chapter 40

Flashback 🥱🥱Thulir's POV I looked at the mess around me all the books opened and spread on the floor and I was sitting in the middle with my laptop and trying to find the perfect answer for every possible question they would ask me in my final presentation......I'm aware that I'm extremely stressed and anxious, even though I'm familiar with everything I've done for this thesis. Yet, I can't help but panic. I've completed my final draft and sent it to my guide for the umpteenth time for confirmation, as he highlighted each mistake individually rather than all at once.Why are all the guides the same????I signed and reread my thesis again to find out if I missed anything I want to find that out before he sends me a reply mail pointing out very minute mistake........My phone pinged with a notification; it was from Thuyavan, indicating that he was on his way back home.That's good thing because I know Thalir wouldn't have slept yet and would have waiting for him to comeback.....she can sleep alone but she would be scared if she by chance wake up in middle of night and find her alone and have to walk out of the room she would get panic attacks.....even though she keeps everything beside her before sleeping and won't wake up in middle often nowadays but that thing never left her...I hope she soon try to come out of her fear....someday she have to alone all by herself and she have to survive that phase...hmmmActually She began reading books to pass the time until he returned home, as he often came back late from playing in various local tournaments and betting matches.....considering that my ammu owns a whole library in our home and my siblings have access to it but me just to tease me they would go to library and gradually they became bookworms just like my ammu....It's not that I dislike reading books. it's just that I'm not permitted to access my ammu's library or her collection. Therefore, I have to purchase them myself, and I am too lazy to buy fiction books unless they are for my studies. I do read fiction online, but very rarely, as my PhD work requires me to read many more books on my specific topic and related areas....The thought is somewhat scaring  me these days, my siblings are growing up. Eventually, they will find others to share their lives with, and I may no longer be the first person they turn to, the last one they talk to before bed, or the one they recount their daily events to, as a child does with their mother...I know I am more of a strict mother to them over a elder sister....I do understand this is meant to happen and I have to accept the change soon and train my mind to let go of them........I don't have to play the over protective and strict sister role to them anymore...Just then my phone ringed...its Thalir...See speaking of the kutty sathan....I picked up the call before I say hello I heard her dragging voice..."AAaakkkkaaaaaaaa"Just a moment ago, I considered being lenient with them, but it seems that was a poor decision. I'll just be myself, as always."Solu Thalir...""Did you ate anything akka?"she enquired me sweetly.............okay danger light..."No Thalir I am finalizing my Thesis...I would make something soon and will have it....did you had your dinner?""Akka, I understand your determination to earn the 'Dr.' title with your PhD, but remember, you need to be alive to achieve it. Skipping meals won't help. Consider our family, Akka. What would we do? Think about your sister and how she'd feel if she lost you. And Athiyan... opps I should not call him by his name la choorryyyy, I mean, think about 'mams', he's innocent in all this."I heard her blabbering okay madam need something...."Thalir that's enough I am accepting you are over concerned about my health now will you stop your drama and come to the point why you called me?""Ohhhh Therinjiduchaa"(Ohh you caught me ah)"Ama solu"(yes say it now)"Naa ila akka nee tha solanum"(Not mee akka you should say now...)"Ehhhhhh""Okay let me ask you clearly.........I was reading this book.......there was this scene they call it love making.........or in simple term sex""Thaalirrr""Akkaaaaa let me complete akka"I took a deep breath to calm myself and ready for what she is up to because I already guessed it....let's see is it what I think "Sollum solli Tholaiyum "(just say it  😒😒😒)"Dankuuuu my lord""will you say it or I should cut the call"I warned her..."Okay......hear this carefully.....I read that full chapter just a moment ago......I have some doubts here and need your clarification on the same......"Bingoo I guessed it right...I rolled my eyes at her response and shook my head in disbelief "Thalir why the hell you want clarification from me  idiot""Because you have hot boyfriend akkaa and you supposed to know all this.....I only know that theoretically but you know all this practically right ""Waathaaa""Akkaaa....No Bad words you know""Adiyee.....I am freaking out here about my thesis and how my guide going to test my patience and you are asking me this.....and what hot boyfriend huh? Agathiyan is off limits for you to sight Thalir I made it clear already didn't I?""Akkaaaa sighting is universal right you can't put restriction on it and you clearly know I am not lying about Athiyan being the hottest man in our cousin gang....Just because you taken him doesn't mean I shouldn't not sight him okay...""Thalir en porumaiya romba sothikura dii nee"(Thalir you are testing my patience too much.....)"Will see that later akka....now you say it how does it actually feels to be touched by your lover? you can give me free tips too you know?"She asked me, and I can clearly say she is wingling her eyebrows now....I took a deep breath..."Thalir....Go to sleep Thuyavan on his way back home before sleep consumes you he would be at home......Good night "I said and was about to cut the call she said "Akkaaa if you don't tell me now....I would go and knock our parents room and ask amma ""whaatttt""what what? amma have 3 kids so she is really experienced in that matter and I am going to ask her now.....do you think she will answer me now?"She teased me...This girl"Okay go ahead....I know about you more than you do dii.....you won't break your innocent, naive character sketch Infront of others except me now.....so shut up and sleep "I retorted and was about to cut the call again....but again she asked me"Apo unmaiyave neenga inum Thapu panalaiya ? akka"(Wait....is that mean you both didn't do that sin yet akka?)"Thaaaalirrrr""Okay okay....I got the answer.......But I must say Athiyan is paavam........why you are this much good girl akka......too bad""Moditu poi padri"(Shut and sleep )I snapped and cut the call.....now looked at my laptop but my mind is already messed up and thanks to my dear little devil sister.....Great....I shut down my laptop and looked around the scattered books and signed heavily...I picked up my phone and saw the wallpaper of me kissing sleeping Agathiyan on the screen....why the hell I am finding him even more handsome now. my finger automatically traced his face in the screen.......I opened my gallery and went to that private folder which have all our pics mainly dominated by his pictures........I started admiring one by one and I couldn't stop my mind from imagining dirty scenes with him...How his tongue battle with mine to dominate the kiss.....how his fingers dig into my hips and how he groups my ass and kneads them when we get lost in the kiss.....how his hands explore my curves without any barrier........fuck Thulir get a grip....Just then I remember I didn't called him today to rant about my thesis........But now considering my simulated dirty thoughts I can't have sane conversation with him and it's 10 pm he might have came home tired.....I signed and sent him Good night message with a kissing emoji......the next second I received call from him.............why Agathiya.........I took a deep breath and picked up the call.."Agathiyaa""Open the door I am waiting outside""Whaaatttt??""Kathava Thoradi Theeni...."(open the door di Theeni....)Okay sir signed up for this....... Taking a deep breath, I stood up, walked to the main door, unlocked it, and opened it, only to be greeted by his smiling face....