Chapter 4

ZEE'S POV

I suddenly woke up when I heard the alarm of my wrist watch was ringing nonstop. At first I was a bit confused on why does my wristwatch was doing it's alarm when usually my bedside alarm clock would always wake me up.

Then I remember I came to the Keerati house just to see Nunew. For days that I don't see Nunew the missing feeling I had crashes over me and it came to the point that I had to surrender with my plans again.

I was startled when I feel someone arm was wrapping around me as his head was resting on the crock of my neck. My body stiffen as I realize it was Nunew hugging me so tightly. Every fiber of my being was alerted as his legs are moving to the part where it's not supposed to.

I hold his leg to prevent him from going there, cuz if he would go up more my would surely be startled and wake up as my thing was standing so hard like rock. I sigh deeply before I slowly take off his leg and shove it gently on the side as I'm afraid he would wake up.

Then a take off his hand after that makes him moan in protest. I held back myself to wrap my arm around him, cuz God knows I won't settle on just hugging him.

When I was free out of Nunew's hold I stood and walked to Nunew's bathroom and washed my face. I smile as I saw that the toothbrush I'm using when I would stay in his house was beside his toothbrush. If you don't know our relationship, you would think we're in a romantic relationship.

But we never in that kind of relationship. He just often let me stay in his house and to sleep over when I visited as my condo was far away.

I sometimes wonder why he would let me stay on his room, but he would say he was more comfortable to sleep beside me as we are both men and we can't no one of us will think of something women and men do.

I think that was a crazy thought of him. How can he be so sure that I'm not thinking that thought. Well, of he wouldn't know what I think. I'm good at keeping my feelings to not show.

Everyone in his family was too comfortable of me to be with Nunew. They all think I'm a good influence and very good motivation for his life.

But they were all wrong about be. They don't know I harbor deep feelings for their son.

I took the toothbrush and get some toothpaste from Nunew and brush my teeth. Then I started cleaning my teeth, but I stop for when I heard the door opens and Nunew came in rubbing his eyes as he was yawning.

I watch in the mirror as he walked directly to the toilet and pull down his pajamas and peed like he didn't care of the world. I choke with the toothpaste and cough continuesly as I was too shock to see the thing that I never expected to see.

Nunew was startled where instantly finished and pulled up his pajamas. He went to me directly and help rub my back.

"Are you okay Hia?" He ask. Shit his not helping me at all. I look at the mirror and saw his worried face.

But the thing I saw in the mirror awhile ago play back in my head.

"I'm okay Nu.." then I spit everything in my mouth and drink some water to gurgle and spit again.

"Be careful on brushing your teeth Hia." He says unknowingly knows the truth. I turn to face him and saw his still worried face. I look down at him and saw that his now decent to look, but my brain his image is not decent at all.

I look away and let go a long breath.

"I might be late for work. I need to go now." I said and walk out of the bathroom. I heard him washing his hand before he came out.

I immediately changed my clothes as he was standing not far away from him watching me. I don't know what he was thinking, but right now I'm restraining my self for the whirlwind emotions that I'm feeling. Thank God it's morning as he wouldn't thought more about my thing being hard and it's not reveling as I wear my boxer today.

It was a normal occurance for us to see me changing my clothes as we know he wouldn't think anything about it. I've changed many times in front of him so there's nothing new to it.

When I finished changing I looked at him and maybe it was my imagination as I saw he gulped, cuz when he look at me he was in his unfazed look.

"You should go back to sleep. It's still early and you don't have class today." I said and walk to the night stand and got my car keys.

"No I won't go back to sleep now. Have a coffee first before you go." He reply and walk towards me.

He fix my tie properly and smile at me.

He would always makes me love him more with his unaware gestures.

"Let's go down Hia." as he walk towards the door and I followed him after.

