Chapter 41 - Tell You Want You Want To Hear
I Won't Go Back to My Family Who Abandoned Me
Chapter 41. Tell You Want You Want To Hear
A professor named Warner Russel wrote a letter of recommendation and Ian passed the exam.
Elle read the letter carefully to Ian. A bright smile spread across her face as she spoke happily about it.
On the other hand, Ian nodded with an uncomfortable expression. Leticia noticed immediately and carefully asked Ian.
âWhatâs wrong Ian?
âWhat?â
âYou donât seem happy.â
At that, Enoch and Elle turned to Ian. Ian was embarrassed for a moment that heâd been pouting. He sighed and struggled to smile.
âItâs not a big deal.â
âWhy? What is it?â
There was something not quite right about the way he said it.
When Elle tried to question him, Enoch answered for Ian.
âItâs because heâs afraid the letter of recommendation might cause strange rumors.â
âStrange rumors? What do you mean?â
Leticia was listening quietly and blinked with a curious look. Enoch rubbed the back of his neck and said.
âThe rumors can be that he got the referral by bribery or cheating.â
There was a time when someone received a letter of recommendation late that let them pass.
A few jealous people spread stories about how the student bribed the professor to write the letter of recommendation, and some people believed it.
âYou know thatâs all crap, Ian.â
âYes, I know.â
âSo you should just do the best you can.â
Enoch patted the dark-looking Ian on the shoulder and encouraged him to do well. Next to him, Elle also comforts Ian by telling him he got this based on merit.
Leticia was silently watching the three people, and smiled. Leticia happily watched them caring for and cherishing each other. She cautiously added.
âIâll be there to cheer for you, too.â
âReally?â
She accompanied him with the hope that he would feel more comfortable, but Ianâs expression was excited because he seemed to like it when she went with him.
âOf course.â
Leticia smiled broadly and said,
âLetâs do our best again!â
***
âI wish I could find something I want to do.â
Leticia visited the square out of habit, and gave a small sigh. She was still in a situation where she could not reach her dreams and goals.
She felt trapped alone in a huge maze because she didnât even know how to find her way out.
Leticia was wandering around like she was lost, when a merchant passed something to her.
âTake this one, Miss.â
âThank you.â
Leticia thanked the merchant for the unexpected item.
âAnother fortune.â
She slowly opened it.
[Donât be impatient. Find what you want to do slowly and good days will surely come.]
âDonât be impatientâ¦â
Leticia stopped and read the note again and again for a long time.
Unlike Enoch, Elle and Ian, who were moving forward step by step, she was becoming increasingly anxious. She felt pathetic about being unable to do anything and felt like she was faltering.
It was a phrase that seemed to know her situation well.
âTheyâre good words.â
Even though it didnât seem like much, it comforted her a little more than she thought it would. She was feeling more relaxed now.
It was as if she had a small unknown ally looking out for her.
âI want to say something nice like this too.â
Most people had something that they wanted to hear the most during difficult times. Knowing her mind well, Leticia suddenly felt that she wanted to be a warm comfort to other people with phrases written on notes.
âThen what do I want to hear the most?â
What do other people want to hear the most?
After walking around the square, Leticia returned to the Achilles mansion.
On the way, she wondered what words would cheer her up the most.
âWhat I want to hear the most isâ¦â
Youâre doing well.
Itâs okay to stop for a second.
âSaying that Iâm a person that is worthy of giving and receiving love.â
Come to think of it, they were all obvious words.
Thereâs nothing wrong with being greedy, and being selfish is not a bad thing.
She forgot that for a while because she had been neglected by her family for so long.
âHow should I convey these words?â
Even after arriving at the Achilles mansion, Leticia was still troubled over it. When she subconsciously walked to the drawing room, she came across Elle.
âYouâre here?â
âYes, I just got home.â
âWould you like a cup of tea?â
âThat would be nice, Elle.â
Leticia agonized for a long time, even after Elle handed her a cup of tea. Elle, whoâd been quietly watching her, curiously asked her.
âWhat are you thinking about?â
âIâm just wondering what Iâm good at.â
Elle gave her a funny look, like what she just said was silly.
âYouâre good at a lot of things, Sister.â
âWhat?â
âYouâre especially good at baking tarts and cookies.â
âThatâs true, butâ¦â
She wasnât as good as a professional baker, but she was comfortable making some for those closest to her.
