about the heartbreaker.

remember the time

you feared going to school,

cause they all called you a 'boy',

just because you weren't as girlish as the others? do you remember the time they made fun of your name

and sang stupid songs about your weight?

and do you remember the times

they said that they don't love you?

I know you promised yourself to be heartless, you promised yourself to be what they call an asshole

and don't tell me it's about confidence

you fear to be loved and I know that's what you're craving for the most:

to be loved

all of the things you destroy on purpose, all of the words you spread like poison

- you just want to be loved

remember as she held you in her arms and whispered things for you to sleep, do you remember her stupid kind of dancing in the living room and her favourite drink she always shared with you?

do you know what it means to be yourself? do you know how it is to get accepted for who you are?

do you erased the memory of you sitting on the sore, watching her playing the guitar and enjoying life as if it could be summer for the rest of your life?

cause I guess she remembers your nicknames and your habits of needing attention just all of the time, she remembers cooking and spending all afternoon just laying in bed with you

and I guess you remember all of your promises, every tale about 'love' and 'the one you always dreamed of' ,

cause we all know what you promised yourself first

and I guess for some people it's just pretty easy to destroy what they want the most

on the other hand

maybe they're right and

you're a fucked up asshole actually,

but

that's up to you, you know?