It's still 5:45 in my watch and I know he wouldn't be waking up in this hour. I sometimes think his body clock change if I'm here cuz he would wake up the same time as me. If I'm not I would know his time to wake up is around 9 - 10.

We walk out of the room and there I saw his mom and dad going out from their room to. They smile when they saw me.

We walk towards them and I greeted them politely.

"Good morning Mr. and Mrs. Keerati." I greeted. Mrs. Keerati pouted.

"You're my son's bestfriend but you still not changing how you call us." She said.

"If you're just the one Nunew were to marry. You would have called me Ma by now." She said. I know she was just joking as she was just like that to me.

"I'm just too used to call you like that, Mrs. Keerati." I says.

"I hate you" she pouted. That's were Nunew get his naughtiness.

"We should call pa to change the groom, and make it Zee instead of Max. So he would call me Ma right now." She said looking at Mr. Keerati.

"Ohh come on Pat, honey. We can't change Pa's decision." Mr. Keerati says to his wife.

"Mom, stop talking nonsense. I'm going to marry Max and that's final, why are you even bothering Zee with this." Nunew said as he pull me to goes down.

"Are you going home now Zee" she ask as Nunew continues to drag me down.

"Yes ma'am" I said as I bow down to them.

"No, mom. He is still going to have his coffee." Nunew says.

And we continue to go down and went to the kitchen living Mr. Chaitep Keerati and Mrs. Pat Keerati.

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"Do you think we can change it? I would be sure he's still gonna marry Zee." Pat ask her husband again.

"Honey, Your son's decision is what we followed." Her gentle husband Chai says.

"He's the one who insist on marrying Max when we just presented it to him. Will if he would change his mind, of course pa would follow him." He said as he lead her down the stairs.

"You can't blame me hon, they look perfect together just like us" she said.

"It's not that I dislike Max. I like him but his too busy with work than to be there with our son. Not like Zee who would abandoned his work with just one call from our son" as they got down the stairs.

"Everyone knows that honey. And I'm thankful for Zee for always being a good friend with our son."

"If he was just brave enough to cross the bridge of that friendship" She said looking so sadly.

Chai stayed quiet as he look at his wife with understanding. He knows all his wife want was for their son to be happy in life and they can see it when he's with Zee.

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I got inside my car as Nunew watching me. I was ready to go when I remember something. I immediately got out from the car and walk towards him who was confused why I came back.

"I forgot to tell you this last night Nu. I also came here cuz I'm informing you that I'll be going on a business trip back to Europe tomorrow." I said standing in front of him. He stare at me for a minute before he talks.

"When would you come back?" He ask sadness was written on his face.

"I'd be there for more than two months." I said that make him frown looking at his feet as he was biting his lip.

"Hey. Nunu baby, I'll be back after this. Don't look so sad now." I said holding his chin to make him look at me. I was hurt when I saw a tears were threatening to fall on his eyes.

"That's too long Hia.."he said and look away again now tears fall on his eyes.

"Ohh come on. Why are you crying on me" I said trying to hold his face, but he turn around. I've got no choice but to hug him from the back and he burst out crying.

"I'll be back Nunu. It's just that business was important so I need to be there." I explain as put my chin on his shoulder.

"Why all of you think business are important." He says couldn't stop crying.

"But I'll be back. I live here in Thailand you know that." I says again

"You didn't come to me for weeks now and when you came your saying you're going to go on business trip for long. You don't care about me anymore." He said. Shit I think I hurt him so bad.

But this is for me to. I need to go so I won't be stuck and be hurt so badly when the time comes that I let go of him forever .

He turn around and hug me tightly as I hug him back.

"I'm gonna missed you soo bad Hia.."

"I'm gonna miss you too Nunu baby." I said and I kiss his head.

Then he look up, his face wet with tears. I wipe it off gently and kiss his forehead.

"I'll be back on your birthday, I promise." and hug him again for minutes. When I let go he was almost hesitant let go as he still holding my hand.

