49. Monster

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Nova

It was dusk.. the sun had begun to crouch behind the vast spread of forrestry.. the air cooling even more as the sun diminished and the moon became visible as beams of sun still streamed through the trees.. a sunset... my heart hammered in my chest.

Conrad and I were waiting in his deisel truck, our bags packed and loaded.. all the letters had been delivered.. I had even said what i needed to to Zaryn..

and Penelope..

When i approached her with my need for her help on springing Deacon from his prison, She was wary at first.. said she had no where for him to go and that she didnt need Blake to be mad at her when they had only just made up.

So i had to tell her that i was leaving..

She was shocked to say the least.. angry that i would leave Zaryn but i reminded her that he has left me so many times already and that these challenges would come... and come..

I told her how broken i was inside.. that i just needed to get away.. i couldnt be around when that pup was born.. i told her about the thoughts my wolf was having, playing on her empathatic sympathy..  reluctantly she agreed..

She said she would help.. only if i kept Deacon far away.. until everything settled down at least and she found out what Blake was going on about ... the reason why he claimed Deacon should be there, which i responded that i was sure it had something to do with Anita.

So she agreed.. to save her youngest from the challenges that would ensue.

To save his life.

"Are they coming soon?" Conrad turned to me, eyes assesing my nervousness..

My nerves were ten times worse than ever right now.. she should be here soon. I kept my features calm but my hands shook in my lap.. adrenaline pumping, meeting his gaze.

"He will be here. Just a few minutes longer." I glanced at the clock on the dash as we sat in the parked truck in front of his cabin, engine silent.  No sounds.  7:00pm.

Everyone was busy at Doc's.. Grace still going through labor. With my mates pup. There would be no one to stop me..

I had given Penelope the skelton key.. told her to get him out and bring him to Conrad's at exactly 7.

They would come. I knew it.

I just couldn't help the feeling that something bad was going to happen.

The what ifs flew through my mind.. but that's when i saw the movement behind the trees.. shaking of leaves.. rustling.

"Here he comes." I frantically hopped out of the truck, my stomach loosening from the knots that had formed... he was finally here. Safe.

Happiness formed inside me...

Penelope burst through the thickets, holding a frail looking deacon against her, his arm around her neck as she helped him to walk.. his features pressed in pain but as his eyes met mine i could see a glint of hope.

"Deacon!" I rushed toward them, taking his arm from Penelope and moving it around my neck to steady his weakened frame. My eyes met hers.. a hopeful crystal blue staring back at me as her hands couldn't stop touching her youngest son.

"Thank you Nova.. for taking him out of here. Be safe. Keep him safe. You're strong..  just.. please dont leave Zaryn waiting to hear from you. Youre his mate and i know you're hurting but he is my son too and he loves you.. i know that to be true." She pled.

I didnt want to lie to her.

"I promise when im ready, ill let him know why I left. And i wont seek another.. dont worry. This is the time im taking to find myself. To heal."

She nodded with tears in her eyes .. peering over at Deacon who tried his best to stand up on his own.. their gazes locking.

"I love you my pup. Please take care of yourself. Ill send for you once things get better."

He smiled slightly. "I love you mama. Im sorry...."

She let out a sob, taking him into her arms as she pressed her cheek to his. "Be careful." She spoke to me.

Nodding to her, i turned with Deacon and helped him into the extended cab of the truck which roared to life as soon as the back door opened. Conrad peered back at us as Deacon climb in.

"You guys ready to roll?"

Smiling graciously at him, i shut the door before climbing into the passenger seat and buckling my seatbelt. I peered into the rearview mirror, a slight smile on my lips, noticing Deacon had laid down in the backseat.. his eyes closing in relief.

The only thing i dreaded now was that we had to drive up the dirt road.. the one many houses including mine, along with Doc's lie in wait..

Conrad shifted the truck in reverse, pulling out as Penelope waved goodbye..this was it. ..

my nerves subsided for the most part.. now we just have to make it out without my being noticed. They all knew of Conrad's departure...  he had decided not to visit Grace once i told him of the events that transpired. He knew her.. that she would be angry and he didn't want to shame her further or himself.

My palms became sweaty as i prayed no one was outside the clinic... my wolf became frantic.. mad at me for leaving.  She understood my feelings now but she was angry at me.. snapping inside my head..

Silence encased the cab as the we sped down the dirt road, kicking up dust in its wake, the setting sun sinking lower in the sky.

Passing my childhood home,  i silently said my goodbyes.. pressing my hand into the cool glass. My empty heart racing in my chest.

My pulse sped once we turned at the bend in the dirt road.. my senses on alert.. the clinic coming into view.

