sixteen.

assigned seats allowed me to sit next to you for two marking periods.

the first time, i was shaking, and im pretty sure my face was red.

i was so awkward, thinking back on it makes me want to dive off a bridge

nothing too great happened, i hated that class, and the teacher.

until we had to do an elementary school activity, which involved us holding hands, in a circle, while someone in the middle would try to break our 'chains' in order to escape.

since you were in my group, i would have to hold hands with you

as a child, and even now, ive never had sweaty hands

but i still tugged my sleeves so i wouldn't have to feel the sweaty hands of someone else.

do you have sweaty hands?

i shouldnt have pulled my sleeves, because maybe then, i would have felt the warmth of your hands, or the sweat lol

people have always told me that i have warm hands,

would you have commented on the warmth of my hand?

even though my hands didn't directly touch yours, is it possible that you have sweaty hands?

would they have been sweaty against my warm ones?

hey, why did you hold my hand so tight?

it felt as though you would break my fingers any moment.

if i complained, would you have held my hand more gently?

were you nervous?

why? why did you hold my hand so tight?

if i actually let you touch my hand, without my sleeve covering it, would you still have held it tight?

do you even remember that day?