"Promise me you're going to be here on my birthday." He said as his tears fall again but I wipe it immediately and nodded at him.

"Now stop crying. You never cried like this when I go to business trips."

"You never go this longer before." He said.

"I know, but I'll come back after this Nu. I have to go now" I said and nodded slowly.

I let go and go back to my car and turn the engine on. I wave goodbye to him and smile. He wave goodbye but the sadness was still on his eyes.

I didn't know he would be like this. I often say goodbye to him and he would say good luck and wanted for me to come back with his present, but he never cried like this. He cried but only for seconds and he would wipe it off.

Now he easily got emotional on thing. Maybe because his getting married and that's changing his emotional behavior. I don't know, or maybe that's just an emotional connection that we have for each other.

How I just wish we wasn't just that to him.

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2 months before the wedding

NUNEW'S POV

Tomorrow is my birthday and I don't know why I feel sad instead of being happy.

"Is the food not to your liking Nunew? " Max suddenly ask. Now I forgot that we're on a date.

Max had started to give time to me. He would take me to date every weekend and would have time to take fetch me from university and take me home. But still I feel lonely right now and even if I would deny it I know what's the reason.

"I thought stake was your favorite." Max says.

"You always forget that it's not Phi." Nunew says and eat the stake slowly.

"I'm sorry." He says and put down his utensils. He hold my arm and I look at him wondering why.

"Why are you sad these days nong.?" He ask. I bit my lip and look away.

"I don't know Phi." I said.

He sigh and call the waiter and got their bill.

"Let's go home. Tomorrow is your birthday so you should sleep early." I stop and put down the spoon as I wipe my mouth and my hands with the napkin. I stand and let him held my hands and walked to the exit.

He stop for a minute and I look at him wondering, then I look who was blocking our way. I frowned as I saw the guy in uni who slap Max on the face. They were looking at each other for a whole minute and I was very confused. Max said they don't know each other but the way the look I'm sure they more than know each other.

I couldn't help myself but to interrupt their staring. I pulled Max's hand that made him startled and look at me.

"Let's go home phi." I said as he nodded and we walked passed the guy who couldn't look at me in the eyes.

I stayed silent as I watch Max stealing glances at the guy. He open the door for me and I get in. He look back again before he walk to the passenger seat.

He look at me waiting for me to ask but I didn't want to. I'm not in the mood to be angry and ask him questions that would just make me upset.

I'll just wait for the time he would tell me the truth.

He silently turn the engine and we both got out the place.

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ZEE'S POV

It's been months that I'm here in Europe as we started opening the other business that I've been working with Net.

Since I was young, my dad told me to strive hard to be a great business man. Then on I strive really hard and with the special person that's been my motivation I go on so we'll in business.

Now everything I did so far leads me to success. But with this successful business, the million dollars I have everything is not worth for me. I can just have nothing but can be with the one I love and that would I choose.

"Bro are you still going to go home now? You're just going to come back next day for the meeting with our potential investors." Net ask as I was putting some thing on my duffle bag.

"I'll be sure to be here on time bro. I'll just have to go home now, it's his birthday and I was never not present on his day." I said as I put the velvet box inside.

"Bro, when would you tell him how you feel. You've been in love with him for many years." Net says

"You know his getting married Net." as I close my bag. I am sure I would arrive Thailand in 10 in the evening. I was hoping he still awake in this time.

After I visit him and give my present for him and would greet him. I would be off again in the morning to come back here.

"It's not yet too late Zee, he's not yet married. " Net says again. I sigh and take my duffle bag.

"He don't love me the way I love him Net." I said and walk out of Net's apartment as followed me.

"How can you be soo sure he doesn't love you the way you love him"Net said again.

"Net!" Making him stop insisting on something impossible.

"Fine..Then safe trip. Get back on time okay?" Net patted my shoulder. I nodded and stop a taxi. I went in and told him to go to the airport.

