Chapter 59 - Love Yourself More
I Won't Go Back to My Family Who Abandoned Me
Chapter 59. Love Yourself More
âGood luckâ¦?â
Leticia blinked because she didnât understand what he was saying.
So far, sheâd been accused of causing bad luck or misfortune. She even questioned herself whether it was really her ability.
Suddenly she was lucky instead.
Seios was watching Leticia with a serious look.
âIâve seen an intense sunlight coming from you that is only given to people blessed with luck.â
âFrom me?â
âYes, on your sisterâs birthday.â
âBut stillâ¦â
It was hard to believe, and she started to fiddle with her fingers. Seios brought up the stories he had discovered one by one, so that Leticia could accept that her ability was luck.
âI believe something good happened to Marquess Leroy after you were born.â
Leticia didnât understand and tilted her head in confusion.
âBut my parents said good things started happening after Diana was born.â
Thatâs why Marquis Leroy always lectured her to be grateful to Diana, he said this to her so often that she was sick and tired of hearing it.
Somehow Seiosâ expression was a mixture of bitterness and resignation.
âLeticia, your mother couldnât have another baby after she had you.â
âWhat?â
âShe was diagnosed by the doctor to be too weak to safely have any more children.â
As soon as he discovered Leticiaâs ability, Seios began to research all the good things that happened to the Leroy family.
âThe timing tells us that things began to go well for them after you were born.â
With Leticiaâs ability, it was clear that Marquis Leroyâs wife became healthy again and was able to have Diana. However, everyone seems to have attributed it to Diana after she was born.
âIn fact, the Leroy family rarely awakened to special abilities, even though they have a lot of unusual abilities. Look at your siblings, they all have good abilities.â
âThat meansâ¦â
âIt means they may have been influenced by your ability.â
She wasnât sure, but it was possible.
He then listed all the good things that had happened to the Achilles family after she arrived, while bad things kept happening to the Leroy family.
Leticia was quietly listening to Seiosâ explanation and said weakly.
âThen why did I get kicked out?â
âLeticiaâ¦â
âThere was no need or reason for me to be kicked outâ¦â
She no longer felt frustrated or conflicted. She was just confused about how to feel about the years of hurt, neglect and discrimination sheâd suffered.
On the other handâ¦
âIt ended up rather good.â
It didnât make a difference even if her family knew what her ability was.
From what theyâve done to her so far, it was obvious that sheâd be hurt or used again.
âDid you happen to tell my family?â
âI didnât want to say anything to them until I talked to you.â
It was Leticiaâs ability, so he thought it was best that she knew first. It was also her choice whether he informed her family or not.
âIf you donât mind, can you keep it a secret from my family?â
âIf thatâs what you want, I will.â
As their conversation ended and he prepared to leave, Seios told her to contact him whenever she needed help.
Left alone in the drawing room, Leticia thought about the conversation sheâd had with Seios.
âLuckyâ¦â
The ability to convey good luck to others, even if it doesnât bring good luck to herself.
Seios couldnât confirm that she was lucky, but it was clear that something good was happening to those around her.
âIs that really true?â
She thought he was right, but it was hard to believe. So Leticia sat in the drawing room lost in thought for a long time.
Then Enoch, whoâd been waiting outside for Leticia, entered cautiously.
âDid he tell you good news?â
âYes, in fact⦠He told me what my ability is.â
Leticiaâs face looked strangely dark though.
Enoch noticed this and asked with a curious look.
âDidnât you want to know what your ability is?â
He didnât know why she was more depressed than happy.
Worried, Enoch kneeled down in front of Leticia. She felt a bit lighter as soon as she was faced with his warm gaze. She slowly began to explain to him.
âGood things happen to the people around me when theyâre with me.â
âIs that so?â
That sounded like it was a good ability, so why did she look like there was a problem. Leticia was silent for a moment, then said.
âItâs hard to believe.â
âLeticia.â
âActually, I canât believe that good things happen when Iâm around you.â
She wanted to believe it more than anyone else, but she hesitated to believe it because sheâd been neglected for so long.
Recognizing what she was thinking, Enoch slowly rose and reached out to Leticia.
âThen we can check.â
âHow?â
Is there such a way?
She couldnât think of a way, no matter how hard she thought about it. She blinked up at Enoch as he smiled down at her and said.
âLetâs go for now.â
When Leticia hesitated, Enoch gently took her hand and left the mansion. Leticia was dragged away by Enoch without knowing where she was going.
It was none other than the square where Enoch took Leticia.
Leticia stared at him, wondering what they could do here to prove that her ability worked. Enoch was still smiling and looking around with her.
âNow! Which cup is the ball under?â
Leticia turned her head towards the sound of a loud voice.
There were three cups and a small ball on an old wooden table.The operator[1] gestured flamboyantly towards his cups, beckoning people to guess where the ball was.
