48: alone

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AALIYANA'S POV:

I saw a figure appearing in front of me. I had fainted, and my hand hurt, I looked at it, and a drip was attached to it. My head still hurts, but not that much.

"Zaviyaar." His name came out of my mouth without even knowing. My vision got cleared it was not him it was Zayyan.

My eyes got teary. Then I remembered what occurred. I fainted when I heard that Zaviyaar was in danger and we should put together ourselves for any news. It ensued because of all of me. I should die.

The tears pooled down my cheeks realizing I could renounce Zaviyaar, permanently. Thinking this I felt someone choking me so hard that I wasn't able to breathe. I attempted hard to catch my breath.

"Bhabhi are you okay?" Zayyan asked.

I nodded wiping my eyes

"Bhabhi you were with Zaviyaar Bhai then how come you weren't in the car when he met the accident?" Zayyan questioned. His question had concern for his brother. I guess he knew that I was with Zaviyaar. I wasn't able to respond to him. I was ashamed of myself. I felt disgusted.

"Bhabhi I know what happened at the office. I hope Bhai had cleared everything you with that Lubna did it all on purpose" he said. I looked at him with disbelief. His eyes were red, was he crying? I guess I wasn't able to hear him. Lubna did what on purpose?

"Lubna did what?" I weakly asked him.

"Bhai didn't tell you that Lubna did it on purpose. She purposely fell on Bhai to show that something is going on between them," he revealed. My breath hitched.

The revelation he made, made my breath sharp. My chest heaved up and down after hearing Zayyan. What had I done? My hands were shivering. I wanted to go to Zaviyaar and let him know how stupid of me that I didn't listen to him. My breaths became sharp, I felt tears coming out of my eyes. How could you Aaliyana? How could you? I wanted to kill myself. Every inch of my existence was hating me. How could I not?

You didn't even listen to him once. He was making an effort to tell you but you being the bitch not listening to him. "Zaviyaar," I whispered.

"Bhai didn't tell you?" he asked, I shook my head.

"We fought," and burst into tears.

"W-we ha-had a-a fig-fight. And I- ma-de hi-him le-ave," I cried telling him as memories were flashing into my brain.

"It's okay Bhabhi you didn't know what happened. And just pray for Bhai," his voice was dry and raspy. He's about to cry. I saw a tear escaping his eye but he quickly wiped it off. He was trying to be strong but he was utterly failing

"Your family is here," the nurse informed us.

"Can you please remove the drip?" I requested her.

"But, ma'am-," I didn't let her complete.

"Please," I pleaded. She did not argue further. She nodded and took it off. I mouthed her a thank you and we made our way out to see everyone.

His mom came and hugged me, she was crying. Zayyan was hugging his dad and wailing. This all happened because of me. I should've listened to zaviyaar. He tried to explain himself. Aaliyana look what have you done.

"I assure you that you'll regret the words coming out of your mouth."

"But here my wife doesn't trust her husband."

"You'll ruin everything by yourself."

"Think before you speak,"

"I am trying to save us."

These sentences resonated in my ears, providing another reason for my tears to not cease. It's all because of me. I should've stopped zaviyaar or I should've not heard him. Tears were streaming down my face.

"Don't worry Aaliyana he'll be fine. Your love is with him," Mom said wiping my tears. I passed her a broken smile.

My love for him where I didn't believe him. Where I accused him of cheating when he was trying to save the US. When he was trying to save our relationship. Where I was destroying everything between us. Where I told him to leave. Where I didn't even put my trust in him. I wanted to scream as loud as possible.

My sight fell on my family entering the corridor. Noor and Asad were there. Noor ran towards me, I needed her. I cried. She caressed my head, telling me to stop crying.

I saw Malaika and Daniyal entering, she came towards her Dad, she was talking to him and soon tears escaped her eyes. She hugged Dad.

"Aaliyana how did it happen? You were about to confess your feelings," Noor broke the hug and Malaika came to me.

I gazed at them through my blurred, tear-filled eyes, overcome with emotion. Deep inside, a whirlwind of feelings was tearing me apart, but they were unaware of my internal struggle.

Unable to contain my emotions any longer, I broke down in a torrent of tears, allowing my anguish to pour out as if there were no end in sight. The guilt was crawling over my skin.

"Aaliyana person na ho Bhai theek hojain gaye," Malaika said hugging me. If someone tells her that I am the reason why Zaviyaar is on his deathbed, she would be disappointed in me. I was too numb to feel anything at this point.

"Doctor please tell about Bhai," Zayyan said when he saw the doctor coming out of the intensive care unit; ICU.

