chapter 7

Author's pov.... She came back after leaving mynthu in her school... It's in walkable distance only..... She saw both his amma and appa were waiting for her to have their breakfast.... She sat on the chair and her mother served her food.....She was in deep.. Thoughts... There was so much question running in her mind but she had no answer for anything..... Mathi : Nila..... Nila : hmm.... Ammaa... She looked up at her... Mathi : Ena ma ore yosnaila iruka pola..... Sapdave ila .... (What happened ma.... You are in deep thoughts... See you didn't even  ate fully) Nila : Pasikala ma.... (I am not hungry ma) Bhaskar : Ena ma.. Odambu sarilaiya..... (What happened ma... Are you feeling sick...) Nila :Ila pa... I am fine..... Nenga sapdunga enaku pasikala.... ( No paah... I am fine.... You have food... I am not hungry) She wased her hands and left from there..... Sat on the sofa.... She don't know how to start the conversations...... She doesn't want to hurt her parents and dig their old wounds but she need answers... She have to do this.... Within few minutes both Baskar and mathi came to the Hall and sat beside her.... Mathi hold her hands in hers and creased her hair..... Mathi : Ena Nila.... Amma kita sola matiya...... (What Nila... Won't you share it with amma...) She gulped.... She had to do this today.... Nila : Amma.... Na unga kita keta athuku sariya bathil soluveingala.... I didn't want to hurt you.... But enaku therinjikanum.... (Amma.... If I asked you would you give me direct answer... I don't want to hurt yoy... But I want to know) Mathi : Apdi ena theriyanum...... (What you want to know) She took deep breath... Nila : Mynthu oda appa yaru...... Avar per Ena........ (Who is mynthu's appa... What is his name) Mathi's body stiffened and she left her hand..... Which  Nila hold again and pleads her.... Nila : Please ma... Enaku solu.. Yar en ponnoda appa.... Nethu mynthu Ena keta elarukum appa irukanga en enaku ila nu....... Enala avaluku entha bathil um sola mudila... Because I don't know.. Elarukum Amma soli tha appa yar nu theriyum inga Amma ke therila....... Please ma.... Enala mudila... Solunga..... (Please ma... Tell me who is my daughter's father.... Yesterday mynthu asked me why I don't have father like others do.... I don't know how to answer her... Because I don't know who is her father... All gets to know their father through the mother... But her mother don't know.... Please ma.. I can't do this anymore... Please tell me)Mathi : Naa munadiye sona la... Unga rendu perukum nanga irukom avlo tha... Mynthu ku appa lam ila.... En unaku puriya mateinguthu....(I already said you right....you both have us that's enough....Mynthu don't have any father...  )  Nila : Maa..... Please... Enaku en life 6 years munadi nadantha ethume nyabagam ila... In fact en per kuda enaku theriyathu....Nenga thane soneinga.... I loved someone and ran away with him.... Without your knowledge..... He betrayed me made me pregnant and left me nu......... That's why I tried suicide........You both forgave me and saved me......Avan ratchasana ve irukatum.....he may be a cheater..... But I would have loved him truly la..... En love poi ilaiye...... Ena irunthalum avar thane Mynthu oda appa.... Atha yaralum matha mudiyathu....Please solunga ma.... Yar athu...... Atleast epadi iruparnu acchi solunga......... (Maa ....please...I lost the my memories and I know nothing about what happened in my life before 6 years....in fact I didn't even know my name.....you said me right...I loved someone and ran away with him 6 years back without your knowledge....he betrayed me and made me pregant and left me ...that's why I tried to kill myself jumping from the hill....you both forgave me and saved me .....let him be that ratchasan and betrayer.....his love may be fake one but I would have loved him truly right....my love wasn't fake.....no matter what he is Mynthu's father I can't  change it.....please tell me who is he....at least tell me how he looks)Mathi: Nee avana pathi therinju onum pana porathila... Unaku thevai yum ila.... Yes... You loved him truly athuku tha neyum Mynthu vum ipo vethanaiya anubavikureinga..... Thirumba avan unga life la na vara vida matein..... Neyum vara vaika muyachi panatha..... (You are not going to gain anything by knowing about him.....and that was unrequired for you..yes you loved him truly that's why you and mynthu are faced those hardships....I won't let him again in your life...you don't try to pull him too)Nila : Avar peru Shiva va...(is his name is Shiva??). Mathi : what..... what did you said.... Nila : Na love panavar per Shiva va...... I frequently hears his name and voice...... Please atleast say ma... Na thirumba avarta poga matein.... But solunga avar thane en ponuku appa... From what I saw in my dream.... We both are married..... Nenga avar ena kalyanam panikama emathunatha thane soneinga.... Then how come that happen...... Please ma... I need answers... Enaku bathil solunga.... (is Shiva was the name of that one whom I loved.....I frequently hears his name and voice...please atleast say now maa.....I won't go back to him promise.....but please tell me he was my daughter's father right...from what I saw in my dream ..we both are married.....you said he cheated me without marrying me....then how come that happen....please my I need answers....please tell me )Mathi : Unaku kalyanam