I wave goodbye to Net before I went on.

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NUNEW'S POV

I now turned 22 as it is now my birthday.

It was a big party that all my friends and family friends are invited. Most especially Max who was known by everyone as my fiance.

My grandfather was the one who held this big party as wanted to make it special. Everyone give their gift and greeted me. There's a dance and singing performance from all the well known artists, that were prepared by his family.

But even the grandest performance or grandest gifts were giving to me nothing can put up the empty hole inside of me. I maybe smiling but I don't feel the real joy on it.

My friends who were there with me were enjoying the whole party and I am happy that they can enjoy everything that was prepared for me.

My parents have been asking me many times if I'm okay and I always said I'm okay and they can see that I'm not. They know why I'm being like this.

Since the day Zee informed me that he would go to business trip I have been like this. It's been so hard for me not missed him. He was been there through everything in my life and he never go this long when he goes to any business trip.

I looked at my mom who stand beside me as I was looking outside our front porch as the visitor started to say goodbye.

"He said he would be here on my birthday." I said looking back at all the cars starting to get out of the gate.

"When he said he would be here, he would, son." My mom said as she was trying to encourage me.

"When did he even disappoint you." And I look at her thinking that she's right. If he said he would, surely he would.

"Keng would be taking your other friends home. Say goodbye to them first." As my mom patted my back and push me back inside to say goodbye to my friends.

I walk inside and saw First who look wasted as he was been drinking the whole night.

Keng and Tle was helping Firstone to walk out side and Latte was tipsy but still can walk on his own.

"Do you guys want me to call someone to help you" I ask them.

"No need Nunew. We can take him his too light for both of us." Tle said talking about First.

"Nunew happy birthday again. Will be going home now" Keng said.

"Hrpphy Brdthe Nunoh" First said as he smiled at me.

"Thank you for coming guys" I said to them as they nodded.

"Happy Birthday"Latte patted me and walk pass me and he look again.

"Hope you would like our gifts Nu." he said and walk back again. And I nodded and said goodbye to them.

Then they go on and walk out of the house.

"Did you enjoy the night son" I turn around as my grandfather ask. He is with Max.

"Thank you for this grandpa" I said and I hug him instantly.

"You're welcome son" as he rubs my back. Then he let go of me and look at me.

"We've fixed the date of the wedding." grandpa said.

"One week after your graduation." he continues.

Then I look up to Max who was looking so serious. I look at grandpa as he was waiting for me to agree.

"Sure grandpa any date would be okay." I said and he nodded.

"Then that wouldn't be a problem." He said and look at Max. "Are you going to stay more Max" he ask Max.

"There's pending work that I need to approve grandpa. I'll be going along with you." Max said.

Then my father and Max father and grandpa walk toward us.

"Happy birthday again Nunew" Mr. Kornthas said and I thank him and so as the Max grandpa who's my grandfather's bestfriend.

They all walk out of the house that leaves me and my father and the mades who was cleaning the whole house.

"It's going to be 11 now, son. You need to go upstairs and sleep. This day must be tiring for you." My dad said but I look at the door when my mom gets inside and close it.

She walks over to us.

"Maybe he doesn't catch the flight, son." Ma sadly says. Zee promise to be here at ten but he didn't come.

I look down as I felt pain in my heart. 'How could he broke his promise.' I thought as my eyes sting with the tears that started to fall.

"He never break any promises to me before mom." I said as my tears fall.

"Son. It's okay, sometimes we can't fulfill everyones promises." Dad said rubbing my back to comfort me.

"But he always fulfills it" I said and my tears falls rapidly.

Mom and dad hug me tightly.

We were all disturb when Aunty Ja came in and smile so brightly.

"He's here" she said and then a second after the door opened and it's like a slow motion Zee came in looking so handsome.

