Chapter 21: The Mistake

Krissy's Point of View

The Christmas music was playing in the background as Blake's and I's date went on. We had kissed and talked all day. I couldn't be happier. I just wished he knew the truth.

I got up from our booth, taking our empty cups up to the register. I smiled as I walked away. I was happy. I was hanging out with the guy I liked. The guy I was crazy about. My life was now falling it to place and nothing could mess it up. Nothing at all.

"Hi, gorgeous. How can I help you?" One of the workers asked. He had light brown hair, almost red with emerald green eyes. His button nose made him adorable but the cocky attitude quickly covered that up. I gave the worker a tight lipped smile. I wasn't in the mood for his flirting. I only needed it from one guy and he was here with me.

"Can I please get more hot chocolate?" I asked. He nodded, taking my empty cups. I turned around and saw Blake looking at me. My heart skipped a beat. The way his eyes were staring into mine made me want to melt to putty. My knees wanted to go weak and my heart swelled up with joy.

"Are you with that guy?" The worked asked. He was eyeing Blake with a look of disgust. I nodded, not wanting to look away from Blake. My heart began to beat faster as his blue eyes stayed connected to mine. "He won't last."

"What?" I asked the worker. I broke the eye staring and glared at the worker. He glanced behind me and then shook his head in disappointment. He had no right to tell me that. He doesn't even know him. He doesn't know what we've been through.

"That guy doesn't have real feelings for you. He's only using you to get what he wants and that's usually sex." He said placing two hot chocolates on the counter. I felt my anger radiate onto him as I glared daggers into his soul.

"You're wrong." I said reaching for the hot delicious liquid. I was careful of not spilling it as I walked away from that jerk.

Who does he think he is to tell me that Blake doesn't really like me. He doesn't know what we've been through or how Blake acts to know that he does have feelings for me. He has to have feelings for me. He has to.

But what if he was right? What if Blake is only using me? That can't be true. Blake wouldn't do that, at least now he wouldn't. He's sweet, caring, and understanding. He wouldn't use me.

"Krissy? What is this?" Blake asked once I placed the cups down on the table. I was confused at his change of tone. I looked up, suddenly feeling scared and afraid.

His face was now turning red as he clutched my phone in his hand. I widened my eyes. What is he talking about? He didn't-he couldn't have. This cannot be happening.

"Blake, calm down. Tell me what is going on." I said slowly sitting down across from him. I could feel his rage radiating onto me. I was beginning to feel nervous. He knew and I couldn't do anything about it. This definitely could not have happened at a worse time.

"Explain to me Krissy why I texted Kate and your phone lit up with the same exact text message." Blake said through gritted teeth. I gulped. I guess it was now or never. I just wished it was never.

"I can explain. I-um well you see-the thing is that." I stuttered, trying to find the words to explain to him that i'm Kate and why I was Kate. "A couple of months ago, Morgan convinced me to go to a party with her. I got black out drunk and couldn't remember anything."

I watched as Blake's face stayed bunched up in anger. His ears were still a bright red as he waited for me to continue my story. I only knew his face was going to get angrier as I told him what was next.

"I saw that I had a text message from a random number. So Morgan and I decided to text it since it seemed like whoever it belonged to seemed to really like me. It was the first time a guy ever liked me and it wasn't for me Krissy, it was for my crazy, wild party girl side which I decided to name Kate."

He face was only reddening more and more as I continued my sorry. His hands were balled in fists and his knuckles were turning white. I was scared for what I was going to say next. He wasn't going to like it.

"I didn't think it was wrong to act as Kate as I started to get to know you better. I mean you didn't even know I, Krissy, existed until you got forced into my Spanish class. We started going on dates as Kate and then we started somewhat hanging out as Krissy. Things were beginning to get complicated but I didn't know how to stop them." I told him most of the story. I felt my heart pounding in my chest. I needed to tell him about my feelings in order to explain the rest of the story. I just hoped he took it the right way. He needed to.

-

Blake's Point of View

I watched as Krissy sat across from me. Panic was shown across her face as she explained to me how we got into this mess. All their similarities were beginning to make more sense. I always thought they were just long lost twins or even doppelgängers. It turns out that they were the same person. I was falling for two people when really it was only one.

"So things got even more complicated when you overheard me tell Sophie that I had feelings for you. I already had a crush on you as Krissy and you saving me from that horrendous party only intensified those feelings even more. I guess being with you as Kate made me like you even more as Krissy. I know this probably doesn't make any sense to you right now, but Blake, i'm sorry, I know how wrong it was for me to play Kate and be Krissy. I should have told you in the beginning. I just didn't know how. I didn't want to lose what we had." She told me. I felt my anger start to rise a little more. I ignored her tears as they fell. I fought the urge to wipe them away. I wasn't going to console her until I knew the whole truth. She played me and for the first time in a long time, I didn't want to play the game.

