12: TAKING A HIKE
Unconventional Desires
DELILAH
Seth and I had parked his Jeep at what looked like some sort of walnut farm, which had made me frown considering it didnât seem like a respectable place to hike. As we pulled into the parking lot, Seth pointed out maps supporting his plans of hiking. Trails scattered all over the tiny maps that boggled my mind once I got out of the car to read them over. Signs about no littering, warnings of possible landslides, and another sign that gave me pause.
Be Advised:
Cougar spotted in the area.
Hike in groups. Stay alert. Carry Bear Spray. Keep dogs on leash. Donât run. Make eye contact. Appear large. Make noise.
Since it didnât feel like we were in the middle of the woods by any means, I didnât say anything. Instead, it felt closer to the edge of town so I tried to keep the sign from my mind. However, I still sincerely hoped as we walked, that Seth was indeed carrying the bear spray.
As we set forth, nature seemed to swallow us whole. Flowers, trees, scents; even the sound of trickling streams seemed to surround us. The chilling bite of the morning slowly giving way to the warmth of the sun and the fragrances of the forest and rich soil. Breathing it all in brought a sort of peace as we walked quietly. So when Seth and I finally stopped, the sound of the birds and the breeze made everything entirely peaceful. Making me close my eyes and take a deep long breath.
âWeâre almost there. Here.â He offered me his watering can, something I accepted gratefully, taking a large drink to fix my drying mouth. âSo what else did Cole hire you for? Sex?â
Water came out of my nose and went all over my hands as I sputtered and coughed. The pain was intense as I covered my face. Trying to find the words and regain my composure. âE-excuse me!?â
âNow that weâre away from the cameras, itâs easier to talk knowing he wonât overhear. So I figured Iâll just be blunt and ask. I know who you are. Iâm a huge fan of your work. Donât get me wrong, but whatever my brother is trying to do, I donât want a nice lady like yourself coming under fire between our issues.â
It took a few moments for my mouth to work. Several different feelings coming over my face as I tried to decide what to say, let alone feel other than guilty. âW-well.â I took a deep breath, capping the water jug before glancing around to see if there was anywhere to sit since this would take a moment. Sure enough, a large boulder was just up the path, one I pointed at to indicate I was moving to; not leaving. Seth let me collect myself, allowing me to get comfortable and collect my thoughts.
After another deep breath, I squared my shoulders, folding my hands in my lap. âOriginally, I was hired for just the interview, from what I understood. Your brother didnât make his wishes known until after I left the shop.â
âSo the whole reason he brought you is because he wanted to fuck you?â
âWhat? No. I mean.â My face went red, suddenly feeling very uncomfortable. âI donât think it was, we were entirely professional with both our deals andââ Already knowing those were the wrong words, I covered my face. Knowing this was coming out all wrong. âWe havenât even had sex!â
âAh, so those are just noises you make when youâre in someone elseâs home all the time then for fun? Is it arousing to you to be somewhere else?â His tone was slightly wicked, not fully accusatory, more playful. He still seemed to be listening, just taunting me slightly.
It wasnât helpful. If anything, it made me more flustered. Knowing everything was coming out the wrong way and making me sound⦠provocative at best.
I swallowed harder, trying again. âHe hired me to try and find you someone to marry. I didnât give him any guarantees, but the retainer will help get me on my feet. Honestly, Seth, youâre a really nice guy, handsome, and have enough money to establish a happy family. Trying to find you someone that might love you wouldnât be that hard so money aside, Iâm happy to help. It just happened to be in my best interest to not say no when he offered.â
âIâm confused on how helping me became⦠him fucking you?â Seth asked, turning his head with a coy smile coming forward; closing the space between us.
âI already told you we havenât had sex.â I growled, curling my fists and holding my ground. âTo be honest, after spending time with you and knowing about Jewel, it was my idea.â My retort was messy, but I was getting mad. It felt like he was grilling me. Me and Coleâs relationship wasnât any of his business.
âJewel. Howââ
I put up a hand, my face full of anger. âIâm still talking. Iâm the matchmaker, and Cole put me in a vehicle with that wretched woman because of your history. Something that finally made sense because she was honestly the worst welcoming committee on this planet, let alone a highly unpleasant person to be around as a woman coming for a professional interview. That being said, I figured out really fast that your relationships keep getting messed up, and that you as well as your brotherâblames Cole. Which in my professional opinion is jacked.â
Seth stayed silent. The birds chirping. As if he wasnât sure what to say.
âWell!?â I demanded. Waiting for him to goad me again.
âIâm listening, go on.â He said with a small shrug, his face fairly passive.
I grit my jaw, taking another deep breath to calm myself and think over my words. âYour brother was obviously attracted to me, and I knew it was wrong. Itâs like accepting dirty money by saying Iâd have any sort of relationship with him and work for him. He is cute though, and if it keeps him distracted while youâre finding love, I just thought it would be fine for something temporary. If you really have to know about me and your brother, which Iâll say again is none of your business.â
âTemporary.â Seth repeated, tilting his head curiously at the word.
I sighed, rolling my eyes. âLook, we donât always all make the best decisions sometimes. I was really horny, but I see I crossed a boundary. Iâm happy to pack my bags andââ
âNo. Donât go,â Seth said, placing a hand on mine, moving his body inches from mine as he sat on the boulder next to me. The contact feeling intimate as his eyes met mine and his voice lowered. âDonât go. Despite the reasons youâre here, Iâve adored your company. I also appreciate your honesty. My brother is still a rake, but heâs also trying his best to⦠make amends, I suppose. What you two do is your business, so Iâm sorry for interluding.â
I chewed on my lip, unconvinced that I didnât just stir up trouble between the two even more. It wasnât my intention; if anything, I saw how much they hurt, how much they tried to work together. It made me wish me and my siblings had ever been so close.
âThank you for saying so. Iâll try to be more⦠discreet in the future about how loud I am,â I mumbled, not meeting his eyes, and my cheeks flushing not just at the memory, just at the very fact that I had been caught.
âDonât be sorry at all, they were lovely noises. Hopefully, youâll let me have my turn once my brotherâs done to make you produce even more,â Seth said with a small wink, leaning in to kiss my cheek. He lingered there for a moment, his eyes making contact with mine as his fingers laced with mine. I held my breath, unable to think.
He had not just said that. Had he?
As quickly as the moment had occurred, it passed as if it had never existed.
Seth pulled away with a small smile, his face filled with the approachable boyish charm I had grown familiar with, standing up to stretch with a large sigh. âLetâs finish the hike. Thereâs a beautiful view just up ahead. Iâm starting to get hungry again.â