Chapter 5

ZEE'S POV

Nunew and I spent time catching up for months that we didn't see each other. We both talk about all the things that happened to both of us. I told him of what I was working on to the other country, then he shared his, and I found out that Max was now spending time with him, taking him on dates and even if I'm hurt to hear those things I still feel happy that he was now given the love that he deserves.

Now I can be assured to leave him in the hands of Max.

We both finished at 2 am I decided to stay at the Keerati house as per their request cuz Nunew didn't want to let me go at this time of hour as my car doesn't have any gas and left far away from here, but Nunew's father had already told his people to take back my car in the mansion and fill up the gas so I can go home in the morning.

This time I didn't stay in his room but stayed in the guest room. We argued, as he wanted me to stay in his room but in the end I win.

Will, that's what I thought, cuz after I laid down on the bed for 30 minutes someone knock and opened. I immediately sat as I saw him now wearing his pink pajamas and holding a pillow on his chest.

"What are you doing?" I ask him as he walk toward me as he sat on the bed and went under my blanket. He put his pillow and laid down beside me and closed his eyes, while I was watching and just waiting for him to answer.

"Nunu I thought you agreed for me to stay here in the guest room. Why are you here."

"I agreed, but we didn't agree that I can't sleep beside you." He said still closing his eyes.

Now his making my life unbearable.

"Fine, you sleep here." As I stand and take my pillow to sleep on the floor.

"Get back here Hia or I'll follow you wherever you go" he said looking at me intently. We started for a minute before I give up.

"When did I even win with you." I sigh and just lay beside him, cuz I don't even have a choice, do I.

He giggles and moves closer and move his hand around my waist and hugs me tightly. Then again as I always do. I collected all the self restraint I have in my body to hold back myself not to hug him back.

I don't think I could sleep properly with this again. Shit I still have a flight at 9,but guess I have to expect a hangover when I get back to Europe.

I sigh deeply and try to close my eyes cuz god, this is a torture for me as he was now moving his head on my neck and now I can feel his normal breathing fanning the sensitive part of my neck, and it is doing something inside of me.

I always think of what mistakes I have done in my past life that I have to be torture like this every now and then.

It's going to be a long night for me I'm sure.

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"Why are you here" the little guy asked him as he was knocking at his apartment nonstop.

It's midnight and he can't sleep properly. He came from his fiance's birthday and went back directly to his condo, but since he can't sleep he went here.

"I miss you Nat" he says.

Nat was speechless for what he said.

"Stop this nonsense Max. I told you what we had is nothing, so you have to forget about it." Nat said trying to hold back his feelings.

"I can't forget it Nat. How can you expect me to forget everything that happened to us. Please, don't push me away." Max said pleading him.

"Are you forgetting again that you're going to get married soon." Nat angrily said.

"But I don't love him the way I love you." Max says as tears threaten to fall on his eyes. Nat look away.

"I don't love you" he said couldn't look Max in the eyes.

"You're lying. You have feelings for me too. I know you love me." Max says insisting. Nat stayed silent for a moment before he talks again.

"Aren't you even guilty of what you are doing Max. Because I am guilty of what I am doing to your fiance. This is all wrong"

"What's wrong on loving you." Max says. He take his hand and put it on his chest.

"You hear that. That only beats for you like that" as his heart beating so wild.

"Nat, please I can't live without you " Max continues as he holds his face as his tears started to fall.

"There is nothing wrong on loving each other." Then slowly Max move his face closer to Nat, who just stand there couldn't react on things that happening. Until Max close the gap and kiss him deeply.

Max gently push Nat inside his apartment holding him tightly as Nat response to the kisses. Even if in his head he wanted this to stop and let go, his heart, body and soul couldn't. How can he let go of someone he loves soo much.

It leads them again to another night with each other's arms. A sinful night they both can't resist.

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ZEE'S POV

I am now on the plane going back to Europe. It was not that harder for me to go back now as Nunew wasn't crying when I go. He may look sad but he didn't cry. He said he would just wait for me as I told him that it would only be 2 weeks before I come back home once again.

I have to endure not seeing him. But I know I needed this, so when he gets married, and I have to stay away with him forever, I wouldn't be missing him this much.

Yes I'm planning to slowly stay away and after their wedding I would be staying in Europe and have my only brother Tutor to handle the business in Thailand, since he had already master his degree in America. I would just go home time after time.

