chapter 27

Author's POV Thulir squinted and turned, attempting to wake up, but found it difficult due to the heavy weight on her...Her brows furrowed in confusion before she finally managed to open her eyes...Only find her husband sleeping over her almost half of his body was over her.....Her lips curled into a smile involuntarily as she watched him sleep peacefully, his lips slightly parted...She couldn't fathom that this was the same creature that had feasted yesterday. The lingering pain in her body served as a constant reminder, and the visible hickeys scattered across her skin were evidence of their passionate long night....As he lay on his stomach, she could clearly see his broad, bare back which showcased madam's artwork . The comforter had covered till their waists, leaving the enticing view exposed......Thulir was dressed in one of his shirts which he made her wear after she slept due to tiredness, Agathiyan was now sleeping his face half pressed on her breast...sensing the moment he snuggled more into her making her smile Thulir gently kissed his head, admiring her man... all this was till her gaze fell upon the clock."Aiyaiyooooo..."Thulir pushed him aside and sat up, causing him to groan from the sudden movement and fall to the floor."Ammmaaaaaaaaaaa..."Agathiyan sat up on the floor and glared at Thulir, having been awakened by his dear wife in an unexpected manner.....her next words fueled his annoyance more"Yov ACP unaku porupunu ethachi iruka unalam nambi epadi ivlo periya posting kudukuranga........Time pathiya 12 aguthu ana nee nala thoongitu iruka"(Yov ACP, do you have any sense of responsibility? I'm baffled as to why you were chosen for this position. Have you seen the time? It's 12 , and you're still asleep.. )Agathiyan facepalmed, ignoring her. He climbed back onto the bed, lay on his stomach, and closed his eyes, attempting to resume his sleep....Thulir huffed at his actions..."I am talking you Agathiya......wait you took leave?"She questioned him with uncertainty because he hadn't mentioned taking leave. She also didn't inquire as they were both preoccupied with something else...He shook his head, pulled her back into his arms, and nestled into her neck..."Then??"no answer from him......"Agathiyaaa.....""hmmm"Thulir signed, emerged from his embrace, sat up, and moved to the corner to step off the bed."Yeei Theeni....enga di pora.."(Yeei Theeni.....Where are you going?)Thulir turned, looked at him, and said, "You didn't have dinner yesterday... I'm sure you didn't eat well throughout the day... you missed breakfast too... I'll cook something and wake you up later... You sleep... since you didn't take any leave, it means you'll be leaving in 2 hours...let me make something ""Madam tired ah ilaiya???"(madam isn't tired ?)Thulir smiled at him..."I am used to your roughness ACP sir and its not our first time..........and more than me yesterday was more exhausting for you.......so you take rest""Pshhh....come "Agathiyan open his arms and asked her to join him again...Thulir shook her head..."Vaa dii""Agathiyaaa.."He pouted at her once more, gesturing for her to join him....Thulir signed and crawled towards him and cocooned herself in his arms....he kissed her head and said..."It's the night shift today. I'll have to leave by 9 pm, so don't worry. I'll order our food, so there's no need for you to cook. Just stay with me, just like this.""mmmm"Thulir sighed and lay back comfortably, resting her head on his shoulder while he playfully toyed with her fingers....After sometimes Thulir asked him.."Agathiyaa....""hmmmm"He hummed, resting his head atop hers. Thulir gazed up at him..."What will happen now Agathiyaa???""huhhh...what exactly you are asking Thulir..""About us.....what will happen now""what do you think Thulir...""Therila Agathiya......yosichupatha perusa onum thonala"(I don't know Agathiya.......if I think about it I don't get anything) "say t clearly Thulir.."She took a deep breath and spoke staring at the ceiling "I am confused. On one hand, it feels like my life has completely changed with my decision to marry. Suddenly, everything is different. Yet on the other hand, it feels so normal, as if nothing is new. Staying in this house and having conversations like this seems routine. Whenever you, mainly, have free time, we meet here. So, what has changed after marriage? Perhaps it's the fact that I won't sleep in my room at my father's house as often. But that's not entirely true; I can still go there and receive the same warm welcome. The same applies to Revathi Illam, which is now my in-laws' house. Even now, I don't think their love for me will change. I am still the favorite girl of that house.....I can still give orders to them, barge into their home at any time, and speak in a high-pitched voice, ranting about anything and everything I want. Yet, no one would taunt me; instead, they would patiently listen to my rant.....I am married now, but I don't feel that anything in my life has changed significantly. This is because I have always envisioned our married life to be this way—living alone as a couple in this house for the first few years. I had prepared myself for this even before the chaos unfolded. We had a conversation about it just like this a year back...Yet, I feel a void... I can't claim to be happy... nor can I say I am sad...Because the people I trusted the most hurt me the most...They have always been the first people I turn to, sharing my joys and sorrows from as far back as I can remember. But now, I hesitate to include them in my happy moments, yet I struggle to accept this decision I made.....I can't accept them neither able to push them...You share a similar equation with them as I do... teach me how to forgive them and move beyond this state of mind...justify their actions Agathiya...make me forgive them "Thulir pleaded Agathiyan....he took a deep breath and wiped her tears..."why you want to forgive them Thulir??""Despite everything, I find myself incapable of hating them. Even as I try to despise Aadhavan, I fail. If I can't hate him, despite the significant reasons to do so, how could I possibly hate others???""You know, Thulir, we are quite similar in that we both can understand another person's perspective clearly. The only difference is that I can accept it easily, whereas it might take you some time to accept and move on from it.....So, essentially, the justification you're seeking is something you already know... you simply want to hear it from me, that's all..."Agathiyan reasoned out..."Let it be, Agathiya... simply justify them... please change my current mindset... this is torture... I may appear strong to others, but I am very sensitive inside... If I love someone, I can never hate them, no matter what.""I know Thulir..."Agathiyan kissed her head and took a deep breath...."Okay.....keep your anger aside through out the conversation......just use your practical mind not the emotional one......If you are agreeing with this....I am up for this conversation..."Thulir raised her head, met his gaze, and nodded."Fine"