23. Intoxicated Lust

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Nova

Black.

Pitch black. No sounds but the crickets outside..

Thats how Eden found me, sitting on my bed, the agony of the events that had gone so terribly wrong for me had finaly subsided for now as a numbness took over my entire being.

The fresh marks on my neck had already started to heal, still angry and red, only three hours old.

I dont understand why he would do that to me. To mark me when he's so obsessed with his future growing inside of Grace. I understood his wolf was paternal, wanting him to feel his pup move. I get that. But he comforted her in a way that left me heart broken..

Then he turned on me.

I was angry when he did. Lashing out at him with my wolf... attacking him. But i didn't understand until he sunk his teeth in my neck and I felt his wolf's mind... he had wanted to protect his pup but comfort me.. to soothe me into a calm state. Then he marked me.

And thats when chaos erupted.

I sighed heavily, rocking back and forth as i thought about what would happen next.

I can't talk to him.. im too angry.

Grace is still around so it would be turmoil on me.

Id be the one who suffers.

I got up, feeling that emptiness inside me as i padded toward the window, opening the curtains and throwing up the window, feeling the cool air flow inside my room, goosing the skin on my arms.

The moon had finally peaked over my window, past the trees that swayed in the cool night air as the breeze made them dance, leaves fluttering down, dancing as they fell. Fall was close.

The moonlight lit up my room in a soft luminescent glow, a beautiful sight. As i stared up at the moon, i prayed that she would heal me.. give me a stronger will.. make all of this go away.. right all the wrongs. Anything so that i could stop hurting and come out of this unscathed.

A knock on my bedroom door sounded, low and faint.

I could smell that it was Eden.. I almost didn't want her to be here... but she is my best friend..

"Come in Eden.." i called out in a raspy voice, hoarse from crying and vommiting.

The door opened slowly as she stuck her head in, seeing that no light was on. The only light in here came from the moon as i stood next to the window, my body shifting to face her as my arms crossed over my chest.

"Hey." Her voice was soft as she walked in, her heels clicking against the hardwood floor , shutting my door softly after she entered.

I took a deep steadying breath, smelling her blossom scent fill the room and reached over to my vanity, pulling the switch on the lamp. The room illuminiated in its soft glow, regarding one another, Eden in a short black mini dress and her peeptoe black heels. Her hair was curled, cascading down her back.. she looked beautiful.

myself in a long tshirt, hair in a messy bun... i didnt care what i looked like. My feelings were concerned with my internal well being and emotional state. I wasnt just numb now.. i was still in shock.

"Nova.. i know how upset you must be.." she spoke softly to me as she lay on my bed, patting the other side for me to join her. I complied, heaving myself ontop of the bed, lying right beside her.

"I dont know if you do Eden." I responded truthfully as my grassy green puffy eyes met her own bright green ones.

Her lips pulled into a sad smile. "I can only imagine. But none of this is your fault. I watched what happened. I came back right after i had stepped away to call the oracle and once i returned.. i saw you two.. I will always have your side but ill be honest, he went easy on you... maybe you should hear his side before you decide to give up on him for good. I mean live your life girl.. but he's your hand picked mate. I don't have the luxury of a mate. If something happens to Grace and she leaves and youve already been marked by another, you will still feel a connection with him. Just not as strong.. so think about it hard. If you want it to be over then it can be. I just want you to think about it.

My forehead creased with irritation. "Wait to hear his side? What the hell Eden?"

She laughed, shaking her head. "That came out wrong. Nova.. i had a vision tonight.. before and after it all happened. After i called the oracle for advice on what to tell you, when i returned, after your wolf ran away.. i had a vision. The oracle said when i have a vision out of nowhere... i can guide wolves involved, to the right choice.. so im saying wait until you hear his side of it and trust no other male nova." Eden was in her oracle role right now. Not her Eden role.

I stared at her with confusion. "You mean Deacon? Does that have something to do with what you said to him about picking sides tonight?"