"How come you didn't tell me? What do you think I would have done if you told me you were Kate and Krissy? Did you think I was just going to leave? Did you think I was going to hate you?" I blurted out. The sudden outburst caught both of us off guard.

I honestly didn't know what I would have done if she told me she was both people. I probably would have broken up with them both and forgot they even existed, but now I can't just forget. I had true feelings for her but I don't know if she's worth all this.

She had lied to me for months. She never seemed conflicted on whether to tell me or keep it a secret. She never stopped and wondered how I would feel about this. I told her my feelings for Kate as Krissy and she acted like the information didn't affect her. I didn't know if I could trust her anymore. Was she worth it all?

"I'm sorry Blake." Krissy said as more tears streamed down her face. My heart wanted to break into a million different pieces as I watched her across from me, but I wouldn't allow it. I couldn't. I needed time to think, time to process. Was Krissy actually worth all this trouble? I didn't know.

"I'm sorry too Kris. I gotta go. I'll see you later." I said getting up from the table. I grabbed my coat and walked out of the diner. I didn't even care if it was Christmas Eve. I needed time to think. Was this girl truly important to me? I needed to process everything. I needed to get drunk and forget.

-

"Damn bro." Asher said. I just got done telling him about Krissy and Kate. After I walked out of that cafe, I came straight home. No one would be home since it was Christmas Eve. My mom and annoying ass step-brother would be at some dinner party since my step-father was out of town. My father had his own business to deal with and Sophie was somewhere not home.

So I was determined to get black out drunk and forget about her. I wanted to know if I had the balls to sleep with another girl to prove how truly important Krissy has become to me, but that came to an end when my annoying step-brother wanted to join the party. He said that mom was out finishing getting ready for whatever dinner and said he could wait at home until his brother got here. I just think my mom wants us to get along.

So I called Asher so I could get away from that creep. Thank god he wasn't with my sister, and now we're hanging in the abandoned park. Everyone was inside enjoying their Christmas Eve while I was hear sulking about some girl. That's something that has never happened before.

"I just don't know how I didn't see it. I just assumed they were pure coincidences." I said imagining the brunette. I shook my head and searched my jacket pocket for a cigarette. If I couldn't drink, i'd at least smoke. That usually calms my nerves down.

"It was very obvious man." Asher said with a laugh. I blew out a puff a smoke before turning to look at my best friend. Why did he say that? He couldn't have known.

"You knew didn't you." I said feeling my anger begin to boil. "Did Sophie know too?!"

"Blake, come on man. Calm down." Ash said getting up from the bench we were on. I wanted to listen to him but all I could think of was that everyone knew and didn't tell me. Were they all a part of the game too? "I can explain."

"Then spill it right now!" I shouted. I was tired of this all. I knew this girl would mess up my life since day one. Something about her called my name. Trouble was it.

"Blake, I only found out when I walked in on her and Sophie. They made me promise not to tell you. And I agreed because-"

"How could you not tell your own best friend? I'm supposed to trust you!" I said in rage. This is something big that I had to know. Would he have liked it if Sophie kept a secret and I was a part of it?

"I wanted you to find out how great of a person Krissy was and if she had to dress like Kate for you to see it, then I was all in." Asher said walking over to me. My hands were in fists and I was steaming.

They didn't have a right to decide that for me. I mean yeah if I would have known since the beginning that Krissy was Kate, I would have backed out but it's different now. I'm a new person, one that doesn't use girls. Well not since I met Kate. Would I have still been the old Blake if they told me?

"Blake, I have known you for all my life and not once have you ever had a steady girlfriend. They were all just hook ups and meaningless dates. I saw something different in you when it came to Kate. I, well all of us, hoped that you would fall for her and change." Asher continued to explain himself to me. I wanted to deny it all but I couldn't. He was right. I changed.

"Who is we?" I asked. I felt my anger start to disperse. He was right. They all were. All my life I focused on using girls for pleasure. My distrust and hatred for my mom made me never trust girls. I was never able to talk about my feelings before I met Krissy.

Yeah, Kate started out as a girl I was attracted to and wanted to sleep with. But after I got to know her, I realized that I didn't want to do that to her. That all soon changed when I got to know Krissy.

I stopped talking to and about Kate and started to talk to Krissy. I was going crazy not talking to her when I found out she liked me, and now I possibly liked her more than a friend. Heck, I even snuck her out today so I could kiss her more. "Oh my god Asher."

