Chapter 9

Zee came in carrying two box in his hand and Max frowned after seeing him.

Max can see the devastated sad look on his eyes. The stables in his chin as he couldn't even shave it.

Life was been hard for Zee as Max thought.

Seeing his best friend suffer the consequence of him and Nunew's decision. Maybe all along he knows he did something wrong thinking only his family and families business, but not thinking their own happiness.

Now it's gonna be too late.

"Hi bro, it's been soo long huh." Max said smiling weakly at Zee.

"We've just seen each other days ago Max." Zee said as he placed the boxes on the center table.

"I know but it feels like a long time Zee." Max said sadly.

"I'm just busy with work bro, sorry for that" he said sitting on the couch, leaning his head to relax.

It feels like life wasn't easy for him for the last days.

His head was throbbing in pain as he had a hangover for drinking the night away with his brother Tutor and Net.

"Are you okay?" Max ask. Zee nodded trying to be really okay even if not.

" You didn't tell me you're coming. What's that boxes is for?" Max being curious looking at the boxes. One small gift that was wrap beautifully with a red bow that wrapped around it and the other one that's bigger but without wrap and just a simple box.

Zee slowly lean forward holding his head and looking at his shoes.

"I'm not going to your wedding tomorrow Max." He said. Max look at him sadly and understandably. He knows this would happen, but hearing it from him now makes him speechless. He don't know what to say.

"I'm going to Europe tomorrow and I'm not coming back here anymore. I'll be staying there for good" he continue.

"Why does it have to be tomorrow, bro." Max ask when he finds his voice. He felt like Zee is abandoning him in this situation he had even though he wasn't part of it in the first place. Or he should have been if he was not just too scared to face what he had felt.

" You're not that dumb to know what reason Max. Let's not pretend anymore. You know why already." He said still not looking at Max.

Max didn't say anything as Zee was right. He had already known about it. Now his confessing this to him when tomorrow is the day.

"But, Zee I don't think running away with this would help." Max suggested as it's the other way he thinks this could really end.

"Zee, you know I saw Nunew only as a brother. I don't love him the way he wanted me to. I wanted to cancel the wedding." Zee look at Max immediately. Hoping for something to happen but he knows he can't hope for something else.

"But you know I can't Zee. I tried but they would disinherit me and that would ruin me Zee. I work for this for the longest. I can't just throw everything of what my life has now. Unless the cancelation of the wedding would come from the Keerati." He said and Zee looked down again and sigh.

That's what he thought. Max where too scared to risk everything in his life. He would rather be in a loveless marriage than to be disinherit of everything he had work hard for.

"Why won't you tell him about this."

"Hah.." Zee scoff looking away. "I already told him what I truly felt for him Max. I already told him that I love him." Zee says as Max was confused and couldn't believe what he heard.

"When did you tell him?" Max couldn't comprehend what he found out.

"Week's ago. But I guess he loves you that much as he never considered my feelings at all." Zee said as his eyes sting and tears threatened to fall, but he hold it back.

"There's no point in cancelling Max. Nunew is ready to marry you at any time." He said as the pain contracted in his chest. Yeah even if Max would cancel the wedding Nunew would not go to him.

"Zee.." Max call as Zee stand on his feet and started to walk out the door. He stops when he remember to tell Max about the box.

"I don't think I could congratulate you both for tomorrow. Just.. just please give that boxes to him after your wedding. That's my gift to him." Zee said and sighed deeply before he continued.

"And as for you I'm sorry I wouldn't be giving you gifts for now. See you next time Max" then he walked out of the door leaving Max in silence while looking at the door and the boxes he left.

Max slowly sat down on the couch. If he could just switch places with Zee. Zee would have been the one to marry Nunew tomorrow and not him, who doesn't even love Nunew the way they've said they supposed to be.

Life is too unfair for everyone of us.

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CHAI'S POV

I place the file on my table after I finish signing it. I heard my phone rings and I immediately take it and answer it.

"Hello, honey?" Pat instantly answers. I smile as heard her voice but her voice sounds worried.

I frown thinking of what reason she sounds worried.

"Hi hon. Are you okay? You sound worried, why?" I ask.