Closing her eyes, she took a deep breath, expelling it with force before She turned to look me in the eye. "When i hugged Deacon... i ... felt something dark entering him.. what the moon showed me was difficult to explain.. i dont get exact images in a vision , just interpretations. But Nova, don't trust him too much. He loves you.. but he may just do anything he can to keep your love. He is a good friend, thats no lie. But... someone is going to influence him. And not with their words. Thats all i was shown." She watched me as i took all the information in..

"Eden.. Deacon has been so great to me. Yeah he doesn't want me to be with Zaryn because he thinks i can do better.. and he doesnt understand the mate bond either. But i truly believe he will look out for me. But i know your visions are always accurate so I will take what you said into account.. I'll keep my guard up. But he doesn't love me like you think. He loves me as a best friend." I explained.

She laughed sarcastically. "Honey, that boy is crazy about you. Everyone can tell except for you."

I couldnt believe that. There's no way Deacon is in love with me... we used to pray to the moon that we would never be mates!

I rolled my eyes. "Okay Eden. Whatever you say"

A sly smirk slid across her painted cherry lips. "You will see soon."

Huffing, I dismissed the thought but decided i would look for any sign of it. Eden knows guys well.. she knows her visions well.. if she believes Deacon will wind up creating issues for me, ill take her word for it and keep my eye out.. but it wont stop me from being his friend. I needed him right now.

"Anyways biatch the reason im here... is to take you away from this pity party of one and take you to a real party. You're coming out with me tonight and you cant say no! You need some tequila .. and friends. So lets get you fixed up real quick." She grinned, flashing her perfect teath in that way where she wants to mock-challenge you but not in a real way.

My eyes widened with disbelief. "Are you serious? Eden.. i was just forcibly marked in front of my pack by my mate who is expecting! Im embarassed enough as it is!" I was irritated she would even suggest something like that.

Her tinkling laugh resonated through out my room. "Are you joking me? Everyone is ecstatic over it. They all have bets on the pup dying before birth anyway. They want to see you. No one is going to make fun of you! They think you are bad ass and are proud that you bear their future Alpha's mark. Trust me. Zaryn wont be there... Disgrace wont be there. Come on!" She gave me the puppy dog eyes as she jumped up, pulling on my hand with her lip out.

I rose my brow at her. "Disgrace??"

Her chuckle was deep. "Yeah. Grace's new nick name. Because she is a FREAKING DISGRACE to the werewolf species! So come on lets get you dressed. I promise you wont regret it. You just need to drink the pain away and have fun!" She whined, jumping around in her heels.

I couldnt help the smile that tilted up on my lips over her antics. Truth is... i really didnt want to be alone, left with my misery. Maybe it would do some good? I sighed in defeat. "Okay fiiiine. Dress me. Make me pretty." My eyes rolled. I couldn't feel anything inside.. nothing in my heart at all. Expressing any emotion aside from indifference was all i could manage.

Outrage, anger.. those things could peek through at any moment.. but as long as I'm kept away from Zaryn and Grace.. I would be okay.

Eden calpped, jumping up and down. "Yay! Figured you'd give in to my expertise in the puppy dog eyes. And i already brought an outfit because nothing you have will work. Too many sundresses that look like you are going to pick flowers in a field. Have a seat." She winked, ushering me to my vanity as i glared at her.

I liked my dresses.

Thirty minutes later, i was staring at a version of myself i didnt recognize. My dark hair was left down in waves to my lower back, parted on the side. I had a full face of makeup on with matching red lips as Eden and my outfit consisted of a tight red cropped blouse with ruffles in layers on the front, exposing my stomach.. and a pair of black short shorts with a pair of her red snakeskin booties on my feet. I kept seeing a pattern of black and red with Eden.

I kept tugging the shirt down in attempt to cover myself as well as with the shorts.

"Eden!" I whined. "This outfit is way too slutty for me. No offense." I stared in my full length mirror at her reflection from behind me.. her grin wide and smiling eyes as she bit her nails.

