Chapter 1

It's 5:30 in the morning when Zee woke up and prepare for his own breakfast and coffee.

This is a normal time for him to wake up this early.

After his done eating he wash his plate then went back to his room and prepared every file he had signed last night and then go to shower, take a bath and change.

He opens his wardrobe and chooses the clothes he always wears on a daily basis his usual outfit his suit.

After he finishes he gets his briefcase he put the files and his laptop inside.

He take his eyeglasses at the nightstand and puts on then he gets his car keys and went outside of his condo. He rides in the elevator and to the basement parking lot.

By the time Zee arrive at the parking lot basement it was already 6:50 am. He gets inside his Porsche cayenne and drives to his company.

This has been his daily routine for the past years in his life. He only knows condo - company and then goes back to the condo or if he is forced to go to a party or some drinks he would be obliged too for formality or for courtesy and sometimes for some respect.

Zee doesn't like parties and night life at all he would just choose to read books, files that need to be checked and sign on, and projects that needs to be study.

You may think he is boring. Will everyone thinks of him like that. He's been called an introvert guy. He would rather look at nature than to look at women and gay men who flaunt their bodies to him.

This doesn't gave him happiness and contentment at all.

Will except one thing. No except one person

Nunew Chawarin Keerati

The boy he would always look forward to everyday. The one who makes his boring life enjoyable and the only boy who make him happy.

Zee arrive at his company after thirty minutes. He went out from his car and went inside where the security guard greeted him.

Everyone greets him with a wai or a good morning and he just nodded to everyone in response.

He gets inside the elevator and push the six botton . When he reached the floor of his office he notice his secretary Phai who'd arrived already earlier than him.

She was in her table flipping a file that need for Zee's approval. Then she noticed as Zee had arrive.

"Good morning sir" she greeted as Zee nodded and went inside directly in his office.

After a minute she followed Zee. He give him files that needs to be approved, and inform him too of his schedule for today.

She tells him his schedule for the whole day and

Zee nodded as he listened to his secretary.

"You would be visiting also today at 10 am in the Kornthas enterprise for the discussion of the new adds of Kilen waters sir" Zee raise his head as he listened intently.

" Is it today? " he asked his secretary.

Zee is looking forward with this day actually. Everytime he got to visit Max on his office Zee would really look forward to it.

Yes his looking forward to it and it makes his day bright.

"Yes sir. That is today" her secretary smile.

She doesn't know why but when he would visit Mr. Kornthas his boss would be in a good mood not that his in bad mood but he would always look too stiff when working everyday. But when she knows that his boss would be visiting his friends/ business partner he would be smiling all day.

She is not a homophobic or something cuz she's not but this always happens and she would be damn if she didn't think that Zee had something with his bestfriend.

"Okay thank you Phai" thats the cue for the secretary to exit.

Today would be long day but great day for Zee.

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NUNEW'S POV

I woke up with a loud knock on my door. This is really annoying it's still early and they are disturbing my sleep.

I look at my bed side alarm clock stated 7 in the morning

For god's sake I only sleep only 3 hour. Will it is my fault who would sleep 4 am in the morning just because your to engrossed with your new painting.

It is me.

I woke up groggily as the loud knock wouldn't stop.

"Coomminng" a walk to the door scratching the back of my head. I'm to tired really I just want to lay in the bed and sleep all day.

I open the door and her grinning face comes to view.

"Ohh you look like a beggar" she said shaking her head in disapproval.

" Stop it aunty Ja" I said bored and tired with his words

" What time is it. Nunew?" she ask not minding what I said. She push me aside gently and went inside my room.

Ohh here we are again she's not gonna stop if I don't come in my senses

" It's 7 going 8 why? Would you let me take a rest now?" I sigh as I really want to lay on my bed without anyone interrupting me.

" Yes of course it's going to be 8 am. I know " she said grinning at me. I don't want to talk to her anymore like she already know what time is it but she still ask me?

She really made me crazy.

If she was not the person who takes care of me when I was still a baby and up until now I'm old enough I might tell my mom to kick her out.

But No, I'm not gonna do that I still love her even if she annoys me sometimes. I mean everytime

When can I even get out of this place? I'm really feed up with her annoying face.

I can't even wait to graduate so that I can marry my one and only love and be with him tell the day I die

"You don't know what date is today? " she ask teasingly. I frowned I don't know what's with to--

" Shit " I curse out loud and eyes wide open

How can I even forget.