"The next 18 hours for the patient are very crucial. Pray for him." the doctor informed us and moved back inside. Mom started crying. I went to her back and hugged her. I was remorseful of what had transpired. I was the cause of it. I was meant to be in his place, not him.

"I'm sorry Mom," I said

"Why are you sorry Aaliyana? Don't worry he'll be fine. You know na zaviyaar is strong," hearing this my eyes started getting teary, again

I stood there, in front of the ICU, where my husband was. I couldn't express how felt. I know it's my fault. I looked at Zaviyaar through the round-shaped spherical window. He had add of machines attached to his body. I couldn't it more, I stepped back.

"I'm sorry Zaviyaar. I'm sorry," I mumbled to no one. Mama came and cleaned my tears.

"You are my strong girl, Aaliyana. Zaviyaar ko kitna bura lage ga if he sees you crying like this," Mama cooed me. Zaviyaar hates me now, we don't even know what will happen next. What if he--. No, no Aaliyana don't think like that.

(How will Zaviyaar feel if he sees you like this?)

"Only 2 people from the family can stay here. Everyone else should leave," the nurse informed us and moved away.

"Me and Zayyan should stay you guys can go home," Ahmed Bhai announced.

"I'm not going anywhere," I didn't want to leave him.

"Bhabhi Ahmed Bhai is right. Look at the time it's almost 3 in the morning. You can go home get some rest and come back in the morning," Zayyan said. I wasn't agreeing but no one was listening to me. I wanted to linger with him.

What if something happens to him? I was forcing myself out, defeatedly when Zayyan stopped me.

"Bhabhi, ye ap rakh lein," Zayyan handed me his belongings. I took them with me. I sobbed looking at them.

(Bhabhi take these.)

"Bhabhi ap na roye bhai theek hojain gaye," he said. I nodded.

(He will be okay, don't cry.)

Mom, Dad, Mama, Baba, Daniyal, Malaika, Noor, and I went back home. Noor went with us while Asad left for his home. We came home an hour later. Now I'm sitting on my prayer mat praying for Zaviyaar.

I'm not a good-practicing Muslim but I know only Allah is capable of taking me out of this hardship.  Only he can ease this difficulty for me. I cried my heart out. I cried until my tears went dry.

"Allah tala main janti main achi nhi hu. Ap bas Zaviyaar ko theek kardein. Ausko auski sehat wasli zindagi wapis kardein, meri waja see auske sath ye horha hai, ap ais sab ko rok dein. Ap rok sakte hain. Ap Zaviyaar ko theek kardein. Mujhe apni zindagi main auska sath chahiye, main auske beghair nhi reh sakti," I cried.

(Allah, I know I am not a good person. All I could ask for is Zaviyaar's health. Return him his healthy life, he is facing this because of me please stop it. You can stop it. Return him his health. I neep his companionship in my life I can't live without him.)

"Maine kabhi apse shikayat nhi ki, hamesha apka shukar adda kiya hai, lakin aj mujhe apse shikayat hai. Kyu kiya apne Zaviyaar ki sath aisa. Ap ko toh sab pata hai ke auski koi galti nhi hai phr bhi apne ye kiya meray sath? All I want is a happy ending with him. Is it too much to ask? You are capable of everything, please return him to me please," I cried my heart out.

(I never complained to you, I have always been grateful. But now i have complains, why did you do that him? You know he ain't at fault but you did this to me.)

I prayed for Zaviyaar. I prayed for us. I prayed for his health. When I was done praying I took my scarf, folded it, and sat on the bed. I stared at it idly, life is indeed unpredictable. We are helpless. This helplessness was consuming me from inside, I felt hollow from inside. I decided to take some sleep to kill some time but sleep was nowhere to be found. I lay down and tears started flowing. I cried, thinking it could release my pain but it was not helping.

"Even if you take an eternity to fall in love with me, I'll wait but I'll never stop loving you," his words echoed in the chambers of my brain. My presence in longing for his presence.

"Living without you is living life without any motive," his words replayed in my mind.

"then come back to me, I will never let you go," I cried.

Ahmed Bhai gave me a call a few minutes ago and asked me what I do even if I went to the hospital, as the doctors weren't even allowing anyone to meet Zaviyaar so there was no point in it, and he told me it would be better if I not to come.

My sight fell on his belongings, that Zayyan handed me. I held his ring, I looked at it. It had my name "Aaliyana" initial engraved on it. My heart. I sobbed holding it. "I am sorry," I whispered to myself. I put the ring in the pendant I was already wearing.

