Chapter 120

Chloe's POV

I knelt on the ground, blankly staring at the grave feeling light headed. I still could not believe that

my baby was gone and could never see the light of the world.

Carrie was beside me, with her heartbreaking cries she carefully decorated the surroundings of the

grave with flowers.

Placing the last flower on my hand, I touched the ground and took a handful of earth on my baby's

grave.

Tears started to fall once more as I remembered that I would be leaving this place once more. In my

heart, I would never ever go back to this place again.

“Watch me from above, my lovely child..." I whispered silently in my heart as I pulled my body up

and stood.

“Hic...” But as I took a step forward, my body and my mind began to crumble once more in

devastation.

“What could be my reason to live?’

“My baby is gone..."

'l cannot be with Blake as well..."

“Where to?"

“Chloe, are you alright?” Carrie speedily stood and caught up to me, immediately preventing me

from falling.

“I-im fine Carrie...” I forced a smile and shook my head. “Carrie... you heard everything earlier... I

must go..."

Carrie's hands froze and her face showed helplessness.

I could see the struggle in her eyes as she tried to find the words to say. One was her beloved

brother, the other was her friend.

“I-i know Chloe... but... you've just had a miscarriage... this would be too harmful for you... besides

you also had a lot of injuries from the attack...” Carrie tried her best to persuade me but to no avail.

"It's fine Carrie... besides, I cannot stay a second longer in this place...” I answered in a soft tone as I

looked up at the sky that is now fully blue. “As long as I am here, the enemies will not stop targeting

the Silver pack...”

“Moreover, Blake will continue to consider me in his decisions and will eventually bring the entire

pack down...”

“Carrie... I'm sorry... but I hope you understand where I am coming from...” I held her hand and

looked at her sincerely.

“I know but... you two... Sigh...” Carrie tried to search for words to say but in the end, she sighed and

continued, “Why must things reach to this point... maybe... just maybe... if the little one is saved,

maybe..."

Carrie started to mumble as she looked down, her eyes started to water in tears once more.

I held the side of her face and wiped away her tears, “It does not work like that Carrie... In fact, even

if the ambush did not happen, I would have come up with the same conclusion. I will still choose to

separate with Blake so that he would have to regain himself.”

"What kind of mate am I if I allow my other half to destroy himself for me?” I let out a self-

deprecating smile as I mumbled these words.

“Look after your brother for me, okay? Also, please tell teacher Astor, I'm sorry... I disappointed him,

in the end. I was not able to become a Luna the pack could rely on... Instead... I became the cause of

all this mess. *

In the end, I hugged Carrie once more and started to go on my way.

In the gentle morning light, while the other pack members were yet to go around the pack, I

headed to the forest without even taking anything with me.

As I reached the entrance of the pack, I saw Arthur's lethargic and troubled figure seemingly waiting

for me to go.

“Chloe...” He called out, but just like Carrie, he too looked as conflicted as her.

"Have you really made up your mind?” He asked worriedly.

“There is no other way... I am sure that deep down you also saw how far Blake has fallen just

because of me..." I answered straightforwardly.

“That's not true...” Arthur refuted but he could not find the right words to back up his claim, and so I

shook my head and gestured that I would continue to headout.

“I'll accompany you out... I cannot leave you with that condition!” Arthur blocked my way and was

determined to join me in my exile.

“No need, besides Carrie, and the pack needs you... my departure will be futile if you would also

disappear. The pack needs everyone but me this time..." I answered.

“Besides, I plan to head back to the Red moon pack anyway. In the end that's the only place I can

call home next to the Silver pack...” Before he could think of another way to refute, I convinced

Arthur by mentioning the Red Moon pack.

In the end, he could only follow my wish and I finally headed towards the forest outside the pack's

territory.

“Before you go... take this...” He handed a bag to me and started to explain that these are some

basic necessities for me to go on my way.

He also took some of the recovery tonic and medicine for my condition and my words that I could

take along the way.

Threading through the forest was quite peaceful, because according to Arthur, while I was

unconscious, he and the other betas swept the territory clean of the lurking enemies.

He gave me the safest route out so that I could also safely get out of the territory without bumping

into the roaming enemies once more.

Once I was sure I was really out of the territory and that Arthur did not attempt to follow me, I

decided that the direction I would be heading into was the opposite direction of the Red Moon

pack.

In reality, I have no plans nor any place in mind to go to. Besides, if I chose to go to the Red Moon

Pack, Blake might even come there after sometime and cause a scene to coax me from coming

back.

After some time, I felt my body screaming for rest.

Deciding to finally take a stop, I drew my attention to the bag given by Arthur earlier and I realized

that it contained the medicine and tonics that were all surprisingly appropriate for my condition.

However, there is one bottle kept securely separate from all the tonics.

When I inspected it, I found that it was a fast acting poison and along with it was the antidote. There

is a note inside which had a few words from a familiar handwriting, from Teacher Astor.

“Use it when in danger... I hope that you find your way back here... your real and fated home..."

“My real and fated home?’ I let out a heavy sigh and smiled dejectedly. At this moment, I cannot see

any possibility of me going back to the Silver Pack.

There is no reason for me to come back. They were all gone.

After having a good rest, I also started searching through the forest of herbs I needed to increase

my means of self-defense as I got an inspiration for the parting gift given by Teacher Astor.

After all, I am just a wolfless woman, who suffered a miscarriage, a few minor injuries and had gone

without anything but the things handed over by Arthur.

I wandered through the forest and took advantage of the day light to forage for the things I

needed.

“This might be enough...” Picking the last herb needed to create the type of poison I had in mind.

I looked at the orange sky and realized that it would be dark soon. With a frown on my face, I

moved quickly to the place where I spotted earlier that is safe for me to spend the night with.

There's a nearby water source in the area as well so I thought it was fine.

In no time, I was able to arrive in that area and heaved a sigh of relief.

The area had a small stream flowing with clear water, and had several trees with lush canopies and

thick trunk, all of which were perfect for me to climb and hide to sleep.

Choosing the tree that is easiest to climb, I decided to start preparing for the night. Arthur's bag

contained some dry rations and because it would be dark in no time, I could no longer hunt for

dinner.

But before I could even start moving, I felt a sudden presence approaching me fast.

Moving quickly, I took the dagger from the bag and shouted in warning, “Who's there?!”