Chapter 26

SONG RIN'S POV

It's been ten days since I came here in Japan. Everything is quite alright for me here.

Net and Jj have been so good to me. They are so welcoming, and they're accommodating me all the time as they would take me out and stroll around Japan.

It's like I have found a new friend with them both.

All the worry and questions in my head was still here. I'm still anxious and all but thanks to them i sometimes forget that I have problems to take care of.

But the thing was when the night comes, all my worries would come back to me. The anxious feeling would suffice and I am field again with uncertainty. Uncertain of the truth that I don't know how to figure out. The memories I need to try to retrieve within me, but couldn't do so.

At times I wanted to give up, but there's one thing that I am holding on for all of this, and that is to go back to where I am supposed to be, so I can be back to see Zee again.

I often wonder of what made me end up in here. If I'm not really Song Rin, then who am I. What's my real name? where is my real family then? Who are they? What are they look like?

Are they still alive? Are they healthy? Are they still finding me, or did they give up on me and thought I died already?

Many questions that I've got no answer at all.

They say once you got an amnesia and forget everything. You just have to go back on the place that's been so important to you as those place hold memories that dear to you and that could help you remember the memories you forgot.

But how can I go back to that place when I don't even know where I belong.

Some say amnesia would stay for days, and sometimes it is months. Some are years and a few had never recover.

But I don't want the least. I still want to remember, cuz forgetting is like forgetting the piece of me, and that I feel like I don't belong anywhere.

I really want to find my self again. I want to belong to somewhere. I want to find the piece of me that's been missing for many years.

I fear that if I don't remember again I might never be back again and that's not what I wanted.

I was disturbed when someone knocked on the door, and I knew it was Jj who would always come to check on me if I am awake already.

"Sorry for disturbing you Song Rin. Your brother had arrived." He informed. I immediately get down on my bed and went out of the room while Jj follow after me.

I saw my brother who was sitting on the couch while Net was standing across him.

"Hyungnim." I call as his stares fly towards me. He stands and walks and hugs me tightly.

"We should leave you both to talk." Net said before he dragged Jj along with him leaving us both to talk in private.

"I'm sorry I only just came now dongseang." He said

and I smiled and told him that it was alright.

"I won't be staying for long. I only came to tell you something and also give this to you." He said and handed me a black velvet box.

"Ohh I forgot to bring this." I said as I smiled and thanked him. "Thank you hyung."

"I know I said I give that to you Rin. But the truth is i didn't." He said and I went speechless.

"Eomma said I should throw that away. It's the thing that you wore seven years ago when she finds you in the hospital. But I didn't throw it as I know that it might be important to you." He explained and I was dumbfounded.

So this necklace belongs to my past then? Is that why every time I hold this, it gives me comfort?

Who would have given this to me?

"A schedule for your flight to Europe has already been set, dongseang. It would be tomorrow, and you are going along with Net and Jj. Net promised me that he will help you to settle down there. So don't worry dongseang, Net and Jj are good people that I trusted the most." He continues and holds my hands tightly.

I had figured that this place was Net's vacation house that he bought for him to stay as he had a business her in Japan. But he really stays in Europe. I also knew that his parents lived in Thailand.

"Will this be the last time we will see each other hyung?" I ask him as he holds back his tears and hug me again tightly.

"Of course not. Remember I told you I'll help you to find your family? I think I'd be having a good news on that. Maybe I'm closer now Rin." He said and I frowned.

"Did you find something?" I ask as hope rise inside of me.

"I think I do. But I can't tell you now. Not until I'm sure with it." He said and I nodded. At least we got something to lead on.

"Okay, at least I got something to hope for hyung." I said.

"Yes, let's hope for the best dongseang. Not long you'd be able to know where you came from." He said and I nodded.

"Thank you for helping me hyungnim." Now tears threaten to fall in my eyes.

"Don't cry now dongseang. Everything would be over in no time." He said as he hug me once again.

When he pull from the hug he look at me and smile.

"I'll be going now Rin. As I said, I won't be staying for long. Eomma might find out I fly here without her knowing and she might suspect me." He said and I sigh deeply.

Our life is now really complicated.

James walk towards where Net and Jj and call them.

"Thank you so much for everything you've done to help me Net, Jj. I owe you both." He said to them.

"What are friends for James." Net said and smile.

"You are welcome James." Jj said and smile at James

"I'll be going now. Please take care of my brother for me." He lastly said to them before they both said yes.