Today is the day that I would be going out with Max.

I even tell her to remember this date.

For so many months that Max has been busy with work this is the only date that he give to me. I can't just waste this time.

I look at him helplessly and she just grin at me like a crazy. I really want to hate her now.

"Now you know? " she tease me again.

"Why didn't you even tell me right away aunty ja" I pouted.

" How can I tell you Nu. You lock yourself in your art studio the whole day remember? " she explained to me smiling with her eyes fluttering .

Why did she have to flutter her eyes like that?

But yeah she's right. If I'm inside of my studio, painting every ideas in my head I wouldn't go outside.

I sigh in defeat. When did I even win with her.

She come closer and started sniffing me like a dog.

"Ooohhh that's..." she tried to say " you stinks Nunew. Look at your beautiful face it smudge with your paints."

" Did you paint in a canvas or you paint yourself" she continue as she wipe the dry paint on my face that made me frowned and pout at the same time.

" Will don't waste your time standing here. Go inside and take a shower" then she push me to my bathroom door.

Even if I'm really tired I have to move my ass and prepare for this day.

I immediately get in and take a shower. After a minute of taking a bath I went outside and saw my bed was now made and clean.

I went to my closet and find something to wear for today.

I need to look good for today for him to appreciate my beauty.

It's been a minute and I've already turn my wardrobe upside down to find something suitable to wear for the date.

I can't just wear anything. Why did I even forget this day I could have go shopping for a new clothes to wear. This really frustrates me.

Then I found something hidden in the upper part of the hanging closet. It's a white paper bag that has a brand name on it.

I smile as I saw it. That would be a perfect fit for today.

I got it quickly and check if it was perfectly fine to wear. I grin when pull it out from inside the bag.

I would surely look cute in this outfit and Max would surely fall in love with me now.

Will let me hope and wish for that.

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ZEE'S POV

9:50 am as I check my wrist watch I am early to be here inside the Kornthas enterprise building but I needed to be early for today.

Some of the new projects would have to be plan out to make it more suitable for the adds.

I ride on the elevator to Max office. As I arrived at the floor I was met with Fae, Max secretary.

"Good morning Mr. Wang" she instantly said with a smile.

" Good morning Fae. Is Max inside " I greeted with a smile as I ask.

"He's already inside sir. He is waiting for you" as she walks and open the door for me. I thank her first before I went inside.

As I got inside I saw Max sitting on his swivel chair busy checking a pile of files. He doesn't even notice that I already came in. I walk to his table and knock on it.

He got startled with the noise and look up to me.

"You surprised me bro." he said smiling at me then he stood and hugged me.

"You've been so busy that you didn't even notice that I came in" I said making him laugh. This is really him a very busy man. Workaholic as usual.

Well I am too, but if it's time to rest of course I take a rest. Max would always work overtime.

He's more workaholic than me.

"Sorry for that. You can guess that I'm always a busy man Zee" as he set back on his swivel chair.

"You are not a married man Max but your working like you have five kids you've got to raise." I pull one of the files scattered in his desk.

"You know very well I'm going to get married in no time Zee" then he sighed and I nodded looking away from him and roaming around the office.

Yes I know very well about it. I also know how Max doesn't even like the idea of it, but he doesn't have any choice after all. He needs to or let's say his obligated to do it.

"Let's not talk about it Zee." he said and looked up to me. "How's your business trip so far" he asked curiously.

I look back at him and smile hiding the bitterness I felt.

"It's been good bro. The business collaboration had been successful so far." I said smiling at him.

I've been away from Thailand in more than two months with the collaboration project I made with my business partner Net Siraphop who lives in Europe. We collaborate in the Super Sun for some clothing design that we had created.

Then I just got back here two weeks ago but I've got busy with some of the work that I've left. That is why I only had this day to visit him. Max secretary said that this day is his vacancy for this week that's why they scheduled the meeting for today.

"That's really great bro. I know you could do it. Congratulations" he says as he raises his hand for a handshake. I grab it and say thank you to him.

"Welcome. Ohhh , Can you wait for me to finish these before we proceed in the meeting room." he ask while talking about the papers that needs his sign.

"Sure bro take your time" I said tapping his back and walk towards the big sofa in his office and set down.

