Chapter 108
I Won't Go Back to My Family Who Abandoned Me
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âThe Countess is pregnant?â
âThatâs right.â
With a happy smile, Leticia reported the good news about the Aster couple to Keena, whoâd shown up for a visit after a long time.
âTheyâve never said anything, but theyâve always wanted to be parents.â
When children happened to pass by, the Countess couldnât take her eyes off them, but she deliberately pretended not to notice them.
âIâm sure theyâll be good parents.â
Leticia said happily as she sipped her tea. Keena was watching Leticia, and numbly rested her chin on her hand.
âItâs a good thing Iâm not the only one who forgets what sheâs capable of.â
It seemed that Leticia had influenced things, but didnât seem to have noticed.
âIs it for the best?â
Maybe because she didnât recognize it, people around her just thought that good things happened from just being around Leticia, instead of her being capable of influencing things.
Then someone snuggled Leticia from behind.
âHey!â
âOh, my!â
Elle smiled brightly at Leticia, who turned around in surprise, then she frowned as soon as she saw Keena.
âYouâre back?â
Even though Elle didnât like her, Keena didnât feel uncomfortable, and just shrugged her shoulders slowly.
âI know youâre saying things you donât mean.â
âIâm serious.â
âYou and Ian look alike. Is it because youâre twins?â
âWhy are you bringing up Ian here?â
Elle stared as if she didnât understand, but Keenaâs gaze turned towards Leticia.
As soon as their eyes met, Keena asked.
âI know itâs a rude question, but can I ask?â
She seemed to be cautious about asking, and seemed to be a little nervous, but she was more curious.
âWhat is it?â
âDonât you want kids?â
âHuh?â
Leticiaâs mouth shut automatically at Keenaâs unexpected words. Elle was listening next to them, and began to focus on the conversation curiously.
When both their eyes were focused on her, Leticia felt embarrassed, but tried to speak calmly.
âItâs not that I donât want toâ¦â
âI want you to have a daughter, who looks like you. No, a son would be nice too.â
âReally?â
âOh! But I hope they donât look like my brother.â
Elle crossed her arms, and frowned as if she was unhappy.
Sheâd been in a constant state of frustration lately because Enoch had been constantly stealing Leticia away from her, annoying her on purpose, and just acting like a jerk.
Keena, who was not aware of the situation, looked at Elle strangely.
âWhatâs wrong with looking like Duke Achilles?â
âHeâs ugly.â
âReally? He looked like you.â
âWhat did you say?â
Before Leticia knew it, Keena and Elle began to bicker. Elle yelled unilaterally, but Keena took it in stride.
Seeing the two of them looking so friendly, Leticia couldnât help but laugh. At that moment, Keenaâs gaze returned to Leticia.
âHmmâ¦â
As soon as she saw Keena smiling suspiciously at her, Leticia somehow felt uneasy. She thought she was imagining it, but Keena softly muttered.
âYouâre going to have a babyâ¦â
As soon as she heard that, Leticia blushed.
âYou just said something weird, didnât you?â
âAre you sure about that?â
âYou just said something weird!â
âSo, youâre not going to?â
âNo, Iâm not!â
Leticia raised her voice as Keena was deliberately being provocative with her words.
âIâll just give you another gift!â
âWhat present? You call that a present?â
Elle, who was quietly listening to their conversation, alternated between Leticia and Keena.
âOh, is that what youâre going to say?â
Keena laughed and slowly leaned towards Elle, while she looked at Leticia. Leticia felt like screaming because Keena was already whispering in Elleâs ears before she could stop her.
Elle, who didnât know how to feel, blushed but looked at Leticia unexpectedly. Leticia couldnât stand the gaze and shouted.
âI didnât use the candle!â
She couldnât return the candle, so she hid it somewhere no one could see, but Enoch still found it. Enoch was surprised when he tried to light it, thinking that it was a normal candle.
Just thinking about that time, she already felt lightheaded.
However, Elle bowed her head a little bit.
âCandle? What does that mean?â
âI wasnât talking about the candleâ¦?â
âWere you talking about the wedding gift?â
At that, Leticia slumped down on the tea table with a desperate look. In front of her, Keena couldnât hold it in anymore, and burst into laughed.
In the meantime, Elle asked with a curious expression.
âBut did you wear it?â
âYes, I was wondering the same thing. Did you really wear it?â
ââ¦.â
With gazes that demanded an answer, Leticia just stared at the two silently.
Only then did Keena and Elle catch each otherâs eyes. When Elle made eye contact with Keena, she said.
âIs there a place that sells clothes like that?â
âI bought it for her from a store. Why? Did you want to buy one?â
âWhat? No, thatâ¦â
Elle, who avoided her gaze, mumbled and replied.
âI thought my friend might be interested in itâ¦â
âYou donât have friends.â
âI have one!â
Before she knew it, Keena and Elle were bickering again. Leticia, who was embarrassed at first, was used to it by now, and just laughed.
She just wondered when theyâd gotten so close.
***
They were sitting at the dining room table that day. It had been a long time since she and Enoch had shared a meal together, and Leticia took a bite of her stew with a bright look.
Somehow, the taste of the stew was strange today.