After a minute of goodbyes my brother went away as Net take drive him to the airport leaving me and Jj.

I sat on the couch and look at the black velvet box in my hand.

"Did James give you gift for the last time?" Jj ask.

"I had thought so back then. But right now he confessed and said that this was really belong to me." I said as I opened the box and take out the necklace.

"That's beautiful." He commented and I smile.

"I must conclude you have no idea why I'm here right?" I say and sat beside me.

"I'm not gonna pry on your life Song Rin. We're respecting your private life." He said understanding me. But I've got the urge to share something to him, as I feel like I would be suffocated if I've got no one to talk to about my situation right now.

"I have an amnesia." I suddenly said and he look at me in shock. "Seven years ago I woke up on a hospital not remembering anything about myself." I said as he look at me with

"Then a woman came and claim I was his son." He frown but still he just listen to me.

"She said I was in coma for a month because of an accident. I believe her as she had show me my picture, her and my hyung James." I said as I remember the time I woke up from being in coma.

"At first I thought why do I feel like I don't even belong to that place, then maybe because I have an amnesia that's why couldn't remember the feeling of belonging." Jj this time holds my hand giving me courage to continue.

"I continue my life with them all this time thinking I am who they said I am. That I am Park Song Rin. After years I cope up with my life along with them. I find myself believing that I was him. They tell me about the life he has back then. Even if I couldn't remember attending my highschool days and university days with my best friend Yim. Yeah, Song Rin had a best friend too."

"Did he know you're not Song Rin?" Jj ask curiously.

"No I think not. Even I, thought he was really my best friend. He was really a good friend of Song Rin, a very nice kind of guy. Maybe that's why I instantly got along with him even if he knows I have an amnesia." As I sigh I think of my days with the Park family.

"He even thought that I really forget to play the piano because I have an amnesia. I even got scare to attend every reunion because I can't play it and thought they would figure out I have an amnesia. Song Rin was a very famous pianist when he was in college. So imagine me being Song Rin and couldn't play piano. That was a very bad idea right."

"How did you know you're not Song Rin then." He ask.

"When hyung said I wasn't him, days ago. He said that maybe because I can't remember cuz we have different memories." I said. Now I felt hurt remembering the next thing he said then.

"He also said. Our mother was making me drink a medicine that I thought was a vitamin, to prevent me from remembering my past. She didn't want me to remember that I am not really Song Rin." I said as my voice crack holding back to burst out crying. He held my hands tightly to comfort me.

"Do you look exactly like him?" He ask in curiosity. I know he would really ask that.

"Very much alike. It's like we were molded in the same face. No one would ever think I am not him." I said and he look really confused. Who would I. Even me think that to.

"Could someone be look exactly like you in this world without him being related to you. Or maybe perhaps your identical twins Rin. That's the only reason why two people could look exactly the same." He said. I look down on my hand and stare at my necklace.

"Do you think we were twins and been separated since we were a baby?" I ask him, he stayed silent.

"You know I also think that to Jj. But I can't prove that cuz hyung said the real Song Rin is already dead. He jumps on the bridge to kill himself and he was never found again." I said as tears stream on my face.

I hold the necklace tightly trying to find comfort with in, as Jj rubs my back to give comfort as well.

Then I heard something click in my necklace. Jj look at it to as we both were confused. I raise the the gold necklace and stare at it. The pendant of a pallet and paintbrush are intact together.

"Did the click sound came from that necklace?" He asked and I didn't answer him as I am not even sure to.

I looked at it carefully and saw that it was spit into two. I slowly open it, curious of what might be inside.

When I open it I was dumbfounded of what I saw.

There, a name of someone I know that I never thought I would see written inside.

"Is that a name?" Jj asked as he looked at the necklace too. "Zee" he read the name written on the necklace before he stare at me.

"Who is that?" He ask. But I couldn't answer him. I was just staring at it couldn't believe what I saw.

Then I remember something.

It was the day that we first met. The day he thought I was someone he knows.

The realization hit me. Why did I forgot about that first met. The day i found out that I have someone who looks exactly like me.

I gasp and stood up immediately as that realization comes to me. How did I forget about it all.

"Song Rin are you okay?" Jj ask as he stood along with me looking so worried about me.

"How did I forget about that information." I said to myself as i couldn't believe how I became stupid.

Jj was now confused at me.

