63. An Alpha's Command

Chapter Soundtrack:

Karliene - Become The Beast

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this extra chapter was needed. You will see why.

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This is not the chapter where Nova ends up at Crescent Moon... BUT! Weds im still posting that chapter. However, i decided i needed to add this chap in order for you to see Penelope and Nova interract. Do not fret. Shes leaving at the end of this chapter but her arrival doesnt come until the next chapter on weds... for my dear readers birthday!

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One week away from being six months since Nova left Crescent Moon. 2 months at Blue Moon and 4 months at Dark Moon. Here we are a week away from her six month anniversary from leaving crescent moon)

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Nova

Looking in the mirror, my bright green eyes assesed my newly formed bruises along with all My battle scars.

Being at Dark Moon has helped me more than I could even had fathomed. I had a new look in my eyes now.. one that was obvious.. one of a hunter. A warrior.

Im no longer the sheep.

Im the wolf.

Ive become the beast i so wanted to be. There isnt a single member in this pack i cannot fight. All of them savages.

I guess that makes me a savage too.

Some of the males have proved to be too much for me but im quick... i know which wolves i can attack and which to be on defense with.. how to slip out of their death grip.

Ive had both my arms broken.. teeth in my flesh.. ripping it away. Many rib breakings.. femurs broken.. there isnt a bone that hasnt been broken. Even my pelvis has been broken. Only to be healed withing two days. Minor things healed in one.

Ive also been challenged by my first opponent after being here for only two months. I was ready for them. I knew they would kill me if i didnt kill them first.

So that's what i did.

My first and only kill. A male named Diego.

I wasnt challenged again.

The wolf inside me is so strong now. My mind is so strong now. We arent the weak link anymore. We rely on no one but ourself.

My eyes danced across my features.. still the same only a few scars here and there.. not enough to notice. My cheekbones stood out from my face.. high.. my lips more full. I would have a heat soon.. they were becoming red and i couldn't stop licking them. Nor could i stop the thoughts of Zaryn in my head...

Looking down at my naked body in my bathroon mirror... i noticed how my breasts were swelling.. firm muscles in my arms and thighs.. my stomach flat .. two planes of muscle on either side.. still no abs which i was happy about but my hips.. they were becoming full.. my body preparing itself for a heat that wouldn't be serviced. My second heat. Its been almost six months since my first. Another week and id be going through it.

I ignored the scars all over my body. It was something i had become used to. Lifting my arms to push my hair back, my eyes locked in on the tattoo on my inner bicep... a thick black circle littered with canine triangles.

Not only did I have the triangles from the north on the top and the two on either side of the center line for beginner.... but now i wore the triangles at the bottom for the south... and two more canine shaped triangles beside the two in the center.

One for intermediate.

And one for expert.

I was now considered the ultimate warrior.

Not many wolves had this mark. Especially a female. It was something to be proud of but i no longer had pride. It was beat out of me when i came here. My wolf and i acknowledge we deserved the symbol.. but we didnt boast around about it. She didnt do her diva dance anymore. Instead... we acted like a true warrior. We kept our eyes open.. always looking for the threat to come.

My hair is longer now.. healthy. Reaching to my lower back. Ive kept it that length for so long but i dont wear anything aside from yoga pants and tshirts hoodies or shorts.. my hair always in a messy bun or braid. I have no reason to dress up.

Opening the door to my bathroom, the steam from my hot shower billowed out into my enormous bedroom. I quickly lotioned myself, dressing in black yoga capris and a hoodie.. the one i secretly took from Zaryn before i left back home. I had forgotten about it during my time at Blue Moon.

I found it once i packed my things to come here and i cant seem to stop wearing it. Not with my impending heat coming. The faint scent of him still on the material comforts me.

Quickly throwing my hair up in a wet messy bun and slipping on my nikes, i made my way downstairs, murmurs were coming from the dining hall.. from Alpha Maxim.

"I cant Gabriel. Shes a Luna. She doesn't even know it either. With a heat, i can't stop myself. not even with a silver lock.she needs her mate with her. With her around me.. it could end badly."

Frowning, i wondered breifly who he was speaking of. Turning the corner.. finding all the warriors sitting at the table with Alpha Maxim at the head who gave me a startled look, his beta to the right and Gabriel on his left... the spot for a Luna.... or a high ranking official. He still hasnt found his mate yet.

Pure satisfaction enveloped me.. watching Penelope, the ex Luna of Crescent Moon, sitting rigidly beside Gabriel.. our general. She arrived here months ago with Gabriel..

I was extremely surprised.

