𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖊𝖗 52

⚠️ ⚠️ ⚠️ mention of panic attack,alcohol, cigarettes.

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(while the fight was happening)

yuvraj: pack your things and leave

yuvraj said to jeevika as soon they entered the room,she looks at him shock she never thought that he would say something like that she went to him and said.

jeevika:y-yuvraj you can't do this t-to me you love me right you can't do this.

yuvraj stares at her she did something that ruined someone's life and now was behaving like she never did something.

jeevika: you can't leave me yuvraj

yuvraj:loving you was my biggest mistake jeevika.

yuvraj: if I knew that loving you would ruin my family I would have never loved you,cause of your stupidity someone's life is on threat and not just on but two,behan mana tha maine usse par tumne sab kuch karab kardiya.

yuvraj:so it would be better if you leave I'll send you the divorce papers

jeevika:no,I will not , tumhe pane ke liye maine ye sab kiya yuvraj tum muhje ase nahi nikal sakte.

yuvraj wiped his tears and pushed her away.

yuvraj: mai hamesha se tumhara hi tha wo tum thi jisse ye samhaj nahi aya,rehem karo muhje pe aur nikal jao yaha se agar advika ya uske bache ko kuch hua tho sab se bura haal tumhara hi hoga.

jeevika stared at him a strange feeling grew in her,maybe guilt sadness or fear,she left to pack her suit case.

after one year.

james pov

changed,everything has changed in this one year the atmosphere the people the behavior the relationships,everything.

yuvraj kicked out jeevika when the fight was happening and after he got to know about her death and what happened there, he went crazy his condition was ruined by crying and sometimes he started to have dreams of advika where she was covered in blood and asking him that why did he ruined her, and now he spents half of his time on her grave crying and apologising,while abhimaan's condition was more worse he started to drink after her death,visiting her grave regularly sitting there with alcohol talking to her grave or just sitting there silently he even had nightmares ,he never said it but once I saw him waking up while breathing heavily and bursting in tears not only did he lost his wife but his unborn child too but they were innocent too she and that unborn child were innocent but still had to go through so much pain she never deserved that my bestfriend never deserved that.

after knowing the truth about advika's life jennifer was broken She stopped smiling , she even took break from modeling, she stopped talking that much she stopped living it's like she was just surviving now,and after requesting her lots of time to move in my penthouse after finding her fainted in her own house I couldn't leave her alone there after all I still loved her even if she hated me,even if she wanted me to die.

I walked into her room with a tray of her favorite food and saw her sitting in balcony hugging her kness a shawl wrapped around her. I went to her after keeping the tray on the table, keeping my hand on her head gently caressing it,she turned her head and looked at me her eyes were teary she quickly wipes her tears seeing me.

james:did you eat anything.

she nods as no and turned her face looking outside again as her tears fell again.i went in front of her,holding her hand gently caressing it with my thumb.

james:sweetheart it won't work like this you are not eating anything itne din se tum bahar bhi nahi gai,look at yourself crying non stop all day and night locking yourself in your room please don't do this to yourself.

I wiped her tears, she puts her feet down and got up,I hugged her keeping her head on chest.

james:it will be alright darling everything will be alright It takes some time but then everything gets fine.

she cried clutching my shirt,I caressed her hair trying to comfort her.

james:it's ok cry as much you want sweetheart,I know you miss her.

jennifer: i-i couldn't even a-apologise to her,she was i-innocent she never deserved any pain b-but because of me s-she sufferd alot,her c-childhood was snatched from her,s-she was hurt but never s-said anything to me.

she said as she sniffled between words,I patted her back not being able to say anything but just hoping that everything will be fine.

james:come on now eat something it's not good to starve yourself

I said and made her sit on the couch and took the tray in my lap after sitting beside her.

jennifer I'm not hungry

I grabbed her hand when she got up.

jennifer:I said I'm not hungry right now.

I stared at her for a few seconds and she silently sat back.

james:you have to eat even if you are not hungry or else you'll be weak by starving yourself like this.

i said and picked up a morsel of food and raised my hand towards her mouth,she silently ate and wiped her tear that fell.

after finishing eating I went downstairs keeping the plate in the sink and washing my hands I came back to her room and yes we were living in different room as my sweetheart wanted to lock herself in a room.

I saw her still sitting on the couch and her shawl beside her,I went to her and said.

james:you should sleep now it's already late and you have been not sleeping well too.

she nods and gets up and walked to her bed as I followed her,she silently laid on the bed her back facing me i stared at her for a few seconds and as I was about to leave I felt her hand on my wrist gripping it,i turned to her and raised my eyebrow.

jennifer: d-don't leave stay.

james:you want me to sleep here tonight.

she just silently nods her head and turned around her back facing me again,I laid down beside her covering us with the duvet, I wrapped my arm around her and my other arm was under her head she turns to me snuggling in me.

james:sleeping well darling.