âDo you want to try?â
âWhat? No, I was just watching in amazement.â
When Enoch stopped walking and asked Leticia, she waved her hands in denial.
Enoch already grabbed her hand and quickly approached the operator.
âI really donât want to try.â
âI want to try.â
What he said was absurd and she was forced to follow him.
âIn fact, Iâm not good at this kind of game.â
âWhat? Then why are you here?â
âWeâre supposed to be checking.â
âNo wayâ¦â
Leticia looked up at Enoch to check if he was serious.
âDo you really think being around me will work?â
âYes.â
Even when she was looking at him like he was being absurd, Enoch was seriously focusing on which cup the ball ended up in.
âNow, whereâs the ball?â
âSecond! I saw the cup with the ball stop at the second spot.â
âWhat are you talking about? Itâs obviously in the third one.â
Everyone said it must be the second or third cup. Leticia also thought she last saw the ball between the second and third cup.
Enoch thought differently.
âThen Iâll pick the first cup.â
âUnfortunately, the ball is in the third cup⦠What?â
The operator smiled nicely and picked up the third cup, but there was no ball under it. Then he checked the second cup, just in case, but there still wasnât a ball. When he lifted the last cup, curiously the ball was under it.
âHuh⦠It was under the first cup.â
The operator muttered with a blank look. He didnât know why the ball was under the first cup and not the second or third one. Enoch smiled at Leticia as they received their winnings from the confused operator.
The smile on his face was quite smug, and it made Leticia laugh. However, there were still some doubts.
âYouâre actually lying to me, arenât you?â
âItâs the first time Iâve ever won that game.â
After that, they went to play more games of chance. They kept smiling at every little good thing, like when Enoch caught the one and only golden fish in the tank.
It was already evening and the two of them were about to return to the Achilles mansion.
Stopping in front of a large fountain, Enoch whispered softly to her.
âIf you put a coin in the top part of the fountain, your wish will come true.â
âReally?â
Enoch hands over a coin to Leticia as soon as he realizes she wants to give it a try. Unfortunately, Leticia misses and it falls into the water.
Then Enoch threw a coin, and it went straight in.
âWow! Itâs in!â
The coin went straight in, as if it knew its way. It was fascinating to see, and Leticia clapped in excitement.
âHurry up and make a wish.â
Leticia was happier than Enoch, and rushed him to make his wish.
After a moment of confusion, he closed his eyes. His wish was quickly made, as if it was merely an afterthought. Leticia then cautiously asked.
âWhat did you wish for?â
âSecret.â
âWhy is it always a secret?â
Leticia pulled Enochâs arm with a look of frustration, but he remained adamant.
âI heard it doesnât come true if you say it.â
âThatâs just a superstition.â
âStill canât tell.â
She told him that he was too much, Enoch laughed and held Leticiaâs hand.
Maybe it was because of all the discrimination and disdain she had been subjected to, Leticia didnât seem to know how to trust or love herself. She was infinitely affectionate to others, but she did not know how to receive it.
So he prayed with all of his heart.
âMay you love yourself more.â
May she cherish herself as much as he cherishes her.
***
âHow can you disgrace us by not being able to beat some random stranger who rolled in off the street!â
Marquis Leroy shouted at Xavier, and stared at him in disgust.
It had been like this for some time. When something good seemed to happen, something bad immediately came up.
âJust when my business is finally going to pick up, my children are in trouble.â
A colorful ore had come out of the mine and his spirits had been lifted.
As he sighed deeply in frustration, Xavier bit his lip and said.
âItâs all because of my eldest sister.â
âWhat?â
âItâs because she doesnât want me to do well.â
It was ridiculous that heâd lost the swordsmanship tournament, there was no other explanation. Xavier told his father that Leticia had placed a curse on him to cause misfortune to befall him.
The Marquis was listening to him quietly, so Xavier was thinking that he was in agreement, and said even more loudly.
âThereâs been rumors recently about my eldest sister. Theyâve been saying her ability is to cause bad luck.â
âFor now, stay put. Iâll look into it.â
âYes.â
âDonât bring shame to the family again.
Xavier nodded quickly when his father said heâd let it slide this time. As there was nothing more to be said, Marquis Leroy left and Xavier could breathe comfortably again.
However, the memory of losing that final match came to mind.
âDamn it, I couldâve wonâ¦â
On second thought, he was furious. He thought there wouldnât be that much of a difference in skill between them, but he was overwhelmed. It was no different than being treated like a toy.
Xavier gritted his teeth and promised himself that heâd win next time.
âAnyways, this was all my eldest sisterâs fault.â
These days, the atmosphere in the family was unsettled and he was falling behind in his work.
Xavier went to his room, thinking about how heâd rather go somewhere far away.
Irene, whoâd been hiding nearby, slowly crept out.
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[1] This is the term used for someone who runs a shell game.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shell_game