Pretty... for a fat girl

"You're really pretty, for a fat girl"

Where to even begin...

The crazy thing is

They get mad when we don't say thank you

They look at us like

"Where's your gratitude?"

Like, "I'm probably the only one

Who's ever said something so kind to you."

I'm leaving the rhyme scheme

Out of it.

This is personal.

You're pretty...

For a fat girl.

As soon as we start to bloom

As soon as we start to feel warm inside

As soon as we start to believe we actually are,

They cut us down

Push us back in the cold

And kill all of our confidence

Why the backhanded compliment?

Why the extra comment?

Why the clarification?

It's like men complimenting men

And then adding

"No homo"

Why can't we just be kind

To be kind?

I work to dress nice

I spent hours on my makeup

Why don't I deserve

The compliment?

Have I not earned it?

Or is it that you're too ashamed

Too embarrassed

To be seen complimenting

A fat girl?

Is "for a fat girl"

Your way of declaring

That you'd never stoop this low?

That you'd never degrade your image

By dating a fat girl

By sleeping with a fat girl?

Or are you too

Brainwashed

By society?

Brainwashed to not see

That fat girls can actually be pretty too.

Because people always look astonished.

When we look beautiful

They stop and stare

With their jaws on the floor

Their truth speaks: "You're really pretty"

Then reality sets in: "for a fat girl"

Is it that big girls have

A pretty line to reach

That limits us just to

"Pretty"

While above us

Skinny girls get

"Sexy, stunning, hot"

Which we can never reach?

Am I considered a different category

Because of my weight?

Never realized

Society's image of beauty

Came with a weight class.

The inconceivable notion

That being fat and being pretty

Not existing in our world

Is... ignorant

Immature

Inconsiderate.

We do exist

You are just blind

Blinded by movies

Blinded by music

Blinded by magazines

Blinded by the internet

Blinded by yourself

Open your eyes.

We are not

"Pretty... for a fat girl"

We are pretty.

We are hot.

We are sexy.

We are beautiful!

And it's okay to admit that.