chapter 170

Thaddeus Pov

How fucking dare he threaten to take our daughter. I was fucking over him and the dramatics,

he needed to man up.

“Just go calm down” Ryland tells me when I wanted nothing more then to go in there and rip

him to fucking pieces.

“Go Thaddeus, go blow off some steam” Ryland says. I look over my shoulder and can see my

father and mother watching worriedly.

“Nothing to see mum go inside” I yell to her.

“Stop Thaddeus just go now you're just trying to pick a fight, your mother is only worried about

you, we all are, now just go” Ryland says, giving me a push. I look to the shed where my mates and

daughter are.

“Come with me” I tell him and he looks behind him. “Be like old times just the two of us” I tell

him and I could feel the longing within him, he missed being in control, he missed the fear people

had of us.

“I can't, we have a child now, we can't do those things anymore” He says.

“Fine, don't worry about it" I tell him, turning around and unlocking my car.

“Thaddeus..... Fine just give me a second, I will come but no killing anyone” He says rushing

back inside. I hop in the car and he takes a few minutes before coming out fully dressed hopping in

the passenger seat.

“So where are we going?” He asks.

"Home"

“Why?” he asked and I could feel he didn't want to go back there. When I first did I felt sick to

my stomach, but Ryland I built that place together, I couldn't just throw it away like it meant

nothing. It was home.

“You're fixing it aren't you?” I say nothing, I wasn't sure what I was doing, I had been cleaning

up what's left and salvaging what I could.

“She won't want to go back there Thaddeus, it won't bring him back”

“I know that, I just’- I wasn't sure what I wanted. I didn't have the answer for this. I just wanted

things back to the way they were, yet I knew they never truly would be.

“Of course” My father says walking back to the lounge with her, I wouldn't be surprised if he

held her all night, he didn't need sleep, not like my other father or my mother and for a so-called

big scary vampire Mara had him wrapped around her finger.

Ryland hands the baby bag over that Orion must have rushed in to make.

“Go be with your mates she is fine, we know what we are doing besides you will hear her

anyway” My mother says rubbing my back, I nod walking out. When we got back inside Orion was

laying on the bed staring at the ceiling.

“Don’t you zone out too” I tell him climbing on the bed beside him.

“I won't" He whispers and I pull him closer so he rests his head on my chest. “You came back”

He states.

“I'm sorry” I tell him, the words stinging as they slide off my tongue, I hate apologising no

matter how much I have had to, it still feels unnatural.

Orion props his chin on my chest looking at me. His hair falling in his eyes as he had let it grow

out over the last couple of months. I brush it back before cupping his cheek, his stubble rough

against my palm.

The darkness makes it hard for me to see past my anger. I knew they wanted me to give it up

and I know it was selfish keeping it. But having it back I felt more alive than ever, it numbed the pain

my anger overshadowing the loss.

"Can you wake her please, I know you can,” he says and I look over at her. My anger is

dissipating. By letting her remain like that I was hurting them not punishing her. Although I knew

she didn't deserve to be punished she was hurting more than any of us. She had him grow inside

her, felt his kicks. Her womb full with her heart and now it's gone, she awoke empty with nothing to

show for it, no baby in her arms crying for its mother. Just empty arms and empty inside

"Yes, I will bring her back” I tell him when he suddenly sits up leaning over me. His lips pressing

down on mine and I could feel his desperation, as his tongue plunged into my mouth. It matched

mine, wanting to feel anything other than sadness.

I kiss him back, needing him as much as he needs me. Longing fills me when I feel the bed dip

Ryland climbing on the bed next to me. I pull on Orion's pants before reaching my hand in and

grabbing his hardening length. He groans into my mouth, his cock twitching in my hand as I run my

hand up his shaft.

Pushing on his shoulder he lays back and I climb on top of him kissing him as he removes his

pants underneath me. I nip at his mark and he shivers as my teeth graze his skin. I sink my teeth into

him, drinking from him, before running my tongue over his neck sealing my bite before moving

lower nipping and kissing his skin and the hard muscles underneath it.

Moving between his legs I grab his cock, he thrusts into my hand and I watch my own dick

twitching painfully in my pants as I watch Ryland lean over him and kiss him as I take his length in

my mouth.

Evelyn POV

Time slips by when stuck in your own head. Time is measured differently here. An hour feels like

mere seconds, I wasn't sure how long I was stuck nor did I try to leave time escaping me. I was left

to my own thoughts and feelings no longer consumed with theirs.

The mind is the most torturous place as it makes you go over every little detail, everything and

leaving nothing out. My thoughts haunting me in repeat as I relived that day over and over looking

for what I missed. Did I leave a burner on, on the stove, did I bump it when I tried to walk past. Was

it something, did I miss something? My mind is plagued with questions and consumed with doubt.

Pulling every thought and memory apart piece by piece trying to repuzzle it together to figure

out where I went wrong, what I missed. When suddenly I gave up, forcing myself back which is hard.

Orion has told me different ways to come back but doing them was something else. Trying to pick

up on emotions from them when you have shut them out for so long was like trying to find a needle

in a haystack as I sifted through my own feelings trying to find theirs to pull on.

Finding a flicker of emotion from Ryland I try to reach it, let it consume me and force me out of

myself, astonished when it works before anger floods me when I wake. The room materialising

around me instead of the darkness of my own head. Amara's room comes into view and I look to

the bed.

I put my walls up blocking them out when I found them together, that didn't bother me. We are

all mates after all. What bothered me was that we just lost our child and they were going around

like we lost nothing.

Getting up I walk over to my daughter's cot only she isn't in it. What? They got rid of her so

easily too? I think to myself before quietly walking out and toward the main house, it was dark. The

sky is filled with stars, the night sky is clear out here. I open the door walking in and find Theo on

the lounge my daughter tucked in his arms.

He looks startled to see me as I walk over and I lean over the lounge kissing her sleeping little

head. Straightening up I peck Theo's forehead.

"Where's ma?" I ask him and he points to the roof, telling me she is in bed.

"Amara?"

"Went to Bianca's" he says and I go to walk off when his hand grabs mine that was placed next

to his shoulder.

"You okay?" He asks and I nod, how do you answer that? I don't think I will ever be okay, I'll just

learn to live with it.

"Did you see them?" He asks.

"I saw them, they didn't see me. They were preoccupied” I tell him walking into the kitchen.

Theo walks in a few seconds after me and I look at his empty arms.

"On the lounge safely tucked away, come here" he says. I hesitate before walking over, he

wraps his arms around me hugging me. I hugged him back, I had the best in-laws who always

treated me like their own. I suddenly feel another set of arms wrap around me. Imogen's scent hits

my nose as she hugs me from behind

I let out a shaky breath suddenly flooded with all the emotions I have been ignoring. I step back

and they both let go. Imogen cupping my cheek with her hands softly before walking toward the

kettle and flicking it on.0000000000000000