"No its not. You have a body to die for. Curves for days. You're young. Show it off before you are old and wrinked! You look perfect. Come on lets go." She grabbed my hand, pulling me away from the mirror as i stumbled after her down the stairs and out the door. Thankfully no one was home to see me this way.

As we walked down the dirt road toward the pack house with Eden holding my hand so I wouldn't trip, the moonlight our only guide. i couldn't shake the feeling of the fact that im halfway mated to Zaryn. And we arent supposed to be. That along with the pain i felt that came along with it.. him being so protective over Grace.. i just felt like he lied to me the entire time. I was chewing my nails with nervousness over even going to this party, not wanting anyone to stare.. but Eden is a persuasive little devil.

"Where is the party even at?" I whispered out to her in the dark, my skin cooling from the night air.

"Its at the Community center building. I figured since it is for parties and such.. and it has a swimming pool, that it would be pretty cool to have it there. Dont worry. Alpha told me i didnt have to invite Zaryn since you needed this.. and Disgrace .. well no one wants her around anyway. Its just for shifting wolves of my choice. 17-23 so only about 30 wolves will be there. It will be fun!" She squealed.

Thirty wolves.. my peers..

The butterflies picked up. My wolf hadn't been communicating her wants to me other than wanting to be with her mate but after the pain I made her feel earlier, out of spite.. she had been exhausted. Quiet.

Once we arrived at the party, my legs were already aching for walking so far in these heels but even though i didnt drink, i was ready to. As we entered, there was hip hop music playing, different colored strobe lights flashing around.. a bar was set up along with a food table.. wolves female and male alike were dancing, grinding on each other as the song played. More than thirty wolves here. More like fourty.

My stomach twisted into a knot, nervous  from being around this many of my peers. I squeezed Eden's hand and she turned to face me, a calm expression accompanied her dazzling grin.

"Okay Nova. Tonight is about fun. No one is going to take a dig at you. Stick with me . Come on lets go get you some shots." She turned, pulling me toward the bar.

Four shots later and i found myself swaying along to the music, feeling light .. floaty.. and carefree. I had taken one of moms anxiety pills with my first shot. It was probably a bad idea because the bottle said 'do not drink alcohol while on this medication.'

I felt.. happy. The music playing now was a techno version of a popular song and the flashing of the multi colored lights had my body moving.. unable to stop.

Eden was beside me, dancing along with me, swaying her hips to the music as we let loose. Taking another shot on the dancefloor, i began to feel like I needed to sit down somewhere.

Surprisingly, i had a few smiles from everyone tonight, no one acosted me.. but they seemed ginuinely happy to see me there. I was worried for nothing.

A tap on my left shoulder had me turning quickly, stumbling into the person who had touched me only to be caught in strong arms as I laughed uncontrollably. Looking up into a pair of blue eyes, a few shades darker than Zaryn's, i realized it was Deacon and i froze.

I knew there was something i was supposed to remember to watch out for about Deacon but i couldnt remember what it was as i stared up at his amused expression with my drunken confused one.

"I see you are feeling better." He mused, a smirk on his pouty lips.

A giggle escaped me as i nodded. "Much! Who knew I'd like tequila!? I sure didnt."

He pushed me backwards slightly to get a good look at me, his lip being sucked between his teeth before he bit it as his eyes scanned my body. "Mmm. You look.."

"Slutty? I know. Eden..." I breathed a laugh.

Deacon shook his head with a cocked brow. "No. I was going to say.... sexy." He winked, hand brushing against the skin of  my exposed lower back.

Very un Deacon like.

A blush crept up my cheeks.

"Thanks. I guess?"

He reached behind him, taking two shots off the bar and leaned back over, handing one to me.

I was going to say i probably shouldnt? But then i had forgotten.. so i took the offered shot. We touched our glasses with one another and tipped them back. I enjoyed the smooth feeling as it warmed me from the inside out, creating a deeper numbing sensation within.

"Wanna Dance?" He looked down at me but seemed so much more shorter than he usually did.

Then i remembered i was wearing seven inch heels.