"Honey can you do something please. Nunew is not going out since this morning. He's inside his art room and locking himself." She said as I heard her starting to sobbed.

I sigh deeply looking at my office window.

"Don't worry I'll be there. Don't cry, he'll be worried seeing you being emotional just because he locked up himself. Just try to persuade him to go out." I said calmly.

I know my son is not irrational. He won't do something to himself, and sometimes this thing happened before. Maybe he was just doing painting again and didn't want to be disturbed.

"But honey he doesn't answer us." As she is still sobbing from the other line.

"Okay I'll be there ." Then I said good bye and got my coat on the hanging rack. I put it on and go out. I told my secretary that I'll be off early as I have something to do at home.

She nodded and I went on to the elevator. Before I went I the elevator opened and my father went out frowning at my worried face.

"Are you okay Chai?" He ask

"What are you doing here pa?" I ask and look at the elevator as it closes down.

"I'm just here to visit you" he said . "But what's with the hurry son?" Now if I ever told him about Nunew he would get worried about it.

"Aren't you gonna be resting now as it's going to be Nunew's wedding tomorrow?" I ask changing the topic.

"Ohh. I was supposed to but I wanted to talk to you about Nunew." He said that makes me confused. What would he wanted to talk about Nunew with?

"What is it about Pa?" I ask him.

"Can I talk to you about this in the office?" He said. I contemplated for a moment as I look back at the elevator. Nunew would not do something stupid. He could wait for a little longer. Maybe I can talk to pa for a moment, so I nodded and walk back to the office along with him.

We get inside and he went directly to the couch.

I silently followed him and sat beside him. He sigh deeply as he look at me.

"Chai the betrothed thing. The marriage thing between Max and Nunew was only a word. You know that very will. Nunew knows about that when he was because the Kornthas playfully tell it to him. But it was only a word and nothing of that would happen unless they really wanted to." He started as I nodded and just listened to him.

"Chai, son. I once dictated your life back then. I force you to marry someone you didn't love. "I look at him a bit confused on why is he opening up the past.

"Pa. It's in the past already. We've gotten it over long time ago." I look at him as he look sad.

"It's not your fault. I agreed to it thinking it was best for us." I continue.

"And that's what your son is doing Chai. He is doing the same thing as what you did." He said and I paused. He was right. I think my son wasn't clever enough to hide it from his grandfather.

"Let's end the wedding tomorrow. I don't want to ruin the future happiness of my grandson just because he thought it could make me happy. But I'm not happy seeing him getting married with someone he doesn't love." He said that makes me look at him. How did he know about it.

"He was only marrying Max because he was force by the circumstances, because of me."

"How did you know about that. We didn't told you." I said wondering how he knows.

"I'm not stupid to not figured it out Chai. I'm old but don't treat me like I am a fool." He said looking a bit dissatisfied with the way I talk to him.

"I'm sorry. That's not what I wanted you to feel Pa" I apologize.

"How wouldn't I know when the news that Nunew and Max are going to get married was two weeks after I got out of the hospital." He said. I look down. Maybe he's disappointed in me as the father of my son.

"At first I thought he wanted to marry Max because he loves him. Then we confronted him and we found out it's because he wanted to please you. He wanted to make you happy before it's too late." I started to explain.

"He really takes after you. You both would rather sacrifice your love just to make me satisfied and happy. But you didn't know what really make me happy. ". He said looking so sad. Now I feel bad for all this.

"Chai, you should know how it feels. Force to marry someone you didn't love. You should've stopped him a long time ago."he said. Now I blame myself for making my son suffer this long.

"What makes me happy is to see him happy in life before I die. I want him to get married, that's right but with the one he loves. That's what I want son." I look down feeling like a failure. How can I ever do this to my own son.

"So let's pull off the wedding tomorrow"

"But I don't think he would cancel if I told him to, Pa." I said.

"It's okay. I would be the one to cancel it and he wouldn't say a word of it. We're going to fix this tomorrow." He said that makes me frown.