This may be hard but I have to do it now.

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20 days before the wedding

"Nunew.. " Firstone shouted when he saw Nunew walking out of the art room with Keng. They both stop and look at First.

"Hi First" Nunew greeted.

"Hey.. we're graduate soon. Not on the same day though. Are you both excited?" First ask.

Keng with his usual cold look didn't respond, while Nunew smile weakly.

"What's with the two of you. No, only Nunew cuz I understand this cold face of Keng. Where is the bubbly Nunew I know." First said. Keng still didn't react at all.

"First I wasn't feeling well today. I'm sorry" Nunew said.

"Ohh I'm sorry Nunew. " First apologized.

"That's fine. I'll be okay soon." Nunew said and look smile at First this time not wanting make First to feel bad.

Before first can say something a loud bang heard the hallway. One of the art student drop his things on the floor. Keng who was on closer than them walks to the guy and help him pick up his things.

"Thank you Keng" the guy said smiling at him shyly.

"Next time be careful. The floor is too slippery."Keng said before he walk back to Nunew and First who was now talking about the bracelet Nunew was wearing.

"The emerald is beautiful. Red really suits you" First said.

"I choose that color for Nunew cuz it suitable for his skin color" Keng said that makes First nodded and was amazed by it.

"You're good on choosing colors for Nunew" First said. Keng smiles and nodded.

"Let's have our lunch" Nunew changing the subject. They all nodded and walk out of the place.

The guy who Keng had helped walk inside the art room. He has heard the conversation Keng had with his friend Nunew and others that he knows as First. He sits on his chair and put his empty canvas on the wooden easel stand and start to paint.

"If it wouldn't be with that Keng. I would have courted Nunew now." he heard his classmates  talking at his front.

"Yeah right. He's like a body guard who is always there wherever Nunew goes. If I didn't know he was the brother of Nunew's fiance I would have thought they're the one dating" the other one answered.

"You think he had something for Nunew" the guy said again.

"Ohh bro if you didn't said I wouldn't be saying this. The way he looks at Nunew, I think he does." The guy said.

"If you are here just to gossip you can go out now." He said interrupting the conversation.

The guys look back at him as he looks at them murderously. "Sorry Namping." the guys apologize and shut their mouth and continue their paintings.

It's too annoying for him to hear those things they said.

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15 days before the wedding

NUNEW'S POV

It's been 1 month and two weeks since I last saw Zee. I don't want to be angry at him but it seems to me like he didn't plan to come back home anymore. He said he would come back in two weeks but until now he didn't come back, and the worst is he stop calling me weeks ago. It's like he doesn't have as plan to come back anymore.

I hate to think that it was starting to be feeling like that.

And if it really is like that I don't know what I would do.

"This would be beautiful for you son,"

I was startled when my mom tap my shoulder. I look at her wondering what's happening.

"I was talking to you but you're not listening at all, my son." My mom said and I look away biting my lip.

"I take you here to fit a suit for you for the reception. But seems like you're not in the mood to do this with me." Mom said pouting.

"Mom it's not like that. Aahhm that suit is good to." I said. I think I've been too pre occupied with in this days and it's affecting everyone around me.

"Let's go home and do this next time." Talking about the choosing of all the kinds of suit in the boutique.

"Mom don't be mad at me, please." I said and looked at her.

"I'm not mad Nunew son." She said, as she hold my hands and smile at me. "I know you don't like this kind of shopping and I insisted to take you here. I'm sorry." She said. Now I feel bad for my mom.

"I'm sorry I ruined the mood." I said feeling really sorry for spacing out of her.

"Don't worry let's just do this shopping next time."she said and I look down on my feet.

She immediately raise my chin and smile at me so brightly.

"Let's go eat at our favorite place and have ice cream after" she said making me feel relieved.

I nodded immediately.

We both got out of the place and went back to the car where our family drivers waiting for us.

We go to our favorite restaurant we used to go to. We eat and talk our days and my childhood days that she loves to tell me all about. After we finish we eat ice cream at the old ice cream parlor in the place. We both really enjoy our time together.

It was a great evening for us. It's been years since we do this kind of date together. She would always call this as mother and son date and we only do this once in a while now.

The last thing we do was to walk around the park and watch the people enjoying their days.

"We used to do that with your dad before " I heard my mom said. I look at what she was looking. It's a family. A couple with their 2 child playing around in the picnic blanket.