"Okay!" A stupid grin split across my red lips as he moved me toward the dancefloor, but the music had just switched to this song that talked about "shots shots shots" so I wound up jumping around with insanity, moving my hips. Eden and a few others dancing closer to us with exotic moves.

"You having fun yet!?" Eden screamed over the blaring speakers.

Nodding swiftly, i yelled back, "yeah! Thanks so much for making me come!"

Her features lit up, "YOU ARE SO WELCOME!" then her eyes darted toward Deacon, staring at him with a blank face but pointedly. I brushed it off and turned back around toward him. His eyes were locked on Eden, a slight crease in his forehead with worried eyes.

"Whats going on with you and Eden?" I leaned into him to wisper. He shrugged his shoulders before the corners of his lips turned up into a grin as he took my hand, spinning me aroimd before pulling me into his hard chest.

"Come on." He walked past me, tugging my hand. I noticed Eden was busy dancing with Marc so decided she wouldn't miss me for a second.

"Where are we going?" I called from behind him.

"Somewhere quiet." He responded.

A loud whine broke out of my throat. "But i dont want to be anywhere quiet! I want to be free and loud!" I kicked my shoes off by the door as he exited the building, into the night air, jumping on his back. He wasnt expecting it so after almost dropping me, he hauled me up properly so i was riding on his back with ease..

"Seriously D. I wanna party!"

My first time drinking had me acting like a ten year old with a sugar rush.

I could feel his chest vibrate with laughter as he shook his head. "Nah. Not right now. We will come back." His hands gently held onto the backs of my knees as i rode atop of him, my arms circled around his neck.

He walked with me on his back away from the commons building, over toward the woods going the opposite direction of the lake and Commons area. We had miles of pack land so we were able to have many buildings on the property, even schools. But there were a few amazing things on our territory, one being the waterfall, the second being the hot springs off in these parts of the woods.

"Are we going to the hot spring!?" My voice held excitment, my arms clenching around him tighter as he chuckled.

"Yes Nov. We are going to the hot spring. You need to sweat some of the alcohol out. Youre wasted." He scolded playfully.

I scoffed. " i am not! Im perfected!"

He hmmd. "Nah. You were already perfected before. Look at it this way. If you sweat it all out.. you can just drink more when we go back."

His logic did make complete sense at the time. I was wasted... along with the xanax pill i took.. i was surprised I was still standing. Well.. piggy back riding.

Moments later, we arrived at the hot spring. He eased me down off his back as i stood mesmerizd at the vision before me. the glow of the aqua water of the semi large pool was gorgeous beneath the moonlight. You could see to the bottom which only went about four feet down. Stars sparkled high in the sky above the forrest canopy.. it was so quiet aside from the crickets and frogs chirping.

"You wanna get in?" He glanced over at me as he began to remove his tshirt over his head, his body stacked with muscles that rippled and moved along with him. No where as muscled as Z... but still a good sight to see.

I chewed my lip, thinking. "I dont have a swimsuit."

Turning to face me, he shrugged as he unbuckled his belt. "You're wearing panties and a bra right"

I nodded.

"Alright then. Instant swimsuit. Come on it will be fun!" He kicked his pants off, revealing his lean body in only his boxers that had my eyes stuck to him. Shaking myself out of the daze I was in, the cool air blew, goosing my skin as i shivered.

"Okay. Yeah." I whispered as i pulled my top over my head revealing the red lace bra I had on, encasing my large breasts. Watching Deacon lower himself into the steaming water in the middle of these woods, eyes not watching, i unbuttoned the shorts and pulled them down to reveal the matching red lace booty short panties. I didnt feel self conscious around D. He has seen me in less. Much less. I didn't really feel anything at the moment.

I lowered myself into the water, feeling its warmth hit my skin was pure pleasure.. i felt so light.. as if I were floating in this world.. not really here but just passing through.

The hot spring pool was about 8 feet wide so there was plenty of room. Deacon sat on one side against the natural rock shelf that acted as a bench, ringing along the inside of the pool.. I sat next to him, our legs kicking away from us, feeling relaxation take over.

I moaned. "This feels so good."

