chapter 19

We kissed for five minutes and pulled away when we both feel lack of oxygen.Our eyes closed and i joined my forehead with hers both of us catching our breath." Your lips are so addictive" i said and she just buried her face in my chest in shy "Stop feeling shy , i have kissed you so many times still you feel shy" i said and pulled her face to me.Her face was red as tomato and few hair strands were there. I remove her hair strainds and tucked it beside her ear. I kissed her temple and lay on my side of the bed and pulled her in my arms." Sleep now" i said and pulled the duvet  on us. I slowly put my hands on her loose tshirt and started circling my hands on her tummy softly as i heard that doing these lessen periods cramps.' you heard or you search on the internet? my inner mind said' i..heard it somewhere, why would... I search... such kind of  questions' i said to my devil mind' stop lying to me, i know that you search on the internet, what to do when wife is on her periods' my mind said" Okay , i accept that i search now stop messing up with me and fuck off ' i said to my mindShe dozed off to sleep in some minutes, i admired her sleeping figure who was looking too cute in her long loose tshirt. Her hands were tightly wrapped around my waist as if i would vanished anytime." Such a cute little wife" i said and gave  a peck on her lipsAfter our marriage, i didn't even slept with any woman, neither i get those feelings to sleep with any other woman to satisfied my desires after her. Now even i don't  get those nightmares. I used to take sleeping pills consulted so many doctors for my horrible nightmare but nothing cured and she  just simply with  me make me fall asleep without any bad dreams. ' what's all these feelings are?'' am i falling for her?' No way, these can't be true i don't deserve such things in my life. The word feeling is not build up for me. She moved her body a little in her sleep and clings to my body tightly. Her boobs touching my chest instantly made  my pants twitched up." Fuck" i cursed as she was making me hard as rock  even in her sleep. ' Gosh!! Now i have to take cold shower in this mid night or else my little brother won't let me sleep'I slowly moved her hands from me and ran to bathroom to calm my little brother who just want a release.After some 30 minutes taking cold shower i came out of the bathroom and found that she was sleeping hugging my pillow." Is she considering the pillow as me?"I just chuckled with the thought and lay down on bed removing the pillow and curled her up in my arms. I dozed off to sleep in just some seconds.***Anastasia povFinally my periods are gone and in these four days blake has taken such a good care of me. From bringing choclates to making meals and rubbing my tummy to lessen my periods cramps. He even bought me sanitary pads that too not one or two he bought every brand of pads. ' How he has changed all of a sudden' Everytime he touch me or kiss me my body reacts to another level , The way he look at me gives butterflies in my stomach. Although it's an fake marriage but he takes efforts to cooks for me and his such gesture made my heart get attracted to him and most importantly he talks to me with much respect. Everytime he calls me wifey, cupcake, baby and what not it just melts my heart.I am  started falling for him, but i know this is not right, but i can't help my heart from falling.'Its better if i ignore such feelings, here i am falling for him each passing day but what about him?''Ooh ana, why would he fall for such an ordinary girl like me, even his personal secretary  is so hot and beautiful than me'Currently i am in the garden sitting in the swing writing on my journal as blake has went to his office. I write everything in these, my feelings, my likes, my fantasies, , my happiest day , my emotions, my everything in it!I always hide this diary from everyone as i don't want anyone to read. Especially blakeSuddenly i felt a tap on my shoulder ' Blake is not at home , than who is this?'I scaredly turned around to see who it was?" You"