I look at the necklace once again and walk towards the room I occupied. I need to find Zee

But then I stop abruptly when my head suddenly aches so bad like someone is hammering inside of it.

I went on my knees as I hold my head tightly.

God what is happening to me. I felt my ear ringing and in sudden it stops and a clear image play suddenly.

It's the memory of the necklace.

"W..when did he give this to you?" He looks up to the man as tears still streaming in his eyes.

"Two days ago nong." He looked at that necklace on his hand

He takes the necklace out of the box and holds it carefully, pain is now unbearable in his heart.

He slowly push the brush in and it click and it open

He slowly opened the necklace and he saw a name. Zee's name and with a heart after.

Very the same as his. A totally pair necklace Zee had customize.

Then suddenly he noticed a letter was come with it.

He takes it and open it immediately. Then he read the content.

' My Nunu baby,

The moment you read this. I'm not here in Thailand anymore. We would never gonna see each other again. I know you would be upset that I am now breaking a promise to you. The first time I'm gonna break a promise.But this is how it is.

I'm going to leave you now. I'm sorry

You may think I'm unfair. But that's what's best for us Nunu.

I've been persistent on my feelings for you and that's hurting you. I'm going to say sorry for pushing you to the limit that now breaks the only thing that we've connected to 'our friendship'.

But Nunu, I'm not gonna say sorry for loving you, cuz that's the first thing I've learned to do, than to be the best friend that you wanted to.

One thing I never regret is the day that I admit to myself that I love you more than you could even think.

Maybe Loving you is hard but I would always count and wish to all the falling stars that someday your love would belong to mine'

And maybe in another life we could be together as a lover and not just a friend.

Your Hia Zee '

Is that my memory? Hia Zee?

Is it Zee? The Zee that I know? Is it him?

But why is that memory so painful. What is happening. Why is he saying goodbye to me?

I felt my tears drop on the floor, and Jj was holding me and tries to comfort me while asking me if I was okay.

"Song Rin are you okay." He ask once again but before I could say anything the door open and Net came looking at us so confused and worry.

"What's happening here?" As he looked at me and was wondering why I was crying on the floor.

I slowly stand on the floor and Jj helped me. I need to find the answer now. I can't stay here and go to other place next day without knowing the answer that I needed. I need to ask Zee.

Am i that someone he knows? Is he the one on the letter that called Hia? Is he the Zee written on the necklace.

"I -i need to go to him." I said unconsciously as I try to look for the necklace that falls a while ago when I drop on the floor.

Then I saw it on the floor and I immediately picked it up. If this is from Zee he would recognize it right? I should ask him. But how?

I should go to Thailand and find him immediately.

I let go of Jj and would just about to walk in the room I occupied when Net grab my arm and look at my hand that was holding the necklace in confusion. He raised my hand and holds the pendant carefully checking on it.

Then he look at me frowning.

"Where did you get this necklace?" Net suddenly ask. I was confused. Why would he want to know? Is there someone who have this kind of necklace like this?

"I- I don't know." I said cuz really I still don't know if this is from Zee or if there is other Zee out there that owns this necklace.

Would that be possible?

Net took the necklace from me and I watched him push the brush and it clicked to open.

"That's impossible." He gasped and said while shaking his head. Then slowly he opens it and he look even horrified. "No, how could you have this necklace?" He look at me in disbelief. I tried to say something but he ask me again.

"Who are you? God that's impossible" Net slowly lost strength and sat on the couch. "This necklace was customize and only Zee made this with his name on it and this necklace there's name on it." He said while still looking at the inside. "I was with him when he gets this necklace so I know it's his." He said unconsciously.

Me who was listening to him couldn't fathom what he said. Wait did he know someone name Zee. Is it Zee Pruk to?

"There's a pair of this to and it's silver. If I'm not mistaken Zee have it, and there's a name Nunew on it." He continue as I look at him frowning in more confusion.

"You know someone who have the same kind as that necklace, babe" Jj ask.

"No, this wasn't the same as anything else. This is exactly the necklace." He confirmed. What the heck is happening here.

Is he really saying that that necklace owned by someone he knows and that name is Zee? Is he the Zee I have known. Is it him.

"Can I know his whole name?" I ask Net as he look at me and suddenly stand.

"You look exactly like him. I thought the first the first time I saw you, you are him, but then maybe you just look like him as you have different hair color. Cuz shit I saw the dead body of him who died on an accident." He said again doesn't answer me.

