Parade

AN: this is dedicated to my best friend. Although I can't take on any of your pain and lighten your load, I hope these words capture a fraction of how you feel so that myself and my readers can help you to feel a little less alone.

A hundred feet from you

But feels like a world apart

Two strangers in a crowd

That once shared one heart

I know you can see me

And yet you look away

Watching the parade

Like it's any other day

I spotted you

The moment I arrived

I froze in my place

"Should I say hi?"

My heart sank

I didn't know what to do

I was wondering

If you felt the nerves too

You've seen me naked

Stomach thighs and all

And yet standing before you

Is making me feel small

Who are you here with?

Is she skinnier than I?

If I saw you kiss another

It'd make me want to die

Just seeing you alone

Eats at my soul

We were here together last year

Now we're playing different roles

You're the guy who stands alone

I'm the girl who wants the guy

I want all we had back

Maybe I can catch your eye

When I feel you watching

I laugh and I sing

I'm having the time of my life

Like your presence means nothing

But when you look away

My eyes are back on you

You're chilling with your boy

Are you feeling lonely too?

The parade passes by

But I can't focus on a thing

My focus is on you

You were my everything

The two hours passed by

I can't remember one float

Or the dancers or the cars

Just this lump in my throat

This moment is ending

The door's slamming shut

Is this the end?

All that longing for what?

The crowd dispersed

What do we do? Just leave?

There's something still here

Or I'd like to believe...

You turn and you go

Cause the show's finally over

While I get the encore

Crying to find closure

So while I pick up the pieces

Of my shattered heart

It's the end of us

But for me it's a start

I will cry and I'll scream

And it'll hurt

But this time around

I will put myself first

This chapter is over

So I'll set down my pen

And I'll put Amber

Back together again.