"I'll be Fine"

You promised me

You promised me to live

You promised me that we would grow up

Together

Go to the same schools

The same universities

The same jobs

And our children would become best friends

Just like we were

You promised me

You would always be there for me

And I...

I wanted to be there for you too

So why

Why did you break our promise?

Why didn't you lean on me

When I told you to?

I said I'd always be there didn't I?!

It's my fault

It's all my fault

I shouldn't have listened to you

When I first saw the scars

That marred your skin

And you begged me

Eyes pleading

To not tell anyone

When you became silent

And your eyes fell dark

And yet you held me back

"I'll be just fine"

You said

But you weren't fine

You would never be fine again

And it was too late

When you stopped turning up for school

And your body turned up instead

On the cold floor of your bedroom

I could have saved you

If only I had been stronger

But I wasn't

I wasn't

And I cost you your life

I...

I'm sorry

It's my fault our promise was broken

It's my fault that we couldn't see the world together

It's my fault

I wish...

You were still here.