"Speed past. Just in case." I whispered as Conrads foot pressed on the gas a little more, going 20mph

The lights outside the clinic were shining bright as we approached, illuminating the entire porch and front yard.. ...

As we came upon it, i cringed.  my loved ones all stood in the front yard with solemn faces, eyes trained on the commotion in the center of the yard...

Two large wolves.. Zaryn and Nic.. fighting with tooth and claw like i had never seen.. It was a viscous fight.. both wolves on their hind legs... tearing into each other.. blood spattering their fur as everyone just watched.. Blake yelling something out as he and his commanding officers surrounded the duo.. attempting to detain them.

Conrad slowed without thinking.. "what the hell..." he squinted out at the gathering of my loved ones.

I felt hysterically as he slowed . "Just keep going!"

Zaryn's wolf faltered for a momemt... jerking away from Nic's wolf in their feral fight as his head snapped towars the road... glowing eyes looking directly at the moving truck as we passed.

At me.

Everyone's eyes peered up to see us passing but the windows were tinted.. only Zaryn knew i was in the truck because of our bond.. he is attuned to me like no other. He felt my eyes on his wolf during the fight.

"Shit!" I shouted.

Conrad realised his mistake as he stepped on the gas but Zaryn's wolf took off.. leaving the fight as the wolf raced towards us up the road.

i could feel the panic... bile rising in my throat.

"Im sorry Nova I was just caught off guard by the fight. Dont worry." Conrad's deep voice attempted to soothe me. "He cant get to us."

We made it a little ways up the dirt road, out of sight of the clinic and the curious eyes of my family when Suddenly something crashed into the side of the trucks cab on Conrad's side, causing him to lose control and swerve into the grass, slamming on the breaks. The truck, coming to a hault.

Conrad's eyes narrowed, finding mine. "That littlt shìt. Nova you need to handle this before I do." Midnight blue orbs transformed to a darker color.. flecks of silver shining through.. his wolf agitated at Zaryn's disrespect to his Alpha being.

Hysterical was what i was feeling... I didnt want to face him nor get caught with Deacon in the back seat. Zaryn wouldn't let me leave.. his wolf wouldn't let me.

My green eyes wide with fear turned to his. "Dont let him take me. Please."

Suddenly the passenger door wrenched open, revealing Zaryn in his skin form.. only he was partially shifted. Teeth out.. claws sharp.. his gleaming gold eyes staring at me. His wolf staring through his eyes. His anger and fury were pulsating in waves.. enraged gold eyes narrowed onto mine, filled with shock, betrayel, wrath, jealousy.

Heavy breaths came out in hot puffs as his chest heaved, muscles engorged with blood.  All i could do was stare at him, fear rolling off my skin for him to smell.. . not fear from him.. from getting caught. Fear for Deacon.

Pain in my stomach forming from the anger he felt that was directed at me.. he felt that pain as well, the bond telling him to stop.

After a moment of catching his breath, he grabbed my arm, jerking me out of the truck as my body flew into his. A clawed hand holding me to him as the other slammed the door, pushing me back against it angrily... pinning me to the truck as his muscular sinewed naked body loomed over me..  hands pressed on either side of my head as his face leaned down, inches in front of mine.. the wolf's eyes watching me.

Controlling my reactions, i stood still.. my gaze flitting from his hot stare to his chest, right in front of me. This was a side of Zaryn i had never seen before.

Dominant.

(This song goes perfect with this moment. Play on sound cloud or YouTube red while reading. Its a "bang bang" cover from kill bill)

I coudnt stop my eyes from wandering down his body. Thats when i noticed.. his body was covered in recently healed scars and fresh cuts.. blood dripping from gashes and missing chunks of meat along his torso and legs. He shook me out of my assesment with bone rattling rage in his words.

"Where the fůck do you think you're going!? Were you running away from me Nova? What?... you're going off with Conrad now!?" He spat, tone hot and angry. He had my wolf wanting to come forth. To protect me but to also calm his beast... to take away his jealousy. She was at war with her own feelings of wanting to go to him or have him retreat. She didn't like his anger directed at us.

I stayed silent, never meeting his eyes. My demeanor non chalante.. indiference.

"Say something damnit!" He snapped, hands banging the truck beside my head causing me to jump from the sudden movement...

I met his glare that held wrath.. and  pain just beyond the surface..

"Are you leaving me?" His glowing orbs flicked back and forth to each of my grass green eyes. The sadness in his words had me almost wanting to wrap my arms around him.. ease the pain...

almost.

The mate bond was difficult to control.. besides... he had a pup to worry about. He never soothed my pain.

"Yes." I kept my face a mask.

Please dont notice Deacon.. please..

His nostrils flared.. his jaw set hard.

I could hear Conrad's door opening, heavy steps crunching gravel and dirt as he came around to my side of the truck .. his Alpha presence made known with a fierce rumble vibrating from his chest.