"That was really the most memorable days for me mom." I said and stare at the family.

"I thought it was the day when you met Zee." She said that makes me look at her, my face was all flushed.

"Mom.. I thought we would forget about that." I said and instantly look away from her.

"Will I just remember it. Don't worry no one's gonna hear us." She said not really mean the people around us walking and sitting having conversations of their own.

She literally means about anyone close to us.

"Why don't we push off this wedding." She said and I look at her unbelievably.

"Mom.. you know we can't. I decided this cuz this is what I want. I decided for it and you know it so much." I said making her understand.

"What about Z-" she try to said but I stop her.

"What about we stop talking about this, mom. I wanted marry Max, and that's what's important." I said and stand at the bench we were sitting.

She sigh looking up to me and decided to forget the conversation. She stand and we both decided to go back in the car and went back to the house.

The whole time we were in the car I was only looking outside doesn't want to talk to anything else.

My mom just let me, cuz she knows very well opening that conversation only makes me angry of myself.

The car stop as the traffic lights are on.

I furrowed my brows when I saw Max car at the traffic jam. There's another car on the side of ours before his.

When the car moves a little the car that covers my view on Max's car move forward and I saw his car clearly. I was about to take my phone to call him, but I stop what I'm doing as I was shocks to see someone clinging and hugging him inside.

Then the traffic lights went on and the car moves. All my attention was on Max car as I saw it turns right and stop at a small convenient store. My brain tolds me to let it go but my instincts tolds me the other way.

"Please stop the car" I shouted as the driver stops it immediately.

Thank God my mom have a fast reflexes as she immediately holds into the car seat. She look at me confused.

"What happened, what's wrong son" she ask

"I forgot I need to buy something." I said.

"Then let's go the mall" she said as she try to instruct the driver to go but I stop her.

"No need mom, I forgot my friends texted me he wanted me to help him with some drawing." She looks more confused.

"But it's already 7 in the evening"

"I'll just take taxi back home" then I said goodbye and kiss her check.

I went down the car immediately and wave goodbye lastly.

I walk to the pedestrian lane and watch the traffic lights turn red, then I walk to the other side where I saw Max car stops.

I stand outside the convenience store contemplating to go in or not but at the end I walk inside.

As soon as I went in I saw Max holding hands with a guy. It's not just a guy. He was the guy on my university before, the guy who slap Max and the guy who we saw on the day we went on a date. The guy who Max was staring at.

I know somehow they've known each other but I didn't know they know each other in the kind of way I wouldn't imagine.

I walk to the other side of the racks where they can't see me. I act as if I was buying something as some people are looking at me. I know I need to go now but I just need more confirmation.

"Do you want more babe" I heard Max says. God that was awful he never calls me like this.

Oh, Yes he does. He calls me baby when he beg something from me. When he want something or say sorry for disappointing me.

I wanted to cry as I felt awful with myself right now.

"No babe. That's more than enough." Now I know they're in a relationship.

I walk at the other side and take a look at them as they walk past me who didn't saw me as I was holding a newspaper in my hand to cover my face.

Then I felt they stop. I look around and saw something that makes me speechless. ..

They're kissing.

I feel upset as I look like someone who's invading their time when in fact they're in a public place.

All my pent up frustrations and emotions for the past week went all over me.

My feet move on it's own as I can't take what I'm seeing anymore. How can they be so bold to do something like this. I want to slap Max for doing this to me but I don't think I could do it as I would look like someone stupid if I did. I ran outside as tears started to fall in my eyes.

I found myself sitting at the back of the taxi I call when I went out of the store. I know I told him a place but I can't remember what it was as I was still out of space for what I just saw and found out.

The taxi stops in front of a building. I take out my wallet and give the taxi a cash. I went out of the car and was speechless that I don't even realize it was raining and all I could do is to stand outside the building as I look up in it.

Why am I here by the way?

I know I can't get something out of here as I know he was not here. But still here I am standing in a place where I often goes too.

I was soaking wet but I don't care. All I wanted was to wash the rain all the pain I am feeling.

Why do I have to be hurt like this. Looking at the place makes it even hurtful for me.

When the rain won't stop and I feel like I could now walk in. I walk inside the building drenched from the rain. Everyone looks at me, then one of the employee walk towards me.

"Sir do you need towel" he ask but I shake my head.

"Is he there?" I ask the man.