Different thoughts were occupying my brain so I decided to take some pills-- sleeping pills I took them and did not even realize when I fell into a deep slumber.

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AUTHOR'S POV:

"Doctor tells us about his condition it's more then than 15 hours," Zayyan asked the doctor as they were not telling anything about Zaviyaar's condition to him, which is making Zayyan weak. All he wants his brother to regain his health.

Everyone is in the hospital except Aaliyana, Noor, and Malaika. It's almost 1 in the noon. Aaliyana was sleeping, they did not want to disturb her sleep as she didn't even take rest properly so they left Noor and Malaika with her.

"Internal bleeding is detected inside his brain, which is preventing oxygen from reaching the brain, and if does not get its treatment it can lead to coma just pray and wait for some time we'll inform you," the doctor said and left the area.

Zaviyaar's mother, Safiya, was overwhelmed with emotion. She cherished Zaviyaar more than anything else in the world, considering him a fortunate child as he was born after five years of her marriage, a time when she had almost given up hope of having her own child. Although her husband, Aqib, tried to comfort her with soothing words, Safiya remained distressed, and the tension within the family continued to escalate.

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"Sweetheart," Zaviyaar called his Aaliyana.

"Zaviyaar, ap theek ho?" Aaliyana was worried for him. Zaviyaar took his steps towards her. He nodded. He sat on a sofa and made Aaliyana sit on his lap. (Zaviyaar are you okay?)

"You have been crying?" Zaviyaar questioned and wiped off her tears.

"I am sorry," Aaliayana said.

"Don't leave me Zaviyaar," she added. Guilt washed over her.

"No one can leave their home Liyana," she passed him a broken smile.

"Are you hurt?" she questioned him.

"Hmm, a bit, but I am fighting for you, for us, I will be okay," he answered her.

"I am sorry, Zaviyaar, just don't leave me," she hugged him tightly and cried in his arms, in his embrace.

"Don't cry sweetheart," he cooed her.

"Zaviyaar, I broke your trust, didn't I?" she questioned him, well aware of the answer.

"Hmm, you did," Zaviyaar caressed her hair.

"I should have listened to you," she accepted her mistake. He hummed. Their gazes were locked, and neither of them tried to break it.

"Zaviyaar, I love you," she confessed.

"I already know it, Sweetheart," he smiled.

"Are you hurt?" she asked again.  He nodded.

"Pray for me," Zaviyaar demanded. She hummed.

"I am sorry Zaviyaar, just don't ever hate me," she pleaded.

"Do not cry Sweetheart, but I have to go now," Zaviyaar said which made Aaliyana break their hug and she looked at him.

"I need to go, Sweetheart, just don't cry, okay?" he requested.

"Don't go," Aaliyana pleaded.

"I will come back soon," he said.

"Promise?" he nodded in agreement. He disappeared from her arms, soon he was the part of the air.

"Zaviyaar," she called him as the darkness around her was consuming her.

The voice of a vehicle crashing was heard by Aaliyana, she followed the sound and Zaviyaar's car came into her view. It was crashed brutally. She took small steps towards it, with shivering hands, her chest heaving up and down, and her heart pounding in her chest. She saw Zaviyaar's lifeless body, surrounded by pools of blood. The area had scattered glass from the window of his car. She moved towards him.

"Zaviyaar," she called him

"Zaviyaarrr," she again called him.

"I told you will destroy everything yourself," a known voice made her look towards her. Lubna was there.

"Stop it, it is all because of you," Aaliyana snapped at her.

"Because of me? Or you didn't even trust your husband," Lubna said. Her words laced with venom.

"You did it yourself," Lubna said.

"STOP IT," Aaliyana screamed, placing palms of her hands on her ear and sulking to the ground. When she opened her eyes, the sight broke her heart, once again. Lubna on Zaviyaar's lap.

"No this is not true," she told herself. She was waiting for Zaviyaar to push her off, but he did not. Lubna had a filthy smirk dancing on her lips.

"Zaviyaar, push her off," she called out to him, but he didn't even listen to her. She wanted to move but she was stuck, a force not allowing her to take a step. She cried. She shut her eyes.

The same vehicle crashing sound made her open her eyes, she moved towards it.

"He is dead," a voice made her run. He was Zaviyaar.

"We should call his family," another voice was heard. She couldn't recognize who were they.

"Zaviyaar," she couldn't move. They were taking him away, away from her

"Zaviyaarrrrrrrr," she screamed and with a sudden jolt, she woke up from her dream.

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Ignore if you find any mistake as English isn't my first language.

Lots of love,

Zaar <3

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