"Am I late" he said as he was panting so hard as he was holding a flower and gift on his hand

"Sorry I didn't check my car and I ran out of gas an--" he stop talking as I ran faster towards him and hug him so tightly. He was stunned but instantly hug me lifted me up.

"I missed you so much Hia. I thought you wouldn't come." I said as I continue to cry in his arm.

This place with him would also be a comfortable place to me. I felt the hole was now covered as I felt a genuine happiness now that I saw him.

"I missed you too my Nunu." He respond.

Then after a long minute of hug he put me down and look at me. God I don't know why but when I look at his eyes all I can see is me in it and no one else. He is like a fresh air that I breathe and that's making my heart healthy.

That's too cliche but that's what I feel.

" I'm so sorry I'm late Nunu baby. But it's not twelve yet. It's still your birthday." He said, but then he panic as my tears won't stop to fall.

"Oh God, Nunu don't cry. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." As he tried to stop my tears but his hand full off the things he was holding. But he still try to wipe it the back of his hand.

"I thought you would break your promise." I said as I'm sobbing.

"I would never dare to do that. What did I say back then. Every promise I made for you, I will fulfill all of it." Zee said still wiping my face. As I hold his arm.

When aunty Ja couldn't take seeing Zee struggle she then offered to help hold the bouquet of his pink roses.

"Now, stop crying cuz I'm already here." He said and wiped my tears to dry.

Then I stop crying but now pouting at him. He smile and kiss my head as he greeted me.

"Happy happy birthday my Nunu." He said that make me smile so widely. A simple greetings that fill up my whole day.

"Thank you so much, Hia. You made my day" I said.

While my mom and dad was happily watching us together while Aunty Ja was just looking at me teasingly.

"Ohh your gift" he said and he got the bouquet from Aunty Ja who smiled knowingly, and Zee looked away at her. "This is for you" as he handed the flower to me. "And this" he handed the paper bag.

I said thank you to him and hug him for a second.

"Can I open it now" excitedly I ask him waiting in anticipation, then he nodded.

I walk to the couch on the corner and sit as Zee follow and sit beside me.

Mom and dad also followed as they were curious to know what Zee gifted for me. I grin at them looking so proud that I got a gift from my Hia.

I take what's inside the bag and it's a rectangular box that was wrap with silver wrapped. I look at Zee wondering what's inside.

"Open it." he said smile tugging on his face.

I open it slowly but aunty Ja who also was curious to know my gift take.

"Is there more slower than that Nong" he said raising his brows.

"Ja stop teasing Nu." my mom said smiling.

"Aunty Ja this is my gift. I can unwrap it the way I want. Go find someone who would give you like this too and unwrap it your way." I said that earn a pout from her.

"Hoy harsh are you with this old woman" she said that makes everyone laugh. She shut up and just sit down and look at the me continue unwrapping

When I finished unwrapping a black velvet box was shown. I open it and was stunned to see what's inside. I look at Zee unbelievably.

"I always wanted to both something like this before but I can't find the design that I had in mind. So go to France to customized it? " He said and look at me and the necklace. I wanted to cry again. It is something that I really wanted. I tried to find a kind of necklace but all the designs are too big.

"I'll put it on for you" as gets it and put it in me."

"That really beautiful in you. Do you like it?"

He ask but instead of answering yes a hug him again.

"This is beautiful Hia. I love it. How did you know this is the kind of design I want." As I look at the necklace. It is a paint brush with its pallet intact together back to back that has a color on is. The size was just the size of a kids thumb.

"I don't know you would love it. It's just the design that I want, and there's your name in it." He said. I look at the necklace but I couldn't find any name.

I look back at him if his just joking around but he look serious.

"You have to push the brush in." He said and when he do it the back to back necklace open apart.

That was amazing.

I look at the split necklace and saw the name he put

It's my name Nunew and heart besides it. How can I be so emotional in just an hour because of him.

"I would never take this off Hia" I said as I hold the necklace in my chest. "Thank you Hia." I smiled at him.

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