"But how the heck you have this one. Zee gave this to Max to hand it over to Nunew days after the wedding."

"Are you really Nunew?" He ask and I couldn't say anything. God am I that Nunew be was talking about.

"But you're James brother. I don't understand" he said in confusion. God if he is confused then how about me?

I am confused of my self to. I don't know who I am. So I need to confirm it.

"What's his whole name?" I ask him again and he frown. "The Zee you said you knew who owned this necklace."

"Zee Pruk Wang." He said and that confirm that the man I know is the same person he was saying.

"Ohh..How do you know him?" I ask. The pain starts to ache inside of me, as tears are now falling again in my eyes. How can destiny be so playful over me. There must be many people that have a Zee name in this world, but it was really him who own this necklace.

"He is my friend." Net answered and I nodded trying to sink in everything I have figured out. Of all the people that must be Zee's friend it is Net who I have to meet.

"Can you answer me on how did you get this necklace and how the heck you look like my friends bestfriend." He ask. I was confused for a moment.

So Zee and that Nunew is bestfriend?

"I don't know how to explain to you, cuz I don't have the answer to. But right now I need to know where is Zee. I need some answers." I pleads. I also need to see him. Cuz even if I know he lives in Thailand I don't even know where exactly.

"Net, babe I think he is who you said is." Jj suddenly interrupts and Net look at him in wonder.

"He can't answer you about the necklace because he have an amnesia." Net throw his head toward me in so much shock.

"I really think you are Nunew, Song Rin." Jj said to me. Should I believe that. Even if I have proof as what James claim. I need the answer from Zee himself.

"You know where is Zee right?" I look at Net as he was still dumbstruck. "Please, I need to know where he is so I can go to him." I said pleading him again.

"Wait..wait. God this is so crazy.. if you're really Nunew. How can that be possible if we saw your dead body?" He ask me.

"I don't know. I'm not saying I am him cuz I can't remember anything about myself except the day I woke up seven years ago on the Korean University hospital." I said.

"Seven years ago?" His eyes bulges in realization.

"Nunew died seven years ago. But if you woke up in Korea that would be impossible that you're Nunew,cuz Nunew died in a car accident in Thailand." He said in impossible. Then he stop when he realized something. "But what if.." Net scoff and look at Jj in disbelief of what he had thought.

"Is it possible that someone fake your death? Shit you're Nunew?" He clutches his hair in so much overwhelming emotions he had felt.

I sat on the chair. Now I felt more puzzled. Am I really Nunew or not. I need to remember. I want to bust out and cry in so much frustration.

"We should go to Zee." He said and I stare at him immediately.

"Babe you should know something too." Jj said as he started to tell Net about me not being Song Rin and how the mother I know made me drink something so I can't remember. And other things I had told him awhile ago.

"God... That even rolled out that you're really Nunew then. How the heck should I tell Zee about this." He said looking so frustrated with everything he knows.

"Can we go to him right now?" I asked as he look at me contemplating for a moment before he decided.

"Yes we should go to him now. This must not be delayed. He should know about this now." He said in determination.

Now I felt hopeful that my memory would be back to me once my questions would be answer.

But right now I am also thinking, would I be ready to face Zee once again, and this time claiming to be the Nunew that had gone in his life years ago, and is now be claiming to be alive.

Would he believe me even if I don't remember anything?

"Let's not waste time and go to Zee." Net added.

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Jj immediately helped us book a flight to Bangkok Thailand as soon as possible.

Now here we are on the plane flying to Thailand. I felt scared that we'll be going in a place I don't know if I really belong to.

When we arrived at Bangkok a nostalgic feeling sweep around me. It's like the place gives of the feeling of being home. Is this it?

Am I coming back home?

Now I am determined to bring back my memory. If I am really Nunew will anyone of them believe me?

I know Net has so many questions and doubts about me and all he needs was a confirmation from Zee.

I unconsciously hold my necklace seeking peace of my wild heart that's beating so fast.

What would Zee react if we tell it to him, and how should I explain to him what happened to me when I don't even remember anything at all.

God all of these things happening in my life for the past few days are too complicated.

What if he asks something to confirm if I was Nunew but I couldn't answer it?

I can't even answer my own question, so how can I answer his questions.

Now I felt scared that he might not believe and deny that I am not Nunew.

Because all along he knows I am Song Rin.

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