CH 9
Ex-Hero, Now Freeloader
9 â Holy Sword Tantrum 2
I see. I finally understand.
For the entire time she was used by Heroes who thought she was annoying, it was like her mind was sealed away.
Thatâs why she wants me to think that a Hero needs her.
She wanted to be with me and still have her mind intact, so she asserted her existence.
She is terrified that she will be left behind because my strength far exceeds that of the past heroes. Strong enough to do just fine in a fight without a holy sword.
She was worried that I would never come back to her.
Or that if I did wield her, her mind would be sealed again. Or even considered unnecessary as a weapon.
She was scared.
ãWhy didnât you say anything? Did you think I might shut you up like the past Heroes?ã
That said, I did actually want to do that.
She was pretty noisyâ¦
But I would never want her to be silent. Thatâs probably why sheâs always so energetic.
Because this relationship is the best for me as a Hero.
ãB-becauseâ¦I-I did something terribleâ¦ã
Said Mika in a truly apologetic tone.
ãSomething terrible?ã
I tried thinking about it but nothing came to mind.
ãOh, is it about breaking that treasure sword?ã
ãN-not about that. Uhm⦠When I first met you, I thought that maybe you would see me as a partner of equal standing since we were going to be together since childhood.ã
ãHmâ¦but thenâ¦?ã
Nothing seems wrong so far.
ãThatâs just it. Just as silver tits mentioned, itâs not normal to give a five-year-old child a sword to go fight. Honestly, I should have watched over your growth while refusing you, saying something proper likeãYou are not yet old enough to wield meãor something. But I didnât.ã
ãAh, I see.ã
You felt guilty about that decision and find it pretty hard to confess to it.
ãIâm the worst, arenât I? Iâm sure you hate me. Iâm sorry. I took advantage of your kindness and acted as a trustworthy holy swordâ¦but Iâm nothing like that.ã
Mika wallowed in self-loathing.
Childhood or not, itâs debatable if she was a trustworthy holy sword.
But she is a partner of equal footing.
ãIâm ready. If you want to punish me and erase my mindâ¦I will optimize myself if you wish it.ã
She spoke like a prisoner on death row, shutting their eyes tight, awaiting execution butâ¦what is she talking about?
ãNo, Iâm good.ã
ãHuh?ã
ãIâm just saying you donât have to worry about it.ã
ãWha-?! D-donât you get it? Even though Iâm a holy sword, I put my own feelings first over-ã
ãOK, first of all, thereâs a misunderstanding here.ã
She probably harbors some sorta regret likeãHe never would have fought at such a young age if I stopped myself fromâ¦ãor something.
ãHuh?ã
ãJust think about it. I was found by those five, and even if you said somethingâ¦do you think they would hear you out and wait for me to grow up?ã
ãâ¦Ah.ã
Looks like she realized.
Thatâs right, that would be impossible.
ãIf I made the excuse that I wasnât worthy of using you yet, I would have spent those days without you.ã
Even without a holy sword, the crest of the Hero is carved onto me.
There are no problems in training me and making me fight.
ãY-you might be right. But even so, that doesnât make the sin of my choice disappear.ã
Hm, so thatâs how it is.
ãOkay, I forgive you.ã
ãYou forgive me?! Just like that?!ã
ãI mean, itâs not like I want your consciousness to disappear.ã
The punishment sheâs looking for isnât something I want to give.
Her making decisions I donât want her to make just to atone would cause trouble.
ãâ¦!! W-why would youâ¦ã
Mika sounds like sheâs about to cry again.
Hmm⦠Well, she told me everything, so I guess I have to say it.
ãThose other five, theyâre in charge of my upbringing, right? Theyâre my seniors, leaders, teachers, and adults.ã
ãY-yeahâ¦?ã
ãSoâ¦wellâ¦yâknow⦠Youâre full of yourself, but weâre equals. If you say something annoying, I can say something back.ã
ãWe treat each other unreservedly?ã
ãYeah! I think thatâs it. Iâm sure Iâ¦Iâve always wanted a relationship like thatâ¦soâ¦ã
The words just arenât coming out.
Still, weâve come this far, I have to tell her.
ãIâve always imagined that making a friend wouldâ¦feel like thisâ¦ã
Like kids I see in towns, dudes laughing while sharing drinks in a bar, or soldiers or mercenaries fighting back-to-back while cracking jokes.
A relationship that cannot be built by oneself, a friend.
I would probably never have that in my life.
I may have simulated that experience with Mika.
As expected, the other five didnât say anything about not speaking to the holy sword.
ãF-friendâ¦? Iâm a sword, you know?ã
ãHuh? So? Itâs not like you can become partners without being friends, right?ã
â¦â¦Wait, can you?
There definitely are quite a few people who go into battle yellingãThis is my partner!ã.
But none of them ever call it their friendâ¦
ãRâ¦Rainâ¦!ã
ãW-what?ã
The holy sword Mikaâ¦started wailing.
ãBweeeeeehâ¦!ã
ãGah, shut upâ¦!ã
Oops, I told her to shut up.
Butâ¦she honestly is being really loud right nowâ¦
ãD-dank yuuâ¦! I zwear Iâll doo mai bezt to-ã
ãI canât understand anything youâre saying.ã
You donât have to push yourself to say things while bawling.
Iâll try deciphering what she was trying to say⦠Uhmâ¦ãThank you, I swear Iâll do my best to change my ways.ãI guess?
Huh, guess I did understand her.
ãSure. Looking forward to working with you.ã
ãYeah. Thank you, truly. â¦Iâm glad youâre my wielder.ã
ãIs that so?ã
ãAlso thanks for forgiving me for breaking that treasure sword.ã
ãNope, still havenât forgiven you for that.ã
Man, she always gets carried awayâ¦
But just thinking about all that made me smile.
Even Mika giggled.
This exact feeling of being able to have pointless discussions like this is what Iâve always wanted.
ãIâm prepared. Even if those other five come after you, Iâll fight for you.ã
ãThanks, but Iâm not expecting much out of you, though.ã
ãCheeky brat!ã
ãAhaha.ã
At that moment, Ferris came in with the tea.
ãThanks, Ferris.ã
ãNot at all⦠Fufu.ã
Ferris looked at me with a slight smile.
ãW-what?ã
ãMaster Rain is truly a kind individual.ã
ãâ¦You went to make teaâ¦right?ã
ãFufufu.ã
â¦Come to think of it, I vaguely remember seeing Ferris beforeâ¦
I donât think it was at the time I rescued Eleanor⦠Meh, just my imagination.
ãAbout your afternoon appointment, Master Rain.ã
ãAh right, I promised the little ones Iâd play with them.ã
ãUnderstood. I shall prepare the area.ã
ãPlease and thank you.ã
ãYouâre taking me with you, right?ã
ãFine, but no talking during hide-and-seek.ã
ãHmph, itâs just a step down from covert ops training, right? Thisâll be childâs play.ã
ãNo, this really is childâs play.ã
It might be better to have them teach me a new game today.
Something Iâve noticed yesterday is that this Demon King Castle has a very wide playground-like space.
I pick up my cup of tea while thinking that.