I grabbed the latest magazine that was placed on the center table and read its content.

Max started to sign every contract in his table. His back to his serious look again.

We were on our own for over thirty minutes busy doing what we did when suddenly the door hung open.

We both raise our head looking at the one just barged in.

" Gooood Morning My Phi" as a bubbly voice of Nunew echoes the whole office of Max. He was looking at Max and didn't even notice me sitting in the corner.

Max with a serious face looking at Nunew like his bored to see him.

"It's already afternoon Nunew" said Max and look back at what he is doing. Nunew run to Max side and stand in his side.

He was holding a paper bag on his right hand. It's a take out food of a french restaurant.

"Ohh come on Phi it's just ten in the morning. It's still early to say that it's afternoon already" Nunew said smiling while looking down at Max who doesn't even look at him. "Here is your food" then he puts the bag in the table where there is an empty space.

Max just nodded still focusing of what he is doing.

"Aren't you gonna hug me?" Nunew said after seconds of Max silence.

" You are disturbing my work Nunew" Max said and look at Nunew again in boredom.

"But what about my hug" Nunew said pouting his lips. Max sighs in defeat and stands to hug Nunew who jumps in his arms and hug Max tightly.

And this is all happening in front of me.

You can say I'm already used to this but isn't.

I'm used to seeing this in front of me but at the same time I'm still not used to the pain I am feeling every time I see how the person I love so much was loving someone else and it's my best friend.

It hurts to see how he smiles lovingly at him.

I look away to the scene in front of me. I just can't take seeing this all the time.

"Stop with the hugging Nunew I've got many things to do." I heard Max say thats when I look back at them. Nunew let go of the hug.

"Zee just gave me some minutes I'm gonna be finish with these." Said Max as he look at my way.

That's when Nunew turn and look at me. He just noticed me now. He look shock to see me.

" Oh my Goodness Hia" Nunew said as he suddenly ran to me and hugged me immediately. I am almost out of balance with his sudden action but I recover from my step and hold his waist.

"Ohh gosh your back" he said as he still clings to me.

"I miss you Nu" I said as I hug him back tightly.

"I miss you to Hia" he said moving his face closer to my neck. This feels great.

He doesn't even know how much I miss him. More than anything in this world.

"Stop hugging Zee, Nunew your making him suffocate. Are you going to kill him when he just got back" Max suddenly said.

"Ohh sorry, I was just too excited to see him after 2 months that I didn't see him." Nunew said to Max.

Max went silent and sat back at his chair and continued what his doing.

I know you may think why his too clingy to me. This is just him. For many years I've know him I know everything about him more than anyone in this world.

He is the sweetest and clingiest person I've ever known, and I love it.

This is the only chance I have to hold him freely in my arms.

Then Nunew let go of me and smile so brightly. I could have hugged him forever if I wanted to but there was only borrowed time for everything when it comes to him.

"Your still soo handsome Hia" he said looking at me from head to toe. I smile at him.

"And you are always pretty every time I see you" I said as it makes him giggle.

" You never run out of complements for me" Nunew said that makes me laugh.

" Yeah I would never run out of it Nu. You know you would always look good in my eyes." I said.

"Ahww, thank you Hia." I nodded at him.

" Ohh I see your wearing -" I tried to say but I didn't dear to. This makes me blush, I just noticed that he wears the gift I gave to him in his birthday. I'm too happy to see that he wears it.

" Do I look good with it?" he asks as he turns to make me see his look fully.

He is wearing a red button down shirt that he tucked and paired with a black pants. He looks so sexy and beautiful with it.

"Yes you are. You look so good" I said as I can't take my eyes off of him.

"And look at this" he pulled his sleeve and it revealed a gold bracelet with an emerald diamond cut around it. He walked closer to me and brought his face to my ears "Max gave this to me" he said whispering to me.

"Ohh" I just said couldn't really comprehend what he just said. I felt jealous even if I don't have the right to feel it.

"And we're going to have a date today" he exclaimed excitedly.

Now I feel the numbness. God why does hearing it make me feel hurt inside.

I smile bitterly.

"Tha- that's good to hear" I tried to say but my voice crack with the overwhelmed sad emotions that I feel.

How I wish to become Max right now.

I feel so insecure with him.

How could someone be soo lucky like Max.

"Yeah. It is." he seems so excited. I really want to be happy with him but my heart can't.