"What?" Asher's eyes widened. He looked around for danger. He was alarmed. I was too.

"I think i'm-" I couldn't say it. It can't be true. I have never been. Could it really be that?

"Blake, spit it out! What is going on?" Asher asked. I looked around the empty park. Snow was beginning to fall, creating the perfect love scene. That only made it more obvious about my ever growing feelings for Krissy.

"Ash, I think I may be falling in love with Krissy." I whispered.

-

Krissy's Point of View

I attempted to climb back into my window. That was a big fail, especially when my whole family was hanging out in my bedroom. At least my parents were here too.

"Kristina! Where have you been?" My mom asked as I stepped foot on solid ground. I sighed. I didn't want to have to deal with them.

"I'm sorry I snuck out. I promise it'll never happen again. May I be alone please?" I asked. I took off my coat and set it in the walk-in closet. I saw my reflection in the mirror. My eyes were bloodshot and tears stained my pale face. I look horrendous.

"Krissy, is everything alright?" I heard my mother's voice. She soon came up behind me, gasping as she took in my appearance. I didn't even try to deny it.

"Can I just be alone mom?" I asked again. I took off my shoes and any accessories I didn't need. I just wanted to lay in bed and forget. Maybe have some chocolate ice cream too?

"Hunny, what happened today? Your grandmother mentioned last night's ordeal. Does this have anything to do with that?" She asked. I turned around and lost it. I let out my tears as she hugged me to her chest. For the first time in a while, I cried. I actually let out all my feelings and let my tears fall.

"How could I have been so stupid mom?" I said through my sobs. Why did I ever agree to this?! I knew this was a bad idea since day one. Why did I think that he would just fall for me, the nerd?!

"Kris, what happened?" She asked again. I sniffled a little and wiped my eyes.

"I was stupid mom. I thought pretending to be someone else was going to get me the boy." I said to her very vaguely. I didn't want to tell her it was Blake. Her and my dad had taken a liking to him. I didn't want to burst their little bubble.

"Come here. I promise you that it may seem like it's the end of the world right now, but things will get better. Much better opportunities and boys will come your way. Soon, you won't even remember why you were crying over Blake." She said while rubbing my back.

"How did you know it was about Blake?" I asked. She chuckled.

"I over heard Morgan telling you it was okay to pretend to be this Kate girl and then saw you leave all dressed up. I just didn't think that Blake was falling for the two of you." She chuckled. I let out a small smile before hearing her last sentence.

"Blake didn't fall for any of us. He didn't truly like me mom." I said to her. She rubbed my back more before pulling me out of the closet. The rest of my family was now long gone and it was just the two of us.

"Baby, I promise you he did. It'll just take some time for it to get through his skull. He'll be back. If you truly like him and he truly likes you, he'll be back. It may take some time but he will. Now, clean up. We have Christmas dinner to attend. Your grandma will go even bonkers if you don't come down. She's already telling me I better pay for that stain of yours." She joked. I rolled my eyes but nodded. "Be down in thirty."

I watched as my mom walked out of my room. I took a deep breath and walked into my bathroom. I turned the faucet on and washed my face, hoping to get rid of the blotchy patches on my face. I then began to do my makeup, making sure to eliminate any traces of me crying.

I let my hair stay in its straight condition. I'll just smooth it out. I then changed into a short black dress with long sleeves and lace detailing. I added red heels with a tie around the ankle for support. I didn't know what else to do.

I just wanted to get this dinner over with. I wanted to be home so I could binge watch Netflix with a large bowl of mint chocolate chip icrcream and forget this day even happened. I wish this day never happened.

I fluffed my hair and walked out of my room. I heard loudness from downstairs. I wondered who else was here. I walked down the grand staircase and saw that we did indeed have more guests. I just wished it weren't them. Anyone but them would be good. How I was going to survive this dinner was beyond me. Could this day get any worse?

"Hello Krissy." The older blond woman said to me. I gulped.

"Hello Mrs. Tyler. Adam." I said curtly. I felt my heart start to hammer inside my chest.

"Hello gorgeous." Adam said with a flirtatious smile. I gave him a tight lipped smile. I searched around him, hoping that Blake or even Sophie were here too. "May I sit next to Krissy?"

"Of course." My grandmother said. She smiled and gestured for us to join her in the dining room. I sighed when I noticed it was just the two of them. We all followed my grandmother. I felt Adam's eyes roam my body, making me feel undeniably gross. If I thought today couldn't get any worse. It just did. What has my life come to?!