Zaryn and I both cut our eyes to see that Conrad was standing tall.. His dominance from the Alpha wolf that peeked out permeated the air.. his chest puffed, eyes hard.

"Zaryn let Nova go. This is her choice. Don't you have a pup you need to attend to?" Conrad's tone wasnt a question.. it was a command.

But Zaryn seemed to not care in this moment. He was animalistic.. "this doesn't concern you!"

Zaryn growled as his eyes stayed on Conrad.. a warning. and id be lying if i said it didnt affect me pleasurably.. my legs wanting to wobble at the sound. Zaryn's focus turned back to me.. a deep pain in those now blue eyes.. once again, Blue skies meeting Green grass as he stuffed the wolf away just for a moment.

Taking a step away from me, his hands falling by his sides, he just stared at me.. the bond making me feel the pain within him... both our walls down for the other to see inside.

His eyes filled with unshed tears, "My pup didn't make it. He was stillborn. All because of Nic.. if he hadn't have marked Grace.." the last was seethed. He cleared his throat, back straightening, uncomfortable with showing emotion in front of another Alpha.

I couldnt help the happiness i felt within.. that my wolf felt. Guilt settled over me.. my wolf yipping in joy at the same time feeling hurt because he was hurt.

But i was hurt.

His demeanor changed from pain to one of animosity.. wrath in those blue orbs as he stepped closer.. my eyes widening.. realising he could feel my emotions.

"You think its something to celebrate!? You're not the wolf i thought you to be Nova." Disgust in those eyes as he looked me over. "I only loved my son. I wanted him.. and now i lost him. You and everyone else got what they wanted." He spat with indignation.

Flinching at his words, was i really a bad wolf? For wanting that pups death? My skin side wanted it to happen but the wolf side wanted to make it happen..

Anger shot through me on sudden impact.. wanting to end this conversation and get out of here.. remembering Deacon. I frowned stepping into his chest, eyes glaring up. "What do you expect. You chose them over me. A pup sure.. but Grace inadvertently became your focus because the pup was in her! You ruined me! You broke me! Broken promises upon broken promises and now ive made up my mind. I need distance. I need to get away from you.. from this entire pack!" I spat. "The pack thinks you weak as it is for all of this! Challenges are already being made!"

"Well let them come!" He shouted, veins popping out. "I needed to protect my pup. With all the wolves out to cause him harm and you were one of them! I didnt want to leave you! But you were one of the wolves i had to protect my own pup from!" A flash of fang.

Flashing my own with a snarl as Conrad just watched us silently. "Well its a little too late! Just because the pup is gone now.. doesn't mean ill come running to you! Im leaving! To find myself. Conrad is just a friend so lower your raised hackles! I am not that kind of wolf. Now move!" I screamed in his face.

Turning to open the door, he scooped me around my waist and brought me to his chest hard.. jaw clenched as eyes wandered over my face.

"I dont care what kind of wolf you are.. you're my mate!. I wont lose you too!" He screamed right back.. chest heaving.. his naked body and touch sending pleasure through my veins.

Fight this.

"You already lost me Zaryn!" I shouted,  pushing him away from me and he stumbled, eyes like daggers as they landed on my stomach.

"You wont take my pup from me Nova. If you're pregnant... i will do everything to make sure nothing will happen to our pup! I love you! You cant leave me! Even though you wanted to harm my pup, i still loved and wanted you! " His fury turned to pain. Conrad looking on with a glare.

"Zaryn i need to leave! I can't stay here! Im glad you're pup didnt make it. I really am. Because that was who you chose over me!" His brows rose in sadness. "You had a chance to make things right and you didnt! You dont get another chance. Not now."

"How could you say that?" He whispered.. hurt and angry. "That was my son! I told you you were it for me. You are my mate! But can you really hate me for wanting to protect my pup!? You sound heartless right now Nova!"

He was right.. i did sound heartless. But that's because i am. My heart shattered into the atmosphere the day i broke down in front of him

"You made me this way. Im leaving. You cant do anything about it. It's my choice. Now go!' But his hands grabbed onto me.

Conrad growled .. a deep feral growl from his partially ascended wolf.

"Unless you want to lose your life i suggest you back away."

Zaryn peered over at him, his wolf recognizing the threat of a beast of an Alpha. His eyes turned wild.. his beast wanting out.. willing to challenge this alpha.. wanting to fight. Not caring if he didnt survive.

I have nothing to live for now

Were his thoughts.

I turned to get in the truck but Zaryn's  hand yanked my arm away, pressing me into him and i felt his wolf's dominant emotions...a wild feral one of desperation..