I said and pecked her forhead.

pov ends

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author's pov

everything was a mess even between the brother's who once swore to never separate now they weren't talking to eachother now,abhimaan has stopped talking with yuvraj and james has stopped talking with both of them,yuvraj was going crazy his was drowning in guilt blaming himself for the death of her and her unborn child thinking that if he never told anything to abhimaan they wouldn't have been separated,aur jeevika ko nikal neke baad uske dil ka haal bhi kuch khass nahi tha,after all moving on isn't easy it.

yuvraj was sitting in his room bottles of alcohol scattered in room he was staring at the family photo which had everyone in it james,jennifer, abhimaan,vidyut and advika.

everyone looked really happy in it genuinely happy,he caressed it as his tears fell his heart ached again looking at advika's picture in which she looked happy and was smiling.

he regretted believing his so called wife blindly and not thinking before saying anything he was the one who said "you should never hurt anyone by being blinded by anger or hate james you never know what's going in their mind because of your words" to his brother but the one who needed to hear that was he himself.

yuvraj: I'm sorry for hurting you for creating misunderstanding and breaking you I promised myself to protect y-you from every bad thing but it it was me who you needed protection from,jeevika was your bestfriend but still did all those things to you,I should have never believed her blindly.

he wiped his tears and gulped down the alcohol.

yuvraj:I'm sorry,I hope that you and your little one are doing good up there.

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abhimaan was sitting near her grave talking to himself being drunk surrounded with guards it was his daily routine waking up coming here cleaning the fallen leave from her grave he even planted her favorite flowers there watering them every morning and then from office he straight comes to the graveyard sitting there while looking at the stars and sometimes he comes here being drunk crying his heart out apologising again again to her grave that he couldn't protect their baby and her,he didn't had anyone whom he could share his grieve with losing his child and wife were the biggest scar in his life nobody could understand his grieve.

the guards helped him in getting up and after lots of effort they finally left the graveyard.

abhimaan sobered himself up by splashing cold water on his face,he looked himself in the mirror pushing his hair back,he was standing shirtless in front of the mirror he looks at his tattoos and sadly chuckles remembering how she used to fill colours in them with markers and now there were no colours in them and neither in his life.

he stared at himself in mirror and remembered when she said",you should really learn to control your temper " she was right he has always made mistakes in haste but this time he did not make any mistake, it was a SIN.

advika:it's ok now you realized your mistake now it's good but don't you date to yell at me or call me sensitive or anything or else I will actually leave and never come back

abhimaan: she left she really did left me and when I got to know the truth it...it felt like she was the only one who was putting her everything in our relationship while I enjoyed it like I did something to deserve it,I had always hurted her and she forgive me every time I was the worst partner for her while she was more than anything I could ask for.

he left the bathroom and came to his bedroom which had nothing but pictures of her everywhere in the room,from the biggest to the smallest frame,he took out his cigarettes he lit the cigarette and blew a long curl of smoke,he smoked while admiring her photos he caressed the photo after taking a puff of his cigarette,his love for her was never ending,he crushes the cigarette under his shoe and took out some sleeping pills as he was having trouble in sleeping since she was gone, he was not habitual of sleeping without her it was like she was a drug to him and now it was hard for him to keep surviving without her...

little kid:papa kyu kiya aapne esa mumma ko kyu hurt kiya

he moved towards the kid but the kid vanished before he could even say anything.

little kid: papa

he quickly looked where the voice came from and saw that little kid again.

little kid:kya aap muhje se aur mumma se pyar nahi karte the aap ne mumma ko kyu hurt kiya,woh aap se bohat pyar karti thi na phir kyu.

tears fell non stop from his eyes as he nods his head as no again and again,he wanted to say that he never hated them and he loves them and always will but his voice wasn't coming out of his throat like something was not letting him speak.

little baby:I hate you papa I hate you aap bohat bure ho aapne mumma se kabhi pyar nahi kiya aap ne mumma aur muhje mara diya.

the little kid slowly started to fade and finally the kid was gone.

abhimaam woke up with a jerk he was covered in sweat and tears on his face still falling down he clutched his chest breathing heavily,he buried his face in his hands bursting into tears his sobs echoed In the room,he started to have trouble in breathing,he quickly took the pills that were in his drawer and took it,it was to calm his anxiety or panic attack and make him fall asleep.

after taking them he laid down clenching his fist and soon the medicine showed it's effects as he fell asleep.

to be continued