"Ohh, Phi Max when would we go for our date? " He ask that made Max raise his head and frowned with Nunew's question.

With the looks of it he seems like clueless with this date that Nunew said.

" Do we have a date? " Max ask trying to remember if they had a plan to date.

Nunew looks hurt with how Max ask him about it. He looks like his about to cry.

" You said last week that we're going for a date today" he said biting his lip while trying to hold back his emotions.

" I..I forgot about it Nunew" Max said looking at Nunew apologiticaly. " I'm sorry but I got a schedule with Zee today" Max continue.

"But.. You..-you said-" he tried to say but his emotions flows out. I saw as his tears fell from his eyes.

"You promise" he says mumbling that only I could hear. All the tears he tried to hold back fall.

"Nu " I call

As my instincts let's me. I grab him and hug him for comfort as he hugs me back as he cried loudly in my arms.

God I can't take this side of him. These sides of him always makes me weak. Why does it have to be like this

"Hush now Nunu. Please don't cry" I said as I rub his back to comfort him.

'This is all my fault' i thought. If I just know I wouldn't have agreed to make a schedule for today.

" I'm sorry Nunu." I said feeling guilty of what happened.

"Max let's just cancel this meeting." I look at Max who's now standing and looking at us and sight.

"But Zee, we already contacted the models and they are now here." Max said frowning.

Then it's like on a cue that Fae came in.

"Sir all the models are now here. They're waiting in the meeting room" Fae said and look at us wondering what happened in here.

Max look at Fae and then he look at me.

"Zee we can't just cancel this meeting. You know we have to do the ads as soon as possible. they're all here now." he said staring at me in the eyes trying to convince me to not cancel it.

"Yes we can. Let's just move it next week. Tell them to come back next week. The ads can wait" I said in convection. I was still hugging Nunew and I peaked at him who is now looking down at his feet.

"Zee" Max called me as he couldn't believe what I just said.

"Well, You could have told me that you have a scheduled date with Nunew Max " and says and look back and stare at him looking so upset.

How could he just do this to Nunew. I don't know what is really going on in his mind.

I'm so upset of him.

He always do this to Nunew. Always ignoring him and forgetting every promises he made for him

" Didn't you hear what I said Zee, I forgot about it." he answers and sigh in frustration then he look away.

He has the guts to be frustrated with this situation. He is so unbelievable.

And this is crazy. I don't know of how could someone forget his promises. He didn't even have amnesia but his more like having dementia in these states.

"How could you even forget it Max." I said. I really wanted to punch him in the face maybe it could help him remember the promises he broke with Nunew.

He's really a jerk.

"I'm too busy with work Zee." Now that's a great excuse. This dumbassed friend of mine is crazy.

"Too busy that you forgot about your fiance?" I said holding back the anger I felt. How could he disregard Nunew's feeling about this. I don't want to understand him anymore.

"Let not fight about it Zee" he said and sigh in defeat. I know that he really knows that he really messed up big time.

"Nunew look at me." he calls Nunew softly. Then Nunew peaked a look at him in my arms that was covering his face.

"Nu baby come here" Max ask Nunew as he spread his arms wide open. Nunew looked up to me first then looks at Max contemplating if he would let go of me or go to Max . He decided to let go of me and come to Max's embrace.

I feel hurt and disappointed. But I know he would always choose to be with Max the love of his life than to be with me who's just their friend.

"I'm sorry if I forget that we had scheduled this day for our date." Max said as he still hugging Nunew.

"But please understand me."

Now this is familiar. His using this technique on Nunew again. He would do this to appease Nunew.

And now I know where this would go from here.

"You know I did everything of this for us Nu.

This is for our future." He said that makes Nunew nod for understanding. " We can't just cancel this schedule, it's important. Do you understand me" he said looking at Nunews eyes.

"I.. I understand Phi" Nunew said nodding at Max.

I wanted to protest. Nothing is more important than him in this world.

I really wanted to hate Max with all the disappointed things that he did to Nunew.

I know he doesn't love Nunew the way Nunew loves him, but he can't just hurt him over and over again.

It hurts so much everytime I see him get hurt because of loving the wrong person.

It could have been me Nu.

I would love you the way you deserve to be love.

I would never ever hurt you the way he hurts you.

I will forever treasure you.

But all of this is just my wishful thinking.

It would never ever come true.

He would never love me.

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