chapter 15

Authors POV...Shiva stopped the car and his hands were gripping the handle tightly his veins were popping out .... Scaring her more..... But Shiva didn't say anything... He got down from the car and came to her side... She was scared what if he wanted to leave her there.... He opened her side door she looked at him with a scared expression... She was sure that he would leave her...Shiva : Papa va en kita kudunga.... (Give Papa to me ngha)He said with no emotions...... She didn't want to give Mynthu to him and leave..... Mynthu was her source of living...she can't live without her daughter... She hugged her tightly more into her and shook her head..... Tears again filled her eyes... Shiva closed his eyes to compose himself and took a deep breath..... How this girl mistook every single thing... His chellama is completely different from this new one....... Now he understood the meaning behind her question..... Yes, she was not his fearless chellama who always voiced out for herself ...... But this one has so much insecurity and fear... There is some uncertainty in her...... He has to be patient with her..... He can't hurt her even without any intention....... Gowri had the same expression seeing him with closed eyes... He opened his eyes pinched top of his nose and said.... Shiva : we arrived at Airport..... See that side ngha...... That's when she looked around and realized they already reached..... Rudra and Karthik were already waiting for them.... Shekar and Ram already left in the morning to prepare their house for their daughter and granddaughter's arrival..... And make the ladies understand Gowri's condition..... They don't want to shock her... Or make her feel uncomfortable that's why they wanted to inform the ladies before she comes.......... During this time Mynthu woke up and cried in sleep..... Gowri : Ena thango... Amma irukein da.... En alurienga.... Thongunga...... Amma irukein.... (what Thango...Amma is here da...why are you crying..sleep...amma is with you only)With sleepy eyes, she looked at her mother... But that little girl's eyes searched for another person to...... When her sleepy eyes landed on Shiva... She raised her hands towards him...Mynthu: appa........... Seeing her tears Shiva immediately took her in his arms and hugged her... Mynthu buried her head in his neck... He wiped her tears.... Shiva : Ena achu thango.... En alureinga... (What happened thangoo. Why is my baby crying huhh) Mynthu : Nenga ena vitu poiteinga nu nenachein..... Nenga inimel ena vitu poga mateinga la paa..... (I thought you left us.... You won't leave us again la paah????) She asked him with so much hope in her eyes which is the only thing she got from her mother's physical appearance..... He kissed her forehead and assured that he would never leave her.... Gowri was looking at them.... She was both shocked and hurt..... Shocked because Mynthu was a reserved child...yes she talks without any fear with strangers but she never get attached and trust anyone easily even after lot of trying and pleadings.......Now Shiva didn't even tried... She went to him..... Hurt because now Gowri understood how much Mynthu missed and logged for father's love....... She was feeling bad because she couldn't it find out everything before.... She was blaming herself for the misery her daughter gone through..... Her pain and hurt and the betrayal of mathi and bhaskar didn't matter in front of her daughter's pain..... After Pacifying his daughter.... He looked at her which displayed pain.... He doesn't know how to make her come out of that pain and misery but he have to.... He took deep breath.... Shiva : Polam... Vanga.... (Let's go gha... Come) She swallowed the lump formed in her throat and followed him ... Mynthu was still half sleep.... She was opening her eyes in between to see her surroundings leaning on her father's shoulder....... There was a private jet waiting for them......... Mynthu's eyes widened.... Mynthu : Appa ithu yarodathu.... Ungalodatha.... (Appa...who's this??...is it yours..) Shiva : namodathu thango..... (It's ours thango) Mynthu : Namodatha........ . (Ours.????.) Shiva : Ama chello..... (Yes chello) Mynthu : ipo nama ithula tha povoma..... (Are we going In this???) Shiva nodded his head and walked towards it..... Rudra and Karthik already went inside..... When he was about to climb that's when he realized Gowri was standing behind...... He gave her a small smile and showed another hand for her to hold.... She looked at him and his hand again and again..... Without any delay she gave her hands in his... He holds it firmly..... Shiva : 15 years munadi nee naa mattum irunthapo un kaiya pudichu sathiyam panein epovum vida matein nu....6 years ku aparam orariya un kaluthula thali katitu thirumba un kaiya pudichu sathiyam panein .....Unnaku nyabagam ila but enaku iruku....(15 years back when its just you and me I held you hands in mine and  promised you I would never leave you..6 years later I held your hands in mine again after tying thali in your neck infront of the people announcing that promise ...you forgot it....but I didn't) I always keep my promise...I hope you got the answer for your previous question..Nee epadi irunthalum... En wife.... Atha yaaralaiyum matha mudiyathu...vaa unakaga anga unoda family kathiruku.....(How ever you are....you are my wife no one can change that.....come your family is waiting for you )She nodded her head..... Both went inside the jet..... When they settled in the seat.... It took off...... Mynthu was awwed seeing the night scenes through the window....... After talking for a while she slept in his arms....... He took her inside the room in the jet.... Placed her on the bed... But she was not ready to leave her father..... Shiva layed beside her... And she was now sleeping on him.... Hugging him tightly...... He kissed her forehead and patted her till she sleeps again..... As Shiva was already tired he to slept after years with his daughter sleeping above him...... Rudra and Karthik was already sleeping leaning on the chairs...After few minutes Gowri came to that bedroom and saw the father and daughter duo..... Shiva's hand was still creasing mynthu's hairs......  