When i asked what had happened, i was brushed aside as if my questions didnt matter.. only given the answer that she was no longer the Luna. That Gabriel was her true mate .. the one she rejected for power.. to become Luna of Crescent Moon after Blakes true mates death. Her own cousin.. Nyra.

It floored me. This female had many dark secrets. And they were exposed.

Did Blake reject her willingly? Did he lose the fight? Was my brother the new alpha now?

So many questions i had but Alpha Maxim commanded me to mind my own business. I was under the impression that yes Blake was still the Alpha but Penelope had done some horrendous things and he let her go.. gifting her to Gabriel for helping Zaryn cope with his insanity.

Looking at her.. she caught my gaze as i found my seat near the end of the middle of the table. Remembering how she covered Deacons illness.. never once warning me.. sacrificing my life .. i held hatred for her. But seeing her so uncomfortable.. pregnant with Gabriels pup inside her.. it brought me some satisfaction.

"Morning Nova." Gabriel grinned, his nostrils flaring as he sniffed the air with a knowing look. He knew whose hoodie i wore. He couldn't smell my heat coming though. Ive been drinking my tea though my body gave it away.. not my scent.

"Morning Gabe." A small smile sent his way. Since i looked like his dead sister so much, he bonded with me... on a friendly level. Penelope didn't like that.

A low growl came from Penelope at our exchange but Gabriel caught her ear, pinching it to silence her jealousy as he grabbed the back of her neck, pulling her in to whisper harshly into her ear.

Nodding, her eyes fell to her lap. I couldn't contain my smirk. She was so docile now.

I thought it was hilarious at first when she came here with him. It seemed as if she hated him. He humiliated her by collaring her.. carrying her everywhere with a leash.. making her eat only what he fed her. She always held hatred in her eyes for him but the sounds at night said otherwise.. she would scream her pleasure.. being mated.. you can hate your mate all you but when it comes to sex, you can't stop yourself from craving them. eyes watching his every movement during the day.

The day she announced she was pregnant, Gabriel no longer used the leash or tied her up for other femlaes to taunt her. He no longer allowed the females to fight her. No challenge.. jist fight.  He no longer made her sit on his lap and eat from his hand. She no longer was forced to train from dawn till dusk.  He began treating her with a more respect. He was happy.. always grinning.

She was about one month pregnant. Not showing much.. but Gabriel was tentative to her.. she still had that look in her eyes as if she could rip out his throat but it would be replaced with love every now and then. She was quiet for the most part. No longer a luna.. no longer a wolf with status, she had to be retrained.

"Nova." Alpha Maxim called as i was piling my plate High with food.. replenishing my body before it was time to fight.  I stopped, peering over at him questionable, "You're starting your heat soon?" His brow rose and i wanted to hide under the table at that moment as the other warriors glanced at me with amused expressions.

Clearing my throat, "yes. About another week."

He hmm'd, brows furrowed as he thought.. his large muscles flexing under his shirt. I found myself licking my lips subconsciously before his crystal blue eyes shot up with raised brows. "Have you been in touch with Crescent moon? Your family? Friends?" His authority was maddening at the moment... my wolf feeling dizzy with the power he radiated. Drawn to it from the upcoming heat.

I shook my head, feeling guilty. I havent spoken to anyone since i left. I thought it would be best so i didnt fall back into relying on someone... my parents included. Looking back, i was wrong. I longed to call them. To talk to my parents and Nic. To talk to Eden and find out how the pup is doing... i was selfish keeping away from them. But at the time I felt it was what i needed.

"See me after breakfast." He narrowed his eyes, letting me know it wasnt up for discussion.

"Yes Alpha."

It was strange somewhat. When i came here.. it was almost like a felt a new found energy.. a strength inside me. I blame that on the reason i was able to move up the ranks so quickly but Alpha Maxim... as much of a flirt he is, i was sure he would try me.. but no. He showed me a sort of respect.. never once said anything out of line despite taking a new she wolf to bed every night.. even Gabriel.. he showed me respect too. Although i had a feeling it was because i looked like his dead sister..

But neither of these wolves degraded me like they did the other pack members. I was once again dealing with jealous wolves because of it too. I had to fight... teeth and claws to get what i wanted. To earn my spot at the warriors table... which somehow came naturally. As if the moon gifted me with power.

I was anxious, finishing my breakfast quickly. Just as all the wolves cleared the table, i sat.. staying around with Alpha Maxim as he just stared at me. Just he and i.

"Nova.." his mercury gaze held mine. "I have kept in touch with your family.. letting them know you have been fine. I have an allainace with Crescent moon now." He spoke boldly..

My lips parted in surprise.  I never knew this. Since when? And he spoke to my parents?

