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"Mom, dad somebody's at the door"Â I walked to the door but before I could open it my dad pushed me out the way
"Ow you hurt me" I got up from the floor brushing myself off
"Its time" my dad yelled I watched as mom grabbed a gun out the cabinet and gave me her phone
"Jordan baby imma need you to go somewhere Hide. Here's my phone call grandma" she rushed out
I ran to the closet shutting the door. I started crying, I don't know why I'm crying I just am. I closed my eyes tight next thing IÂ know I heard gun shots
I ran out the closet and saw my mom and dad talking they both looked at me and I felt something press against my head
"Baby don't turn around" my mom said as she fell to the floor crying watching the tears pour down my own moms face made me cry. My dad was emotionless just staring at me
"Mommy I'm scared" I said as four more men walk out they picked my mom up and slammed her against the wall and pointed a gun at her head
I gasped loudly not knowing what to do I know if I try to help her I'll get hurt I just cried watching her, watching the men closely as I visibly shook in fear
Distracted by gunshots I turned to look and my dad lifeless body I broke down to my knees crying uncontrollably
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My mom body was gone like that I cried for a few minutes and ran to the closet to grab my mom phone and called my grandma
Grandma: Hello
Meme mom and dad are hurt these man came in the house and shot them
Grandma: omg I'm on the way call the police baby
Okay grandma
Grandma: baby I'm on the way don't move
Okay
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"Jordan baby get up its the first day of school" I threw the covers off of me and went to the bathroom
I did my morning routine and got dressed in a white body suit, blue denim skirt and white pumas
I grabbed my book bag off the floor and grabbed my phone off the dresser
"Jordan I made breakfast you need to eat before you go to school girl" she said as she set my plate down
I dropped my book bag by the front door and put my phone in my coat pocket and set down and ate my bagel
"Girl you need to talk to me cause I feel lonely" she said as she fixed her some coffee
Ever since my mom and dad died I've been distant the only person that get me is my best friend Anna she knew me since we were diapers cause her mom and my mom were best friend
Her mom gave up on her when she found out my mom died cause she was going out with the dude that killed her and all the that stuff
But ever since then I been distant to everybody I only speak when I'm spoken to
In school I get called the mute girl but people don't know the reason why I'm really quiet so they can't speak on it
The people that only see the real me is my grandma and Anna
"Grandma I'm going to school imma take my car bye love you" I said as I grabbed my keys to my all white Range Rover
"Okay baby love you too" I waved bye and walked out the house to the car
Once I got in the car Anna FaceTimed me and I answered
Bestfriendð¥°ð:Hey boo were are you
Im in the car about to pick you up so be ready please Cause I'm not finna wait on nobody
Bestfriendð¥°ð:okay bye bye
Once I got off the phone I put on some music 23 island
I ain't on no molly, percocet all inside of my body
I thought, bout takin' them roxxies but I told myself I needa stop it
Wanna take, my bitch on a island do whatever to see you smiling
When I, give her wood, she holler
But I never thought about going Holly', no
My baby, my baby, my baby
Might cop you a new Mercedes
We driving these lil' bitches crazy
We driving these lil' bitches crazy
We even had thoughts on a baby
We even had thoughts on a baby
But fuck what they sayin', we too damn old to be playing
When the song stopped I pulled up to Anna house and beeped the horn after a minute of waiting she comes out the house
"Aww look at my bestie westie" I said as she got in the the car and shut the door she was wearing a all black body suit and all whites
"Hey girly I missed yo ass" she said as she grabbed her seat belt and buckled it in "I missed you to cause you didn't wanna FaceTime me this summer" I backed out the drive way and drove to school
"Girl yes I did call you" she said
"when cause I said I was with my grandma when we went to Starbucks and out to eat" I said as we pulled up to the school
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"True but I'm ready to get out of this school but bestie this our year time for you to stop letting them hoes talk to you any type of way" she grabbed her book bag and I shrugged
"Okay girl imma stick up for myself maybe,maybe not" I said as I put my phone and my keys in my mini book bag
Me and Anna was walking and talking when we walked up to the school they told everybody to go to the auditorium and they were gonna call our name for the schedule to know what classes we have
But I gotta have to go to the office and give then my medicine and my schedule cause I have panic attacks if I'm around lot of people and stuff
Ever since that thing happened with my parent I was diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression
And have to anti depressant medication but I don't think it really helps
I went to the office and gave them my medicine and they made me go in the nurse office to take it
This fine little Lightskin walked in and the nurse asked him for his name and he gave it to her
"Okay Jordan you need to get that cup the has your name on it and take your medicine with the water beside it same for you Leon" the nurse said as she wrote on her clipboard
"Ight bet" Leon said he got up from the seat and took it
deep voice and he's cute he's daddy material
"Leon did you take your ADHD medicine" she said as she looked at him "
yea why" he hold a smug on his face
"Just asking" she said as she wrote hall passes "Jordan did you take All your medicine your grandma told me about you not taking it" she said as she turned to look at me
Dang my grandma been telling all my business with no problem
"Yea i took it" I said lowly as I got up and put my book bag on
"she was talking to you" Leon said as he pulled out his phone
"She heard me" I mumbled
He nodded I walked out the office and went to first period math
When I walked in all the attention was on my I just put my head down avoiding them and walk to my seat next to Anna
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"Okay so somebody invited me To eat lunch with them and you are going to sit with me" she said as she grabbed her lunch
"Okay who may that be cause I'm not going to sit with random people" I said as I walk beside her waiting for the table she is sitting at
Finally we go to the table and she pulls me down to sit with her I start eating my lunch an Anna is talking to this boy
I felt somebody burning a hole in my face I turn to look at Leon looking at me I roll my eyes and mug him
I just had to do that I don't know why "Hey mute girl" I looked up to see the girl that bully's me I don't waste my time on her she pretty but she just think she all that
I waved at her Anna pinched me on the thigh cause she wants me to stand up for my self I took a deep breath
"I talk i just don't talk to certain people like you" I said lowly the whole table turned silent I looked up and everybody was looking at me and Anna smiled I smiled back to her
"Can you please stop talking i don't like your voice already" she said as she set on Leon lap
I just wanna slap her so bad
I looked at Anna cause I didn't know what to say and she just smiled
"I can say the same about you. you sound like a man so" Anna said people just laughed I giggled and looked off