: blossom

pirate: im so glad you messaged me, ive been meaning to talk to you.

pirate:you haven't made a firm decision about flying here yet, have you?

blossom: no, why would you ask that?

pirate: things are just crazy at work for me right now. so before you talk with your dad, check with me beforehand, okay?

blossom: yeah okay, ive been pretty busy too actually

pirate: so just let me know?

blossom: okay, you know know I never rush into anything.

pirate: you're not mad at me, are you?

blossom: why would you think that?

pirate: im just worried you think im being weird for telling you to check in with me before you come to la

blossom: im not mad

blossom: I thought you knew me better

pirate: is that a joke? I can't tell

blossom: sometimes it's hard to tell someones tone online

blossom: im too busy to talk right now, ill catch you later

"here" I look up from my book and see my grandma walking into my room, throwing something on my bed.

ive barely had any sleep and my body is feeling it.

I am exhausted.

I'd worked all day and been on my toes but kai hadn't been in work which sucked.

i needed someone to annoy me and get my mind off billie.

id heard nothing from billie either.

I don't know whether to panic or not but id not touched my phone since I came home.

that doesn't mean I check every time it lights up to see if it's billie or not.

I don't know whether to freak out or not.

ive heard nothing.

what if she's dead?

"what is this?" I put my book down and hesitantly pick up the brown paper bag.

"I know about you" she raises her brow at me and I look up at her with wide eyes.

what the fuck is she talking about?

"grandma im so confused"

I hesitantly reach into the bag and pull out a box and immediately scream and throw it across the room.

why the fuck did my grandmother just give me a vibrator.

my grandma laughs at me and walks closer to my bed, perching on the bed.

"I got my hair done today and I was talking to my hair stylist and she was telling me about how amazing vibrators are and I thought you might like one"

"why the fuck did you think I wanted a vibrator?"

"because you masturbate and I thought this might help"

"and how would you know I masturbate?"

"well honey when I was your age it helped me pass the time. thought it was gonna rub my clit off I was touching it so much"

oh my fucking god.

"grandma! I don't wanna know!"

"it's perfectly normal baby, there's no need to be embarrassed"

is this really happening right now?

am I dreaming right now?

"okay thank you grandma"

"let me know if it's any good, okay? im going to see harry at his office so I can steal some more cute clothes"

"okay, goodbye"

harry always gives clothes to my grandma and I think that's why she loves him so much.

I still don't know what they are but right now I don't have the time nor energy to think about their relationship.

especially when I have a vibrator on my bedroom floor.

I check the time and my mind immediately goes to billies dance class finishing in half an hour.

I wonder if she worked today.

without overthinking it, I order myself an uber and jump up, changing my outfit before I change my mind.

I opt for an oversized jumper which is so long, it almost hits my knees and I pair it with over the knee socks and my docs, spritzing on a little extra perfume so I smell nice.

I just about pack up my bag when I get a notification saying my uber is outside.

I guess im going to see billie.

on the drive I can't help but be nervous.

is this a bad idea?

am I doing the right thing?

it doesn't take long to arrive to rich bitch dance studio and I push the door open, walking in.

"good evening ma'am, how can I help you?" the receptionist smiles and I scan my surroundings, walking closer to the desk.

"hi, I was wondering if billie is here, im sage"

"oh it's so lovely to meet you, she's in a private lesson at the moment, would you like me to go and get her?"

"no its okay, I'll wait for her"

"okay that's no problem, you're welcome to a drink or food from the vending machine down there" she points down the corridor and I thank her, walking down to the vending machine.

I pull my wallet out and pick out some m&ms sliding the five dollar bill into the vending machine.

while I wait for my m&ms I notice a wall full of fingerprints with names underneath.

rich bitch students is written on the top and I run my fingers over the fingerprints, scanning my name over all of the names and dates.

my fingers pause on the fingerprint which has my breath caught in my throat.

pirate 14

oh my fucking god.

pirate danced here?

this was dated to when she was thirteen.

what the fuck.

I snap a photo and hold my finger over the tiny fingerprint, almost as if im touching her, and pick up my m&ms wandering around.

theres a few group photo of dancers but I walk straight past them, not wanting to find pirate.

