chapter 31

Author's POV"Akkaaa, I am so happy for you... Naa ethachu sweet seiyatuma?....ungaluku ena pudikum nu solunga athe panidrein."(Akka, I'm so happy for you! Should I prepare a sweet? Tell me your favourite, and I'll make it for you!)Thugil exclaimed to Thulir with excitement as they stepped into the house, returning from the hospital..."Nenga inga ukarunga Kaa...nagaratheinga"(You sit here akka....Don't move)" I'll handle all the other works from now on; you shouldn't overexert yourself. But before that, you need to share this wonderful news with sir. Have you thought about how to reveal it? Like those dramatic reveals in movies, do you have any such plan? Or perhaps you'd like to tell him through secret notes and clues, like a treasure hunt. I'm certain that even if you tell him directly, without any extra fanfare, sir will be over the moon. Given how much he adores you, learning this news might make him love you even more, if that's possible. Oh, how deeply he cares for you... I wonder if I'll ever find someone to love me like that. Look at me, rambling on instead of preparing something for you. I'll go now...."Thulir sighed, rolled her eyes, and placed her palm over Thugil's mouth to stop her rambling."I recall a time when I was asked to speak, but now it seems all day long, I hear your endless chatter about anything and everything....give some rest to your mouth it must be tired "Thulir said and made her sit on the sofa and sat next to her, comfortably leaning back and resting her ankles on the teapoy and closed her taking a deep breath...."akkaaa""Shhhhhhh Thugil......finger on your lips....don't dare to remove it unless I say so..."Thulir said strictly knowing if Thugil starts with that tone that means never ending rambling...She shook her head in disbelief surely she didn't expect Thugil would be a chatterbox...After a while, Thulir spoke, gazing at the ceiling fan whirling rapidly due to the previous day's servicing."I actually didn't have any idea how to say this to him Thugil.....I mean we didn't even talked about having babies even in our normal conversation...I don't know how he would take this.........you know when he wanted us to get married he said he craves for stability in life......isn't that mean he also wants a family of our own with babies and all? Am I right?"Thulir asked but there was no response from Thugil so she tilted her head side only to see Thugil sitting there with her finger on lips....Thulir facepalmed herself and shook her head in disbelife..."Don't you think its too childhish Thugil"Thulir asked with a chuckle....again Thugil didn't answered.....Thulir rolled her eyes and pulled her finger from her lips..."now speak ""I know its childish Akka....still it made you giggle right....You actually forgot your confusion for some moment so It's still working "Thugil responded, wiggling her eyebrows...Thulir giggled, nodded her head, and then leaned back against the headrest again.Thugil turned to her side and spoke..."one doubt kekalaama?"(can I ask?)"Kelu"(ask )"it's been three years of your marriage.....no one in your family brought this baby topic? I don't believe you akka"Thugil asked narrowing her eyes at Thulir.....Thulir chuckled and knocked her head..."No Thugil....No one asked me or him till now....I won't say they didn't thought and wished for a baby from us.......but they didn't voiced that out to us......our family won't push us on something Thugil mainly for a baby openly.......my periatthai's sufferings was also reason behind it.....so they would never bring that topic and neither let other's talk reach me and Agathiyan.......""You know akka....I truly pity your family....its so beautiful and cute..""Cute??""Yes....you have only  one Nathanar (sister in law- husband's sister) and she is 11 year old cute girl....you know in our village Nathanars are second villi's next to mamiyars........and your mamiyar is so kind and lovely....I mean they still live as joint family without big fuss itself a big achivement so who won't pity them"Thugil reasoned out making Thulir smiled at her who is praising her family "Hmmmm that's true though...........but there is also indifferences in that big family Thugil...Everyone have their own set of worries and concerns.......My Issai atthai is not that much softspoken to everyone....She is like a volcano......the calm and lovely state is only for the family and closed persons.....but once she erupts that's it.."Thulir said and both chuckled at that......"Again Thugil.....do you think I should plan something special to disclose it to him..........but I couldn't think of any new ways and I am too bad at surprising people...That to him...he would easily find out....I want to make it special but don't know how......he would surely come tired today...what if he came in bad mood....It's not like I can't manage him....but I don't want to spoil this moment of I am disclosing it.....but some part of me says "why are you stressing yourself that's not you...you can simply say it directly to him ".......that's true but some part of me still concerned how would he take it....is he ready to be a father now"Thulir spoke with worry. Indeed, her babies began to disrupt her mind and thoughts before she even realized it. She has no idea why she is becoming so nervous and restless now."Akkaa.......why are you thinking too much about that.....you clearly know he would be happy to know about this news.....who won't like babies....I just love them.....those tiny fingers and toes......chubby cheeks.....round eyes small nose.....the miniature human version....I don't know about anyone but I love babies....."Thugil said dreamily....Thulir chuckled at her "Wait until they grow up, start walking and talking... taking care of them is a tedious job, Thugil. I'm speaking from my experience of babysitting my siblings and cousins... they're all troublemakers. They can't stay in one place, especially Thalir, who loves making a mess. She enjoys throwing everything on the floor. Even now, her room must be a total mess, and she'll come to me, trying to charm me into helping her clean and rearrange her room. She asks for help, but once I agree, she leaves it all to me. She pretends to clean, leaving me to organize everything while she only does the finishing touches......such a drama queen she is.....always comes to me to borrow my stuffs and would never give them back......you know when ever I buy something new I buy two knowing very well she would come to be for the same....."Thulir was speaking, but she halted when she received no response and turned to see Thugil, who was tearing up..."You miss her don't you Akka?"Thulir took a deep breath and nodded her head ...there is no use is denying the fact which is obvious to everyone....Thugil embraced her... Thulir stroked her head... but her brow furrowed when she felt wetness on her shoulder.....Thulir spoke in broken voice.."Thulasi was also pregnant at that time akka..... "Thulir parted from the hug and wiped Thugil's  tears..."How can he kill her akka.......she was pregnant....She would have begged him to leave her right......how can he kill his own wife and child......Our father trusted that man to cherish her, yet he proved to be a venomous snake... Not only did he betray that trust by taking their lives, but he also cruelly took our Appa's life and cast the blame upon me.......all for what?....just because I didn't agreed to marry a monster like him even after knowing he was the one who killed my akka.......you know what he said.......He killed her for me......he wanted me so he killed my pregnant sister.........that mean I am the reason behind my Thulasi and Appa's death right Akka.....I am the reason..."