~CHAPTER 45~

*•*•*•Then I don't love you.•*•*•*

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She said she likes me. She likes me. She said it to me, like right to my face. She woke up answered the phone, handed the phone over to me, told me she likes me and went back to sleep. She fucking likes me. Wait does she really like me or... I need to ask her. Wait I shouldn't wake her up.

"Addie?" I shake her and she protest but I shake her again and she speaks.

"Let me sleep Chase" She groans, but I don't give up, my princess said she likes me and I think I didn't imagine it this time.

"You said something can you repeat it?" I whisper and she opens one eye looking confused.

"What?" she mumbles and I smile a little because she always looks so cute when she has just woken up.

"You said something earlier that has me a bit confused and I was wondering if you could repeat it?"

"No." She states and I furrow my eyebrows.

"Why?" God I sound like a whiny child.

"Because I want to sleep." she pulls the covers over her head even more and I pull them down again smiling.

"I like you too." I whisper in her ear and she turns her head my way our noses almost touching.

"What?" this time she opens both of her eyes making me smile more. I must look like a creep.

"I like you too." I whisper again and she smiles.

"That's awesome, can we talk about it in the morning when I'm awake?" she turns again, going back to her little spoon position she was in just a couple of minutes ago.

"Sure princess." I kiss the back of her head and lay back behind her.

"Thank you." She snuggles closer and I smile hugging her close to me. She likes me.

...

I wake up when I feel somebody pulling me by my ear. Why the fuck is it that every time I go to sleep with Addie in the same bed I always wake up bruised.

"Ow, ow, ow." I open my eyes squinting them a little to see who was pulling me by my ear. I see May and get confused. "May what the fuck?"

"Why the fuck is my best friend at my dorm freaking out mumbling incoherent shit. What did you do?"

"I did nothing." I wince again when she puts more pressure on the pulling of my ear.

"Then why is she freaking out?" May sneers and I shake my head, which is a huge mistake since May was still holding my ear.

"She told me she likes me and I told her I like her." She lets go of my ear and I sigh.

"You did what?" she puts her hands on her hips a look of shock on her face.

"I told her how I feel."

"Why?"

"Because I didn't know it was illegal to share ones feelings now?"

"She's freaking out and I don't know why." She says and I stand up grabbing some shoes and a shirt and grabbing my keys before leaving the dorm.

"Did you ask her?" I ask putting the shirt on while walking down the stairs making me almost fall. Note to self don't put shirt on while going down the stairs.

"Yes, but she wouldn't answer."

We continue to walk to Alastair hall and when we make it to her room she opens her door and I see Addie sitting criss cross apple sauce on May's bed. I walk over to her, and grab her hands pulling them away from her face to see she has tears going down her face.

"Princess?"

"Chase." She says opening her eyes and more tears spring out of them. "You can't be here."

"Why?"

"Because you can't."

"Why sweetie? Why can't he be here?" May asks from behind me.

"I just don't want him here." she says pulling her hands away from me and pushing herself back on May's bed. That hurt.

"Chase." I hear May say and I look up at her. "I think you should go."

"But I-." I love her.

"Leave." I hear my girl's soft voice say and my heart breaks. I stand up and turn to leave. I open the door and before I leave I hear May asking her questions.

"Did he hurt you?"

"No." she says as I close the door. After I close the door I start walking back to Fredrickson, my heart in a million pieces. My princess, my Addie, she hates me. What happened in the time I told her I liked her to now?

...

"Good morning!!" Lucas says sitting down in front of me at the dining hall. I was just playing with my food because I'm not hungry. She doesn't like me, I imagined it all. "Why so glum chum?"

"Nothing I think I just woke up wrong." I stop playing with my food and lean back on my chair. "Hey I think I'm gonna go. I'm not that hungry."

"Are you sure? It doesn't seem like you've eaten a lot." He says and I shake my head as a 'don't worry'. "Okay well see you later."

I stand up and walk towards the exit of the dining hall. I really didn't feel like eating right now. As I was exiting the dining hall I see Addie walking to the dining hall with May next to her. She stops when she sees me and I do so too.

"Chase." She says quietly it's almost inaudible, but I heard it.

"Addie."

"May can you give us a minute?" May squeezes her hand before nodding.

"Sure." May walks into the dining hall and we're left standing here in awkward silence.

"Want to walk?" I ask and she nods.

"Chase I-" she starts but I interrupt her because I need to understand what happened.

"What happened this morning?"

"I don't know." she lies. I noticed that when she's lying to me she looks at the floor and messes with her shirt.