I don't want to find her like this.

the receptionist is on the phone and she's got such a kind face.

I sit back down and quietly open up my m&ms, quietly attempting to eat them.

after the receptionist ends the call and looks up at me.

"so sage, billie tells me you work at 10,000 hours right?"

billie talks about me?

"yes ma'am"

"you should come to one of her dance classes"

"oh" I blush "I don't really dance"

a delivery man pushes the door open with few boxes and the receptionist turns her attention to him.

I pull my phone out an see a message from gabrielle.

we've spoken a few times but I haven't had the chance to meet up with her since the disaster my gaydar created.

gabrielle: hey, you free to go get some food soon? I need your opinion on some outfits for peach festival

before I text back, the door swings open and a little girl walks out in a leotard and ballet tights.

her mom walks through the doors and suddenly I don't feel comfortable here.

"go back and see billie, she's in studio two"

okay im doing this.

I walk through the doors and see studio two to the left of me, glass see-through door.

before I walk in I spot billie moving around, dancing like she's a ballerina.

there's music playing but I can't really hear it.

im just captivated by the way billie is gliding across the floor despite her injuries last night.

her eyes are closed and when she told me she feels music in her soul, I understand.

her body is moving so effortlessly.

I stand and watch her for a moment before pushing the door open.

i've never heard this song before but it's so beautiful.

billies eyes shoot open and she almost rips over and I gasp when I look at her face.

holy shit.

billie runs over and pauses the music, pushing her hair out of her face.

"hey princess, how bad does it look?"

uh....

"you look fine, how are you feeling?"

"as bad as I look" billie waves me inside and starts clearing away her things.

she winces when she leans down and I drop my bag, going over to help her.

"what are you doing here princess?"

actually...I do like it when she calls me princess.

reminds me when billie and I kissed and it left my underwear damp.

"I haven't heard from you and I wanted to make sure you didn't die"

"well im not dead baby" billie smiles and it makes me knees shake.

baby.

"okay great" billie steps forward and I step backwards. "now I know you're okay, im just gonna-" I point to the door with my thumb and billie smirks.

"woah woah woah, not so fast princess, c'mere"

I drop my bag and walk closer to her and billie holds her hands out, taking my own.

"don't go all shy on me" billie pushes her body flush against mine and my body tingles. "especially when last night" billie lets go of my hands and grips onto my waist.

"you had your tongue down my throat" billie leans forward and kisses me gently on the lips.

one kiss turns into more and my body doesn't even care that the door is see-though and anyone could walk in on us.

there's too many tingles being ignited by billie's every touch.

her hands are running over my body and mine tug in her hair and she groans in my mouth, pulling me closer.

my phone starts ringing and I pull away, knowing if it's my grandma, I need to answer it.

"hold on"

I walk over to my bag, wiping my mouth and I bend over, grabbing my phone out of my body.

billie whistles from behind me and I realise I probably just flashed her my panties.

fuck.

'kai' flashes on the screen and I furrow my brows, answering. "hey, everything okay?"

"why are you at billies dance studio?"

"huh?"

"don't you forget we share a location baby sage?"

"I'll call you later" kai laughs loudly and I pull my phone away from my ear, ready to end the call but not before I hear them yelling 'wear protection'.

im definitely turning my location off.

"kai?"

"how did you know?"

"I hard their laugh"

while I have my phone, I text gabrielle back, making plans to meet up with her.

billie comes up behind me and runs her fingers up the inside of my long hoodie, fingers tracing the lace along my underwear.

"princess, you look so sexy in red"

she lets go of me and walks over to grab her bag. "come on princess, lemme take you home"

it's been a minute.

i'm sorry guys, i started a new job and recently i've been working so much (twelve hour shifts EVERYDAY for almost two weeks) and ive had no energy to write.

i'd never want to write something i wasn't happy with so i didn't even try to write anything and to be honest, even clicking on the app was making me wanna throw up.

i've started intense therapy and my moods have been alll over the place.

i wouldn't ever want to disappoint you guys but i had a day off yesterday and i've been writing (and actually enjoying myself!)

thank you for your patience, i missed being on here.

i'll be back to uploading everyday my lil angels so don't worry.

i love you guys, art (aka mommy) <3