At Elleâs word, Leticia thought of something and jumped to her feet.
âWhere are you going?â
âIâm going to the kitchen.â
âLetâs go together.â
Leticia immediately went to the kitchen and Elle followed her.
Contrary to doing something as soon as she arrived in the kitchen, Leticia faltered briefly in front of the flour.
âI want to give cookies and notes together.â
It seemed awkward to give it to someone separately. She was wondering if there was another way to give cookies and notes at the same time, when Elle piped up beside her.
âWhy donât you put a note inside the cookie?â
âIn the cookie?â
âYes, is that going to be too weird?â
While speaking, she glanced at Leticia. Leticia was staring back with a stunned look, then she smiled brightly.
âThatâs a great idea.â
Leticia thanked Elle and immediately began making the dough. The hand-made dough was spread thinly into the shape of small pancakes so that the size and shape could be even.
âI think I can put in a long note.â
Leticia tried baking some dough in the oven, but she couldnât put notes in the first patch because she overbaked them and they broke apart in her hand. The next batch, Leticia took out as soon as she saw the edges were slightly dark, this time she pulled them out at the perfect time. As soon as she folded them down the middle, the half-moon-shaped cookies were complete.
âHow about bending it a little in the middle so itâs easier to break open?â
âI think thatâs a good idea.â
She thought it was very bland looking, so Leticia did what Elle suggested and gently folded the cookie in the middle.
âSo I break the cookie at the folded part?â
âYes, then youâll get the note.â
The ingredients didnât cost as much as she thought, and it was easy to make. So she was going to be able to make more than she thought. It takes a little bit of work, but it definitely wasnât difficult.
âThen Iâll have to make several notes.â
Elle was quietly listening to Leticia say this. Come to think of it, she forgot that she needed as many notes as there were cookies.
âYes, I shouldâ¦â
She thought it might have been better to make the notes first, but Elle tilted her head towards Leticia.
âCan I help, too?â
âIâd appreciate your help.â
âThen letâs do it together.â
They immediately returned to the drawing room with a pen and paper. Elle sat beside Leticia and began writing her notes. Elle followed Leticiaâs instruction to write positive affirmations, and glanced at what Leticia had written already.
Leticia was writing one word at a time with a serious expression.
âHmâ¦â
While looking at Leticia, Elle looked down at the note sheâd written.
âI wish you could have this one.â
She didnât know if she could keep it, but she wrote it down anyway.
âItâs not a bad statement, so itâll be okay.â
Leticia could feel Elleâs gaze on her as she concluded her current note and started on the next one.
âWhat did you write?â
âItâs a secret.â
âIâm curious.â
She poked Elle in the side, but she shook her head in refusal.
Elle made another suggestion to distract Leticia from her disappointment at being rejected.
âWhy donât you have Ian and Enoch try the cookies?â
âShould I?â
She wanted to know what those closest to her would think before she tried selling them to strangers.
Acting quickly, Letisha made cookies with the notes in them and showed them to Enoch and Ian. As the two looked at the cookies, Letisha wasnât quite sure what they were thinking.
Enoch immediately smiled and said to Leticia.
âI think itâs a good idea. Itâs interesting that thereâs a note in the cookies.â
âThe cookie shape is unique, but itâs easy to break in half.â
Ian also said it was a good idea, and Leticia was feeling more relaxed. She asked them to pick out a cookie and check their notes.
Enoch had been looking at the cookies for a while before slowly picking one.
âWhat does it say?â
ââ¦.â
Leticia asked what Enochâs note said with a twinkle in her eyes, but Enoch glanced at Elle instead of answering. It wasnât Leticiaâs handwriting, so he could recognize it at once.
Even though she knew that glare well, Elle pretended not to know and snuggled up close to Leticia.
âMine says:?If you try without hesitation in what you want to do, you will get good results.â
âIan picked a good note for this time of year. What about you Lord Achilles?â
âItâs a secret.â
âWhat?â
She didnât know what Enoch and Elle were hiding, while saying it was a secret.
She couldnât ask anymore because they obviously didnât want to talk about it, even though it seemed like nothing.