"He's still not back sir" he said. Will I know he's still not back, but why do I still hope. I just can't accept the fact that he would really think of abandoning me.

"I know" I said unconsciously as he look confused.

I walk pass him and walk to the elevator.

I don't know what I'm doing right now but I just want to go there even if I know he wasn't there.

The elevator stops at the 10th floor. I went out and walk to hallway, then I stop at his door.

I raise my hand and try to punch his door code but I stop. I know his code, I can get inside, but the question is, does the owner even want me inside. What if he gets angry if I go in without his permission.

I'm sure he doesn't want to see me anymore, maybe his annoyed at me crying easily over things. That is why he didn't come home anymore. He even stop calling me one month ago.

I turned around and leaned and slid my back on the wall as I sat on the floor. I felt so tired of everything happens today. Everything happens for the past months without him feels like nothing at all.

I pull my knees up and hunch down. I wanted to rest and sleep right now. I wanted to just forget the sadness I'm feeling.

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ZEE'S POV

Net park the car on the basement parking lot. We just got back from our meeting with the other investors. Now I want to get back and rest as I felt more tired today than yesterday.

"This place is suck with traffic" Net says as we both got out from the car taking out our bags from the back seat. "Thank God your car is good to ride on." He continues as he wipes the water drops from my car.

"That's normal Net. We're in Thailand." I said and walk to the elevator.

"I thought we're going to stay at the hotel again just as yesterday. Where are we by the way?" He ask as we're inside the elevator.

"We're going to Tutor's place." I said as we press the 5th floor.

"Thanks to that brother of yours who takes after you in business. You can stay in Europe longer" he said, but I stayed silent.

We walk out of the elevator and goes to Tutor's place. I know he wasn't there when I call him as he was still at the company.

Yesterday when we came back from Europe he was the one who pick us up in the airport using my car, but we both stayed in the hotel as it's been a tiring day for us to comeback home. Then we also have meetings with the investors so we didn't come back home.

I open the door of Tutor's condo and went in. Net followed me as his eyes roamed around the condo. I put down the back on the couch and so as Net who was curious looking at the painting in the living area.

"I bet yours is more opposite than this condo" Net said talking about the whole white color of Tutors condo unit and the colorful paintings that makes the room colorful. I just shrugged and walked to Tutor's room and got some towels.

I walk back to him and saw him being comfortable in the couch. He grin and open the Television with the remote control he was holding.

I just let him do what he wants to do while I go to the bathroom and take a bath after everything I went out and change clothes. I ask Net if he wants to wash and so he did abandoning the movie he was looking at.

I look at my phone and saw it was already 11 in the evening. I decided to not go back on my condo as I was tired, so I sat on the couch ready to sleep there but I waited for Net to finish so I could tell him to sleep on the other room cuz I'm staying on the couch.

When Net finishes he came out change clothes already. I told him to go to the other room to sleep. He nodded and walk there but we stop when we heard the door opens and Tutor was breathless looking at me his face was so worried.

"Phi Zee, you told me to go to your condo to get some papers, right." He said, then I nodded confused.

"Nunew was there" he said that makes me stand immediately.

Like what Nunew is there?

"Are you serious?" I ask him. Net who was curious walk towards us.

"Yes Phi." He said but the worry was in his face.

I sat back thinking if I would go there what I was doing would not be of used. I would still comeback to him at any minute and I don't want that anymore.

"Let him be Nong. He would go home soon" I said as I look at my feet. I need to follow my plan I need to let go of him completely.

"But phi he's outside your door sleeping." He said again, and I look at him unbelievably.

"And from the looks of it he was soak from the rain"

That's the last thing he said that makes me stand and ran outside the door. I go to the elevator and punch 10th floor. Yes, we're in the same building as Tutor. I was planning to not go there until I go back to Europe, cuz the place leaves a bitter sweet memories in me and if I go there I know it would hold me back to go back and forget him.

But what Tutor said is enough to run to him. How could I not? If the one you love was in that situation what would you do, of course you would go and check on him right, and that's what I'm doing right now.

When the elevator open my heart sunk seeing him sleeping on his knees as obviously his hair are still wet. We don't know what time he came but the look of it his been there for hours as his clothes are starting to dry.

I walk towards him faster and immediately went on my knees. God how can he be in this kind of situation. What happened to him?

My eyes sting and I felt my tears started to water as I felt my heart aches as I'm watching him in this kind of situation.

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