"Add-"

"Look Chase it was all a mistake." She sighs combing a hand through her hair and turning towards me putting us to a stop.

"What was?"

"The kiss, us being friends, me ever meeting you, everything."

"Don't say that. Just tell me what happened we can work it out." I try to hold her but she takes a step back and I hate this feeling.

"We can't Chase. We just can't." she wraps her arms around herself.

"Addie come on, something must've happened in the time you said you liked me to now, because just yesterday you were kissing me like you couldn't live without me, and now you're telling me that you don't even want to know me."

"Chase. I-"

"No Addie I love you and you're just trying to pull away." I say and her eyes start to water her taking her hands out of mine and pushing me away.

"No." she shakes her head and starts walking away, but I follow her.

"No, what? Talk to me."

"No, you don't love me." She yells as she turns around with tears streaming down her face.

"You can't decide what I feel for you Addie." I'm starting to get frustrated, I don't understand what's happening and she won't tell me and I'm worried.

"Then I don't love you." she says and I take a step back.

"What happened Addie? Why are you saying all of this?"

"Because I don't love you." She says and I frown.

"What?" I take a step back my own tears on the brim of falling down.

"I don't love you."

"Addie." I say wiping away a tear that had escaped making more tears fall down her face and I really just want to go back to when we were cuddling and being us.

"Chase, just don't. I- I can't love you."

"Princess." I say, but she starts to walk away and my heart walks away with her.

...

"Yo, Chase... what are you doing?" Lucas enters the room with Cole right behind him.

I was currently packing up some of my stuff. After Addie said the things she said I just wanted to get out so I started thinking of a plan and decided that I was going to visit Oakley for a couple days. I already called her to ask if I could stay with her for a few days and she said that I could, so I'm gonna do that. I also asked the headmaster and he said that it was okay. Oakley asked me what was wrong and I said that I'd tell her when I get there.

"I'm going to go visit my sister for a couple of days."

"Which sister?" Cole asks and I hesitate.

"Oakley."

"You're going to Minnesota?" He asks and I nod.

"Yes."

"Why?" He asks another question and I grab my laptop packing it in my bag.

"Because I just need to leave." I say and Cole leans against the doorframe.

"Is this because of Maddie?" I stop packing for a second, but then continue.

"What?" I act clueless.

"Is this because of Maddie? Did she do something to you?"

"I just need to escape." I zip up the bag and start changing.

"You know she looked kind of down today. She said it was nothing."

"I haven't seen her today so I wouldn't know."

"Chase if something happened you can tell us."

"It's really nothing. I just told her how I felt and she basically said fuck you so... Yeah everything is okay." I wipe a tear that managed to escape like the rest that have fallen today.

"Chase."

"Nah, nah it's all good, I'll see you guys in a couple of days." I grab the bag, my keys, and leave. They follow behind me closing the door to the room and I go down the stairs walking towards the parking lot. I crash into someone, that someone being Maddie.

She looks at my bag and keys and instantly knows that I'm leaving. I side step her and start walking to the parking lot. I feel her hand clasp around my wrist and I sigh pulling my arm away from her. I hear tiny footsteps running behind me and I turn around.

"Don't." I shake my head and she speaks.

"Chase."

"No, you said what you said, I understand now. I love you so please... please let me go." May and Lizzie, who were also here with Lucas and Cole, gasp. Tears spring in Maddie's eyes and I grab her head kissing her forehead and walk away.

"Chase." I hear her say one last time before I get to the parking lot getting in my car and start to drive away seeing Maddie crying through the rear view mirror. I'm crying too, I just left her. I don't understand what happened. She doesn't want me to figure out what happened, so I'll see her again in a few days. For now I need to escape.

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AUTHOR'S NOTE

Hello my lovelies. I want to start off by apologizing for this chapter. I didn't know I was gonna do this until it all started to come together. I won't say that this is short term, but I will say that they will reunite once again in a future. Okay that came out wrong. It won't be too long before they're together again but it won't be short. Anywhore. Do you guys think it was too soon for him to tell her that he loves her? How did you guys like this chapter? You guys can be brutally honest I won't mind. I love you guys' opinions. I really liked it. And it's in his POV so that's a bonus.

You already know the drill so I'm not going to bother you guys with it. JK if you enjoyed this chapter please make sure to comment all those beautiful comments of yours that always make my day, vote only if you want to, and share it's really not necessary.

I love all of you and I will be seeing all of you next Friday hopefully. Next one is his POV also. I think. Byeee.