6. The Internet

Chase.

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I open the door to Sky and Aron's apartment as quietly as I can.

It's the early morning and I didn't tell them I'd be here. I really need to talk to them. I've been chatting with this guy for a few days now and I don't know how to feel about it. He's really nice and he actually listens to me, which is refreshing and.. I don't know. He's talking about meeting up and stuff and I don't know if I should. I know they tell you in school not to meet people off the internet but like, isn't that how everyone meets these days? How could the teachers at school know anything about that? They're, like, ancient.

As I quietly walk into the apartment I hear some strange sounds from the hallway. I follow my ears and it doesn't take me long to realize it's moaning I'm hearing.

I can't help but follow the sound even though I know this is where I should turn around and leave.

I reach the bedroom and I'm just stuck staring at them.

The door's open a bit. Sky's back is turned to me and Aron's laying down so neither of them can see me.

Sky is on top of Aron grinding on him. Though it seems that he's still the receiver or whatever.

Sky's eyes are closed and he's moaning and running his fingers over Aron's chest.

Aron's holding onto Sky's waist and groaning too.

I feel my blood rush through my body as I watch them. They're so in sync.

It doesn't hurt watching them like it did before. It's interesting and.. arousing even.

I imagine myself in Aron's position.

This is so wrong, I should go. But I can't. I'm nailed to the floor.

I try to keep my breaths even and quiet so they don't find out I'm here.

Sky stops rocking and they both moan loudly.

Then Aron sits up.

I take a step back.

They begin to make out.

"Do you really have to go?" Sky says against Aron's lips.

He's so clingy with Aron. It's weird seeing him this way.

"Duty calls. I'm already late thanks to you." Aron gives Sky a stern look.

Sky smiles. "Sorry."

"I'll be back before you know it."

"'Kay." Sky gets off Aron.

This is my cue.

I rush out of the hallway, to the front door.

I open and close the door loudly so they think I've only come in now.

I sit down at the kitchen bar and try to calm down.

A few minutes later Sky comes in.

His hair's all messy and he's wearing  sweatpants, white socks and a zip up hoodie that is half open, exposing his perfect chest. His cheeks are still flushed and his eyes look kinda hazy.

"Hey, Chase." He smiles.

"H-hey."

"Have you had breakfast yet?"

I shake my head. I actually have... but I'm still hungry.

Sky grabs a pan and some eggs.

I can't help but stare at him, HOW IS HE ACTING SO CASUAL?! The one time I had sex I felt like everyone could see it or smell it somehow. Sky doesn't seem to care. That's one thing Sky and Aron have in common. They both have this sort of cool 'I don't care' attitude. I wish I could be that way. My anxiety just turns me into a wreck all the time.

Sky cracks four eggs into a pan and starts to scramble them. He's actually humming as he does this. I wonder if I would've been able to tell he'd just had sex with Aron if I hadn't come in. It seems so obvious to me now.

"How did you sleep?" Sky asks.

"Fine." I answer sort of sheepishly.

He gives me a look.

Then Aron comes in. Looking all fresh and dashing as ever. I totally wouldn't be able to tell from looking at him now. He's got on gray dress pants, shiny black shoes and a white dress shirt. Even I can see he looks amazing. I sigh. Anyone else would look like a trashcan next to him.

"Hey, Chase." He says casually as he makes his way to Sky who's eyeing him with delight.

Except Sky.

They share a passionate kiss.

"Good luck today." Sky says.

"Thank you." Aron gives him another peck.

He then pulls away and finally looks at me.

He ruffles my hair. I sigh.

"See you later."

With that he walks out of the apartment.

I lean on my hand.

Sky serves me scrambled eggs with bacon. He also puts a basket of scones on the table.

I dig in.

"Wow. Puberty is really getting to you, isn't it?" Sky chuckles.

"What do you mean?" I ask, my mouth full of scones.

"You eat like a truck driver." Sky says honestly.

"Sorry."

"No, it's kind of endearing, actually." Sky chuckles.

There we go again with the whole seeing me as toddler thing. We're literally two years apart but he makes it seem like a lifetime.

As I spear some eggs on my fork I get to thinking.

"Sky?"

"Yeah?"

"What does sex.. mean to you?" I ask.

I immediately regret asking that. So much for being on the DL!

Sky laughs a little. "Where did that come from?"

"Well," I make something up. "Everyone in my class is starting to have sex now. Just wanted to know your opinion."

"Uh.. well.. I think it's a great thing." He shrugs.

"Does it, like, have a special meaning or whatever?"

Sky smiles a little, more in thought then to me. His cheeks burn up. "It does now."

He looks back at me. "Before, sex was just sex. It was like eating: a necessity. Then I met Aron and suddenly sex was love, passion, fun... He really changed everything."

He looks so happy as he says this. So grateful.

It kind of stings a little. Since I was part of the 'before' category.

"And.. you were pretty experienced before Aron, right?"

Sky snorts. "You could say that." He looks sort of embarrassed.

"How did you like.. meet people?"

"Clubs, bars.. the internet." Sky shrugs.

"The internet? So you actually met people off the internet in real life?"

"Yeah. First we'd just chat a little and then a few texts later we'd meet up. Totally irresponsible of course.."

Sky seems to remember something and starts to laugh.

"What?"

"I had some good times with some of them." He smirks.

It seems like that's as far as he wants to go on that subject.

Suddenly we hear crying from the baby phone.

"Seems Rose is awake," Sky gets up.

"Don't you have school?" He asks.

"Uh, yeah." I get up.

We hug and I'm off.

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Stranger85: Hey Chase! How is ur day so far?

Chaser49: fine ig

Stranger85: fine? why not fantastic?!!

I chuckle.

"Chase!" Fawn flies into my arms and sits on my lap. "I missed you!" She smiles.

I unwillingly wrap my arms around her. "Missed you too." She kisses me with no restraint.

I pull away before thinking. She looks really confused.

"I.. just wanted to look at you first. You look great."

She smiles happily.

Soon a bunch of people join our table.

This is so wrong. I feel terrible.

Fawn sits down next to me and grabs my leg. I give her a smile and she looks at me like I'm her whole world.

Chaser49: long story.

Stranger85: I've got time.

I sigh.

Chaser49: Can u maybe call later>

Chaser49: ?*

Stranger85: Absolutely.