He breathed out lightly. "Yes it does."

We sat for a moment, not really talking about anything...just enjoying the comfortable silence. My mind was so hazy, i couldn't even think about Zaryn even if i wanted to. I was too entranced on the moon above and the steam rising from above the glowing pool in calming tendrils.

I felt eyes on me. Turning to look at Deacon, he was staring at me. Blue eyes locked onto my face.

"What?" Leaning in, i frowned playfully at him. I liked this version of myself.

He took a deep breath. "Your mom never made you that tea did she." He inhaled, closing his eyes.

Shit.

"Uh.. I forgot... are you.. are you okay?" I asked wearily noting how his jaw was clenched. If he couldn't control himself then we needed to leave.

"Yeah. Ill be fine. Nothing to worry over." His eyes shifted back toward me, landing on the mark on my neck from Zaryn's wolf.

I decided to stand, feeling the desire to wade around in the pool as my body floated around. The moment I did, i was pulled back by strong hands on my hips, onto his lap, facing away from him.

"Hey! I wanted to float!" I turned my head, pouting as i eyed the side of his face.

His expression was blank of all emotion as he pulled me back into his chest so that I lay against him. He put his arms around my waist as i leaned my head back on his shoulder, sighing at how comfortable I was.

Deacon has always held me like this whenever I was upset or just needed to be close. He had always been good at reading what I needed.

But the moment i felt something hard against my ass was the moment i jerked my head forward, craning my neck so i could look at him with shock.

That has never happened before.

"Uh.. maybe i should move... seems like you have an.. issue down there." I stared into his now darker eyes with my lips parted in surprise.

His eyes hooded as he shook his head. "Nah. You're okay. It happens. Im 17 now." He leaned his head back against the side seeming fine.. so i shrugged it off and leaned back against him. The alcohol had the blacks and whites blending into greys.. everything was a grey area.

We stayed like that for a bit but it felt as if his... hardness.. just kept on getting harder and harder beneath me. I wasn't uncomfortable.. it was strange... but not appalling. He is a male after all.

Tequila seemed to be fogging my mind even more, clouding me, making me feel fuzzy.. or maybe it was the medicine. His hands ran down my sides, stopping at my pelvic bones to grip them, pulling me into his hardened member even further.

My eyes widened.

Before i could say anything, his fingertips were stroking my thighs.. but it felt so good.. so relaxing.. like the nerves in my body were extra sensitive. I tried to think about something. Anything. But all i could do was concentrate on the tingles I was getting from his fingertips gently grazing my thighs before moving towards my inner thighs.

A gasp left my lips as I felt the tingles move inside my pelvis.. the familiar feeling of one that i remember..

Lust.

This wasnt right. Not right..

But it felt so.. euphoric.. so.. pleasureable. A small moan escaped my lips as i lay against him, letting him touch my thighs which kept pleasurable feelings coming forth.. the tightness in my stomach returning.

Its like i couldn't stop him..

Didnt want to stop him.

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He removed one hand, sliding it up my stomach to the front of my bra. Suddenly my breasts felt lighter.. looking down, i saw that he had unclasped my bra and was pulling it off my shoulders, throwing it behind him when he was done.

"Deacon!" I gasped.

"Shhhhh.. just relax Nova." His breath against my ear sent a shiver of excitement, my hormones saturating the air as he inhaled deeply, hands cupping my breasts and massaging... his fingers playing..

"Deacon i think we need to stop. We are friends." My voice wavered once i felt his lips on my neck, kissing, licking, nibbling lightly.

I didnt remember the last thing I had said... i was too enthralled in the heady feeling that was happening.. my brain becoming more and more foggy as if i had taken three more shots , instead of it wearing off.

Breathing  out slowly, sinking my hips ontop of him, feeling him hard against me as his hands trailed down my torso.. back down to my thighs.

"You smell so amazing.. " he whispered into my neck. Gasping, i felt his finger lightly trail up my lace covered center, his knees spreading my legs wide for him to trail his finger up and down.