la agala Nila... Nee atha pathiye nenaichitu irukarathala unaku apdi kanavu vanthurukum..... Ne poi un tablet potutu rest edu.... (you are not married and all Nila.....you get these kind of dreams only because you keep on thinking about it.....leave that aside go and take your tablets and rest)Nila : mudiyathu ma... Enaku elathukum bathil venum.........Nenga avara evlo veruthalum paravala... Unga pethi ku avar tha appa...... Avar yar nu enaku theriyanum... En life la unmaiya ena nadanchu nu enaku theriyanum...... (I won't ma....I want answers for everything........I don't care how much you despise him....he is your granddaughter's father....and I have full rights to know who is he....I want to know what actually happened in my life......)She was shouting at her.... That made her breathing becomes heavier... Mathi was panicked seeing her like this.... She cupped her cheeks..... Mathi : Avlo tension aga kudathu ma... Slow va breath panu... Inoru mura en pona elaka enala mudiyathu ma..... Amma solran la... Shiva nu yarum un life la kedaiyathu..... Ne hallucination la iruka....... Tablet pota elam sariyagidum.... (don't panic ma....take slow breath ...don't stress yourself more....I can't lose my daughter again ma.....amma telling you right....there is no shiva in your life....it was your hallucination....take your tablet you will be fine...)She pushed her hands asideNila : Poiii...... Shiva en husband... Nenga tha engala pirichu vachirukeinga..... (lie....Shiva is my husband.....it was you who keeping us separated...)Bhaaskar : Nila.... Panic agatha ma please athu unaku nalathila.... (Nila....please don't panic ma...please that's not good for your condition....)She pushed his hand and went inside their room hurriedly while Mathi signaled Bhaskar....Nila came back with something in her hand..... She opened her hand in front of mathi.... Mathi was shocked to see thatNila : Enaku kalyanam agalana.... Itha thali yarodathu..... (if I am not married Then .....who's this Thali??...)Mathi : Nila...athu enoda palaiya thali ma...... Na mathama vachirukein.... (Nila....that's my old thali ma....I kept that to exchange)Nila : Poiiii mela poi solatheinga ma..... Ithu enodathu.... En Shiva katunathu...... Please en kita ethum maraikama unmaiya solunga..... 6 years munadi unmaiya ena nadanchu en life la..... (don't tell me more lies ma....its mine.....its the same Thali my Shiva tied in my neck....please don't try to hide me more.....what actually happened in my life 6 years back...)Mathi tried to come near her....... Nila noticed it and moved back and took the knife from the table and placed it near her neck. Mathi : Nila... Ena ma pandra... Kathi... Kathiya kila podu ma.... (Nilaa.....what are you doing!!!!!!knife.....please throw that away ma....)Nila : Nenga unmaiya solra varaikum naa kathiya Kela poda matein....... Unmaiya solunga....(I won't until you tell the truth ....tell me )She was shouting and pressed that knife more closely that actually made blood oozed from her neck..... Nila : Kita varatheinga....naa yar....... Please ethum maraikama solunga.... En Shiva enga irukan........ (don't come near me......who am I.....please don't hide anything....where is my Shiva....)She was crying hardly... She didn't get any answer from mathi  so she wiped her tears harshly and was about to press the knife more.... Someone injected something near her neck making her fell unconscious... Yes its Bhaskar.... Mathi : Ungala sekirama vara sona la.. Parunga en ponuku ratham varuthu.... (why are you late....see my daughter is bleeding)Bhaskar : Nila ku elam nyabagam vara arambikuthu mathi.... (Mathi....Nila slowly getting back her memories)Mathi : Puriyuthu gha........ It's time for that final dose..... Athukapram en ponu niratharama en kuda irupa..... Avaloda past mothamum ava mind la irunthu poidum......(I can see that gha......its time for the final dose....after that my daughter will come back to me permanently....all her past memories will be erased)Bhaskar : Nama seirathu sariya.... (Are we doing right)Mathi : En pona marubadi enala elaka mudiyathu gha......... Enaku ethu sari thapu drathu mukiyam ila........ En ponu en kuda irukanum avlo tha..... Nenga poi antha injection ah eduthutu vanga... Late pandrathu namaku tha danger....... (I can't lose my daughter again....I don't care what is right or wrong....my daughter will be with me that's it....you go and bring that injection....we can't delay more)He nodded and came back with the injection... Which he gave to her.... Mathi saw Nila who was on the floor unconscious.... Mathi : Enaku Shiva yar nu theriyathu.... Oruvela nee sona mari Mynthu oda appa va irukalam..... But he is not fated to live with you and my granddaughter...... I am sorry..... Unoda ela ninavugaiyum nee mothama intha injection ku aparm ilanthuduva.... Trust me I didn't wanted to do this to you.... But enala unaku elam nyagam vanthu engala vitu poiduviyo nu bayathulaiye vala mudiyathu.... Sorry............. (I truly don't know who is Shiva......as you said may be he is Mynthu's father...But he is not fated to live with you and my granddaughter......I am sorry...you will lose all your past memories after this.....Trust me I didn't wanted to do this to you.....But I can't live with the fear that you would leave me after you remember everything about your past life.......sorry .)She injected it to Nila...