âSister, letâs hurry up and go to the square.â
âHuh? Do you have something you want to buy?â
When Leticia looked at her curiously, Elle just pulled on her wrist to try and urge her along.? Elleâs actions seemed indecipherable.
âWe need to see other peopleâs reactions.â
âToday?â
âOf course.â
âWait⦠wait a minuteâ¦!â
Elle took Leticia out, saying that there was no time to hesitate.
Enoch was staring silently as their figures disappeared in the distance. Once more he looked down at the note he had chosen.
[Express your feelings honestly to other people.]
It sounded like it was saying âConfess quickly!â and a laugh slipped out.
***
âItâs going to be great.â
When they arrived at the square to present the cookies, Leticia began to tremble. Elle immediately recognized that Leticia was nervous and began to rub her back to comfort her.
âIs this how you felt, Elle?â
âHmm?â
âWhen we came to show off your wishing bracelet.â
âI was nervous, butâ¦â
It was the moment when she finally took a step towards her dream.
It was hard at first because her dream was a secret. When she told Enoch about her dream, he cheered her on. She was happy and it felt like she was given permission to dream big.
It was then.
âOh, is that you Leticia?â
âCountess Aster?â
A bright smile spread over Leticiaâs face as she recognized the Countess. When Countess Asterâs gaze drifted to Elle, Leticia introduced them.
âThis is Elle of the Achilles family, who Iâm indebted to. Elle, this is Countess Aster, who cared for me as a child.â
She looked at the two of them with hope that they would get along. The two were looking at each other as if they were observing the other and trying to decide if they were worthy of being around Leticia.
Countess Aster, who had been staring at Elle for a while, slowly turned her head and asked Leticia.
âWhat are you doing here?â
âI was selling cookies.â
Leticia smiled broadly and showed her the cookies sheâd baked. As the Countess looked at her proud look on her face, she suddenly remembered the cookies that Leticia brought her a long time ago.
Every time she came to visit the Countess, she brought something with her. One day, she brought small cookies, another time she brought little flowers, and she always brought a smile.
Countess Aster smiled excitedly and looked down at Leticiaâs cookies.
âItâs a unique shape.â
âYes, when you break it in half, you get a note.â
âReally?â
With a curious look, the Countess asked Leticia.
âCan I buy one?â
âSure, pick one.â
Leticia nodded and the countess picked up one of the thickest of the cookies. Perhaps because it was empty inside, it broke easily with just a little bit of effort.
The moment she checked the note.
ââ¦.â
âWhat does it say?â
She was curious why the Countessâ expression had darkened when she only wrote positive words.
Countess Aster, on the other hand, read the note over and over again without saying a word.
[Itâs been a hard few days, but donât blame yourself. Youâve done well.]
She remembered the sad and heartbreaking memory of losing her child. Her child was a gift from God, but she worried that sheâd lost him because she was an inadequate mother.
She was doing better now, but doubts still lingered in a corner of her mind, and sometimes she suffered alone.
Looking at this little note, she thought it was time to forgive herself.
âCan I buy several of these?â
âWhat?â
âI want to give some out at a party.ân/ô/vel/b//in dot c//om
She couldnât just leave, she wanted to convey this lovely childâs warmth to other people.
âNo, you can just take them.â
âLeticia.â
Countess Aster spoke to Leticia with a determined look.
âIf you give something, you get something.â
âButâ¦.â
âIf you have time later, come visit me like you used to.â
Countess Aster proudly paid and received Leticiaâs cookies, then looked at Elle slowly.
âYour name is Miss Elle Achilles, right?â
âYes, thatâs right.â
There was no looking away from the straight stare, but it didnât feel bad because the Countessâ eyes were full of worry for Leticia.
âPlease take care of Leticia from now on.â
She hadnât expected those words, Elleâs eyes opened wide and nodded with a smile.
âOf course.â
Leticia once again thanked Countess Aster as she was leaving. Leticia turned towards Elle as the Countess disappeared into the distance.
âIt was only one person, but it didnât go as badly as I thought.â
âI told you so, itâs going to be great.â
Countess Aster bought all of the cookies, so Leticia and Elle quickly returned to the mansion.
The next day, a letter arrived for Leticia.
The letter said that a student named Ronan Hillary, whom Leticia had sponsored, had cheated.
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