Gowri admired them and came and sat on the other end of the bed..... She opened the knot in her pallu.. Inside it there was the thing which made her go back to search and delayed her escape and made her hit Mathi and ran away..... It's her thali...... She looked at that then him..... The similarities between Mynthu and Shiva.... She had no doubt that she was his daughter.... She remembered everything that happened after she get suspicious about Mathi and Bhaskar... It's 1 year back when Mynthu said that they gave injection to Gowri which she didn't know...... After that day when ever she gets some glimpse of memory she wrote that down in a note and hide that inside Mynthu's bag... Because except her mynthu never allow others to touch it... And mathi wont check in her bag...... Even then she won't get full memories and faces... Its always in blur... Only some words and some names she will remember.... She wrote them and try to connect them... But nothing made sense before... When she was about to leave that idea.... She heard Mathi and Bhaskar talking about their daughter Nila..... That's the big blow of her life. She realized everything around her was fake... That was not easy to process and digest the fact... She cried badly that day because that day she was no one... Even the identity of Nila which she knows was someone else.... And she doesn't know who she is... It was horrible... Then she searched for any kind of proof on the store room at nights.... One such day she found Nila's photo along with that the news of her missing......... That was 11 years ago... And by their talks, she already knows what happened to her... Gowri's heard pained for her... It took her some weeks to come out of it. That's when she tried to escape and get caught by the villagers..... Later on she frequently remembered Shiva's name and one day, she saw herself in wedding attire and someone tying the thali around her neck...That's the day she woke up shouting Shiva's name... She immediately wrote to Thali about her wedding..... She was sure that she had a family and a different identity..... The next day itself Mathi injected that drug which took all her memories....... After that day she didn't remember anything about her past... Only through the dairy she get to know what are all her findings..... But she was still unsure about her identity... She chooses to stay there to find her own identity... But when she gets to know that they don't know anything about her past life... She lost all her hope that's when she again tried to escape but she didn't know where to go she again came back to the place....... When Rudra Shoved Shiva's picture it stirred something else inside her..... She felt he was familiar..... When she again met him that day... She was sure that he would know her past... She strongly believed that he must have something to do with her past..... She already planned to escape during the poojai... But when she got to know that he did not belong to this village and would leave the village soon..... She wanted to get his help to escape..... Without his knowledge, she took a photo of him......after she sent off Mynthu in school she came back and went inside her room and locked it as she already informed Mathi that she was tired and wanted some sleep... No one disturbed her....... Her heart wanted to know about him... She believed by knowing him she could find out about her past. Her identity...Through his photo she searched on the internet and got the information about him, his name itself gave her the confidence to search further..... What shocked her was her wife's photo... That was taken at their wedding and in many interviews, they gave at industrial meets and awards..... She was more shocked to see the news that said his wife... That's Gowri was died in a car accident 6 years back...... That place was nearby... She cried and cried..... She searched more and saw her very own interview and speech videos in which she was more confident and her aura was authoritative and powerful... Opposite to what Mathi described her and made her be...she couldn't believe her own eyes and believe that she was the same one..... Through the information available on the internet she got to know about her family..... Her biological parents and sister...She searched for their picture and got one which was taken during her graduation day....... She couldn't take all the pain and how much betrayed she felt that day........ She didn't come out of the room till Bhaskar and Mathi knocked on the door..... She washed her face and composed herself before opening... They both were in panic... As they couldn't find Mynthu in the school..... Gowri immediately knows where she would be..... Her daughter went to her father even before her mother found out and said...When they went there she saw her father and father-in-law too... All she wanted was to run towards her father and say I am your daughter..... I am still alive ... Can you accept me without any memories... But she couldn't do anything as Bhaskar was with her...When she heard Shiva's words... She was sure that they were here for her and her daughter. Her heart bleeds for Shiva... What wrong he did to deserve all this pain..... She lost his wife and don't know that he had a daughter all this year.... In front of his pain and misery.. She felt her's was nothing..... That how she is even after losing her memories about him.. She always prioritize him....... Over her own self... That night mynthu explained what happened there.... Gowri couldn't take anymore she cried and cried... She doesn't want to seperate the father and daughter more... So she said the truth she found out that Shiva was Mynthu's Biological father....Mynthu was more than happy she jumped on the bed in happiness..... That little girl didn't understand everything still she was on cloud nine as she going to be with her real father...... And we know what happened the next day.......... Gowri stood up from the place and went to other side and sat beside them and kissed her daughter's forehead..... Voluntarily her hand creased Shiva's hairs..... Gowri : I don't know how much you loved me... I don't know how much I loved you.... But I couldn't see you in pain....That hurts me badly......I want a happy life with you..... Elame mothala irunthu arambikanum.... Munadi naa love panatha vida athigama love pananum....... Thirumba......... (I want a happy life with you....I want to start a new life with you from scrach....I want to fall in love with you more than before....once again....)Is that possible!!!!!!!!A lone tear left her eyes which she wiped before it fell.... She smiled at them and kissed his forehead to... He smiled in sleep making her feel contended.......... She came out and sat on the seat. In next 2 hours they landed in Chennai.......