"It's all been set today. I can't just call everyone just to tell them the wedding is cancelled and explain why.. That's a waste of time. With all above hundreds of people invited. And also words and fake news would spread like fire and it could affect both parties. I want to announce the cancelation of the wedding on the day so everyone would understand why. We can explain to the Kornthas the reason." He explained. I know my father is looking at the possibility of a ruined friendship with the kornthas so he wants to save his energy on one go.

That's how his brain work. He doesn't want to take the risk of a misunderstanding with the families.

The reputation of both businesses where also at stake here. So we might have to explain it where everyone will know the reasons.

I sigh and look at him. He rubs my back to encourage me.

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I came home after twenty minutes of driving. I went inside and saw my wife sitting on the sofa looking really worried.

She stood immediately as she saw me walking in.

"Why it takes so long for you to come home, hon" she ask.

"Sorry honey. Dad just came to the office and we talk something out." I said before I look upstairs. Not explaining any further about the cancellation of the wedding. She would know about it tomorrow.

"He still didn't come out?" I asked her and she nodded.

I sigh before we both went upstairs and walked to the art room where Ja was trying to talk to Nunew.

"Nunew? " I immediately called when we arrived at the art room door.

He didn't answer so I called back again.

"Nunew, son. Open this door please." I call him again. After a minute the door clicks and opens.

Nunew came into sight with a blank look and a hand that's been dirty with paint. Ok now he really is doing some paintings. But I can see his eyes are swollen from crying.

As a father it's heart wrenching when you see your son suffering in front of you.

My wife Pat immediately hugged my son who didn't resist at all. I came close to them and hug them both. I sigh and hug them tightly.

He's been through a lot now.

' It's going to be over tomorrow son. You don't have to suffer anymore'. I thought as I'm rubbing his back.

My wife whispering some comforting words to him, as we know his mentally and emotionally not okay.

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NUNEW'S POV

Tomorrow is my wedding day, but I don't feel like I wanted to do it anymore. Should I run away?

I don't think I could run away with this.

I look at my finish painting. It's the paint that I wanted to give to Zee. This is the symbol of love that I have for him. The love that I wanted to give to him.

After I locked myself from morning tell evening and went out when my father told me to. Now I'm here at my art room again looking at my finish paint. The light from the moon outside was brightening up the whole dark room as I didn't bother to turn on the light.

I'm wearing my pajamas and was supposed to sleep, but I don't want to sleep. I don't want tomorrow to come.

If I could stop the time or maybe skip the day so I'm not gonna marry Max anymore.

If I only just agreed to Max to cancel it.

That is an if only that I know it's hard for me to do. If my grandfather isn't sick. If only his time isn't limited. I would have chosen Zee.

I look up at the huge window and abandon on staring at my painting and walk to the window and look at the night sky.

The night is so calm but my heart wasn't. Just like the night sky that only the stars and the moon are brightens the darkness of it, it's just my heart filled with darkness and only one person can brightens it.

I heard my door open but I didn't look at it. I know it is Aunt Ja who was checking on me. I didn't lock the door now. I just don't want them to worry on me again.

I was startled when a strong arm wrapping around me as he rested his head on my shoulder. He was back hugging me so tightly.

"Let me hug you please." and I stop as I hear Zee's voice.

"How did you came inside?" I ask him as I felt my heart beats wildly.

"You're mom let's me inside." He said and I tried to let go of his hold, but he held me tightly.

"Don't push me away Nunu. Just please let me hug you like this. Just give me this time to hug you for the last time." As I heard him said. God I don't know if this is a dream or reality but even if this is just a dream let me dream forever.

I felt his hug even tighter and my heart aches as the pain of letting go of my love for him is gonna be forever. He's too close but soo far for me to hold.

"Nunu." He calls. I stayed silent and didn't answer him. I close my eyes as I felt how his hug trying to comfort me.

"I wish you know how much I love you so." As I heard him sobbed. My heart ached with the pain I feel as I clenched my fist.

I can't hurt him even more. This is unbearable to see. He's getting hurt because of loving someone like me.

I push his hand away from me. He try to hug me more but I turn around and push him harder.

"Stop this Hia please." As my tears started to fall.

"You'll only getting hurt because of me. And I don't deserve the love that you have for me." I said as I looked away. I couldn't look him in the eyes.