I began to Panic.... these were the feelings i felt off of Deacon the night he almost took me as his... crazed.

"You're not going anywhere!" His beast growled out to me.. the wolf now in charge as his teeth pierced my flesh. Remarking me.

Conrad raced towards us, jerking Zaryn away from me.. holding him as he thrashed.. Conrad's fierce gaze on mine as i shook in fear and pleasure.

"Get in and lock the doors! Now!" He growled

With the speed of lightening i did just as he said.. watching from inside the truck as Zaryn sniffed the air, his wild gleaming eyes landing on mine.. outrage.. fury..

His mind was realizing Deacon's scent had made its way to his nose..

Fear crept up my spine before i heard a sickening crack.. watching as Conrad broke one of his arms .. dropping him as he raced back to the drivers side.. punching in the lock code as the doors clicked, allowing him to slide in with a quickness.

"Lets get the hell out of here." He grumbled.. the Alpha still on edge.

Zaryn was in pain, holding his arm as his head snapped up to meet my eyes.. a wildness like no other in those Gold orbs.

Before Conrad could slam into drive, the backseat door was jerked open and Deacon was being drug out if the back seat.. his sleeping body jolted awake by harsh movements.

"No!" My hand latched onto the door handle as Zaryn watched me with dangerous eyes.. before i could fly out of the truck, Zaryn snapped Deacon's neck right in front of my eyes.. without another thought.

My whole soul shattered as a high pitched scream filled the cab.  Zaryn dropping his lifeless body to the ground as he stalked forward to my door once more, determination..

"Fuck this." Conrad hit the locks, slamming the gear shifter in drive and sped away just before Zaryn's hand could reach my door.

I wailed in agony, Peering out the back window all i could do was scream .. tears melting down my face..

watching my mate glower..

he had just killed my best friend, his own brother.. in cold blood..

Standing over his lifeless body as his eyes watched us disappear.. fists clenched.. Jaw hard.. chest heaving with labored breaths. Angry.

I let the bond open.. letting him feel my pain as i said one last thing to him

You're a monster!

Then i closed that wall for good as i turned in my seat, my torso falling over my legs as i sobbed heart and gut wrenching sobs.. tears wetting my leggings.

Conrad placed a hand on my back, attempting to soothe the pain as i held on to whay sanity i had left in me.. the truck barrelling down the road.

Watching the life of my best friend slip from his shocked eyes.. not knowing what was happening.. his life taken by his own brother.. because of his jealousy.. his wolf's jealousy..

The weak wolf turned into a monster tonight..

My mate has turned into a monster.

I'll never be coming back here again.

Not until he's dead.

A sudden cramp rolled through my abdomen.. my cries of emotional agony turning into cries of physical pain as white hot blood curdling cramping had me curling up in the seat, Conrad's worried eyes glancing over at me.

"Are you okay!? Nova!"

Then i felt it.

I felt warm liquid drip between my legs..

Blood.

Dun dun dun!

I said i would reveal Deacon's secret in this chapter but it will be next bc i didnt want to ruin the ending.

Im so sorry guys! Nova isnt pregnant but thats a good thing trust me.

And im sorry... but Deacon died :( when you discover the secret you will agree trust me.

Nic shouldn't have marked grace.. i dont see that turning out well for poor nic. Grace will get hers. What do you guys speculate will happen now that he marked her???

And most of you are mad bc u think grace is getting what she wants. Trust me she isnt going to be a happy camper. She lost both her dads.. her aunt who was like a mother. Her pup she wanted. It doesnt stop there. Trust me. I haven't let you know how she feels yet bc its not the right time.. but shes about to have a break down

Do you guys want to see the next chapter as what happens in novas pack after she has left, the chaos that has begun? Or do u wanna see Nova's pov first? Her arrival at conrads and how shes feeling?

Its up to you guys!!!

Part of me wanted to end the book here and immidetely start a sequel titled Savage  that goes into longer detail about Nova's journey as well as Zaryn's and the packs but i didnt think you guys would want that or not so instead of having multiple conrad nova chapters following her life at his pack till the moment she sees zaryn again bc she has to.. seeing how he has changed into someone else... as well as has she..

I figured i would just flash forward after a few chapters instead, not showing much about her new life aside from maybe 4 chaps worth till she has to come home years later to find whats happened while shes been away.

Its your choice. Yall think of what you want me to do. I was excited to end this story but i have to add this part somehow some way. Some of you may want to see conrad nova scenes and if so i would need to start another book so not so sure about that because i feel like im ready to start bringing this beauty to a close so..

Comment your votes here on book 2 or nah! I can make it all one book but i may not finish till like 80 chapters ijs..

Thank all of you so much for your comments votes and messages and songs you send me! I promise you guys get shout outs soon!!!

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Chilee