"Do they know im a warrior?" I felt unsure of how they'd react.

Smiling lightly, he shook his head. "No. And you are one of my best. I wamted to brag but i decided you could tell them yourself. But.. your friend. Eden.. im going to be honest.  I nearly had a... night with her during my time there. But your brother caught us beforehand.. he had been going crazy with losing Grace after Conrad kidnapped her.. then of course since Eden is pregnant... seeing me with her.. well im sure you can imagine." He chuckled darkly

Why was he telling me this?

"Anyways " he waved his hand. "Eden... Nic was becoming more agressive so last month Eden left the pack.  She couldn't handle it anymore. Nic was too possesive over her, being a true born Alpha.  I should have told you sooner but you also should have called your family yourself " he deadpanned me, making me shrink in guilt. My eyes fell from his.. i was a bad wolf.

Peering up at him, "where did she go? How is Nic now?"

He sighed, "she went to Conrads pack.  Grace.. shes doing so much better now.  She and Eden had actually been talking. They became friends. Grace invited her to come. Females against the male and all.." she shook his head with wide eyes.

My mind had just been blown. What on earth was happening?! Im so glad grace was doing better but i couldnt imagine she and eden becoming friends.. her allowing the female pregnant with her mates pup to come live with her. I couldn't have done that.. but Grace was also nasty to me.that was in the past though. Grace really has matured. But eden... i felt so bad for her...

"What about Nic? And Grace's pup?" I pressed, leaning in. I couldn't believe Eden had tried to sleep with Maxim while she was pregnant.  Well.. actually.. yes i can. Nic would have stayed true to the bond with Grace and Eden was .. well.. Eden.

He studied me.. his forehead marred with a crease. "Eden lost the pup this morning.  She hemmoraged. The bleeding was able to be stopped.. Conrad has been helping her..." my heart suddenly stopped beating. Sadness overcame me. She wanted that pup so badly. She wanted someone to love.. who loved her back.  I was sure the moon was going to gift that to her. I should have been there for her. I should have been a better friend. I feel so awful. So low.

What did the moon want to accomplish with the pregnancy then?

"But your brother is going crazy now. He found out. Your parents aren't sure how much sanity he has left. The same thing is happening to him that happened to your mate.. they have a watchful eye on him but.. Nova.. you may want to leave. Go back to Crescent moon.  To see your family. I think its time. Your brother needs you. Your pack needs you."

My pack needs me? No. Fear shot through me for my brother.  I pray he wouldnt make the same mistake Zaryn did with trying to kill himself.... But i also was afraid to see everyone... ashamed. i shook my head frantically with wide eyes. "N-no! I cant.. can you just bring him here? Maybe let my parents visit? Im not ready.." my voice was high. I was afraid to be around Zaryn with my upcoming heat..

But something told me thats exactly why he wanted me to leave.

He frowned.. narrowing his eyes at me. "Grow up Nova. Its time. As your Alpha, im commanding you to go home. Your time here is up. Pack your things. Im taking you tonight." He growled.

The command he had just given me vibrated through me. I couldnt refuse my Alphas command. Slumping in my chair, i refused to let the tears well in my eyes.

I had all intentions of seeing Zaryn again. To talk about things.. to see if i could forgive and forget. I was able to forgive his mistress but not him. Because what he did hurt me worst of all.

Maybe hes changed?

Maybe theres no other female?

I havent felt that pain of my mate being with another but whose to say he hasnt done more. And with my heat... i dont want a repeat of last time. I cant...

"Okay." I rasped, scooting back from the table to go back to my room.. to pack my things..

An overwhelming anxiety soared through me like never before but im stronger now.  Im so strong but when it comes to Zaryn i fall weak.

I dont want to feel weak again.

Dun dun dun

Sorry guys this chapter was necessary.

I promise weds you will see her going home. She will see zaryn or should i say Alpha X for rhe first time in 6 months!!!

We haven't seen his pov in 4 months so we dont know how much he has changed either....

Nova is his missing piece to his sanity remember.

When they meet again... it will be intense and there will probably be a hot moment :)

Omg eden went to live with Conrads pack! Grace invited her! How much has eden been through and wow at how mich grace has grown to become a strong enough female to care for her! Go grace!

But eden lost the pup!!!

Why did the moon do that? Why make her become pregnant? When conrad visited crescent moon he never met Eden. Remember that.

Eden just wants someone to love but she can't bear a mark. She wants to keep her oracle gift

Notice the moon is making the same thing happen to different wolves? Only the oracle can tell us why.

What is the meaning of all of this??

Until weds

Xoxo

Chilee