"Why not? Is it that hard to love me too? " He ask as I could hear the hurt in his voice. I stayed silent once again looking down on my feet.

He walk closer and hold my hand. I didn't push away this time feeling his warm hand into mine.

"I didn't need any answers for that cuz I already know. You can't" he said. "But one thing I want you to know. My love for you would never fade away. You would always be the one I will always love for the rest of my life." Hearing him say it makes my tears drop rapidly.

He hold my face and come close as he kiss me in the head, then in my forehead, in my nose and lastly on my lips. I unconsciously close my eyes as I felt his soft and warm lips on mine.

The kiss lasted for a minute before he slowly let's go and turn around and walk to the door.

But before he could turn the knob I walk fast and turn him around as I close the gap between us and kiss him on the lips deeper. God I didn't know what I am doing but this was all felt right.

His shock face slowly relaxes as he respond to me the same way. He holds my waist as his other hand holding my nape kissing me even deeper.

One thing is in my mind is that I don't want this kiss to end. His kisses is driving me crazy.

My hand consciousness went to the door knob and lock it. This maybe crazy but nothing is more crazy than to not have him again.

I miss his kisses and touches.

He suddenly push me away looking at me confused.

"Nunu. Why are you doing this to me. Why are making this hard for me." He ask frowning with the reason he can't understand.

I know I'm making him confused, but how can I tell him the way I truly felt when this thing between us is too complicated for me too.

"I don't know Hia. I don't know why I'm being too selfish for you." I answer him feeling too complicated of myself. "but right now. I really wanted you." I said looking him in the eyes.

"Nu..I.. Is this the only thing you want from me?" He ask as his eyes filled with sadness. How can I say to him that i wanted him more than that, I wanted him soo much. I stare at him longer but couldn't answer his questions. He sigh and look away for a second before he look back at me.

"Fine. I'll give you what you want. But this would be the last time I'm gonna do this." He said

Then without anything else he hold my nape and kiss me full on the lips. I immediately response as I wrapped my hands on his neck clinging unto him.

Our kiss went deeper as his hand slowly went into my waist holding me tightly making me moan .

"I'm gonna have you as much as I want Nunew." He whispered between kisses. His hands slowly went inside my pajama top touching and fondling me so right.

I hold his arms tightly as his touch feels like it's starting to burn me whole. His kisses went into my neck kissing and biting me there making my toes curls as I feel the sensation ran down my spine.

My hands unconsciously went to the hem of his trouser trying to find it's button to undo it but it feels like forever for me to take it off as I struggle on it for a whole minute. He stop kissing me and looked at me breathless and grinning at me.

He guided my hands helping me to undone his button and guide it to unzip him. My breath hitch in anticipation as I unzip his pants slowly and before anything I stop my hands and let off his trouser to falls down on his ankle leaving him with his shirt and boxer on.

Then he holds my face again kissing me passionately as I respond without hesitation. I felt his hand go to my pajama top and take off every button eagerly while he guided us both to the only single couch in the room.

Before he could finish taking off all the buttons of my top he turned me around making me lean forward on the couch, and without hesitation he pulled down my pajama bottoms making me gasp in surprise as it leaves me naked down below.

"Who would have thought you're not wearing anything underneath." As he leans on my back and whispers while he holds my ass firmly as I hold back my moan. My face flush in embarrassment.

Then I was shocked with what he did next.He went down on his knees and kissed my two ass check making me gasp loudly, then he wet my hole using his saliva wet my entrance as I felt his finger starts to dig inside of me moving it in and out as I gasp and groan louder.

Then he puts another finger inside scissoring me in a slow but steady motion.

It slowly stirs something inside of me as his fingers continue coming in and out of me. I was at my peak when suddenly he stopped and pulled out his fingers and stood up. I look back at him wondering why he suddenly stops. He looked at me and leaned on my back. He pulled my knees down to the couch making me kneel towards it.

"I'll be going in now baby." He said and I nodded. He pull down his boxer and position himself to my entrance and slowly he went in. I feel my hole being stretched out as his big cock slowly getting inside of me filling me up whole. I groan as an overwhelming sensation suddenly enveloped my whole body making me tremble in the great feeling that I started to feel.