He groaned.. without warning, his hand slipped inside and continued to stroke my flesh as i layed back against him, doing nothing to stop him. Enjoying the pleasure i recieved from his touch.. euphoria from the medicinal induced intoxication combined with the pleasure and hormones... i was a whimpering gasping mess, trying my best to be quiet. I was too drunk to hear if any wolves were near by.

His middle finger rubbed circles, my rear wiggling on top of him, feeling my insides constrict. His other hand went into the leg of my panties, stroking the slick petals while simultaneously massaging me.. it was ... it was undescribeable , his mouth playing at the unmarked side of my neck.

Without warning, a digit found its way inside.. sliding back and forth.. adding another as he kissed me neck. I was Pushing against him, begging for more.

"Deacon.." i moaned as he moved his fingers in and out.. teeth scraping against my flesh.

One more thrust and i was a withering mess against his body, feeling my insides explode as my i shuttered around his fingers.

I lay against him, seeming as if I were falling down.. back to my body.. the pleasure shocks still rocked me as he pulled his fingers away.

"Mmmm" he moaned. "You taste good too."

i was being turned around on his lap. He stood with me as I stared up at him, shocked. He wrapped my legs around his waist before sitting back down with me on top of him and his hands went to my chest, roaming.

I couldn't stop. Something inside me was like a fire i couldnt put out. Next his hand dove into my hair at the back of my head, his other hand pressing against my ass, rocking me against him as his hand brought my head down to his, his lips covered mine, kissing me wildly.

He pushed his tongue between my lips, tasting my mouth as i moaned into his, begging for more.

Breaking away, i looked up into his eyes with my own hooded ones, barely seeing anything at all other than that his eyes were such a dark blue, driven by the need he felt. I could feel him.. his excitement.. rubbing against me.. back and forth. His hand went down, pulling at my panties before ripping them off of me, cutting into my flesh slightly as i gasped in surprise.

Taking himself in his hand, other  hand going to my hips to lift me up.

"Do you want this?" His gaze locked onto mine.

My head lulled to the side, eyes rolling before i caught myself and tried to focus on him but it was all blurring.

His brows furrowed with concern as his hand cupped my jaw, releasing himself and me. "Nova. Are you okay?"

I breathed in and out heavily, pressing my hands into his shoulders to try to focus. His other hand had left my hip, forgetting about his excitement as he smacked my cheek lightly.

"Nova look at me." His deep voice held that authority all alpha bloods held.

Trying really hard to look at him, i closed my eyes and shook my head when i realized i couldnt.

"What else did you do tonight besides drink?" He lifted my chin, a brow arched as he waited for my answer.

A slight smile graced my lips before frowning, not being able to keep my head up. "I took one of moms pills. For my nerves."

An angry line settled over his lips. "Human drugs? You took a human prescription drug?"

I nodded, my head falling on his chest as he sighed angrily. "Dont ever do that again Nova. It could kill you. You dont drink on top of that stuff either." He scolded me.

I felt hot.. like my insides were on fire with my skin. "Deacon... i think im too hot."

"Yeah no shīť." He scoffed rubbing my back soothingly.

Shaking me head slightly, "no i mean.. im hot. I feel like im going to pass out." My words were jumbled but i was instantly lifted in his arms, clutching him to me as he stepped out and layed my on the stone ground, my body felt cool all of a sudden.. i sighed in relief as i finally felt like I could breath.

He rested there with me a moment before his deeo voice separted the silence. "You feel better now?"

I turned towards him, eyes trying to focus. "Yeah. My body feels so... floaty now.. its so nice on this rock." I giggled.

He rolled his eyes with an exasperated sigh, pulling himself up so he was lying over me, propped up on his elbow.

"Dont take those again. I mean it." This was a command from my friend.

"Yes sir." I mock saluted him.

Deacon groaned, pushing himself off the ground. "Come on. Lets get you home."

The only thing i knew was that i was being lifted and carried, me eyes closed letting the darkness take over my body.

Dun dun dun!

Deacon you dirty dog..

Literally 😂

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