âWhy does it seem so fishy?â
It was so disgusting that she felt nauseous and only ended up eating a bit of the salad.
âDonât you like the food?â
âWhat?â
Surprised by Enochâs words, she opened her eyes wide in surprise. Leticia filled her mouth with salad because she didnât want him to worry.
âNo, itâs good.â
Enoch only began to eat comfortably again when she smiled as if it was really delicious.
After she saw that, Leticia quietly brought up something she wanted to ask.
âI wanted to prepare a baby shower gift in advance, but Iâm not sure what to get.â
âDo you have something in mind?â
âI was thinking about a gift that was meant to help the baby grow up healthy!â
âHmmâ¦â
In fact, the gift that Leticia suggested was the most common. However, Enoch had another idea.
âWhat about a present for Countess Aster?â
âWhat?â
âWhen you give birth, it can be really hard, so what about an item thatâs meant to help Countess Asterâs health.â
âAh! Youâre right! I like that idea.â
She planned to visit the doctorâs office tomorrow, and she would ask for advice on what foods and medications would be good for her mother.
As she was thanking Enoch, Leticia suddenly realized.
âCome to think of itâ¦â
Sheâd never talked to Enoch about children, whether he wanted a son or daughter, or even how many children he wanted.
âAm I the only one who wants one?â
She wanted to have a child, and thought that it was time to have one.
Leticia glanced at Enoch, who gave her a quizzical look as he said one of the dishes was good and suggested she try it as well.
âIs there something you want to say?â
âWhat?â
âYou keep looking at me.â
âAhâ¦â
Leticia sighed, then quickly shook her head.
âItâs nothing.â
Enoch looked at her with concern, but Leticia said nothing until the end.
***
No matter what, there was only one person she could ask about this.
âI thought something bad had happened.â
Upon hearing Leticiaâs worries, Keena leaned back in her chair with a bored look and a click of her tongue.
âYou tend to overthink such trivial things.â
âItâs important to me.â
Leticia frowned at her dismissive attitude. Seeing her like that, Keena spoke like it wasnât a big deal.
âIf youâre that worried about it, then wear that gift I gave you again.â
âHey, thatâsâ¦â
âOr use that candle. You said you havenât used it yet.â
ââ¦.â
As she kept teasing her, Leticia just quietly glared at her, but Keena didnât care. It had been a long time since her eyes had sparkled playfully.
âIf you donât like it, I can get you something elseâ¦â
âYouâre dead!â
Leticia couldnât take it anymore, jumped up, and rushed at Keena. Before she could reach her, Keena got up and avoided her.
âDonât you know my ability? You canât beat me in terms of physical strength.â
âShut up! If I catch you, youâre dead!â
After being teased mercilessly by Keena, Leticia turned away from her. But then she saw that Enoch had returned early, and she paled.
Unfortunately, Leticia wasnât the only person who spotted Enoch.
âWaitâ¦!â
âWelcome home. Youâre just in time, Leticia saidâ¦â
âNo!â
Keena went to Enoch right away, and tried to confess everything, but Leticia covered her mouth. Enoch looked at the two, and asked curiously.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âOh, itâs nothing.â
âI donât think itâs nothing.â
âItâs true. Hahaâ¦â
Leticia smiled awkwardly and poked Keenaâs side, hinting that she should hurry up and leave. Keena immediately recognized what she meant, bid farewell to Enoch and Leticia as if she couldnât win and left.
âShall we go in now? Itâs almost dinner time, so letâs go.â
Enoch wanted to say something, but Leticia was urging him inside with a tug on his arm. There were many questions he wanted to ask Leticia, who was acting strange today, but Enoch had no choice but to let Leticia take him to the dining room.
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That dayâs meal was also held alone with Enoch. It felt awkward today, so Leticia kept looking at Enochâs face.
Enoch had noticed her glances, but he spoke up first.
âIs it that hard to tell me whatâs wrong?â
Leticia touched her fingertips together at his disappointed tone.
âWell, I meanâ¦â
As expected, no matter how much she thought about it, it was best for her to be honest.
âHow about Enoch?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âIâm talking about children.â
Enoch seemed to hesitate for a moment, as if her words were unexpected. However, the bewildered look soon disappeared.
âIf you donât want children, then Iâm fineâ¦â
âNo!â
Leticia raised her voice in exasperation.
âWhatâs this guy saying now!â
It was so absurd that she quickly began to resolve Enochâs misunderstanding.
âIf I didnât want to, we wouldnât have spent the night together. Andâ¦â
Leticia stopped speaking for a while, then nodded with a slightly depressed expression.
âI asked because I thought Enoch didnât want any.â
âNot at all.â
âThen why didnât you say anything?â
âWellâ¦â
Enoch thought for a while about what to say, then he slowly confessed what was on his mind.
âI didnât want to burden you.â
Leticia understood what Enoch meant because theyâd been thinking the same thing.
They worried that the other one didnât want to have children.
âI feel like a fool.â
Leticia was relieved that sheâd resolved the misunderstanding with Enoch, and that it wasnât as burdensome as sheâd thought. Only then did Enochâs face become more relaxed.
But it didnât last long.
âUghâ¦!â
As soon as Leticia took a bite of her well-done steak, she couldnât stand the taste and spit it out.