I can't help but clutch on the armrest of the couch trying to find comfort in there. I don't know what to do in the moment as I felt he didn't move making

me suffer with the incomprehensible feeling that doesn't make me feel any better.

"Nu don't grip on my thing to much. You're making me crazy. I might cum instantly." Zee said panting. He was holding my waist and rubbing in circles as he trying to make me relax. He lean forward again and now kissing my check then my back making me moan.

"Relax Nunu baby, I'm going to move slowly." He said that makes me breath in and out. Then he moves slowly trying to find his pace moving in and out.

My moan coming out even louder as I felt him dig inside hitting a spot that I didn't thought exist.

"Ooh, Hia you're hitting something inside of me." I said as I hold his arm trying to find something to hold on. I can't even hold back my self with the sensation that stirring deeper inside of me.

He moves even faster making my brain stops from thinking anything. I moan and groan with his every move.

"Aahh Hia.. this is driving..ahh meeh aah crazy.."

All I could think is how good he is inside of me as he hasn't stop ramming me in a good way.

"Oh Nunew, your so tight." I heard him said still gripping my hips tightly.

He lean forward kissing my back as he continue coming in and out of me. Then his hand went to my cock holding it firmly as he stroke me while still thrusting inside of me. The dizzying sensation engulf me. As Zee keeps making me feel good and maddening me to the core.

When I felt that I'm cumming I tighten my hold to Zee's arm feeling it coming out as Zee never stop on going in and out of me.

"Hia.. I'm.. I cumming Hia..Aahh" along with me trembling, I came in his hand as the overwhelmed sensation making me incoherent.

Zee who hasn't cum yet continues to thrust, and going faster as I groan in every thrust he make.

"Aahh.. c cumming baby.." then I felt his hot cum filled my insides as he quiver with the intensity of the sex that we did.

A minute after I felt my knees shaken and my whole body felt weak. I let go of my hold on the couch and was almost went face down on the couch but Zee was fast to hold me and prevent me from hurting my self. He puts back up my pajama top that went down on my shoulder.

Then he slowly pulled his thing out of me earning a soft moan from me. He gently pulled me close to his body as I slowly went down from the couch.

"Let's get you clean up." He said, then he lifted me up bridal style as he take me to my art rooms bathroom.

I'm thankful that my parents had put my own bathroom here. They know it would be a waste of time for me to go back to my room just to relieve myself or clean myself.

My art room is like a second room to me..

Zee puts me down on my feet as we're under the shower. He took off the last button on my pajama top and took it off of me. Then he turned the shower on and I was startled a little as the water flowed down my body. He started to shower me and clean me up.

I look at him and never talk at all. I just stare at his handsome face. I never thought that there could be a day that we would be taking a bath together, and how surreal that is.

He then cleaned and shower himself as well, and when we were finished he got two clean robes on the rack and put it on me then on him. We both got out of the bathroom walking back to the couch holding hands while he was holding a clean towel on his other hand.

All the time I just let him do what he wants to do while I just stay silent.

He sat first on the couch before he pulled me into his lap to sit down. Then he used the clean towel to dry my hair.

This thing that's happening to us is like a dream that I don't want to wake up from anymore.

When he finished on what he did he turned me around and put my feet on the side as we both stared at each other.

His eyes went down on my neck and saw my necklace. The necklace that he had gifted me in my birthday. He sighs and hold it, then he take it off. I was shock of what he did. He takes into his hand and close it.

"I'm going to let you go now. You don't have to wear this anymore Nunu. Let me throw it away for you." My heart aches so much as what he said and did. The necklace that he put on me was now taken off my him to.

That's the only thing that's holding me from him.

Does taking it off and throwing it would make him let go? Then that maybe could help us both on letting go fully.

He pulled me closer and hugged me tightly as tears streamed down both of our eyes.

I'm not going to hold him back anymore. It's time to let him go so he could move on and move forward. So he won't be hurt anymore.

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Letting go of someone you love is not easy. But if it's hurting you both maybe it's time to let go.